missing home [made in 2021] kd vnt 2025-01-08 | song: youtube.com/watch?v=TOOZ5T0TRDI&t=0sold vent!! this animation was about being nostalgic missing the happiness of being a kid, while also knowing that while i was a kid i still was very sad, pretty self explanatoryi'm posting unposted vents despite them being old, cause i know that some people will enjoy them!!
ADDICTIVE PERSONALITY [made in 2022] kd vnt 2025-01-08 | song: youtube.com/watch?v=vwWtWjskAi8ima be SO fr i dont remember what this was about LMAO i hated this soo much when i made it which is why i never posted it but it's a product of how i felt at the time so here ya go loli'm posting unposted vents despite them being old and me not having emotional connection with them, cause i know that some people will enjoy them!!
argyle [made in 2023] kd vnt 2025-01-07 | song: youtube.com/watch?v=hQrmtwhztnchi !!!! this is an old asf vent animation!! i don't have much of a connection to it anymore but yea its about someone who i cut off bcs they were abusive to me and others, still glad theyre no longer in my lifeas you all may know i haven't posted a single vent animation to this channel in the year of 2024, this is because i haven't felt the need to make + finish these type of videos lately, either due to motivation and things in life have changed alot and ive mainly channeled my feelings into my main art and music. ive also been a lot more private with videos about my feelings. Theres nothing wrong with making and posting vent art / videos as people may be able to resonate, so i may still post vent videos here occasionally, but i don't want to be reliant on the public reception of vents and personal situations, or being addicted to sympathy. the main points of making vent art i want to have, is for self-expression, reflection and catharsis!! not to be self-destructive.
this aint wht u want !! [TW: s/h, blood, gore art] kd vnt 2023-10-11 | song: youtu.be/oqV5dOOJZ6cdw i am not hurting myself when i draw / animate stuff like this it's usually to vent out intense feelings and thoughts, this vent animation is mainly abt stress from having an unstable sense of self along with mood swings about being percieved in so many different ways, both over the years and in this current moment. i wish i could just be stable and stick to who i am but everything changes and i just want to accept both and have a balance.it can be difficult to accept myself and how i am percieved, but it's an important thing to do. i trust that these emotions will pass and using art to express how i feel is rly helpful
idolizer [tw blood] kd vnt 2023-07-27 | song: youtube.com/watch?v=lIs7Bb7HX2winspired by youtube.com/watch?v=eoi-nUI_Kgg + youtube.com/watch?v=wkCTQPCi2a8sometimes i feel like everyone is watching my every move, waiting for a mistake or an aspect to be taken from, and it feels like who i am is stripped away.sometimes i feel that others idolizing me doesn't take away from who i am, and that it's a beautiful thing to inspire others to create and make people happy with what i do.even though the video is mainly negative leaning it was more so to fit the angry vibe of the song, this is not meant to be a diss on anyone who idolizes me, this is meant to express my emotions on being idolized, i sometimes have mood swings about this but i wouldn't ever genuinely hate or attack anyone over it
watercolor puddles (positive) kd vnt 2023-06-22 | song: youtu.be/MXuTYGeQj4ISHARING IS CARING 💗💜💙💛🧡❤️12 fps flipaclip :3
5g could have been // positive kd vnt 2023-05-21 | song: soundcloud.com/trabint/5g-could-have-beenSO MUCH GENDER EUPHORIA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
RAGE LOVE LUST // [FW] suggestive warning kd vnt 2023-04-23 | song: open.spotify.com/track/23bkmqAXxuId9FaUJvrP29?si=u_ImwCG9QOyJGg0pa4lffw&context=spotify%3Asearch&dd=1MADE THIS VIDEO TO LET OUT MY INSANE DEMONS FEELINGS ! ❤️💗🔪🔥✨⛓️🖤 omg my demons /postironicinspired by animation meme uhh theres soo many originals w this song
ruby ruby / friendship vent wwwwwoooooooooo kd vnt 2023-03-26 | song: youtu.be/oXBxfmGoVkgbasically years in the past i tried to be friends with like literally thousands of people and this isnt an exaggeration i mean LITERALLY THOUSANDS because i didnt want to be like one of those ppl who would pass up a friendship. i didnt want to let my friends down. and well. in the attempt to not let ppl down, i ended up letting them down. i didnt have enough time for some closest friends bc i was always trying to have time for everyone. which means not being there when they need it the most, so they believed i don't care about themwhen i didnt even have time for myself when i needed it bc i always needed to be busynot making time for myself means not having enough energy to care for othersand it can be so hard to care for myself when it feels like every time i do, resting feels like im *wasting time* and i need to get busyits never gonna be perfect but ill always keep trying to be better, and this step means remembering its ok if i cant be close friends with literally everyone, its not wasting time to rest and take care of urself
better off alone kd vnt 2023-02-22 | song: m1v - alone open.spotify.com/track/19CYziqs0UZQKyk2rPf1dC?si=mdZV3qFLTIylCurZ2eqhLQ&context=spotify%3Asearch%3Aalone
✨IT FEELS LIKE IM UNDER WATER NOT CONTENT TO DO WHAT EVER✨ kd vnt 2022-12-13 | song: youtu.be/O86TAhULPCMinsp: youtu.be/RQ2fetv4wXA and my friend (doesnt want credit)ONLY A FEW WEEKS UNTIL 2023 AM I RIGHT time just slipping thru my hands like sand heh but u know it's something we all gotta accept
timepasser kd vnt 2022-11-27 | song: soundcloud.com/finlince/timepasserjust an animation to let out and process feelings yayyyyy
garbage vent song woooooooooooo kd vnt 2022-10-10 | by the way i am not looking to be reassured that 'oh u actually are cool kid the coolest kid eveer'like yes i know that but it's part of the all or nothing mindset in reality im not the worst im not the best im somewhere in the middle and thats oki made this to express my emotions it does not encapsulate the entirety of how i feelthat being said ummm,mmmmmmmm,mm wow this sucks but not everything i make will be thee best thing eveerrrr lol, WELL I THINK SOME PPL WILL LIKE IT SO STFU! ANYWAY IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT ANYONE THINKS 😍 but it does but ir doesnet anywayyyy
all eyes on me (vent art edit) kd vnt 2022-06-07 | song: bo burnham - all eyes on me (alt) from the inside outtakes: youtu.be/5XWEVoI40sEso i made this edit to this song because i really really really love inside and the outtakes and i relate to a lot of bo's music especially when it comes to themes related to being well known and entertaining otherseven though its different in lot of ways i find myself relating to the lyrics, especially this song and cant handle this, since its like the feeling of being watched all the time by so many people, plus having a self identity disconnect between the 'stage persona' and the "real life" you. im just. wheww big relate weeee oooooooooo yeah im just yeah
bag of shit! kd vnt 2022-03-08 | this vent is kinda old im literally just posting it unfinished bc i want a different latest video on heresong: bo burnham - shit
blink ( read description. kittydog drama ) kd vnt 2022-01-27 | tw: csa, zoophillia, pedophilia etcif youre out of the loop, i've been getting a lot of harassment from people, majority of which on tiktok or on my comments sectionit spiraled due to that people on tiktok didn't like my music. Then using my song, creating many videos about my toxic past, plus some lies and rumors.let me make this as straight up as possible: i am a csa victim who's been abused by pedophillic zoophiles and took on those abusive beliefs. ive addressed this long ago in my carrd ( kittydog.carrd.co/#serious ) i've changed and improved from this in therapy since 2018. i am not a zoo or pedo, these were horrible things i was abused to believe were "normal" as a kid, sadly i cannot get justice for my abusers since i dont know where they are today, but for 4 years ive been trying to heal from that abusehowever, improvement is not a linear journey.such as when i was a proshipper in 2020 but i am not anymore, i left the proship community in early 2021 out of my own realization that it was abusive, both proship and antiship sides have abusers in their communities, i regret having made proship positive art so much. i dont want to comment further on it.it's disgusting how people are still calling me a zoophile, pedo, and proshipper, because ive been abused by those people and have been trying to do my best to get better. yes it doesnt mean my toxic past didn't happen. but the past has a sad reality that i can't change. but what i can, and have been changing, is who i am and my future.i cannot deflect blame as my toxic past genuinely has hurt many of my ex friends/fans, and i have a lot of remorse for it, i have been sorry for so long for what ive done.its also important not to force victims of my toxic past to forgive me even though i am making an effort to change. thats their own decision. there are other things, but ive talked about the majority of it on my twitter ( kittydogcrystal ) some in a pinned comment i made on a video abt my drama here: ( youtu.be/emA7T3ysdsw )i just don't want to put energy into this anymore. its really affecting my mental stability. i want to keep creating art and music and thats what im gonna do, i cant be held back by people harassing me. its fine if people don't like my art or music but im making it for those who do like it, there are so many more who do.its harder to improve yourself as a person when people are stuck in your past, treating you like youre irredeemable. ive seen it many times before. harassing abuse victims pushes further into a sinkhole of abuse. these victims need help, they deserve to heal in peace, but of course online is unforgiving as your mistakes can just be reuploaded and follow you forever.but i wont let myself fall into it, ill keep on being myself and trying to heal now.--side note i know this video is really short and lazy and a mf animation meme about addressing shit people say about u but like ive said i cant put any more energy into this situation, i want to move on with my life. these past few days ive been feeling like i cant move on, but i need to at least post something abt it on youtube since i know most ppl dont follow my twitterill let the people who choose to hate me keep hating me and the people who choose to support me still support me. that is that
reality? (TW: blood / s/h, dereality / dissociation) kd vnt 2021-10-10 | inspired by animation meme: youtu.be/pmM4dIu6q3ssong: youtu.be/FdzH4bWEykQtext in vid probably explains most stuff but this video started as a negative vent but i wanted to make it positivethis is about me questioning myself cause even though im being treated in therapy people online still seem to think im faking mental illness for attention haha which is fucking with me question my own realitytruth is maybe ill never know 100% what labels to go by or what i "should" be doing but in reality life is full of trial and error people should be allowed to figure out themselves, and if they get things wrong, strive for the betterwho should i be listening to. my therapist who ive been seeing for the past 3 yrs? my irl friends who know me personally? the people who've been by my side for years despite mistakes?or some random online who doesn't even know what ive been through, someone who heard about me from their 'friends' who think my trauma is a lie and assuming i just want attention?sure yes i do like some attention, it's nice to be known, but over the years i realize so much that NOT ALL ATTENTION IS GOOD. a younger me, who felt partially alone and unloved probably thought all attention was good because then 'at least someone is listening to me' rather than no friends at school, nobody.regardless of worrying so much about the *exact specifics of my reality*, i should strive for improving *the reality i DO know.*
kd - even when im not okay ill be okay kd vnt 2021-09-09 | vent ramble turned into a song to help me think positively☄️💙💛💜
kd - KMS (TW) kd vnt 2021-07-16 | I'M NOT GOING TO KMS I MADE THIS SONG AND VID TO VENT OUT THE THOUGHTS thats allsoundcloud.app.goo.gl/GyZjW3w1WBspW6taAinspired by this meme youtu.be/ITMCRsE4pQM
let me know kd vnt 2021-07-06 | 💙☄️ill be okay this vid is to vent out feelings stuff like thatsong: youtube.com/watch?v=_c594r8neq0 but i slowed + reverbed it
Spotlight vent kd vnt 2020-12-04 | fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkknot gonna go too into detail for explaining this one butit was very relieving to make
do u wanna torture me kd vnt 2020-08-24 | song: 100 gecs - torture me soundcloud.com/fltchrr/torture-me
i do not want to feel kd vnt 2020-04-09 | song by me soundcloud.com/kittydog098/i-do-not-want-to-feel/s-3ohvqycVV0Mall these emotions and idk how to deal with them,.. i dont legitimately want them gone, truthfully i do want to feel because feeling gives that little spark to existence, but this song is an expression of how sometimes it's so overwhelming to feel so much and i just think if i could maybe feel less, i could have a better grasp on reality, and think logically and more efficiently.. when my emotions get the best of me i can't even think straight and i feel stupid
MEAN A DAMN THING // cw: blood and knife and some flashing colors i think kd vnt 2020-03-03 | song: soundcloud.com/93feetofsmoke/mean-a-damn-thingthis is a big vent, some may understand exactly what it means but i will be having a therapist again for the first time in a few years because of thisessencially some online drama lead me to try and re evaluate some more of my core beliefs and i had a mental break down today so i didnt go to school and my mom wanted to know what happened so i told her and she wants me to see a therapist because i have a lot of shame despite loving myself and trying my best to improve there are things i havent been able to get through and it sucks and i care too much about what people online think of me and its stupid and i just want to focus on what matters, the people who will appreciate me for who i am
kd - breaking free kd vnt 2020-01-04 | a positive vent song by me soundcloud.com/kittydog098/breaking-free-positive-vent-songsoundcloud.com/kittydog098/breaking-free-instrumental
do you know what it feels like to fall in love kd vnt 2019-11-18 | song: soundcloud.com/stwosc/neither-do-i-feat-jeremihvent about my feelings towards people and newly being polyamorous, its not so much a sad vent but it is to get out my emotions cause i have very strong emotions and its weird so i just wanted to make a vid like this hehhebonus slow version: youtube.com/watch?v=vUO5zetK2Ps
epic time kd vnt 2019-11-09 | song: soundcloud.com/lilxyu/lil-soda-boi-lil-yu-epic-time-prod-lil-soda-boi------------------------------------------------------------------------------------[i rly like this song and kind of relate to it besides the parts about drugs, i replaced those parts with other unhealthy coping mechanisms}im stll not over them and it hurts to remember fond memories of our relationship, especially since we didn't stay friends afterward. [we are not enemies, but we stopped talking, as it felt we just couldnt speak normally to eachother anymore after what happened.] i think it was handled maturely and mutually but it still sucks afterward.things i need to do:- have a more healthy way of coping, even though i dont self harm i still bring harm to myself by staying up an entire day, drinking a lot of energy drink- realize why things are better now that we broke up and split ways, even though it was sad, but it was for the better.- remain calm and not do anything crazy that i'd regret due to my emotions- save my money lmao
kd - coexist kd vnt 2019-09-13 | song and art by melyrics:ive never understood depressionbut i think ive learned my lessonfrom everyone ive lovedand everyone ive trustedso im laying on the groundand im thinking to myselfif i can be your friendthen how the hell can i helpi dont wanna be your source of happinessi dont wanna be the reason you existi just wanna support you, i just wanna makean effect thats at least positivei dont wanna be your source of happinessi dont wanna be the reason you existi just want my existence and your happiness to coexist
distorted nostalgia [gore/selfharm/flashing lights warning] kd vnt 2019-07-11 | song: youtube.com/watch?v=xDootNGnt6svent explanation: this video is about how i'm trying to improve myself as a person and i really do think i am improving but i also crave to feel how i used to feel in the past. i feel my nostalgia for the past is distorted because it really was terrible, i used to be a terrible person, i used to be abused, and i used to be abusive, and yet i miss how i felt?? when im on a pathway to improving myself?? when now im with people who care about me and love me?? and yet i still feel like im losing my creativity and passion??dont worry i am not self harming myself, but it's a metaphor for my past unhealthy mindset and "ripping myself open" to show who i truly am inside. right now im striving to get away from this distorted nostalgic mindset and truly find happiness in the future, that is why the "angel' part is in there, i'm going to be better. i will always stay optimistic no mater what happens.
need u like that kd vnt 2019-04-21 | song: soundcloud.com/lilxlotus/need-u-like-that-ft-glden-prod-hollowexplanation: got my heart straight attachedstill not over someone else i was with in 2017hurt someone by not loving them back---made this quick vent because artistically letting out my feelings helps some time
hurts kd vnt 2019-01-03 | song: soundcloud.com/lil-soda-boi/hurts-interlude-prod-lil-soda-boii started this video in june 18 2018 and i finished it today
everybody wants to be me. kd vnt 2018-12-24 | song youtube.com/watch?v=gpgsQ-A8Ko0i mean its just something i have to get over if im gonna be an influential artist
vlone kd vnt 2018-12-02 | :(song: youtube.com/watch?v=FBHS-sbFWK0 / soundcloud.com/snortcaine/vlone710////////i dont actually feel alone but this was a vent for how i used to feel, and im so used to feeling that way my mind prepares for something to be wrong even though nothing wrong is happening
i am emotionally damaged kd vnt 2018-08-10 | song: youtube.com/watch?v=eugjOQdSm_Y i have an overwhelming urge to cope through self deprecation even though i know logically that i am not the worst person in the world.why do i have to gain some type of depressionthIS ISNT FUCKING METHIS VIDEO IS A COPING MECHANISM FOR ME THIS VIDEO IS A COPING MECHANISM FOR ME THIS VIDEO IS A COPING MECHANISM FOR ME THIS VIDEO IS A COPING MECHANISM FOR ME THIS VIDEO IS A COPING MECHANISM FOR ME THIS VIDEO IS A COPING MECHANISM FOR ME THIS VIDEO IS A COPING MECHANISM FOR ME THIS VIDEO IS A COPING MECHANISM FOR ME THIS VIDEO IS A COPING MECHANISM FOR ME THIS VIDEO IS A COPING MECHANISM FOR ME THIS VIDEO IS A COPING MECHANISM FOR ME THIS VIDEO IS A COPING MECHANISM FOR ME AAA HH HH I NEED SOMEWHERE TO SCREAM I NEED ATTENTION I NEED NO ATTENTION I WANT TO GIVE UP BUT IM TRYING MY HARDEST TO LIVE MY DREAMS AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHFUCK EVERYTHING JUST I WANNA DIIIIEEEE I WANNAS DGGFHHVFHGFDGFHJGHFGHJUKJHGGHJHGBCHGJHFFHTGFHJYHGFGJUKHJGGJKUHJGJHKUHJGJKUH
tireddog speedpaint kd vnt 2018-06-14 | tireddog is my vent sonasong: soundcloud.com/ihateshinigami/i-will-never-be-a-memory-prod-4evr
