LISTEN ON APPLE MUSIC : music.apple.com/us/album/the-war-im-scared-to-face-feat-livingston-single/1654602405 -------------------------------------------------------------------- Witt Lowry : @Witt Lowry -------------------------------------------------------------------- Livingston : @Livingston ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Song produced by Dan Haynes & Livingston : @danhaynesprod @Livingston -------------------------------------------------------------------- Recording Engineer : Paniz Farokhnia @panizmusic Mixed & Mastered by John Will : @iamjohnwill -------------------------------------------------------------------- LYRICS:
[HOOK] Even if you don't, I still remember it all You were my shelter from the rain when it'd fall I would call, but never came I'm not perfect, but I swear I've changed I still hear your voice, it ricochets off these walls Give me the words and I'll explain why I faltered from grace And for all I hold for blame Just give me one more chance, I'll fight the war I'm scared to face
[VERSE] First things first, I know this letter might be long overdue Just wanna tell you it's been hard for me to tackle the truth And watchin' you become a shell of who I knew in my youth You were the glue that kept the family from splittin' in two Hate what you have to go through, I bet you feel so alone You were my shelter back when everything was messy at home When no one else was there, I knew you'd always answer your phone Now when they ask you who I am, it hurts, you might not know, damn Guess I remember for us both Remember when we saw those whales and you threw up on the boat Remember spendin' days at Fenway, those are days I miss the most Remember how you cracked a smile when I told you that I wrote And then you told me you believed in me and my dream "chase it" That's back when I'd record on a USB in the basement And now I'm here helpless and honestly fuckin' hate it I know you hate when I swear, but I don't know how else to say it I remember all the stories you told me 'bout meeting Gram I know you still remember her laugh, the touch of her hands They try to say you can't, don't think anyone understands She's a part of who you are like you're a part of who I am And damn, when Dad and Gram look down I wonder if it makes 'em sad where the fam's at now And when I stand up on stage, where the music is loud And look out, I swear I see the faces out in the crowd What hurts the most is that you're here, but haven't seen you in years But not because a lack of tryin', I want that to be clear The situation's way more complicated than it appears And when I think about it all, it always brings me to tears I fear, as your memory fades And the dementia makes its way through every inch of your brain You'll forget about me and all the memories made I'm not okay, I guess what I'm tryin' to say is
[HOOK]
[VERSE] Just know it kills me to feel like I let you down When all I really ever wanted was to make you proud I miss all of the stories and the wisdom that would spill out of your mouth Now when we have a conversation, you can barely make a sound Everything's so different now, I have this hole in my heart When you moved and Dad passed, the whole fam fell apart Not havin' either of you here has been so terribly hard The truth is y'all were the light when my thoughts got dark I heard you had a birthday and I missed it I look around the room and not a single relative's here on Christmas Sometimes I feel the distance has lead to us actin' distant Nothin' is the same, things changed in an instant And ahh, I should prolly call Always say "I will," but I always drop the ball Damn, you see the truth is I'm a coward tryna stall the inevitable Fact one day I'll call and there'll be nothin' you recall And I'm appalled that this is how this all played out A beautiful mind that we just have to watch fade out See, you're the one who taught me how to make a home out of a house And that happiness is found when you live in the right now Not the future or past, just want my grandfather back Woulda hung on to the moments if I knew they wouldn't last Just know I'm grateful now for every single second we had It's sad you'll never see a show or ever get to see me rap And that's that, fuck, sick of feelin' stuck Sick of feelin' like everybody has givin' up Sick of always feelin' like I'll never be enough 'Cause I tried to wear your shoes, but I could never fill 'em up I never know a world where I'm able to let you go Even though I know to let go of the things that I can't control It's sad you'll never see me with a family of my own But know that when that day comes, you'll be a hero in our home, so
SPOTIFY : open.spotify.com/artist/5ghnxpW47ojtLHHyTLdxdY?si=n_M3AFFaR_WdKrOdT7kx2g ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Song produced by Dan Haynes : @danhaynesprod Additional production by Joey Castellani : @joeybyhimself ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Mixed & Mastered by John Will : @iamjohnwill ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Special thanks to Caitlin Christine : @caitchristinee ---------------------------------------------------------------------- LYRICS: Yeah You were right Said I'd change and never do Between you and I Think it hurts because it's true I can't tell you why I put all the blame on you, then say "you decide" What the fuck we're supossed to do Hate to see you cry And hate more that I'm to blame when I realise I'm the one to cause you pain This is real life And you're tired of the games say you feel like I may never fucking change When the highs get high and the lows get low All I know is you're the one I love As the tides get higher and the world's on fire you're the only one I'm thinking of Put up wall after wall, was terrified to fall Instead of leaving you took time to break through You have friends that are fam and fam you can't stand Guess in blood and in love we don't choose You say you should try, not just try to win me back You disguise all your pain behind your laugh Been losing sight Of the future in the past Now who am I? Lately I've been losing track of who
I wish I could make you love me Again so I could feel you hold me I'm tired, empty, stressed and lonely lost on nights like this
The only one I want around me Can't bear to see your life without me I'm sorry for the times you found me lost on nights like this
Just because we have a heart, doesn't mean we have a heart Just because we made mistakes, doesn't mean that's who we are Said some shit tonight that I regret I wanna learn how I can love you best And just because I hide it well Doesn't mean it didn't scar Only time I feel at peace Is when I lie in your arms I have angels that I wish you met And some demons I should keep in check (Damn) Can't expect you to save me I've been lost haven't talked to my family lately You know that that ain't me Just know I love you have love for the woman that made me, we're under the same stars And I'm scared you won't love me the same when the day starts Hate that I play a part To the hurt in your heart Hear the hurt when you say Mark You should try, not just try to win me back You disguise all your pain behind your laugh Been losing sight Of the future in the past Now who am I? Lately I've been losing track of who
I wish I could make you love me Again so I could feel you hold me I'm tired, empty, stressed and lonely lost on nights like this
SPOTIFY: open.spotify.com/artist/5ghnxpW47ojtLHHyTLdxdY?si=x6TyYaJaTBGXaXp6N47Zmg ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Song produced by Dan Haynes : @danhaynesprod ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Mixed & Mastered by John Will : @iamjohnwill ------------------------------------------------------------------------ LYRICS: Had to let go of who I thought I should be to find who I am Don't mean the edited one for the 'Gram But I mean the one who needs love, has fear and doubt, and only comes out around fam See, I'm just a man, I bleed and it's red Been tryin' to quiet the voice in my head Too weak to repeat all the things that it says You're destined to slip when you live on the edge And I'm doing my best, but it's never enough It's always, "Hey, when you gunna follow this up?" I give 'em so much of myself, my art, my soul There isn't much lеft in my cup Not prayin' enough, don't know who to trust Don't follow for follow, I follow my gut There is no morе room for discourse anymore It's "I'm right and you're wrong, and agree or shut up" What in the fuck? When will we learn? Together we grow, and divided we burn There's over seven billion of us on Earth And here I am talkin' 'bout puttin' me first And all of my hurt, like anyone cares I have a tendency to overshare Crazy to look at a sea full of people and still feel like there isn't anyone there As everyone stares, I swear that I'm fine Tears streamin' outta both of my eyes They love to see all this raw and real emotion So they can upload it online This story is mine, they took and rewrote it They'll do anything for a click and they post it But never with credit, my art has been lessened to trends While people pretend like they own it Okay, duly noted, things change in due time Things that I wanted all losin' their shine Now all I want is to text or to talk to my dad But know I'll never get a reply And that weighs on my mind, not tryin' to harp But I have to live with this hole in my heart And maybe the only real way that I know how to cope is by losin' myself in the art I said things that were harsh and I never meant I let discontent really mess with my head So many things that I wish I had done and had said Before I never saw him again Time that I make amends and pull back the curtain I barely was there, even when he was hurtin' And I think of that, and think, "Damn, what a terrible son" And I question myself as a person A human still learnin' Just a human still learnin' Know I'll never be perfect That's the only thing certain, yeah Someone mentioned the music was savin' their life, they relate to it so much it hurts And I thought to myself, "I'm so glad I could help, but it's you who put in all the work" So don't give me credit 'cause I'm just a human who loses himself in his words I wonder if Steve ever thought that one day we'd be treatin' an app like a church And hold up these content creators and athletes and artists as if they were gods Until we decide they no longer have value, then they're thrown away and forgot See, honestly, all that we are is a sum of our vices, our fears, and our flaws And then at the end, we end up in a box and can't bring anything that we bought All the things that we're not make us who we are Nobody thought I would make it this far Used to shoot for the sky 'til I realized that it had been proven that humans are made out of stars I spill out my heart, it's all that I know Never been good at just lettin' shit go Do you know how it feels to sink all that you have in your craft and still feel like there's nothin' to show? This here is a poem, a letter, a song I don't know where in the fuck I belong There's nothin' more lonely than bein' surrounded by people yet all of your people are wrong I feel like a pawn, I feel like I'm trapped There's people I miss I can never get back But been learnin' that life's not about how much water we have It's about how we look at the glass, that's a lot to unpack, yeah Dan said jump on a track, give 'em all that you have, yeah Ever since, I don't know what it's like to hold back, yeah When the story's authentic, you don't need to act, yeah Never needed to act, yeah There's concepts I need to explore, and feelings I can't just ignore Who cares what you do, who you doing it for? Oh my, how the tables have turned since I used to serve food that I couldn't afford Mom and Dad got divorced, Mom just got remarried For most of my life, thought commitment was scary But now I don't know, some places you can't take a road If you don't like the story, you should write your OwnWitt Lowry - How Should I Feel (feat. Meg & Dia) (Official Music Video)Witt Lowry2021-09-24 | LISTEN ON SPOTIFY : open.spotify.com/album/5gPEIxNAWquYBwfu9X2kjw?si=cUIVqx3vTnyr9Qmwx1mTFw&dl_branch=1
Directed by : Jonathan Chou & Witt Lowry Executive Producer : Jonathan Hernandez & Joseph Barbalaco Producer : Jibriel Rabinowitz Steadi Cam : Jose Espinoza 1st AC : Sam Hecker Gaffer : Harrison Bliss Grip : Kevin Ramirez HMU : Miriam Ortiz Truck PA : Ben Rodgers Set PA : Tyler Simms & Kitty Estrella Editor : David Rho Colorist : Sam Zook
[INTRO] [HOOK] Monster, how should I feel Creatures lie here, looking through the windows Monster, there are voices In the darkness, and they say they won't go
[VERSE] Stare long enough at the abyss and it seems to start to stare back at you Lost inside my head is a scary place I’ve adapted to Friends and family call and I tell them that "I’ll get back to you" Too busy on my phone, doomscrolling, spent the afternoon Stressed out, head down, can barely leave my bed now I hate these fuckin feelings they tell me to try these meds out But doc, we’ve only talked for like 10 minutes, I’m sketched out Paranoid, can’t tell if these people are foes or friends now You know what it feels like to feel like nobody can help On top of that feel like you’re loosing yourself I wouldn’t even wish my enemies the hand I was dealt Thought I could pay the pain to fade with some material wealth But tears fallin in the Tesla I guess it’s kinda ironic To feel so fuckin broke inside something I always wanted My demons came to play it feels like my brain may be haunted Hate myself sometimes as much as they hate on me to be honest I saw fentanyl take the life away from my cousin I watched alcohol steal the life away from my dad I came from nothing now I’m scared that might be what I’m becoming Look in the mirror and barely recognize the one looking back, so!
[HOOK] Monster, how should I feel Creatures lie here, looking through the windows Monster, there are voices In the darkness, and they say they won't go
[VERSE] Wrote a song when my dad passed and they said it was trash That made me wish that I put less of myself into every track I know you can’t just burn the orchard when one apple is bad But the fact of the matter is that I feel I’m starting to crack And they say don’t, take it to heart, we’ll how the fuck do I not When I put my soul inside something and they say it’s a flop Constantly tear my art apart when this is all that I got They wanna see me on a stage or me left in a grave to rot I’ve been overstessin bout overstressin, I lie in bed and think about this life I manifested, yet my depression’s always yellin that I’m destined for regression, sad obsession with progression, still they think that I’m just desperate for attention Broke, down about around this time just last fall At therapy tellin my therapist I feel so small Pushed everyone I love away and fuck it’s all my fault Is it better to feel like this or to feel nothing at all I turn the lights down, lonely Remember back when we would cash in cans at the grocery Weren’t there when I was drowning but the first to say you know me So sick of people saying that they care and never show me My grandpa once told me that inside an empty mind is where the devil likes to play And everyday it’s all the same I just stare at an empty page Ruminate about all the things that have piled up on my plate Time I take control of my brain, know I can’t just pray this away, so!
[HOOK] Monster, how should I feel Creatures lie here, looking through the windows Monster, there are voices In the darkness, and they say they won't go
Funny how it all goes down Don't be sorry when it comes around I'm like, "Oh my god, I think it's karma" (Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh) Ain't it funny how it all adds up When you're always tryna push your luck? I'm like, "Oh my god, I think it's karma" (Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
Oh my god, I Oh my god, I god I, think it's karma
[Verse]
Listen, the truth is, with you I would never know what the truth is I fell for all of your lies, shit you must of thought I was stupid I trusted and you abused it, spent time and you overused it A glass of ginger and Jack shit you must of thought it was Cupid
Excuses after excuses, you wanted me to feel useless It takes a lot of truth to gain trust and one lie to lose it I put you up over music, our flaws are what make us human But the difference is you glorify yours instead of improvin'
Sometimes I remember back, you got your feet on the dash Who would of thought something so good could go so bad so fast Who would have thought that you would hurt me so much that I'd lose track Who would of thought your lips and ass would be more real than how you act
And that's a fact, I never said I was perfect, I never claimed it But I think you can admit that my heart is where most the pain went Avoid all my favorite places I brought you to 'cause they're tainted You cheat, lie, and play games and then blame it on being faded, it's
[HOOK]
[Verse]
Yea, your mom and dad didn't make it so you gave up on love Then tried to use that as the reason why you gave up on us I can't let you become the reason that I gave up on trust You've got this hole inside your heart you try to fill up with lust
You give your mentions the attention that you never gave me Who would have thought that when you broke me you were setting me free You tried to turn me into something that I never could be Would have to watch what I would say or you would threaten to leave
Once again, so typical Never in my life did I meet someone so cynical Would have never guessed the day we met would be our pinnacle You're flippin like reciprocals, you harp with every syllable Shit, loving you was difficult
Damn
I hope he treats you like you treated me Sometimes I wish that you could see you from my POV My friends and family told me that it's time for me to let it be And karma's working whether you believe it or you don't believe
But thank you, you're an angel, with no wings How'd you play all of those games and still you got no rings You just chalk me you to being just one of your old flings Time to finally let it go and stop dwelling on old things, it's
[Verse 1] It's a gotdamn shame You been lookin' for change, but you never wanna gotdamn change Stupid motherfucker, better stay in your gotdamn lane I make art, you make memes, bitch, we are not the same We are not the same, I'm just sayin' I got my foot on their neck Till every one of them pay me respect Buyin' designer and diamonds to flex I called up my mom and I paid off her debt Didn't do that just for likes on the net Remember when we couldn't pay for the rent? Not bad for some guy who complains 'bout his ex Turned on all my old shit, to hear all the new shit you're gonna do next, haha 1AO Witt I diss my own blood, so don't think I won't diss They told me God gave me a gift Now how many writers you got? I been makin' a list You shoot from the hip, I shoot for the sky I'm shootin' for being the greatest alive Dan said they aren't ready for POM5 Been workin' all night, I can sleep when I die
[Chorus] I'd rather cut my ties before I waste my time You don't think about the boy, then why you hittin' my line? Stick around long enough and watch a lame switch sides Just hit my stride, yeah, I'm on my rise I tried to please them all, instead I lost my mind You wanna see me fall? Well bitch, get in line Doesn't mean you found gold, just because that shit shine Just hit my stride, yeah, I'm on my rise
[Verse 2] This year red is all I see Just me, myself, and my team You can rap over Witt type beats But you can never be me Three rappers in your top three They don't profit off all those streams 'Cause some old guy up in an office owns the MP3 We need less sheep, we need more thought Stuck stayin' indie 'cause I can't be bought One on the charts when you said that I flopped I look at my plaque and I smile a lot The bottom is lonely and so is the top Find you a girl with a plan, not a plot A fake will jump ship, and they'll say I fell off Then crawl back when they're feelin' empty and lost I'm thankful for every fan that I got They got you a playlist to sweeten the pot You spend your advance on a chain and a watch I spend my own money on shit that I got, I keep it real, feel like the only one The game's been off balance, all you rappers are Napoleon
[Chorus]
[Verse 3] You sing that shit like you wrote it You sing that shit like you own it You even know you won't last You're only here for the moment Just know the chamber is loaded Give me a time and a motive I've got some friends in high places You know, your label, they own it I treat my room like a cocoon, I should get out more They wanted honest music, but instead they fuckin' found yours It's sad you're only known for stupid shit that you get clout for Never needed your help, you see I did this shit without yours
I know I need to learn to live with all the things I can't change I hate the fact that I feel nothing or I'm reeling in pain I need to shake this fucking habit, so I try, but I can't And I look down on other addicts when we're one in the same Remember back, I'm pushin' twenty, those were simpler times That's when we met, and ever since you're never far from my mind I broke my ankle playin' ball, and so it's you I'm prescribed And even through all of the pain, you make me feel I could fly A couple weeks, and now you're gone and now I'm feelin' the stress I always wanted to feel something, maybe nothing is best My friends and family start to question if I'm feelin' depressed But I don't really give a damn, just put me back on the meds I've been lost in my head My homie Jack said he dealt with the same shit He said he started drinkin' to deal with the pain quick All you need is a fifth and it's cool to remain lit So he handed me a bottle, said, "Take about eight sips" I'm faded, but I wanna feel straight numb So I drank the rest of the bottle, liquor burnin' my gums Woke up the next day at around a quarter to one My peers would say that meant I had fun, right?
[Chorus] I've been lyin', I've been sayin' I'm fine But I've been feeling low and I don't know why Another night, I feel empty inside Down bottle after bottle of whatever I find Feel the weight lift off me Someone tell my mom I'm sorry I don't wanna lie, I've been losin' my mind They tell me "Take a pill" until I feel alright
[Verse 2] The present day been feelin' sick, think I'm just bidin' my time I take a shot of somethin' strong to keep that shit off my mind All my friends started families and they left you behind And here I am drinkin' any can or bottle I find My body took you in as blood and so we're never apart Some real shit, you the closest someone's been to my heart But just like everything I love, you fuckin' tear me apart Just like everything I love, you fuckin' tear me apart I wanna be there for my son, daughter, wife—I mean my ex-wife now I guess that time really flies when you're drunk on the couch I wanna shake this fuckin' habit, I just don't know how See you would love to see me sink until I almost drown And so you keep me on the brink of barely livin' and death As long as I'm alive, yeah, you know you're gettin' my check You pray my son and daughter will follow me in my steps Your creator loves the fact that I'm broken, broke and in debt Can go a day without food, I can't go a day without you When I try, I get the shakes until my face turns blue Lost my job, wife, life for a bottle of booze You promised you would make me happy, we know that's not true I tried every drug in the book, but they never hit me the same I told my doc that I'm down, he put some pills in my name It doesn't matter the problem, the fix is always the same Always takin' the easy route, like I'm never willin' to change, damn Been blamin' everybody but me With you inside my system, everybody used to love me But now my friends, family, my kids, they can't even trust me Been losin' all my control and I let you fuckin' become me No more! I said no fuckin' more! I know you think I'm lyin', I said this to you before This time I'm fuckin' ready, it's time to show you the door This life is mine, it never was yours!
[Chorus] I've been lyin', I've been sayin' I'm fine But I've been feeling low and I don't know why Another night, I feel empty inside Down bottle after bottle of whatever I find Feel the weight lift off me Someone tell my mom I'm sorry I don't wanna lie, I've been losin' my mind They tell me "Take a pill" until I feel alright
[VERSE] Say no more, but, tell me this (what) Can you taste the pain in me, on my lips Question when I saw your face was, who is this? I was shooting for the stars and was shooting from the hip
Just
Know that I would never change you Bless the woman that made you Bless the people who came around when you were down and out and then saved you
Fuck the people who played you Your wall is up I don’t blame you I just want you to know your worth And to love you the way that God made you Made you and know
All I wanna do is be there for you through it all Think about the nights when I would wait up for your call My ex made me believe you can’t trust anyone at all It's funny how the more you build the farther you can fall
When I had no money we would eat and you would pay Sorry if you ever felt I ever made you chase Why you wasting time always staring at your waist? I just wanna trust you love you more now every day
We’re at this diner that we found Somewhere between then and now And I ask if you want jam for your toast
You spent the night the other day So many things I could say Instead I just shy away and I choke
And I’m supposed to be a poet So open with my emotions And all I can ask about is your toast
I guess I’m glad you didn’t leave ‘Cause you make me a better me And you see the Mark no one sees when I’m low, so
[HOOK] I know you see the hurt and the pain written on my face (face) Been thinking ‘bout what you think about when you think about me (me) If everything crashes your eyes are where I feel safe (safe) If all we have left is tonight then I wanted to say
[VERSE] Now after seasons of talking and watching night turn to morning And telling stories a second time when you feel they’re important The love I have for you is rare I was just scared ‘cause it’s foreign That had me thinking should I stop or shoot my shot like I'm Gordon
And still I
Flashback to the crash that could’ve ended we The glass smashed somewhere past that’s when you said to me “You’ll be alright”, thought if I’m not then I’ll pretend to be I’m thankful every day you found your way and then was lead to me
We’re blood and bruised Assessing our wounds Airbag in my face, you can’t find your shoes
In shock and I’m sad, in pain and I’m mad Look down at my stomach, all I’m seeing is black
Ugh
Lights from the back, they’re blue and they’re red The guy who hit us never was found, just left us for dead A million things I wish I could say, that never were said I’m sorry if I’m here but not here, got lost in my head
A million things I wish I could do, to show you I care Just know when you feel empty and scared, I’ll always be there Don’t care about how much money you make or clothes that you wear I care about memories that we make, and time that we share
Let’s keep it real
It’s hard for me to trust, they all went fake on me I hope you keep it real and never change on me You tell me when it's heavy put that weight on me
On me, on me, so
[HOOK] I know you see the hurt and the pain written on my face (face) Been thinking ‘bout what you think about when you think about me (me) If everything crashes your eyes are where I feel safe (safe) If all we have left is tonight then I wanted to sayWitt Lowry - GHOSTWitt Lowry2019-02-04 | TOUR: http://neversroad.com
[HOOK] Another day, another night Another fucking battle in my mind A lot love, a lot of hate A lot who want to see me unwind I feel alone, all alone Now get your shit together is what I'm told Been feeling low, super low And they won't even care 'till I'm ghost
[VERSE] Used to dream of the top, had nightmares of the bottom 'Till I realized that the bottom is the top when forgotten Pray I don't fall, like Autumn When you feel more like a product than a person there's a problem
Been, feeling so low, I don't want no one to know I just need something to cope Leave me alone, told them all leave me alone Then wonder where do they go Been here before, push away people I love Just so they never get close End of my rope, I don't think anyone care Maybe they will when I go
Maybe they'll talk about me on the internet They never care only care when they benefit Introvert honestly out of my element Still I'm afraid of becoming irrelevant
Pay attention to the ones who don't clap when you win If they lie to you once then they'll do it again Knew the hurt would come back, I just didn't know when And the night of the crash, I thought it was the end All it takes is a moment to alter a life And I thought about that for the rest of the night Am I making a difference with things that I write Just a human you don't know the demons I fight so
[HOOK] Another day, another night Another fucking battle in my mind A lot love, a lot of hate A lot who want to see me unwind I feel alone, all alone Now get your shit together is what I'm told Been feeling low, super low And they won't even care 'till I'm ghost
[VERSE] You say I'm the worst, they say I'm the best But call me tonight when you get off of work Got things on my chest I've been feeling bad for the feelings I have I know that I'm blessed Been learning that money just isn't the cure For feeling depressed, I know I digress
I've been a mess, honestly I've been a mess Hate what I think in my head Act like a friend, then when I need you the most That's when you leave me on read Have to pretend, always just have to pretend Like I don't care what it said Stuck in my head, plenty of things I could do I just go lay In my bed
Damn
Don't really know why I'm feeling so low Where do you go when there's nowhere to go They talk and they talk and I know they don't know What it's like when your heart becomes empty and cold
How do I know what's real when my mind questions all I know How do I save myself from myself when I'm feeling low How do I flip the page if I'm stuck reading what I've wrote Why do I always drown in my thoughts, need to learn to float
[HOOK] Another day, another night Another fucking battle in my mind A lot love, a lot of hate A lot who want to see me unwind I feel alone, all alone Now get your shit together is what I'm told Been feeling low, super low And they won't even care 'till I'm ghostWitt Lowry - HURT (feat. Deion Reverie) (Official Music Video)Witt Lowry2019-01-14 | SPOTIFY : open.spotify.com/album/0OZ72jHv7mufWlUorqS5Ra?si=De4jGiXlSlSERwJjgTAMNQ
[INTRO] [HOOK] It doesn't feel right with you gone It hurts too much to be left alone I know I was never in your plans But it doesn't feel right in her bed It hurts to know
[VERSE] If only I knew to love you, I would lose me Would wake up just to go back to sleep I hope you and him live happily But the memories girl, you gonna have to keep All the lies that you told me are on repeat I don’t know what’s real, you lie through your teeth If I could take the feelings that I had for you Just like our pics, I’d press delete I’ve been contemplating 100 times, about 100 facts, I found out were lies I know you used me just to pass the time But you can’t ever say I didn’t fucking try What you meant to me is what I mean to art, Was real with you from the fucking start You played games with my fucking heart And after you I fell a fucking part Damn, I know we weren’t perfect, I guess I thought we were worth it I guess your love was uncertain You’re busy at the club flirtin’ Friends just keep feeding you bourbon Car smelling like his cologne and your weed For months I would think, “Is he better than me?” I know that he can’t love you better than me I wonder was it your intention to cheat Can’t believe I believed you, Keep telling myself I don’t need you When talking to her I just see you Alone but surrounded by people Maybe one day you’ll change, and he’ll reap the benefits ‘Cause all you left me were questions and pain Don’t know why I care if you’re feeling the same I need to just get you up out of my brain
I know I was never the plan You’re not the you you would claim You’re not the person I met, Don’t know the you you became Was addicted though to the pain And the constant games that you play Just being real when I say, that still (It hurts to know)
And I tried to give you a chance But things were never the same I ended up all alone You ended up with a lame Was addicted though to the pain And the constant games that you play Just bein’ real when I say, that still (It hurts to know)
[HOOK]
[VERSE] Still, you’re who my family adores Maybe that’s why it’s hard to ignore you After all of the time we spent Sad to think that I still didn’t know you Woke up in a city that we never been to, I wish I could show you Even my music I put it below you Just know I would have done anything for you Remember I told you, I felt inadequate Because you came from a family with money And me, I have nothing, I work as a waiter with visions of turnin’ myself into something The music was buzzing but I couldn’t pay for a bill Off of people just saying they love it Had class in the morning, had work in the evening Then write through the night with no food in my stomach Just know that it’s hard, damn Girl it’s so fucking hard I keep telling myself that I need to move on But it’s hard to get close when I have up a guard I know everything change, the old me would prolly feel shame for the bottles I’ve bought on my card You would go to the bar, while I was stuck working a double to pay for the tank in my car And I guess, that it’s best I pretend like I don’t give a fuck even though to be real, I’m a mess I’ve been tryna find anything I can find just to fill in the hole in my chest And it’s sad to believe that a picture with me, is a picture of you and an ex You should know that it takes everything within me to delete when I’m sending a text Like…
[HOOK] It doesn't feel right with you gone It hurts too much to be left alone I know I was never in your plans I just can't get you out of my head It hurts to knowWitt Lowry - Into Your Arms (feat. Ava Max) (Official Music Video)Witt Lowry2018-06-21 | SPOTIFY : open.spotify.com/artist/5ghnxpW47ojtLHHyTLdxdY?si=NGnPuFVTSmuaGiVhuFWIyA
I'm out of my head, out of my mind, oh, I If you let me, I'll be Out of my dress and into your arms tonight Yeah, I'm lost without it Feels like I'm always waitin' I need you to come get me Out of my head, and into your arms tonight Tonight
Yeah I don't mean to make you wait, just the pressure's been gettin' heavy I know if I fuck us up, we'll be over, done, you'll forget me Forget me, I'm feelin' bad that I act this way, 'cause you let me They call me king, but I know my queen will be there to check me Last year, was runnin' 'round 45th lookin' for SoHo Last night, was ridin' down Rodeo lookin' for NoHo It's crazy what can change in a year, think that you know though Go back and forth like a yo-yo, they live their life for the photos And see me, I'm actin' solo, 'cause I'm afraid to commit Now can you tell me how I'm different than him, and him, and him? Yeah, I know I'm always questionin' things, like, girl Would you say that love cannot be found inside a vow or a ring? She laughs and says, "Only material things Those are material things, imagine buyin' all my trust with a ring Imagine spendin' all my love on a fling, got a thing for you If I had the talent you had, I probably would sing for you", like
I'm out of my head, out of my mind, oh, I If you let me, I'll be Out of my dress and into your arms tonight Yeah, I'm lost without it Feels like I'm always waitin' I need you to come get me Out of my head, and into your arms tonight Tonight
Yeah I don't mean to make you wait, or to contemplate about us My ex, she loved to lie, guess that's why it's harder to trust I been searchin' to find myself and not get too lost in the lust I heard once that you can try but can't fill from an empty cup That's no lie, and all I ever say is how I need time If it was up to you now, you would be mine I'm on the road more than I'm home and still I find it's only you on my mind The last three were Gemini, I take that shit as a sign, it's funny You can't buy time with your money And you love goin' to the beach whether it's cloudy or sunny And you love drinkin' all your wine until it hurts in your tummy You call me, "Honey, I'm tipsy, and really all I want is for you to love me" Flashbacks of backroads drivin' back to my side of state I know I need to tell you I care before it's too late Before someone steps to the plate, before you decide not to wait Before you decide not to chase, still you call me up, just to say
I'm out of my head, out of my mind, oh, I If you let me, I'll be Out of my dress and into your arms tonight Yeah, I'm lost without it Feels like I'm always waitin' I need you to come get me Out of my head, and into your arms tonight Tonight
I'm out of my head, out of my mind, oh, I If you let me, I'll be Out of my dress and into your arms tonight Yeah, I'm lost without it Feels like I'm always waitin' I need you to come get me Out of my head, and into your arms tonight Tonight
Yeah I don't mean to make you wait, just the pressure's been gettin' heavy I know if I fuck us up, we'll be over, done, you'll forget me Forget me, I'm feelin' bad that I act this way, 'cause you let me They call me king, but I know my queen will be there to check me Last year, was runnin' 'round 45th lookin' for SoHo Last night, was ridin' down Rodeo lookin' for NoHo It's crazy what can change in a year, think that you know though Go back and forth like a yo-yo, they live their life for the photos And see me, I'm actin' solo, 'cause I'm afraid to commit Now can you tell me how I'm different than him, and him, and him? Yeah, I know I'm always questionin' things, like, girl Would you say that love cannot be found inside a vow or a ring? She laughs and says, "Only material things Those are material things, imagine buyin' all my trust with a ring Imagine spendin' all my love on a fling, got a thing for you If I had the talent you had, I probably would sing for you", like
I'm out of my head, out of my mind, oh, I If you let me, I'll be Out of my dress and into your arms tonight Yeah, I'm lost without it Feels like I'm always waitin' I need you to come get me Out of my head, and into your arms tonight Tonight
Yeah I don't mean to make you wait, or to contemplate about us My ex, she loved to lie, guess that's why it's harder to trust I been searchin' to find myself and not get too lost in the lust I heard once that you can try but can't fill from an empty cup That's no lie, and all I ever say is how I need time If it was up to you now, you would be mine I'm on the road more than I'm home and still I find it's only you on my mind The last three were Gemini, I take that shit as a sign, it's funny You can't buy time with your money And you love goin' to the beach whether it's cloudy or sunny And you love drinkin' all your wine until it hurts in your tummy You call me, "Honey, I'm tipsy, and really all I want is for you to love me" Flashbacks of backroads drivin' back to my side of state I know I need to tell you I care before it's too late Before someone steps to the plate, before you decide not to wait Before you decide not to chase, still you call me up, just to say
I'm out of my head, out of my mind, oh, I If you let me, I'll be Out of my dress and into your arms tonight Yeah, I'm lost without it Feels like I'm always waitin' I need you to come get me Out of my head, and into your arms tonight Tonight
Yea, I hate it when you’re here but you’re not here
hate it when your friends turn to old peers
hate it when you talk but you don’t hear
hate it when your energy feels weird
Last time I think I laughed it was last year
Made more money last month than the past year
When everything feels fake only facts here
I remember working back as a cashier, simpler times
Now it’s been 3 weeks still the page empty
They hang on every word I fucking say
While I appreciate you wait for my perspective
Gotta keep it real, there’s something else in play
Something I can’t explain, yea
Like the lyrics I find in my mind were put in my brain, damn
Is it really that deep?
Maybe it’s me, then one day I came I came across what the Romans believed
And even the Greek, you see they believed we create from our Genii,
It’s not in our genes, that got me to think,
‘Bout rappers who claim that they're more than just human
Promote what they pour in their drink,
Was making me think, I needed substance to create with something that wasn’t in me
But pardon me please, fuck all of that nonsense!
I believe that my music is bigger than me if I’m being honest!
And I think that it’s lame for an artist to claim they’re a god or a goddess!
Because that type of thinking is silently killing off all of our artists! While the industry profits, filling their wallets, damn
Feel like I’m on a hamster wheel
While I focus on making the music you don’t need your hands to feel
Is it fair when we follow our passion we barely can land a meal
In an industry where they can take, they don’t need hands to steal!
They told me go get a degree
Was stupid for following dreams
Your job was to push me to think
Instead you’re just hurdling sheep
I spill out my soul into ink
I told them I need to pursue what I love
If not, then I’m making money this money for what?
Buy shit from a brand led by someone that does
I needed to find out who I really was, now…
They would never get it,
Said I couldn’t do it so they were shook when I did it
They never could see the vision
They never wanted me winning
I never need an opinion
I never was one to fit it
Too fast to follow along, then I’ll bring it back in a minute
I take the beat for a trip and I bring it back when I’m finished
I see my room as a womb and I build and grow while I’m in it
I’m living but am I living? I can’t even tell the difference, damn
Since the last four lines it's been about 1 week,
Anxiety hit me real hard and I think
Ive been sacrificing my own mental
To prove the potential in me with the music they seek
‘Cause the more that I’m making, the more that they need
The more that I’m open the more that I bleed
The more that they’re lying, the less I believe
The more that I please them, the less that I’m me
I been back and forth daily,
Am I even making the art, or did the art make me?
No wonder why I’m feeling lost lately,
Do they hate the art, or do they really hate me?
They’re so negative on the daily,
But I don’t need your help to me I’m twice as mean
Yea I’m twice as mean, it's seeming like your dream
Or really only taking shots at my self esteem
Muthafucka!
You question why you should care, like this don’t effect what I do
But maybe, just maybe, if you change your thinking,
Then you would find you’d start believing in you
You see as a human your made to create,
Not just at a desk with some paper and glue
And maybe, just maybe, we do have a genius so all of the blame and the praise is for two, damn
So who am I when the world tells me who I should be? Look around, you’ll see ideas are essential as air and sleep
Everything you see it came, from the mind, of a human being
That’s mind-blowing, you’re not your mistakes and the fears that you think
And I think, I need to pray and take care of myself more,
Deep hidden in my mind is where you’ll find Piece of Mind 4!Witt Lowry - Last Letter (Official Music Video)Witt Lowry2018-02-13 | LISTEN TO MY NEW ALBUM "I COULD NOT PLAN THIS" HERE: open.spotify.com/album/4dR2U031e2XkziQH53khB9
[Verse 1] This might be the hardest song I've ever had to write Yeah, I dreamt about you last night I only see you when I close my eyes tight Yeah, I wish I told you how I felt before you left But it just never felt right Yeah, *crying* I wish I told you everything before you left I won't forget the day that they found the growth in your chest The cancer took ahold of your body and then it spread I talk to you more now than I ever did—I'm a mess This song will never capture the pain that I could express I learned from you that nothin' is perfect, but try your best I know you had your demons a younger me didn't get And out of all our demons, our biggest might be regret Relate more than ever, remember back when I would only see you every other week And every other Wednesday, you would take us out to eat Mom and you had split, so we're livin' in between Looking up the word "divorce" to understand what it could mean But I don't understand, Mom is with another man You been drinkin' heavier, to me was just another can Culture full of broken homes, we were just another fam Coulda left like other dads, you, you had another plan So you stuck around, dealt a life that you probably would never choose You bottled it inside and that bottle turned into booze The Jäger took ahold and your body took the abuse But finally found sobriety, cried when I got the news I know, been hurtin' more than I show Inspired by your story, couple things you should know I met this girl at my show, teared up by what I was told She said, "I'm sober 'cause of you, you do way more than you know" And I said—
[Hook] And I said, "Ohh, please grant me the serenity To accept everything I cannot change" You, you always told me that Do anything to have you back, see you one day I, I wonder if you see me when I fall, yeah I wonder if you hear me now at all Maybe if the world plays this through speakers I'll be loud enough to reach you, and you'll hear My last letter for you
[Verse 2] And I don't understand how you would stay so optimistic You started chemo, fought the battle, never quit That really left an imprint And we would talk about our lives and after this How we would live 'em different See, Mom and you would put your differences aside Every day she would visit, see the love in your vision See the hurt in your smile, your wisdom is what I'm missin' the most I'll never be ready to let you go I've never felt so helpless, it's outta both our control You told me how you wanted to travel, next year you'll go And your body had become fragile, not once did you lose your soul We were told, it was progressin' and you had less than a week True love is every tear when we told you we had to leave And how we would converse, and not once did we need to speak Then one day in late October you passed away in your sleep I been cryin' when I think about it I miss your smile, miss your laugh, and now I live without it I told you music was my passion, and you never doubted And people tell me they relate, but nah I truly doubt it Remember cryin' on your grave and yellin' up to you, "How did I lose my way?" I won't forget that summer were some of my darkest days Was asking for a sign, sat in my tears and prayed When I saw the sign you sent me that day, was forever changed I know, I know, I shoulda been a better me Would blame you when we argue, I said things I didn't mean Me and you are who our issues should have always been between So I'm sorry for the lack of communication from me I just wish that you were here, so you could watch me win a Grammy But more importantly to build a family I hope I make you proud and become everything I can be I hope they play it loud and send this letter where I can't reach Sincerely, Mark