my head is empty
i was only temporary 2 u
updated
hello!! i made this song!
here is the story of "nothing is real" for anyone who wishes to read about it.
↪ docs.google.com/document/d/1VIycf-tZtA8PG2Kk8mrb61nb3Jy9_bWSRVgIwJzePOQ/edit?usp=sharing
all my links
↪ https://linktr.ee/tidecruz
⚠⚠⚠(9 hour playlist) (nothing is real) my BEST songs only
↪ open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3?si=a16f276605304b70
20 hour playlist of my songs like "i was only temporary"
↪ open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy?si=09b47db3fca640c6
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this video is not monetized. every video on my channel is not monetized aside from 1. all the music in all of my videos on this channel are by myself, sometimes when my health is bad and i can't go out and film my own videos, i will try to highlight media i like, but transformed into something else, a new artistic spin on them. for this video in particular, its footage i recorded myself in combination with the films stay and a place beyond the pines!!! . for my original film making for the entire videos, please see my other videos! thank you!!
0:00 1. no one wants to be themselves
1:59 2. loss of self
3:47 3. it's just easier to be alone
5:45 4. i wish i had more time
7:57 5. i (dont) deserve forgiveness
10:16 6. who will save us?
12:55 7. from one, many
14:06 8. prednisone song (from - nothing is real, part XVI) (2022)
15:52 9. tell me i;m the only one (from - nothing is real, part VI) (2019)
21:23 10. i do what the voices in my head tell me to (from - nothing is real, part XVII) (2022)
25:27 11. it can't be helped (from - nothing is real, part V) (2019)
31:10 12. i meet myself again (from - nothing is real, part XI) (2021)
34:15 13. play this when i can't sleep (from - nothing is real, part XXI) (2024)
38:16 14. it's always the same (from - nothing is real, part X) (2021)
42:18 15. until the end (from - nothing is real, part X) (2021)
45:55 16. and there's nothing worth saying (from - nothing is real, part VIII) (2020)
51:15 17. this feeling i feel (from - nothing is real, part V) (2019)
57:39 18. be that as it may (from - nothing is real, part XII) (2022)
01:01:51 19. you'll have it all (from - nothing is real, part IX) (2020)
this time, it's something a little different! of course, there is lots of new ambient songs like "i was only temporary" in the mix, but as the next hour carries on, more and more detailed songs will play. i want to be able to share with you all the music i love to make the most. ambient has its place no doubt, but recently i saw a comment about my song "i (dont) deserve forgiveness". the person said it was refreshing to hear guitar and vocals instead of just ambient. i'm not sure if they have heard my songs with lots of real instruments, and performance stuff, so i would love this next hour to be an opportunity to share the music i love making the most, some of my lesser known and definitely i guess you could consider "failed" "nothing is real" tracks. even though most of these song never got streams anywhere, they still mean more to me then even my biggest song "i was only temporary", and are what i hope to be known for in the end. i hope its clear i am very thankful for anyone who listens at all, it means the world, but at the same time i sure would love to be able to share my much more detailed music that takes wayyyy more effort than those simple ambient songs. anyways, thank you so much for listening and being here. you all give me more strength than you may know 💌
sorry for the roman numerals. places like spotify, and soundcloud make it sort of hard to organize them, but if you want to sift thru these albums and find new songs yet to be showcased here on the YouTube channel, bandcamp has probably the best website in terms of layout and how they are organized. you can listen to them there for free, and even download them too!
here is the story of "nothing is real" for anyone who wishes to read about it.
↪ docs.google.com/document/d/1VIycf-tZtA8PG2Kk8mrb61nb3Jy9_bWSRVgIwJzePOQ/edit?usp=sharing
all my links
↪ https://linktr.ee/tidecruz
⚠⚠⚠(9 hour playlist) (nothing is real) my BEST songs only
↪ open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3?si=a16f276605304b70
20 hour playlist of my songs like "i was only temporary"
↪ open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy?si=09b47db3fca640c6
song: a way out - my head is empty
song is "its just easier to be alone - my head is empty"
0:00 1. i was waiting for - my head is empty & miranda rain - nothing is real, part XVIII
1:57 2. and just when i thought, - my head is empty & miranda rain - nothing is real, part XVIII
6:11 3. forget about me (bandcamp exlusive) - my head is empty - nothing is real, part XVII
9:15 4. no one would know how it feels, - my head is empty & miranda rain - nothing is real, part XVIII
12:23 5. mystery - my head is empty - nothing is real, part XVI
14:18 6. and still, - my head is empty - nothing is real, part XII
17:39 7. when you hurt me like this. - my head is empty - nothing is real, part XX
23:23 8. you were so key to me - my head is empty - nothing is real, part XI
29:52 9. i livinginthepast - my head is empty - nothing is real, part X
31:42 10. tunnelvision - my head is empty - nothing is real, part XVII
34:21 11. in limbo, we - my head is empty & miranda rain - nothing is real, part XVIII
35:36 12. you're making it too hard - my head is empty - nothing is real, part XV
37:57 13. return to form - my head is empty - nothing is real, part XII
41:33 14. i've no answer why - my head is empty - nothing is real, part XIX
48:39 15. exit plan - my head is empty - nothing is real, part XX
51:55 16. i'm not crying - my head is empty - nothing is real, part XIX
55:16 17. my body is dying - my head is empty - nothing is real, part XVI
59:58 18. and i wish someone knew, - my head is empty - nothing is real, part XVI
sorry for the roman numerals. places like spotify, and soundcloud make it sort of hard to organize them, but if you want to sift thru these albums and find new songs yet to be showcased here on the YouTube channel, bandcamp has probably the best website in terms of layout and how they are organized. you can listen to them there for free, and even download them too!
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thanks for all the support of my song " i was only temporary "
if you liked these songs, i have 21 albums of them, and i write more every year since 2018. the 9 hour playlist is below with all 21 albums, every song...
here is the story of "nothing is real" for anyone who wishes to read about it.
↪ docs.google.com/document/d/1VIycf-tZtA8PG2Kk8mrb61nb3Jy9_bWSRVgIwJzePOQ/edit?usp=sharing
all my links
↪ https://linktr.ee/tidecruz
⚠⚠⚠(9 hour playlist) (nothing is real) my BEST songs only
↪ open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3?si=a16f276605304b70
11 hour playlist of my songs like "i was only temporary"
↪ open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy?si=09b47db3fca640c6
not that it matters, but every sound in all my music is made by myself! all instruments, vocals etc; performed, mixed/mastered and recorded live at home. perhaps one day in my old age, i will make videos playing my instruments, but i've always found it a bit pointless and show-off'y.
music is something we hear, i never really cared to watch it happen. i like to enjoy music with my eyes closed in bed, drifting away thinking about my life, my future. i don't say this to put anyone down who takes lessons music, but i just wanted to say the following it to hopefully inspire.
i have zero music training, i don't know theory, or anything like that. there may be someone reading this laughing saying "who does this guy think he is? no wonder this music is bad!) i just wanted to mention it in case there are people who want to make music, but were told they need lessons or training. you really don't. i have had none. i still try. and well. there seem to be a growing amount here that also like this music, so i will leave it at that. i just hope nothing anyone tells you will stop you from making music. it's helped me so much in my darkest times. anyways, i just really love to make music and it's the only thing that makes me feel like i have a purpose. thanks for listening. more on the way, always.
🔗all my links
↪ https://linktr.ee/tidecruz
🎥VFX clips by Nick Kempton
↪ instagram.com/nickjaykdesign
↪nickjaykdesign.com
▶11 hour playlist of these songs
↪ open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy?si=09b47db3fca640c6
▶my BEST songs only (nothing is real)
↪ open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3?si=a16f276605304b70
📘here is the story of "nothing is real" for anyone who wishes to read about it.
↪ docs.google.com/document/d/1VIycf-tZtA8PG2Kk8mrb61nb3Jy9_bWSRVgIwJzePOQ
song: a way out - my head is empty & miranda rain
i’ve never seen a video like this before!!, so i hope you guys like it :-)
- all of the music on every video on my channel is by myself, but for this video i explored the world of cyberpunk 2077 and recorded these video clips to pair with my song. i hope you will enjoy it.
0:00 1. i was only temporary 2 u
1:35 2. butterfly effect
2:35 3. miserable paradise (slowed)
4:19 4. let me go w/ Miranda rain
6:06 5. homesick
7:20 6. u forgot im a person too
9:09 7. she became my atlas
10:14 8. keep me close w/ Miranda Rain
12:00 9. the funeral
14:24 10. hell is other people
15:43 11. lost
17:25 12. again,
19:22 13. i wish i was special
21:03 14. tomorrow never comes
23:24 15. from one, many
24:35 16. in the end w/ Miranda Rain
26:00 17. into the fray
27:31 18. waste away
29:06 19. i don't feel anything anymore super slowed
31:31 20. there's nobody like me
33:00 21. my idle plot to disappear completely
35:30 22. i don't know w/ Miranda Rain
37:25 23. how it ends
39:19 24. the first time we kissed
41:43 25. save yourself (from 2018)
46:00 26. 7AM
48:00 27. this will destroy me
49:20 28. picture of you
51:42 29. camcorder (ambient vol.2) (from 2019)
53:33 30. mourning (nothing is real, part XII) (from 2021)
56:40 31. what am i to do? (nothing is real, part VI) (from 2019)
the animation is not a game (yet), it is custom made to look like me. you can see myself / the mask in other IRL videos here on this channel.
_thanks for all the support of my song " i was only temporary "
____here is my lore/the story of "nothing is real" for anyone who wishes to read about it.
↪ docs.google.com/document/d/1VIycf-tZtA8PG2Kk8mrb61nb3Jy9_bWSRVgIwJzePOQ/edit?usp=sharing
___all my links
↪ https://linktr.ee/tidecruz
___⚠⚠⚠(9 hour playlist) (nothing is real) my BEST songs only
↪ open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3?si=a16f276605304b70
____11 hour playlist of my songs like "i was only temporary"
↪ open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy?si=09b47db3fca640c6
not that it matters, but every sound in all my music is made by myself! all instruments, vocals etc; performed, mixed/mastered and recorded live at home. perhaps one day in my old age, i will make videos playing my instruments, but i've always found it a bit pointless and show-off'y.
music is something we hear, i never really cared to watch it happen. i like to enjoy music with my eyes closed in bed, drifting away thinking about my life, my future. i don't say this to put anyone down who takes lessons music, but i just wanted to say the following it to hopefully inspire.
i have zero music training, i don't know theory, or anything like that. there may be someone reading this laughing saying "who does this guy think he is? no wonder this music is bad!) i just wanted to mention it in case there are people who want to make music, but were told they need lessons or training. you really don't. i have had none. i still try. and well. there seem to be a growing amount here that also like this music, so i will leave it at that. i just hope nothing anyone tells you will stop you from making music. it's helped me so much in my darkest times. anyways, i just really love to make music and it's the only thing that makes me feel like i have a purpose. thanks for listening. more on the way, always.
spotify ambient playlist _ open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy
soundcloud version : soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
thank you for listening to " i was only temporary " over 60 million times on spotify , it means the world to me
spotify ambient playlist _ open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy
soundcloud version : soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
thank you for listening to " i was only temporary " over 60 million times on spotify , it means the world to me
spotify ambient playlist _ open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy
soundcloud version : soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
thank you for listening to " i was only temporary " over 60 million times on spotify , it means the world to me
0:00 1. when you're not home w/ Miranda Rain- nothing is real, part XX
3:05 2. like i was never here. - nothing is real, part IV
7:43 3. and it's her, - nothing is real, part XVIII
11:38 4. i only exist; - nothing is real, part II
16:41 5. just outside my thoughts - nothing is real, part XIV
19:10 6. what's left of me - nothing is real, part XIX
22:50 7. she's all i see - nothing is real, part XV
25:59 8. i fuck up everything - nothing is real, part XVII
30:48 9. and still - nothing is real, part XII
34:10 10. you're not who you think - nothing is real, part X
38:11 11. we're all we've got - nothing is real part XXI
40:02 12. i'm not crying - nothing is real, part XIX
43:26 13. U FCKN SUCK w/HANGMAN - nothing is real, part XV
45:28 14. just what i'm going thru; - nothing is real, part XVI
49:55 15. i wish someone knew, - nothing is real, part XVI
52:46 16. good try, kid - nothing is real, part XVI
54:43 17. you're a bad person - nothing is real, part XX
01:00:14 18. nobody sees me - nothing is real, part IV
the animation is not a game (yet), it is custom made to look like me. you can see myself / the mask in other IRL videos here on this channel.
thanks for all the support of my song " i was only temporary "
if you liked these songs, i have 21 albums of them, and i write more every year since 2018. the 9 hour playlist is below with all 21 albums, every song...
here is the story of "nothing is real" for anyone who wishes to read about it.
↪ docs.google.com/document/d/1VIycf-tZtA8PG2Kk8mrb61nb3Jy9_bWSRVgIwJzePOQ/edit?usp=sharing
all my links
↪ https://linktr.ee/tidecruz
⚠⚠⚠(9 hour playlist) (nothing is real) my BEST songs only
↪ open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3?si=a16f276605304b70
11 hour playlist of my songs like "i was only temporary"
↪ open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy?si=09b47db3fca640c6
not that it matters, but every sound in all my music is made by myself! all instruments, vocals etc; performed, mixed/mastered and recorded live at home. perhaps one day in my old age, i will make videos playing my instruments, but i've always found it a bit pointless and show-off'y.
music is something we hear, i never really cared to watch it happen. i like to enjoy music with my eyes closed in bed, drifting away thinking about my life, my future. i don't say this to put anyone down who takes lessons music, but i just wanted to say the following it to hopefully inspire.
i have zero music training, i don't know theory, or anything like that. there may be someone reading this laughing saying "who does this guy think he is? no wonder this music is bad!) i just wanted to mention it in case there are people who want to make music, but were told they need lessons or training. you really don't. i have had none. i still try. and well. there seem to be a growing amount here that also like this music, so i will leave it at that. i just hope nothing anyone tells you will stop you from making music. it's helped me so much in my darkest times. anyways, i just really love to make music and it's the only thing that makes me feel like i have a purpose. thanks for listening. more on the way, always.
all nothing is real albums: open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3
all my links
☣ https://linktr.ee/tidecruz
my BEST songs only (nothing is real) ⭐
☣ open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3?si=a16f276605304b70
11 hour playlist of my songs like "i was only temporary"
☣ open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy?si=09b47db3fca640c6
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this video is not monetized. all the music in all of my videos on this channel are by myself, sometimes when my health is bad and i can't go out and film my own videos, i will try to highlight media i like, but transformed into something else, a new artistic spin on them. for this video in particular, its the film "All About Lily Chou-Chou". for my original film making, please see my other videos!
all nothing is real albums: open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3
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this video is not monetized. all the music in all of my videos on this channel are by myself, sometimes when my health is bad and i can't go out and film my own videos, i will try to highlight media i like, but transformed into something else, a new artistic spin on them. for this video in particular, its the film "Silent Hill". for my original film making, please see my other videos!
friends, i wanted to share a bit about this video and song.
firstly, i apologize for the religious tone of the song. i know it can make some people uncomfortable, but it just felt right at the time making it.
every instrument, sound, video clip, everything was created by me.
about the video: for whatever reason i decided it would be a good idea to go out and film this today, and it was 90 degrees. some of you may know about my health issues, my MS. not even close to the first location i felt as if i would faint. when i get even half a degree above body temp, i begin to get dark spots and blindness in my vision. this was the worst it had ever been, i wasn't sure if i would even make it home. i haven't felt this legitimately afraid in a long time. wearing so much dark clothing, i had to stop and sit on the ground many times, with heatwaves going over my body, till eventually i had to take off my shirt. every bit of me and my clothes, backpack etc; was drenched in sweat. i know for most people, sweating a bunch, and being in hot conditions feels amazing, but because of my MS, it is highly advised against. i usually sleep with 2 fans on me just to keep from overheating, and thats indoors! there is no reason to even share this information with anyone, it doesn't make the video or the song any more impactful, i just thought it would be interesting to know after seeing the video, that despite the video being calm, i felt like i was melting. i tried my best to make something that felt as massive and religious as the song feels to me. i hope you guys like it, even though its not what anyone comes for. i know most of you guys like my ambient, but that music just doesn't hold a significance to me. i'm very glad it helps so many of you though.
this is definitely a strange song from the "nothing is real" albums, but the lyrics have been ever playing in my mind lately with the current issues i'm facing, realizing that the people i trusted for the last few years turned out to only be pretending to be my friend, to squeeze information and sounds out of me. it's a level of betrayal i never imagined id experience. i’ll never understand how artists today can feel okay with other people writing music for them, and taking credit for it. its just so fake to me and defeats the purpose of the magic of music, the magic of expression and creativity. the “nothing is real” albums mean a lot of things to me, but in the case of this song, it’s a direct defiance to those who only create for greed and selfishness. i think music is medicine, and has been there for me thru the darkest times of my life. this location in the video is special to me, because i have not come here for years. the last time i was here was with a friend i used to skateboard with, but he died in a car crash. it wasn’t my friend jacob, this was yet another friend who had died. i haven’t been back since. it never felt right, when i decided to finally make a video for this song, as meaningful as it is to me, it felt time to revisit this location and catch a glimpse of those memory’s of when he was alive. but anyways, the greed and selfishness of some artists in this world, while it does upset me, it's also motivating to try even harder to not be a terrible person like that, to the people who are nice to me. for me, music should be about healing, and emotions. there are people who pretend to struggle, and pretend to be depressed and create simply to profit. to me that is manipulating the wonderful people who take the time to listen, and i don’t want to be apart of anything that disgusting. anyways. thank you all for listening, and if you read this far, you are a true gamer. big love. - mhie
album: tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xii
0:00 1. i was only temporary
1:33 2. a way out w/ Miranda Rain
3:39 3. i feel worthless w/ Miranda Rain
5:55 4. life, on hold
7:14 5. perpetual
9:35 6. numb
11:12 7. novocaine
12:56 8. we're all we've got
14:50 9. i need a purpose
16:41 10. you only cared about you
18:34 11. i can't breathe
19:38 12. survive myself
22:19 13. leaving
23:43 14. i know how i'll die
25:06 15. evanesce
26:27 16. regardless of what you think,
30:35 17. ur my safe place w/ Miranda Rain
32:58 18. hold me w/ Miranda Rain
34:41 19. non feelings
37:24 20. i could save you
39:51 21. you couldn't be bothered
44:00 22. play this when i can't sleep
48:06 23. the weight of the world
50:21 24. i see dead people
52:37 25. my sign to retreat
54:41 26. it can't be helped
the animation is not a game (yet), it is custom made to look like me. you can see myself / the mask in other IRL videos here on this channel.
all my links
↪ https://linktr.ee/tidecruz
11 hour playlist of these songs
↪ open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy?si=09b47db3fca640c6
my BEST songs only (nothing is real)
↪ open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3?si=a16f276605304b70
here is the story of "nothing is real" for anyone who wishes to read about it.
↪ docs.google.com/document/d/1VIycf-tZtA8PG2Kk8mrb61nb3Jy9_bWSRVgIwJzePOQ
the last track in this mix (26), along with (16), and (21), are from my "nothing is real" album series ♥
i hope this playlist helps you sleep, or relax, and try not to overthink


