Uploaded February 2023 | Updated September 2026, 1 day ago

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Listen to "I'm Not Allowed to Die Anymore": symphony.to/aaryan-shah/a-love-letter-to-la

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Written by: Aaryan Shah
Produced by: Aaryan Shah, Christian Korpi, Cody Remillard, Kysiko
Recording Engineer: Josh Kay
Assistant Engineer: Dylan Waterhouse
Mixing Engineer: Brandon Behymer
Mastering Engineer: John Armstrong
Creative Direction by: Aaryan Shah, okayGOOD Studios
Executive Producers: Aaryan Shah & Jeremy "Kysiko" Alain

Directed by: Aaryan Shah, Christian Korpi, & Cody Remillard
Visual Producer: Michael Lappen
Director of Photography: Elias Ginsberg
Edited by: Christian Korpi & Cody Remillard
Colorist: Fedor Karpenko

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Lyrics:
I’ve been asleep since December
I think I’ll freeze in this weather
Is this the end that I chose?

I’m fighting to keep myself sober
When I wish my life would be over
Is there a way I can do both?

Everyone says that they need me
How do I say I’m defeated?
How do I tell them I’m bleeding?
I’m just not happy anymore

I wish that they never met me
I wish that they could forget me
And I wish that somebody’d let me
So it won’t hurt them when I go

The weight of the world on my shoulders
Is heavier now that I’m older
It’s selfish of me to let go

My family’s broken and severed
And I can’t keep us together
I wish that I wasn’t alone

What happens when I stop breathing?
What happens when I’m the reason?