Kelsey Lu - Better Than That @KelseyLu

Kelsey Lu Kelsey Lu - Better Than That

So Help Me God - Out Now - kelsey-lu.ffm.to/sohelpmegod

Written & Directed by: Savanah Leaf
Director of Photography: Ryan Marie Helfant
Creative Director: Kelsey Lu
Producer: Jill Ferraro
Editor: Olivia Sack
Executive Producer: Shelley Jones
Associate Producer: Mia Jarrett
Production Company: Park Pictures & Paradise Productions
Park Pictures MD/Executive Producer: Fran Thompson
Creative Commissioner: Rachel Jones-Williams
Label: Dirty Hit
Management: Brandon Sánchez, Jordan Alper, Isabella Ruiz (ATC Management)
Kelsey Lu’s Associate Producers : Sally Sujin Oh, Eli Raskin
Casting Director: Stafi Samaki for Des Hamilton Casting
Casting Associates: Jo Harris & Ella Laurie
Stylist :Edda Gudmundsdottir
Knitted body and White dress : Jueun Jung
Assistant Stylist: Sinead Gorey
Hair Stylist: Malcolm Marquez
Makeup Artist: Bea Sweet
Production Designer: Valentina Luppino
Post Producer: Jill Ferraro
Colour & VFX: Electric Theatre Collective
Colourist: Jason Wallis
ETC Post Producer: Alex Carswell
Sound Design & Mix: Wave Studios NY
Wave Studios NY Sound Designer + Mixer: Austin Ferreira
Wave Studios NY Audio Producer: Eleni Giannopoulos
VFX: Electric Theatre Collective
ETC Post Producer: Alex Carswell
ETC Online & VFX: Danyal Kadir, Janak Rai Griffin & Nuval Jolly
VFX 852 & Visualizers: Stray
Stray Creative Director: Carl Norton
Stray Executive Producer: Clare Melia
Stray Producer: Max Castang
Assistant Editor: Olivia Sack
1st AD: Laura Carrion Del Pozo
1st AC: Toni Rodriguez
2nd AC: Yaiza Castelvi
Loader: Sofia Sasso
BTS Photographer: Alima Lee
Gaffer: Mehdi Lamsani
Key Grip: Antonio Gimenez
Local Producer: Luca Dobry
Local Production Manager: Camilo Arellano
Local Production Coordinator: Natalia Penas
Location Manager: Alejandro Diaz
Assistant Location Manager: Juliana Real
Sound Operator: Moises Sanchez
Production Assistant: Eugenia Padron
Production Assistant: Zuleica Gabas
Film Processing & Scans: Andec Film Berlin
Additional Editing: Sam Irvine

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Kelsey Lu - Better Than That

Kelsey Lu 2026-04-30 | Kelsey Lu - Better Than That

So Help Me God - Out Now - kelsey-lu.ffm.to/sohelpmegod

Written & Directed by: Savanah Leaf
Director of Photography: Ryan Marie Helfant
Creative Director: Kelsey Lu
Producer: Jill Ferraro
Editor: Olivia Sack
Executive Producer: Shelley Jones
Associate Producer: Mia Jarrett
Production Company: Park Pictures & Paradise Productions
Park Pictures MD/Executive Producer: Fran Thompson
Creative Commissioner: Rachel Jones-Williams
Label: Dirty Hit
Management: Brandon Sánchez, Jordan Alper, Isabella Ruiz (ATC Management)
Kelsey Lu’s Associate Producers : Sally Sujin Oh, Eli Raskin
Casting Director: Stafi Samaki for Des Hamilton Casting
Casting Associates: Jo Harris & Ella Laurie
Stylist :Edda Gudmundsdottir
Knitted body and White dress : Jueun Jung
Assistant Stylist: Sinead Gorey
Hair Stylist: Malcolm Marquez
Makeup Artist: Bea Sweet
Production Designer: Valentina Luppino
Post Producer: Jill Ferraro
Colour & VFX: Electric Theatre Collective
Colourist: Jason Wallis
ETC Post Producer: Alex Carswell
Sound Design & Mix: Wave Studios NY
Wave Studios NY Sound Designer + Mixer: Austin Ferreira
Wave Studios NY Audio Producer: Eleni Giannopoulos
VFX: Electric Theatre Collective
ETC Post Producer: Alex Carswell
ETC Online & VFX: Danyal Kadir, Janak Rai Griffin & Nuval Jolly
VFX 852 & Visualizers: Stray
Stray Creative Director: Carl Norton
Stray Executive Producer: Clare Melia
Stray Producer: Max Castang
Assistant Editor: Olivia Sack
1st AD: Laura Carrion Del Pozo
1st AC: Toni Rodriguez
2nd AC: Yaiza Castelvi
Loader: Sofia Sasso
BTS Photographer: Alima Lee
Gaffer: Mehdi Lamsani
Key Grip: Antonio Gimenez
Local Producer: Luca Dobry
Local Production Manager: Camilo Arellano
Local Production Coordinator: Natalia Penas
Location Manager: Alejandro Diaz
Assistant Location Manager: Juliana Real
Sound Operator: Moises Sanchez
Production Assistant: Eugenia Padron
Production Assistant: Zuleica Gabas
Film Processing & Scans: Andec Film Berlin
Additional Editing: Sam Irvine

Kelsey Lu - So Help Me God Short Film (Official Trailer)

Kelsey Lu 2026-07-14 | Kelsey Lu - So Help Me God Short Film (Official Trailer)

So Help Me God - Out Now - kelsey-lu.ffm.to/sohelpmegod

Kelsey Lu - Better Than That Live from Blue Note NYC

Kelsey Lu 2026-07-08 | Performed & written by: Kelsey Lu
Directed & Edited by: Gabe Drechsler
DP: Trent Millspaugh
VHS Operator: Lucas Eytchison

Keys: Mikael Darmanie
Drums: Zach Berns
Cello & Moog Synthesizer: Christopher Venditti
FOH: Jade Payne

Styling: Becky Akinyode
Hair: John Novotny
Makeup: Emily Schubert

April 2026

Kelsey Lu - Sign up to the mailing list for your chance to win🖤 #shorts #vinyl #sohelpmegod

Kelsey Lu 2026-07-03 | ...

Kelsey Lu - when you don’t fight, you don’t love anymore #kelseylu #indie #shorts #sohelpmegod

Kelsey Lu 2026-07-02 | ...

Kelsey Lu - 06. American Sonnet. volcanic gaseous tremblings become blood and light #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2026-06-25 | ...

Kelsey Lu - Blue Note... nothing was Better Than That. Full video coming soon ♡ #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2026-06-19 | ...

Kelsey Lu - 852 (Official Visualizer)

Kelsey Lu 2026-06-18 | Kelsey Lu - 852 (Official Visualizer)

So Help Me God - Out Now - kelsey-lu.ffm.to/sohelpmegod

Kelsey Lu - track 7 on So Help Me God #newmusic #kelseylu #shorts #852

Kelsey Lu 2026-06-18 | ...

Kelsey Lu - So Help Me God (Short Film)

Kelsey Lu 2026-06-12 | Kelsey Lu - So Help Me God

Written & Directed by: Savanah leaf
Director of Photography: Ryan Marie Helfant
Creative Director: Kelsey Lu
Producer: Jill Ferraro
Editor: Thomas Grove Carter
Executive Producer: Shelley Jones
Associate Producer: Mia Jarrett
Production Company: Park Pictures & Paradise Productions
Park Pictures MD/Executive Producer: Fran Thompson
Creative Commissioner: Rachel Jones-Williams
Label: Dirty Hit
Management: Brandon Sánchez, Jordan Alper, Isabella Ruiz (ATC Management)
Kelsey Lu’s Associate Producers : Sally Sujin Oh, Eli Raskin
Casting Director: Stafi Samaki for Des Hamilton Casting
Casting Associates: Jo Harris & Ella Laurie
Stylist Edda Gudmundsdottir
Assistant Stylist: Sinead Gorey
Hair Stylist: Malcolm Marquez
Makeup Artist: Bea Sweet
Production Designer: Valentina Luppino

—--------------------------------

Post Producer: Jill Ferraro
Edit House: Trim
Trim Assistant Editor: Holly Thomson
Trim Executive Producer: Noreen Khan
Colour: Electric Theatre Collective
Colourist: Jason Wallis
ETC Post Producer: Alex Carswell
Sound Design & Mix: Wave Studios NY
Wave Studios NY Sound Designer + Mixer: Austin Ferreira
Wave Studios NY Audio Producer: Eleni Giannopoulos
VFX: Electric Theatre Collective
ETC Post Producer: Alex Carswell
Online & VFX: Danyal Kadir, Janak Rai Griffin & Nuval Jolly
VFX 852 + Visualizers: Stray
Stray Creative Director: Carl Norton
Stray Executive Producer: Clare Melia
Stray Producer: Max Castang
Assistant Editor: Olivia Sack
1st AD: Laura Carrion Del Pozo
1st AC: Toni Rodriguez
2nd AC: Yaiza Castelvi
Loader: Sofia Sasso
Official Film & Album Photography: Yumna Al-Arashi
BTS Photographer: Alima Lee
Gaffer: Mehdi Lamsani
Key Grip: Antonio Gimenez

—--------------------------------

Local Service Production Company: AMPM
Local Producer: Luca Dobry
Local Production Manager: Camilo Arellano
Local Production Coordinator: Natalia Penas
Assistant Costume Designer: Sinead Gorey
Location Manager: Alejandro Diaz
Assistant Location Manager: Juliana Real
Sound Operator: Moises Sanchez
Production Assistant: Eugenia Padron
Production Assistant: Zuleica Gabas
Film Processing & Scans: Andec Film Berlin

Produced by: Kelsey Lu, Yves Rothman & Jack Antonoff

Performance credits:
Kelsey Lu - Vocals, Programming, Synths, Mellotron, Juno 106
Jack Antonoff - Drums, Programming, Korg M1, Moog Model D, Prophet 5, Mellotron, Omnichord, Electric and Acoustic Guitars
Ben Zelico - programming, Juno 6, mellotron

Miscellaneous Credits:
Vocal produced by Laura Sisk
Recorded by Lu, Laura Sisk, Jack Antonoff and Yves Rothman
Mixed by Oli Jacobs at Sharp Sonics Studios (Los Angeles, CA)
Mastered by Ruairi O’Flaherty at Nomograph Mastering (Los Angeles, CA)
Recorded at Electric Lady Studios (New York, NY), Tamarind (Los Angeles, CA) and Forum Studios (Rome, IT)
Assistant Engineers Francesco Putortì, Giacomo Gaspari, Katie May, Dom Shaw, Jack Manning, Jozef Caldwell and Joey Miller

Kelsey Lu - Watch So Help Me God this Friday. #kelseylu #newmusic #film #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2026-06-11 | ...

Kelsey Lu - Cutting Off The Head Of A Ghost

Kelsey Lu 2026-06-08 | Kelsey Lu - Cutting Off The Head Of A Ghost

So Help Me God - Out Now - kelsey-lu.ffm.to/sohelpmegod

Written & Directed by: Savanah leaf

Director of Photography: Ryan Marie Helfant

Creative Director: Kelsey Lu

Producer: Jill Ferraro

Editor: Thomas Grove Carter

Executive Producer: Shelley Jones

Associate Producer: Mia Jarrett

Production Company: Park Pictures & Paradise Productions

Park Pictures MD/Executive Producer: Fran Thompson

Creative Commissioner: Rachel Jones-Williams

Label: Dirty Hit

Management: Brandon Sánchez, Jordan Alper, Isabella Ruiz (ATC Management)

Kelsey Lu’s Associate Producers : Sally Sujin Oh, Eli Raskin

Casting Director: Stafi Samaki for Des Hamilton Casting

Casting Associates: Jo Harris & Ella Laurie

Stylist Edda Gudmundsdottir

Assistant Stylist: Sinead Gorey

Hair Stylist: Malcolm Marquez

Makeup Artist: Bea Sweet

Production Designer: Valentina Luppino

Post Producer: Jill Ferraro

Edit House: Trim

Trim Assistant Editor: Holly Thomson

Trim Executive Producer: Noreen Khan

Colour & VFX: Electric Theatre Collective

Colourist: Jason Wallis

ETC Post Producer: Alex Carswell

Sound Design & Mix: Wave Studios NY

Wave Studios NY Sound Designer + Mixer: Austin Ferreira

Wave Studios NY Audio Producer: Eleni Giannopoulos

VFX: Electric Theatre Collective

ETC Post Producer: Alex Carswell

ETC Online & VFX: Danyal Kadir, Janak Rai Griffin & Nuval Jolly

Assistant Editor: Olivia Sack

1st AD: Laura Carrion Del Pozo

1st AC: Toni Rodriguez

2nd AC: Yaiza Castelvi

Loader: Sofia Sasso

BTS Photographer: Alima Lee

Gaffer: Mehdi Lamsani

Key Grip: Antonio Gimenez

Local Producer: Luca Dobry

Local Production Manager: Camilo Arellano

Local Production Coordinator: Natalia Penas

Location Manager: Alejandro Diaz

Assistant Location Manager: Juliana Real

Sound Operator: Moises Sanchez

Production Assistant: Eugenia Padron

Production Assistant: Zuleica Gabas

Film Processing & Scans: Andec Film Berlin

Kelsey Lu - ‘Comfort’ at Maida Vale Studios !! #kelseylu #shorts #comfort #newmusic

Kelsey Lu 2026-05-29 | ...

Kelsey Lu - Comfort at Art Basel back in December #kelseylu #shorts #newmusic #comfort #livemusic

Kelsey Lu 2026-05-23 | ...

Kelsey Lu - Comfort

Kelsey Lu 2026-05-21 | Kelsey Lu - Comfort

So Help Me God - Out Now - kelsey-lu.ffm.to/sohelpmegod

Written & Directed by: Savanah leaf
Director of Photography: Ryan Marie Helfant
Creative Director: Kelsey Lu
Producer: Jill Ferraro
Editor: Olivia Sack
Executive Producer: Shelley Jones
Associate Producer: Mia Jarrett
Production Company: Park Pictures & Paradise Productions
Park Pictures MD/Executive Producer: Fran Thompson
Creative Commissioner: Rachel Jones-Williams
Label: Dirty Hit
Management: Brandon Sánchez, Jordan Alper, Isabella Ruiz (ATC Management)
Kelsey Lu’s Associate Producers : Sally Sujin Oh, Eli Raskin
Casting Director: Stafi Samaki for Des Hamilton Casting
Casting Associates: Jo Harris & Ella Laurie
Stylist: Edda Gudmundsdottir
Assistant Stylist: Sinead Gorey
Hair Stylist: Malcolm Marquez
Makeup Artist: Bea Sweet
Production Designer: Valentina Luppino
Post Producer: Jill Ferraro
Colour & VFX: Electric Theatre Collective
Colourist: Jason Wallis
ETC Post Producer: Alex Carswell
Sound Design & Mix: Wave Studios NY
Wave Studios NY Sound Designer + Mixer: Austin Ferreira
Wave Studios NY Audio Producer: Eleni Giannopoulos
VFX: Electric Theatre Collective
ETC Post Producer: Alex Carswell
ETC Online & VFX: Danyal Kadir, Janak Rai Griffin & Nuval Jolly
VFX 852 & Visualizers: Stray
Stray Creative Director: Carl Norton
Stray Executive Producer: Clare Melia
Stray Producer: Max Castang
Assistant Editor: Olivia Sack
1st AD: Laura Carrion Del Pozo
1st AC: Toni Rodriguez
2nd AC: Yaiza Castelvi
Loader: Sofia Sasso
BTS Photographer: Alima Lee
Gaffer: Mehdi Lamsani
Key Grip: Antonio Gimenez
Local Producer: Luca Dobry
Local Production Manager: Camilo Arellano
Local Production Coordinator: Natalia Penas
Location Manager: Alejandro Diaz
Assistant Location Manager: Juliana Real
Sound Operator: Moises Sanchez
Production Assistant: Eugenia Padron
Production Assistant: Zuleica Gabas
Film Processing & Scans: Andec Film Berlin
Additional Editing: Jack Caldwell

Kelsey Lu - a final escape out the back of the door #kelseylu #shorts #newmusic

Kelsey Lu 2026-04-29 | ...

Kelsey Lu - see the rock in my hand. 04/30 pre-save in bio #newmusic #shorts #kelseylu

Kelsey Lu 2026-04-28 | ...

Kelsey Lu - my Blue Note residency continues in LA this weekend, April 25 + 26 🤍🪽 #kelseylu #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2026-04-23 | ...

Kelsey Lu - the bell rings with burning desire #kelseylu #shorts #newmusic #indie

Kelsey Lu 2026-04-16 | ...

Kelsey Lu - back to pain…. #kelseylu #newmusic #shorts #indie

Kelsey Lu 2026-04-15 | ...

Kelsey Lu - wrap up your petals into your own damn self #kelseylu #newmusic #indie #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2026-04-13 | ...

Kelsey Lu - Blue Note residency starts next week, see you all soon 🪽 #livemusic #newmusic #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2026-04-12 | ...

Kelsey Lu - how can we learn? How we can yearn #shorts #kelseylu #newmusic #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2026-04-11 | ...

Kelsey Lu - Portrait Of A Lady On Fire, out now #kelseylu #shorts #newmusic

Kelsey Lu 2026-04-10 | ...

Kelsey Lu - Portrait Of A Lady On Fire, out now #shorts #kelseylu #indie #newmusic

Kelsey Lu 2026-04-09 | ...

Kelsey Lu - Portrait Of A Lady On Fire (Official Music Video)

Kelsey Lu 2026-04-09 | Kelsey Lu - Portrait Of A Lady On Fire

So Help Me God - 12 June - Pre-Order Now - kelsey-lu.ffm.to/sohelpmegod

Lyrics

burning desire
do you ever get like this
i wonder

burning desire
do you ever get like this
i wonder

burning desire

closed like a rose
wrap up your petals
into your own damn self

how do i know what your thinking
how do i know
its enough
is this enough

in the city you run
where you’re big n tough
i can’t fit in enough
if I’m feeling rushed
I know it’s uncertain
cuz nothin is certain

burning desire
do you ever get like this I wonder
burning desire
burning desire

Like weeds in the field
we yearn a connection
but deafening divide
leaves me unprotected

unprotected how can we learn
how we can yearn
only for you only for you
naw naw naw naw naw

burning desire
do you ever get like this I wonder
burning desire
do you ever get like this
do you ever get like this

ahhhhh

do you ever get like this
do you ever get like this

ahhhh

do you ever get like this
do you ever get like this

ahhhhh

Starring Kelsey Lu and Garance Marillier @iamkelseylu @garancemarillier

Written & Directed by: Savanah leaf @savanahleaf

Director of Photography: Ryan Marie Helfant @ryanmariehelfant

Creative Director: Kelsey Lu @iamkelseylu

Producer: Jill Ferraro @jill_earth

Editor: Olivia Sack @venus_butt

Executive Producer: Shelley Jones @shelleybones

Associate Producer: Mia Jarrett @miajarrett

Production Company: Park Pictures @parkpictures @parklondon.co

Production Company Paradise Productions @paradise.w0rk

Park Pictures MD/Executive Producer: Fran Thompson @fran.thompson

Creative Commissioner: Rachel Jones-Williams @_rach.jpeg

Label: Dirty Hit @dirtyhit

Management: Brandon Sánchez, Jordan Alper, Isabella Ruiz (ATC Management)

Kelsey Lu’s Associate Producers : Sally Sujin Oh, Eli Raskin

Casting Director: Stafi Samaki for Des Hamilton Casting @stafisamaki @deshamiltoncasting

Casting Associates: Jo Harris & Ella Laurie

Stylist Edda Gudmundsdottir @eddagud

Assistant Stylist: Sinead Gorey @sineadgorey

Hair Stylist: Malcolm Marquez @malcolm.marquez

Makeup Artist: Bea Sweet @beasweetbeauty

Production Designer: Valentina Luppino @valentinaluppino

Post Producer: Jill Ferraro @jill_earth

Colour: Electric Theatre Collective @electric_theatre_collective

Colourist: Jason Wallis

ETC Post Producer: Alex Carswell

Sound Design & Mix: Wave Studios NY

Wave Studios NY Sound Designer + Mixer: Austin Ferreira

Wave Studios NY Audio Producer: Eleni Giannopoulos

VFX: Electric Theatre Collective @electric_theatre_collective

ETC Online & VFX: Danyal Kadir, Janak Rai Griffin & Nuval Jolly

ETC Post Producer: Oliver Whitworth

VFX 852 & Visualizers: Stray @stray.ldn

Stray Creative Director: Carl Norton

Stray Executive Producer: Clare Melia @meliacl

Stray Producer: Max Castang @maxcastang

Assistant Editor: Olivia Sack @venus_butt

1st AD: Laura Carrion Del Pozo

1st AC: Toni Rodriguez

2nd AC: Yaiza Castelvi

Loader: Sofia Sasso

BTS Photographer: Alima Lee @alima_lee

Gaffer: Mehdi Lamsani @mehdilamsani

Key Grip: Antonio Gimenez

Local Service Production Company: AMPM @ampm.times

Local Producer: Luca Dobry @lucadobry

Local Production Manager: Camilo Arellano

Local Production Coordinator: Natalia Penas @npenas

Location Manager: Alejandro Diaz

Assistant Location Manager: Juliana Real

Sound Operator: Moises Sanchez

Production Assistant: Eugenia Padron

Production Assistant: Zuleica Gabas

Film Processing & Scans: Andec Film Berlin @andecfilm

Written composition by: Kelsey Lu, Yves Rothman, \

Produced by: Kelsey Lu, Yves Rothman & Laura Sisk

Performance credits:

Kelsey Lu - Vocals, Cello, Mellotron, Programming, DX7, Juno 106

Thomas Drayton - Electric Bass

Spencer Zahn – Bow bass

Miscellaneous Credits:

Vocal produced by Laura Sisk

Recorded by Lu, Laura Sisk, Jake Supple and Lily Wen (engineers)

Mixed by Oli Jacobs at Sharp Sonics Studios (Los Angeles, CA)

Mastered by Ruairi O’Flaherty at Nomograph Mastering (Los Angeles, CA)

Recorded at Electric Lady Studios (New York, NY), Forum Studios (Rome, IT), and Dreamland Recording (Woodstock, NY)

Assistant Engineers Francesco Putortì, Giacomo Gaspari, Katie May, Dom Shaw, Jack Manning, Jozef Caldwell and Joey Miller

Kelsey Lu - BLUE NOTE RESIDENCY 🩵NYC - APRIL 16 & 17 / LA - APRIL 25 & 26 #shorts #kelseylu

Kelsey Lu 2026-04-01 | ...

Kelsey Lu - keep sending them through when you receive yours xx #kelseylu #newmusic #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2026-04-01 | ...

Kelsey Lu - it keeps me sane #kelseylu #shorts #newmusic #indie

Kelsey Lu 2026-03-27 | ...

Kelsey Lu - Still I keep running #kelseylu #shorts #newmusic #indie

Kelsey Lu 2026-03-25 | ...

Kelsey Lu - when I fall back on my knees and I can’t let go #newmusic #shorts #runningtopain

Kelsey Lu 2026-03-23 | ...

Kelsey Lu - Running running running Back to pain #kelseylu #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2026-03-21 | ...

Kelsey Lu - It keeps me sane #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2026-03-20 | ...

Kelsey Lu - ‘Running To Pain’ out now. So Help Me God coming 06/12 #newmusic #kelseylu #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2026-03-18 | ...

Kelsey Lu - Running To Pain (Official Music Video)

Kelsey Lu 2026-03-18 | Kelsey Lu - Running To Pain

So Help Me God - 12 June - Pre-Order Now - kelsey-lu.ffm.to/sohelpmegod

Lyrics

when I fall back on my knees and I can’t let go
when that look of desperation calls out my name
I forget how much it hurts me every time
still I keep
Runnin Runnin Runnin Runnin
back to pain
yea I keep
Runnin Runnin Runnin Runnin
back to pain it keeps me
Sane
Sane
I can’t refrain
runnin through the fire
when my heart beats faster
It’s in my veins
runnin to pain is it the only way to tame
the demons inside that haunt my mind
finding solace in motion leave it all behind
takin all the pain
it’s all away
the tears on my face
it’s all a waste or no
let it go just let it go
when I fall back on my knees and I can’t let go
when that look of desperation calls out my name
I forget how much it hurts me every time
still I keep
Runnin Runnin Runnin Runnin
back to pain
yea I keep
Runnin Runnin Runnin Runnin
back to pain
it keeps me
Sane
Sane
I can’t refrain
when you come in and wreck my life
I can’t with you
You smooth like a jagged knife
I can’t with you
takin all the pain
it’s all away
the tears on my face
it’s all a waste or no
let it go
just let it go
Runnin
back to pain
Pain
it keeps me sane

Written & Directed by: Savanah Leaf
Director of Photography: Ryan Marie Helfant
Creative Director: Kelsey Lu
Producer: Jill Ferraro
Editor: Ben Elkaim
Executive Producer: Shelley Jones
Park Pictures MD/Executive Producer: Fran Thompson
Production Company: Park Pictures & Paradise Productions
Creative Commissioner: Rachel Jones-Williams
Label: Dirty Hit
Management: Brandon Sánchez, Jordan Alper, Isabella Ruiz (ATC Management)
Associate Producer: Mia Jarrett
Kelsey Lu Associate producers: Sally Sujin Oh, Eli Raskin
Casting Director: Stafi Samaki for Des Hamilton Casting
Casting Associates: Jo Harris & Ella Laurie
Stylist: Edda Gudmundsdottir
Styling Assistant: Sinead Gorey
Hair Stylist: Malcolm Marquez
Makeup Artist: Bea Sweet
Production Designer: Valentina Luppino
With Gratitude to my dear friend and Patron: Olivier Berggruen and Desiree Welsing
—--------------------------------
Post Producer: Jill Ferraro
Edit House: Trim
Trim Assistant Editor: Holly Thomson
Trim Executive Producer: Noreen Khan
Colour: Electric Theatre Collective
Colourist: Jason Wallis
ETC Post Producer: Alex Carswell
Sound Design & Mix: Wave Studios NY
Wave Studios NY Sound Designer + Mixer: Austin Ferreira
Wave Studios NY Audio Producer: Eleni Giannopoulos
VFX: Electric Theatre Collective
ETC Post Producer: Alex Carswell
Online & VFX: Danyal Kadir, Janak Rai Griffin & Nuval Jolly
VFX 852: Stray
Stray Creative Director: Carl Norton
Stray Executive Producer: Clare Melia
Stray Producer: Max Castang
Assistant Editor: Olivia Sack
Title Design: Metals
1st AD: Laura Carrion Del Pozo
1st AC: Toni Rodriguez
2nd AC: Yaiza Castelvi
Loader: Sofia Sasso
Written composition by: Kelsey Lu (Warp Publishing), Nate Campany (Dear Cleveland Publishing/Where Da Kasz At) (BMI), Daniel Wilson (Concord Sounds (ASCAP) obo Young Rubbish (ASCAP) c/o Concord Music Publishing)

Produced by: Kelsey Lu, Yves Rothman & Jack Antonoff

Performance credits:
Kelsey Lu - Vocals, Programming, Synths, Mellotron, Juno 106
Jack Antonoff - Drums, Programming, Korg M1, Moog Model D, Prophet 5, Mellotron, Omnichord, Electric and Acoustic Guitars
Ben Zelico - programming, Juno 6, mellotron

Miscellaneous Credits:
Vocal produced by Laura Sisk
Recorded by Lu, Laura Sisk, Jack Antonoff and Yves Rothman
Mixed by Oli Jacobs at Sharp Sonics Studios (Los Angeles, CA)
Mastered by Ruairi O’Flaherty at Nomograph Mastering (Los Angeles, CA)
Recorded at Electric Lady Studios (New York, NY), Tamarind (Los Angeles, CA) and Forum Studios (Rome, IT)
Assistant Engineers Francesco Putortì, Giacomo Gaspari, Katie May, Dom Shaw, Jack Manning, Jozef Caldwell and Joey Miller

Kelsey Lu - THIS IS A TEST will be available to stream from January 22nd until February 1st #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2026-01-21 | ...

Kelsey Lu - sign up now via the link in bio for the chance to attend the screening of THIS IS A TEST

Kelsey Lu 2026-01-09 | ...

Kelsey Lu - Enter the ballot for the New York screening of THIS IS A TEST. Link in bio #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2026-01-07 | ...

Kelsey Lu - THIS IS A TEST - sign up via link in bio for more information to come #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2026-01-05 | ...

Kelsey Lu - THIS IS A TEST - an archive performance ❀ #kelseylu #thisisatest #shorts #performance

Kelsey Lu 2025-12-27 | ...

Kelsey Lu - The last page of the Blood era 🩸#shorts #kelseylu #thisisatest

Kelsey Lu 2025-12-23 | ...

Kelsey Lu - THIS IS A TEST was filmed in 2021. A page turning toward what’s coming next #shorts

Kelsey Lu 2025-12-19 | ...

Kelsey Lu - my cover of 10cc’s ‘I’m Not In Love’ available on vinyl very soon ❥ #shorts #kelseylu

Kelsey Lu 2025-10-29 | ...

Kelsey Lu - blood vinyl out soon 🩸#kelseylu #shorts #vinyl #newmusic #foreigncar

Kelsey Lu 2025-10-28 | ...

Kelsey Lu - blood vinyl available very soon 🥀 #kelseylu #shorts #newmusic #vinyl

Kelsey Lu 2025-10-20 | ...

Kelsey Lu - blood LPs are shipping to you in one week 💌#kelseylu #shorts #newmusic

Kelsey Lu 2025-10-17 | ...

Kelsey Lu - hallway reunion 🖤 from my score for Daughters #kelseylu #documentary

Kelsey Lu 2025-10-14 | ...

Kelsey Lu - Mother’s Circle from my score for Daughters 💙 #kelseylu #daughters

Kelsey Lu 2025-10-10 | ...

Kelsey Lu - wanna drive you #kelseylu #shorts #foreigncar

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Kelsey Lu - back in 2018, performing for Jil Sander #kelseylu #livemusic #jilsander #fashionweek

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