8AM / Mayu, Utatane Piko, & V4flower (Original Song) @PumpkinHead

8AM / Mayu, Utatane Piko, & V4flower (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2020-09-20 | Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/8am

Soundcloud upload: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/mayu-piko-v4flower-8am-vocaloid-original

Pre-save the song: distrokid.com/hyperfollow/pumpkinhead/8am

Lyrics: docs.google.com/document/d/1k6YOfz2mat0LgWnbb4WA09ZNwJcpTvEeHOVzN2jKJfM/edit?usp=sharing

Production by Vane:
twitter.com/rhythmfriend
youtube.com/c/vanelily

Memories of a Better Time / Kasane Teto (Original Song Remaster)

Pumpkin Head 2025-01-16 | This has been sitting in my wips - 100% completed save for the PV - for about a year now. I kept putting off posting it because I thought I hadn't finished the song, but I had! So this could have come out a lot sooner lol.

I wrote this during a severe depressive episode that almost landed me in an inpatient facility, so it's a little weird to work on this again when my mental health is in a significantly better place. It was a lot of fun though!

SoundCloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad2/memories-of-a-better-time
Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/memories-of-a-better-time-2025-version
Spotify: Soon
Apple Music: Soon

ISYMPOSIUM / Kasane Teto (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2024-05-18 | Hello schizo nation

This song is a fun one to me because when I first started writing it, my intention was to write a song that sounded how my brain felt. And then halfway through I learned that what my brain was feeling was psychosis. Which changed my relationship to this song but that's okay.

Special thank you to my dear friend Richter who fed me a lot of PV ideas that ended up in this video! This video would not be nearly as cool without his help.
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SoundCloud: on.soundcloud.com/Jqa9n3M2m3Yph7138
Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/isymposium
Spotify: open.spotify.com/album/0CA0hSGWgboigpRyUnYaqZ?si=QIc1kJ3OT--fiDmYYx9szw
Apple Music: Soon
Tumblr: tumblr.com/phosphophyi

Cedars Descent / SAROS & Solaria (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2024-01-06 | Cedar's going through it and he's being a bit of an edgelord about it, we've all been there.

I had a lot of fun with this song and I'm happy with how it turned out! I think I've drawn Cedar more in the past two months than I have in the entire 3.5+ years he's existed as an OC LOL. I'm not the best at conveying plots through music, so if you have any questions feel free to send me an ask on Tumblr :]

My new year's resolution is to work on music more often so hopefully I will post more songs than normal this year! If I don't ... There's always 2025, LOL.

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SoundCloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad2/cedars-descent-saros-solaria-original-song
Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/cedars-descent
Spotify: open.spotify.com/album/5LZIt8UNb5ZGWeHvzRWXdA?si=I8zMdbozS4e85cXB6qyfkg
Apple Music: music.apple.com/us/album/cedars-descent-single/1724630701

Discord Server: discord.gg/Mka5zExGDr
Tumblr: tumblr.com/blog/phosphophyi

Requiem for Gemini / Solaria & Kasane Teto AI (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2023-08-02 | I started and finished this song in three days!! What the fuck!! I even gave it a cool PV. I'm getting a good grade in Vocaloid producing, something which is both normal to want and possible to achieve.

I'm really happy with how this came out so I hope you like it too :) It was so much fun to work on

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Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad2/requiem-for-gemini-solaria-kasane-teto-ai-original-song
Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/requiem-for-gemini
Spotify: https://spotify.link/VpnakgQVeCb
Apple Music: music.apple.com/us/album/requiem-for-gemini-single/1700641706

Eyes Without a Face

Pumpkin Head 2023-07-17 | 👁👁

[Read the description] A quite frankly ridiculous amount of unfinished songs

Pumpkin Head 2023-05-03 | (There's timestamps at the bottom of the description, because I am not a sadist. I also couldn't be assed to sit through all 50 minutes to check for possible editing issues so if there's an issue you can blame my laziness.)

I wanted to show some scrapped/unposted songs for fun, and then... before I knew it, the video was 50 minutes long. This is only songs I wrote in Studio One, too—I also have scrapped songs in LMMS (2016-17) and Mixcraft (2021-22).

I would love to hear if you guys have thoughts on any of these songs because making this video has made me want to fix up a lot of these but I'm indecisive :') So if there's one you like I'd love to know!

Most of these clips don't have vocals, because usually if I get to the stage where I'm mixing vocals, that means the song is getting posted. Still, I made a Google doc with the lyrics for every song that had some! You can view it here: docs.google.com/document/d/10gNJJ45vw4WvybutgJKwipQOaq8xGUeEZ7Mcz9zJ5r0/edit?usp=sharing

This video might be unlisted after a week or so, but if that's the case, I will put it in my "Vocaloid Originals" playlist so that you can still easily access it! I just get picky with how my page looks, so I like to only have songs visible in the video section...

(Also, I'm a little mean to myself in this video, but it's all silly, I respect these songs especially considering how young I was when I wrote them :P It's rare that I genuinely dislike songs of mine nowadays, even the older ones...)

One last random note but I think it's really funny that I called myself "18 year old me" in Unfrequented Identity because I was literally 16 when I wrote that. King of doing basic math!

LAST THING I PROMISE this video is long so it might have midroll ads—it should only play ads between songs but I'm not?? Entirely sure how it works so if you get an ad in the middle of a song please let me know and I'll try to fix it. Also if you're getting like 3 billion ads please let me know because I am not a fucking capitalist I'm not trying to do fucking commercial breaks for these dumb wips. The ads should all be skippable too because I always manually disable unskippable ads because I do not hate you guys

1. A Merderer (0:07)
2. Don't Dance with the Devil (1:10)
3. Dead-end Signal (5:13)
4. Please Stand By (6:21)
5. Tell Me if it Hurts (9:53)
6. Unfrequented Identity (12:51)
7. Wilted Angel (17:42)
8. Circus Song (22:00)
9. Boss Fight (25:53)
10. Hollow Stars (26:53)
11. Plagued (28:24)
12. Ash (28:56)
13. Overgrown (30:57)
14. Pattern (32:57)
15. Three Blind Mice (34:57)
16. Ya Like Jazz? (36:08)
17. Ya (36:29)
18. Bugs on my Spine (37:28)
19. Empty Halls (39:46)
20. JADKLFJDKFA (40:59)
21. Dead to Deity (42:19)
22. Yohiodown (43:40)
23. Siren (48:39)

Kasane Teto AI / See to See to See (Through Disease We Can Reach God) [Original Song]

Pumpkin Head 2023-04-28 | I have things I gotta do today but I did speedrun this because I love Teto AI with my whole life and I would do anything for her

I also uploaded the instrumental and a MIDI of the vocal melody for funsies: drive.google.com/file/d/1h4ig0sPGt59bn3Z4qAD1wsvJJ1Gsia6o/view?usp=sharing

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Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/kasane-teto-ai-see-to-see-to-see-through-disease-we-can-reach-god-original-song
Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/see-to-see-to-see-through-disease-we-can-reach-god
Spotify: open.spotify.com/album/1Q9TtsqQ0elgoqzrHDuL2N
Apple Music: music.apple.com/us/album/through-disease-we-can-reach-god-single/1685092576
Tumblr: tumblr.com/blog/phosphophyi

See to See to See (Through Disease We Can Reach God) / Kasane Teto [Original Song]

Pumpkin Head 2023-04-26 | I can be an absolute edgelord, as a treat. :)

This song turned out pretty weird but I guess it's fitting because I felt pretty weird when I was writing it! This was my first time ever using UTAU so I hope the tuning is bearable. And yes I will 100% be making a Synth V version of this song once Teto AI releases (which is in, like, a couple hours. But I have to do my midterm first...)

I have nothing else to say because my meds kicked in so I'm barely hanging onto consciousness goodnight
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Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/see-to-see-to-see-through-disease-we-can-reach-god-kasane-teto-original-song
Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/track/see-to-see-to-see-through-disease-we-can-reach-god
Spotify: open.spotify.com/album/1Q9TtsqQ0elgoqzrHDuL2N
Apple Music: music.apple.com/us/album/through-disease-we-can-reach-god-single/1685092576
Tumblr: tumblr.com/blog/phosphophyi

Star-Speckled Wonderland / Solaria (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2023-02-25 | I've been contemplating lately about making Solaria versions for a lot of my older songs, and then my friend happened to ask me about making a Solaria version of this song, and by God that was all the enabling I needed. This isn't a remaster (the only change I made was adding a pause before the final chorus!), but I still wanted to post this to YouTube so that I could let you all know that maybe I will make Solaria versions of more songs. They won't all get posted here—most likely I will compile them into an album and put them on streaming services and SoundCloud.

These versions will not be replacing the original versions! Everything will stay public and untouched, but I just think it's really cool to have versions of my songs that are easier to understand and more enjoyable to people who aren't as interested in Vocaloid.

I was considering remastering all my old songs for the Solaria versions, but I decided against that because I know a lot of people like these songs as they are and don't really want changes made. And it definitely does me good to let myself appreciate the things I make even if they're older and not on the level I think I'm at today. I don't need to make perfect things! So I'll probably only remaster songs if I have a specific reason for wanting to besides "I could make it a little bit better." Anyways I hope you enjoyed this blog post disguised as an upload, and I'll post in my community tab if I do end up posting more Solaria versions of my older songs online. :)
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Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/star-speckled-wonderland-solaria-original-song
Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/track/star-speckled-wonderland-solaria
Spotify: Soon
Apple Music: Soon

Atmos / Rana (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2023-01-30 | This song is actually a bit old—I wrote it back in 2021 for Ranagain! Unfortunately, my life completely and utterly fell apart right when that collab was finishing up, so I never ended up posting the song to Youtube. Fortunately, my life is no longer in shambles, so I touched up the song and now I'm finally posting it here! I avoided making any significant changes to this, because I wanted it to be pretty close to the version that was released on the Ranagain album.

I do wish I'd been able to hype up the collab more when it was happening, because it was really cool! :') But a belated thank you to Celestrai and everyone who made that collab happen because it was such a cool and fun experience!! I hope you all like this silly little song despite how long it took me to share it publicly :')

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Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/atmos-rana-original-song
Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/atmos
Spotify: open.spotify.com/album/5YDgSx0U2p2uK7T0PtBX6T?si=Rlxhm2TRQMWI5AUc2tBJjg
Apple Music: music.apple.com/us/album/atmos-single/1668787556

Get Out of My Head / Utatane Piko (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2022-12-14 | Hello friends I wrote this song in the span of two days so if the quality is a bit lacking that is why. I also decided to try out painting something for the PV art and I have literally never painted before so again if the quality is lacking that is why

Hope you like the song I am going to go eat mozzarella sticks now

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Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/track/get-out-of-my-head
SoundCloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/get-out-of-my-head-utatane-piko-original-song
Spotify: open.spotify.com/album/3g3vM5iAtZcJziZKepg21d?si=gr4U5QObRUi1IcH_AtawYg
Apple Music: music.apple.com/us/album/get-out-of-my-head-single/1659836763
Discord Server: discord.gg/hfejKaE4SR

Reflection? / Solaria (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2022-10-01 | A song about a dream I had

I promise I haven't abandoned Vocaloid LOL I'm just on a Solaria kick. This was a WIP for over a year and a half so I'm glad I finally finished it

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Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/track/reflection
Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/rattling-solaria-original-song
Spotify: open.spotify.com/track/7Bk9iB1ZCRv3jEoGj1fI98?si=812d81f0e9f445fe
Apple Music: music.apple.com/us/album/reflection/1647949187?i=1647949189

The Rotten Ferns Just Deserts / Solaria (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2022-06-15 | Hi here's the sequel to The Gravedigger's Fern sorry for taking two years to write it LOL

I've been working on this song since November 2020, but for a long time I was having a really hard time with it in every way imaginable. I just spent the last 8 hours doing literally nothing except mixing this song and making the PV and now it is finished! I am. So glad it's done. Holy shit.

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Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/the-rotten-ferns-just-deserts
Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/the-rotten-ferns-just-deserts-solaria-original-song
Spotify: open.spotify.com/track/75ICwkl1mfYEpp2cGcYNRk?si=85342c08145a4f9a
Apple Music: music.apple.com/us/album/the-rotten-ferns-just-deserts/1630194346?i=1630194347

Malachite Memories / Avanna (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2021-09-22 | A song I wrote for the Harvest Avanna 2020 deluxe edition! Get it here: harvestavanna.bandcamp.com

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Art - CRUORMOR
Twitter: twitter.com/cruormor

Production - Vane
Twitter: twitter.com/rhythmfriend
YouTube: youtube.com/c/vanelily

Please support them both!

The Divinely Authorized Order of the Universe / Sonika & Gumi (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2021-05-10 | Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/sonika-and-gumithe-divinely-authorized-order-of-the-universe-vocaloid-original
Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/track/the-divinely-authorized-order-of-the-universe-2021-ver
Spotify: TBA
Apple Music/iTunes: TBA

The Something / Utatane Piko & V4flower (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2021-02-27 | Spotify: open.spotify.com/album/4vWJa7upj0EcfqzyFdih5t?si=vtyTDFzxSLOHlqt6yksPUQ

Apple Music/iTunes: music.apple.com/us/album/the-something-single/1555959262?uo=4&app=music&at=1001lry3&ct=dashboard

Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/the-something

Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/utatane-piko-and-v4flower-the-something-vocaloid-original

Under the Final Stars Light (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2021-01-25 | Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/under-the-final-stars-light-original-song/s-ajHKNs5CkDG

Art by PRiNZ:
youtube.com/user/silverfan2k
twitter.com/tvibrancy

New Person Today (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2021-01-09 | This is very simple maybe boring but who cares sometimes I just want to write a simple piano song and edit a drum loop to be a weird time signature

The Pumpkin Queens Spooky March / Avanna (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2020-12-22 | Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/avanna-the-pumpkin-queens-spooky-march-original-song

Art by PRiNZ:
Youtube: youtube.com/c/PRiNZvibri
Twitter: twitter.com/tvibrancy

Starving / Utatane Piko (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2020-11-12 | General content warning

Just a lil something. I'm doing alright.

Memories of a Better Time / Maika (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2020-11-08 | Spotify: open.spotify.com/album/7uFXSEZIaULmjCa8ky7Bnk

Apple Music/iTunes: music.apple.com/us/album/memories-of-a-better-time-single/1539308987?uo=4&app=music&at=1001lry3&ct=dashboard

Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/maika-memories-of-a-better-time-original-song

Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/track/memories-of-a-better-time

In Solidarity / Sonika (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2020-11-07 | Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/sonika-in-solidarity-original-song-remaster

Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/track/in-solidarity-remaster

In Reality / Sonika & Big Al (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2020-10-22 | Lyrics: docs.google.com/document/d/1DWziZUu2KSJS0ApWXZcuAvz2X0ARa4b4xM-5y5zeL6k/edit?usp=sharing

Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/track/in-reality

Soundcloud upload: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/sonika-big-al-in-reality-vocaloid-original-song

As Above, So Below / Mayu (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2020-10-01 | VSQx: dropbox.com/s/vtkba86caxrtigr/As%20Above%2C%20So%20Below.vsqx?dl=0
Instrumental: dropbox.com/s/8orky0rz0gw04yg/As%20Above%2C%20So%20Below%20Instrumental.wav?dl=0

Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/mayu-as-above-so-below-vocaloid-original/s-jHXG8AWVljH
Buy the song: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/track/as-above-so-below

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Lyrics:

For a thousand years, here I've laid
Making company with the moon
Tracing pictures on the Milky Way
Finding meaning in empty tunes

Every star twinkles in its own way
A fleeting moment gone too soon
And the constellations stay the same
Glowing for eons with nothing to prove

The stars are beautiful, right?
I wonder how that came to be
I'll only behold that sight
It's all that I can bear to see

Over time, I've come to know
As above, so below
And the stars above all know
What you've done and where you'll go

When the night begins to fade
Light will cast on your charades
So best watch each word you say
Lest they see the light of day

For a thousand years, here I've stayed
Building an archive of all I know
In time, memories will warp and fade
But in paper, they have a home

I've watched stars appear and fade away
Lost to the darkness yet unknown
And the constellations slowly change
A bitter memory from long ago

You think the stars are pretty?
You know, they're nothing but lies.
It hurts, but all I can see
Is their impending demise.

History cries its ghastly poem
"As above, so below"
The night sky is all I know
But it's all too soon to go

In time, memories will fade
Burnt records can't be saved
But, in ashes, there I lay
Praying for a new escape

The stars tell me what they know
"As above, so below"
I know I've reaped what I sowed
I cannot let this go

So my archives fade away
And the stars laugh in my face
How I wish that I could stay
But the truth is clear as day

The Other Side (Full EP)

Pumpkin Head 2020-09-17 | Track names:
1. I Knew You in a Past Life (0:00)
2. Fragments of a Fake World (2:00)
3. I Want to be Real (Dimension Number Four) (3:59)
4. Discerning Truth from Reality (6:35)
5. It Will Be Okay Soon (8:37)
6. I'll See You in the New World (Goodbye to a False Reality) (10:55)

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Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/the-other-side

Spotify: open.spotify.com/album/6w1NkZruPiufBHyKv7PaFL?si=L-5DPKbHQvyQWOuOCA6PnQ

iTunes: music.apple.com/us/album/the-other-side-ep/1532169513?uo=4&app=itunes&at=1001lry3&ct=twitter

Apple Music: music.apple.com/us/album/the-other-side-ep/1532169513?uo=4&app=apple+music

I Want to be Real (Dimension Number Four) / Original Song

Pumpkin Head 2020-09-15 | Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/i-want-to-be-real-dimension-number-four

I Knew You in A Past Life (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2020-09-12 | Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/i-knew-you-in-a-past-life-original-song

tuning for a new song

Pumpkin Head 2020-09-03 | womp sorry for technical difficulties yt is stupid

late night tuning stream

Pumpkin Head 2020-09-03 | the new youtube studio is confusing so apologies if there's any technical difficulties lmao

The Gravediggers Fern / Oliver (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2020-05-24 | PV by Vane (I0LITE):
Twitter- twitter.com/rhythmfriend
Youtube- youtube.com/c/rhythmfriend

Parasite / Gumi (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2019-12-23 | ▶Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/parasite-remaster
▶Soundcloud Upload: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/gumi-enlgish-parasite-original-song/s-jX0Sh

Production by Vane:
▶Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/c/rhythmfriend
▶Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/rhythmfriend
▶Twitter: twitter.com/rhythmfriend
▶Patreon: patreon.com/rhythmcadence

Seasonal Confessions / Maika (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2019-11-02 | ▶Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/maikaseasonal-confessions-vocaloid-original/s-EIRif
▶Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/seasonal-confessions

Vane:
▶Youtube: youtube.com/channel/UCNm885IMpFM5k-7ICGdMs7w
▶Twitter: twitter.com/rhythmfriend

Star-Speckled Wonderland / Daina (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2019-02-19 | ▶Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/star-speckled-wonderland

▶Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/dainastar-speckled-wonderland-vocaloid-original-song

▶VSQx: dropbox.com/s/hu598o9w2xbvv6q/tmmd%20but%20he%20got%20some%20star%20speckled%20eyes.vsqx?dl=0

Lyrics:
Death should cause no pain
All lost spirits turn to stars one day
Except for me
I'm so lost, but I'm not shining

My world is gray
The Mother took the color away
To ease the pain
Of two souls who passed and went away

I'll say, "It's okay.
You can leave me if it stops your pain."
I'll take the blame
For a death I wasn't born for

I miss them too
And I wish they weren't taken so soon
Just me and you
You who forgot of me far too soon

But, one night
I saw them wave from the night sky
And say that I'd be with them soon

Star-speckled eyes told me I would soon say my goodbyes
To the Mother who never saw me
Constellations painted hands waiting for my embrace
And I'd be with them when the world ended

Death should cause no fright
Upon death you're reborn in the sky
And, if I'm right
Let my death come take me tonight

I'm not afraid
I'm eagerly waiting for my fate
The mother may
Be the one who tears this world away

Our lives come and go
The Mother's the one who told me so
But, I have a plan
To live life with my Meteor Man

With every day
This world continues to fade away
The only life
That remains is my house and the sky

But, I know, even if my death is slow
I'll have my Meteor Man waiting

But, I don't know if these fateful dreams are untrue
Oh, if they're lies I don't know what I'd do

Meteor Man, I'm still waiting for you to save me
The mother's killing me so slowly
The sky is blue, a gorgeous cage stealing me from you
You need to free me, you need to save me

I don't want to live on if things will stay like this
'Cause everything I know is a lie, all that I know are her lies
All I know will die if the mother succeeds
But, oh, that was the plan all along, that was the plan all along

Meteor Man, I can't see what's there in front of me
The future's coming, are you ready?

Whisper goodbyes as the world crumbles before my eyes
And get ready to start a new life
Goodbye Mother, the creature who stole my soul from me
I never loved you, never loved you

I'll never love a monster like you
I'm glad you're trapped under the ashes

firgidi

Pumpkin Head 2018-12-02 | Was shocked and horrified to learn that it's been four whole year since I changed the title back to normal so woe, firgidi be upon ye

▶Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/frigid
▶Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/gumi-englishfrigidoriginal-song

▶VSQx: dropbox.com/s/7evyyvhdhim4bb2/frigid.vsqx?dl=0

Lyrics:
I've got a lot to say
But not the words to say it
You are my happiness
But I'm too scared to admit

It's getting cold today
But you've become my blanket
I'm safe but neverthless
I'm too scared to admit that

I want to live again
Breathe chilly air again

Keep me warm and read to me
A story lost in history
Your soft words are remedies
That keep me safe from the stale breeze

Oh, don't let go, 'cause
I am far too cold alone
Oh, don't go home, 'cause
You would perish in the snow

I've got a lot to say
But no courage to say it
You stole my happiness
But I'm too scared to admit

I thought back to the day
Where roads weren't blocked by this snow
I'm far too scared to say
That I'm the one who's snowed in

My lungs are full again
Breathless in death again
I feel hopeless again
The end is near again

Open your soul, read to me
The lies you never would set free
Your cold words have lost meaning
Yet something keeps you here with me

I want to go but
I am far too cold alone
Oh, please let go, 'cause
I would rather die alone

I've got no more to say
'Cause you won't let me speak now
I'm restless 'cause I'm in the calm before the final storm

White light streaks across the sky
As life lets out its final cry
Crimson streaks give off their light
A red that reveals all your lies

It's time to go, 'cause
Everything's reduced to null
We cannot slow, 'cause
Death will surely take its toll

I want to die again
Forget this hell again

the ghost in my room is telling me im not real again (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2018-09-22 | ▶Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/track/the-ghost-in-my-room-is-telling-me-i-dont-exist-again
▶Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/the-ghost-in-my-room-is-telling-me-im-not-real-again/s-6pCnm

Moon Flower / Maika (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2018-08-05 | ▶Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/moon-flower
▶Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/maikamoon-flower-original-song/s-z0bfc
▶VSQx: dropbox.com/s/y0b49whargco0f6/moon%20flower.vsqx?dl=0

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Lyrics:

Flowers all unwind
Trying to come alive
Abhorrent reveries
Stretching wretched memories

Today it's all the same
Lose again at my own game
A world without me
May be just the same or less lonely

Say that maybe things will change
Or say I'm bound to rot again
Nothing ever mattered
But I'll pick it up and try again

Say that I'm a disaster
Or say I'm worth a grain of sand
This world is an illusion
So I'll watch you melt away again

On and on and on and on
On and on and on and on
Move on and on and on and on
On and on and on and on

Move on and on and on and on
On and on and on and on
Move on and on and on and on
On and on and on and on

My lifeline rewinds
Nothing will suffice
The moment I leave
Will be such a lovely memory

And nothing will change
Fall and forget my own name
A world where I am free
Will never exist, the world agrees

Say that maybe things will change
Or say I'm bound to rot again
Nothing ever mattered
But I'll pick it up and try again

Say that I'm a disaster
Or say I'm worth a grain of sand
This world is an illusion
So I'll watch you melt away again

Say reality is strange
Or say I'm spacing out again
Oh I never mattered
So I'll lay down and won't try again

Say the world's a disaster
Or say the world is in my hand
'Cause I am an illusion
So I'll let you melt away again

I know nothing matters now
And nothing matters in the end
I don't see the point in moving
Now or ever again

Oh the world's a disaster
And oh it's worthless in the end
Nothing's ever mattered
And I regret trying again

Telegrams from the Meteor Man (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2018-07-12 | ▶ Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/track/telegrams-from-the-meteor-man
▶ Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/telegrams-from-the-meteor-man/s-bA5S5

Live and Let Die (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2018-06-03 | Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/track/live-and-let-die

Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/live-and-let-die/s-5m3tl

In Solidarity / Sonika (2018 ver.)

Pumpkin Head 2018-04-29 | Bandcamp: pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/in-solidarity

VSQx: dropbox.com/s/ceaxelh36osvizm/yellow.vsqx?dl=0

Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/sonika-in-solidarity-original-song-1/s-SeeRZ

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Lyrics:

A pretty yellow light
That keeps me safe at night
Kaleidoscope of dreams
Keeps me safe and warps memories

Could it be? Could it be?
Could it be? Could it be?
Could it be? Could it be?
Could it be? Could it be?

Well, maybe. Well, maybe.
Well, maybe. Well, maybe.
Well, maybe. Well, maybe.
Well, maybe. Well, maybe.

Well, let's see. Well, let's see.
Well, let's see. Well, let's see.
Well, let's see. Well, let's see.
Well, let's see. Well, let's see.

A broken yellow sea
That keeps on receding
Unfamiliar to me
Ships collide and drown inside me

Fall away with me
And sink into the sea
A world of spirits sing
Their haunting, retched melodies

Crumble with me
And be kissed by the sea
Rot away in waters
Salty yet sweet

Yes, feel the grace
Of my glorious dream
Watch as it bends reality
Just for me

Reach out your hand
Grasp that bright yellow light
Keep that light safe
Through the darkness of night

Yes I am gone
But I always was gone
Hey, don't feel pain
For someone who never lived

5AM / Avanna (Original Song)

Pumpkin Head 2018-03-31 | Bandcamp:
pumpkinheaad.bandcamp.com/album/5am
Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/pumpkinheaad/5am/s-TkanR

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Lyrics:

Crows remind me of 5AM
When the sky's dull blue
And the birds cry red
I don't know if I want this to end...

Crows remind my of 5AM
When your dull blue hue
Stains my world again
I don't want the morning to move again, again

When the morning came, I looked away
Too scared to face what you'd become
But in a way, you'd never changed
And all my worrying meant none

And so today, I'll walk away
And hide from the sun in my bed
And hope or pray that come one day I'll find my
5AM

Crows remind me of 5AM
When the world's subdued
And the heartless dead
I don't think that you really understand...

When tomorrow came, I couldn't stay
Or hide from your words in my bed
I choose to lay in nests of gray
Hidden ten feet above your head

And so today those clouds of gray
Have stolen every trace of dawn
But that's okay, 'cause there's remains of my own
5AM

You remind me of 5AM
With your hollow eyes
And your claws stained red
I don't know if I want to see you...

You remind me of 5AM
With your countless lies
And your bleached-white skin
I don't know if you were ever here...

Parasite / Gumi (2017 ver.)

Pumpkin Head 2017-12-24 | Thank you guys for all the love on this song - while I still feel embarrassed by this song, seeing all the support has made me feel much more positively about this song, and that means a lot to me. ^_^