LYRICS: I found wings in my attic one more superpower I’ve outgrown my brother has basketball practice I’m going to hit on the coach
I saw Jesus Christ in a bookstore he looked burdened with all that belief he cut me in line without remorse said we’re all powering the same machine
oh, grew up and learned the cost oh, I can’t sleep this one off now I know that I bleed months oh, but I was a machine once
I got drunk for the first time or as drunk as my brain would permit I swayed beside a stuffed lion and briefly loved a scientist
I think I saw God in the bathroom some pretty girl was holding her hair back and I offered her fistfuls of tissues she bit back tears and told me not to do that
oh, grew up and learned the cost oh, I can’t sleep this one off now I know that I bleed months oh, but I was a machine once
I saw this boy in a nightmare after I passed him on campus you know, the one I’m still scared of even though nothing happened I shudder at what might have happened growing up is bad dreams put in practice
oh, grew up and learned the cost oh... oh, grew up and learned the cost oh, I can’t sleep this one off now I know that I bleed months oh, but I was a machine once
Song Credits: Acoustic guitar - Jensen McRae Cello - Doc Allison Viola - Jeremy Jones
Recording engineer: Stuart Schenk Recorded at Rahki’s Room, Pulse Burbank
Mixed by Tony Maserati Mastered by Michelle Mancini, Demifugue Mastering at Larrabee Studios, North Hollywood CA
LYRICS: I found wings in my attic one more superpower I’ve outgrown my brother has basketball practice I’m going to hit on the coach
I saw Jesus Christ in a bookstore he looked burdened with all that belief he cut me in line without remorse said we’re all powering the same machine
oh, grew up and learned the cost oh, I can’t sleep this one off now I know that I bleed months oh, but I was a machine once
I got drunk for the first time or as drunk as my brain would permit I swayed beside a stuffed lion and briefly loved a scientist
I think I saw God in the bathroom some pretty girl was holding her hair back and I offered her fistfuls of tissues she bit back tears and told me not to do that
oh, grew up and learned the cost oh, I can’t sleep this one off now I know that I bleed months oh, but I was a machine once
I saw this boy in a nightmare after I passed him on campus you know, the one I’m still scared of even though nothing happened I shudder at what might have happened growing up is bad dreams put in practice
oh, grew up and learned the cost oh... oh, grew up and learned the cost oh, I can’t sleep this one off now I know that I bleed months oh, but I was a machine once
Song Credits: Acoustic guitar - Jensen McRae Cello - Doc Allison Viola - Jeremy Jones
Recording engineer: Stuart Schenk Recorded at Rahki’s Room, Pulse Burbank
Mixed by Tony Maserati Mastered by Michelle Mancini, Demifugue Mastering at Larrabee Studios, North Hollywood CAJensen McRae - Massachusetts (Official Visualizer)Jensen McRae2024-06-11 | “Massachusetts” by Jensen McRae out now on Dead Oceans. Stream/Buy “Massachusetts”: jensen-mcrae.lnk.to/Massachusetts
Written by - Jensen McRae and Mary Weitz Produced by - Brad Cook Engineered by - Paul Voran Mixed by - Chris Tabron at Rumours, Brooklyn Assistant Mix Engineer - Kari Estes at Rumours, Brooklyn Mastered by - David Kutch at The Mastering Palace, NYC Artwork by - Caity Krone Recorded at Stadium Heights and Puff City, Durham NC
Photo + Super-8 video Caity Krone @caitytakesphotos DP: Gabriella Hughes @gabriellahughes Makeup: Ashley Tani @makeupbyashleytani Lighting: Lauren Nieves @laurennieves_ Video Editor: Eric Daniels @ericwdanielss BTS Photo Kendra Harris: @iamkendraharri
Lyrics: When someone tells me they’re from Massachusetts, Now I always ask what part. I wonder if you kept the pilgrim ashtray— if it’s still propped up on your bar cart. Could make a grand off of the chain you bought me, But goddamn, it’s not for sale. When someone asks me who’s my favorite Batman, I’ll think of you and say Christian Bale.
As long as I live I’ll remember the names of your favorite beers and your video games. The look on your face when you turned 26 and your dad got too stoned, yeah, that one’s gonna stick. You broke me to pieces but I root for you even though everything went up in flames. I’ll never forget how I bloomed for your gaze or your wall of guitars or your video games, Or your video games, Or your video games.
Pick up your phrases, now I say “it’s aces” but it always sounds so fake. I wonder if your tongue is turning over anything I used to say. Your sister’s trying for a baby lately and your parents got new jobs. It’s getting darker so I turn you down but I can’t turn you off.
As long as I live I’ll remember the names of your favorite beers and your video games. The look on your face when you turned 26 and your dad got too stoned, yeah, that one’s gonna stick. You broke me to pieces but I root for you even though everything went up in flames. I’ll never forget how I bloomed for your gaze or your wall of guitars or your video games, Or your video games, Or your video games.
At least I’m treading water and not about to drown. I’m not trying to find you, babe, you’re just around. Everything reminds me of you even now, Even now, Even now.
As long as I live I’ll remember the names of your favorite beers and your video games. The fire in my gut that I’ve chased ever since, yeah, you set the bar, You’re gonna stick.
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Jensen McRae - Massachusetts (Official Visualizer) #JensenMcRae #Massachusetts #DeadOceans#massachusetts OUT JUNE 11 !!!! #newmusic #videogames #christianbale #youtubeshortsJensen McRae2024-06-06 | ...1 Second Everyday 2023Jensen McRae2023-12-31 | goodbye 2023 🤍Jensen McRae - Sing For My SupperJensen McRae2023-10-11 | I spend the first 18 years of my life being treated like an outcast for wanting to make music and then I woke up one morning and I was in my mid-20s and everyone wa pretending they wanted to be a rockstar all along…
Recorded at Speakeasy Studios in Burbank, CA Engineered & Mixed by Paul Redel Assistant Engineer: Leif Eisemann
Director: Mitchell Abraham Production Co: Dojohouse Executive Producer: Danny Pollack Associate Producer: Wade Davis Production Manager: Jesse Rojas Cinematographer: Michael Morones Assistant Camera: JT Boehme Editor/Color: Mitchell Abraham Production Assistants: Noah Zaidspiner, Janessa Bizarra, Lucinda Larnach, Iza Icaza MUA: Bryan MendezJensen McRae - I Dont Miss YouJensen McRae2023-10-11 | When I was 20 I wrote this about the boy I was obsessed with when I was 16 and when I was 23 I sang it about the boy I was obsessed with when I was 19 and now I’m well past 23 indeed and I will just keep collecting trivia about the men I have loved like what song makes them cry (nature boy, moon river) or what their favorite movie is (the big lebowski, batman begins) or who their celebrity crush is (why is it never anyone who looks like me) or where they are in the birth order (why is it always the youngest son)…
Engineered & Mixed by Paul Redel Assistant Engineer: Leif Eisemann
Director: Mitchell Abraham Production Co: Dojohouse Executive Producer: Danny Pollack Associate Producer: Wade Davis Production Manager: Jesse Rojas Cinematographer: Michael Morones Assistant Camera: JT Boehme Editor/Color: Mitchell Abraham Production Assistants: Noah Zaidspiner, Janessa Bizarra, Lucinda Larnach, Iza Icaza MUA: Bryan MendezJensen McRae - Fever DreamJensen McRae2023-10-11 | The morning after you get your heart broken, nothing feels real. All you want is for the new normal to actually feel normal, and for the love you lost to just sound like someone else’s very long and confusing dream…
Recorded at Speakeasy Studios in Burbank, CA Engineered & Mixed by Paul Redel Assistant Engineer: Leif Eisemann
Director: Mitchell Abraham Production Co: Dojohouse Executive Producer: Danny Pollack Associate Producer: Wade Davis Production Manager: Jesse Rojas Cinematographer: Michael Morones Assistant Camera: JT Boehme Editor/Color: Mitchell Abraham Production Assistants: Noah Zaidspiner, Janessa Bizarra, Lucinda Larnach, Iza Icaza MUA: Bryan MendezIt Wasn’t Supposed To Be Like This…Premiere PartyJensen McRae2023-09-20 | Kick it with me while we count down to the release of my new live visual EP!Jensen McRae - It Wasnt Supposed To Be Like This...Jensen McRae2023-09-20 | In 2021 I shot a live performance video for a song I wrote called ‘Adam’s Ribs.’ It’s one of my favorite pieces of art I’ve ever made, and for all of 2023 I have been thinking about it as I have trudged a winding and thorny path to my next record.
Album 2 isn’t ready - yet - so consider this era 1.5.
Playing live is one of my favorite things to do, so I thought I’d try to capture the magic of some of the live sets I’ve played on the road in the last year and a half. The only difference is, very few of you have heard any of these songs in their entirety. They’re brand new (well, new to you), and I performed them live, in studio, with just me and my guitar.
There is something so surreal about recognizing that you’re at one of life’s rare dividing lines—to know you are enduring something that has a Before and an After and you will never be the same. This project is about that—about splitting in two, accepting that half of you is gone, and trying to rebuild the rest from scratch.
It Wasn’t Supposed To Be Like This…
00:00 Intro 00:40 Fever Dream 04:05 Sing For My Supper 06:31 God Has A Hitman 10:14 Colma, CA 14:01 I Don't Miss You
Recorded at Speakeasy Studios in Burbank, CA Engineered & Mixed by Paul Redel Assistant Engineer: Leif Eisemann
Director: Mitchell Abraham Production Co: Dojohouse Executive Producer: Danny Pollack Associate Producer: Wade Davis Production Manager: Jesse Rojas Cinematographer: Michael Morones Assistant Camera: JT Boehme Editor/Color: Mitchell Abraham Production Assistants: Noah Zaidspiner, Janessa Bizarra, Lucinda Larnach, Iza Icaza MUA: Bryan MendezJensen McRae - God Has A HitmanJensen McRae2023-09-13 | This is a song about a time I compared myself to a person who is absolutely nothing like me and feeling like the universe made me aware of their existence either to destroy me altogether or to finally stop the game of comparison once and for all…
Recorded at Speakeasy Studios in Burbank, CA Engineered & Mixed by Paul Redel Assistant Engineer: Leif Eisemann
Director: Mitchell Abraham Production Co: Dojohouse Executive Producer: Danny Pollack Associate Producer: Wade Davis Production Manager: Jesse Rojas Cinematographer: Michael Morones Assistant Camera: JT Boehme Editor/Color: Mitchell Abraham Production Assistants: Noah Zaidspiner, Janessa Bizarra, Lucinda Larnach, Iza Icaza MUA: Bryan MendezJensen McRae - Colma, CAJensen McRae2023-09-06 | There is a town in northern California where the dead outnumber the living 1000 to 1 because there are so many cemeteries there. When I was 21, I thought it might be easier to live there than ever actually get close to another human being…
Recorded at Speakeasy Studios in Burbank, CA Engineered & Mixed by Paul Redel Assistant Engineer: Leif Eisemann
Director: Mitchell Abraham Production Co: Dojohouse Executive Producer: Danny Pollack Associate Producer: Wade Davis Production Manager: Jesse Rojas Cinematographer: Michael Morones Assistant Camera: JT Boehme Editor/Color: Mitchell Abraham Production Assistants: Noah Zaidspiner, Janessa Bizarra, Lucinda Larnach, Iza Icaza MUA: Bryan Mendeza song I wrote called ‘mother wound’ 🌙 #astrology #originalsong #songwriter #shortsJensen McRae2023-06-02 | ...Jensen McRae - With The Lights On (Lyric Video)Jensen McRae2022-03-22 | Listen to my debut album "Are You Happy Now?": orcd.co/areyouhappynow
LYRICS: got my heart broken I got aggressive tried to take pride in being defensive can’t read the room of your body well do you want my love or my help I can’t keep my heart to myself
I had a bone to pick wanted a hired hit I’m second guessing it I’m feeling generous I had an axe to grind you made me change my mind chip on my shoulder’s gone let me come on too strong
na, na, na, he only loved me after nightfall na, na, na, I wanna love you with the lights on (x2)
after he left I barely survived it took up with cautious and keeping quiet thought hiding would be good for my health but you are like nobody else I can’t keep my heart to myself
I had a grudge to hold haunted by heartbreak’s ghost guess I could let it go don’t wanna be alone I had an axe to grind you made me change my mind chip on my shoulder’s gone let me come on too strong
na, na, na, he only loved me after nightfall na, na, na, I wanna love you with the lights on (x2)
Wanna love you, wanna love you with the lights on (x3)
INSTRUMENTAL
Wanna love you, wanna love you with the lights on
na, na, na, he only loved me after nightfall na, na, na, I wanna love you with the lights on (x2)
na, na, na, I wanna love you with the lights on the lights on wanna love you with the lights on (x2)
Song Credits: Electric guitar - Keith Askey Bass guitar - Rahki Percussion (guiro, timbales, shaker, casaba, temple blocks, cowbell) - Rahki Kalimba - Rahki Kids Choir Director - JD Steele **Kids Choir - Erinayo Adeniyi, Korede Adeniyi, Nana Ofusu Okyere, Princess Naawura Okyere, Sara Okyere, Dorcas Aroloye, Oluwaferanmi Oladiran
Recording engineer: Rahki & Stuart Schenk Percussion recorded by Stuart Schenk Recorded at Rahki’s Room, Pulse Burbank
Kid’s Choir Engineer: Josh Levy Kid’s choir recorded at Winterland Studios, Minneapolis, MN
Mixed by Tony Maserati Mastered by Michelle Mancini, Demifugue Mastering at Larrabee Studios, North Hollywood CAJensen McRae - Good Legs (Lyric Video)Jensen McRae2022-03-22 | Listen to my debut album "Are You Happy Now?": orcd.co/areyouhappynow
LYRICS: I think I learned from you I think I love the girl you made me bled out what hurt from you it’s worthy work but now I’m dizzy
and you said, don’t live in your head the world’s so wide, why not explore and you said I got good legs no one’s ever told me that before
I don’t mind missing you I don’t mind building up the muscle it was an honor risking you a losing bet but worth the trouble
and you said, don’t live in your head the world’s so wide, why not explore and you said I got good legs no one’s ever told me that before
kissed me with a nervous tongue neither of us had chewing gum I had almost sobered up but your laughter got me drunk cracking jokes with every touch Fleetwood Mac made loving fun you left, I cried the morning of but I’m fine now baby because
you said, get me out of your head I’m not your last, there’s so much more but you said I got good legs and no one’s ever told me that before
you said I got good legs and no one’s ever told me that before you said I got good legs good legs
Song Credits: Electric guitar - Jensen McRae Second electric Guitar - Keith Askey Additional electric Guitar - Mallory Hauser Drums - Cameron Lee Grand piano - Sara Mulford Bass guitar - Mackin Carroll Percussion - Rahki Wurlitzer - Sara Mulford
Recording engineer: Stuart Schenk Recorded at Speakeasy Studios, Burbank, CA
Mixed by Tony Maserati Mastered by Michelle Mancini, Demifugue Mastering at Larrabee Studios, North Hollywood CAJensen McRae - Take It Easy (Lyric Video)Jensen McRae2022-03-22 | Listen to my debut album 'Are You Happy Now?': orcd.co/areyouhappynow
LYRICS:
I don’t wanna talk about it anymore it’s a blessing but we’re beating a dead horse fortune tried to drown me some so you tell me I’m the lucky one atlas did your back get sore I don’t wanna talk about it anymore
I can’t stop the flood from pouring out of me drowning in my body & not proud to be it’s a possession, oh, I’ve done nothing don’t treat me like I saved something Noah, was it hard to breathe I can’t stop the flood from pouring out of me
take it easy take it easy take it easy take it easy
how much of my heart can I afford to hide? maybe I’m a fraud in a good disguise first time in the ring today they got me fighting with the heavyweights David, help me hit this fear between the eyes how much of my heart can I afford to hide?
take it easy take it easy take it easy take it easy
can’t feel my face this must be the place where there’s no going back hero from the hometown don’t tell me don’t look down it’s too late for that
take it easy take it easy take it easy take it easy (x2)
Song Credits: Acoustic guitar - Jensen Bass guitar - Rahki Electric guitar - Keith Askey Casaba - Rahki Background vocals - Larry James Walker II and Lori Roberts
Recording engineer: Rahki Background vocals recorded by Stuart Schenk Recorded at Rahki’s Room, Pulse Burbank
Mixed by Tony Maserati Mastered by Michelle Mancini, Demifugue Mastering at Larrabee Studios, North Hollywood CAJensen McRae - Make You Proud (Lyric Video)Jensen McRae2022-03-22 | Listen to my debut album "Are You Happy Now?": orcd.co/areyouhappynow
LYRICS: this is the year you go hungry the first time but you're no good at it so you quit one year from now you will say you fell for someone he's not worthy of you, he goes along with your ruse you would've taken anyone
if you stick around I'll make you proud at nineteen you still won't be skinny and you'll still be loud and darling, the world's not against you someday you'll climb out don't hurt yourself give me a chance to make you proud
two years from now, you will give up on loving yourself you'll sketch lines in the flesh that you so badly want to escape I can't change the past, but I beg of you, don't do it please you are worthy of love you are worthy of all that you need
if you stick around I'll make you proud at nineteen you still won't be skinny and you'll still be loud and darling, the world's not against you someday you'll climb out don't hurt yourself give me a chance to make you proud
three years from now, you get your heart broken the first time it'll feel like he's breaking it over again every day but after you fill up your castle with art that you make in his name you'll pick up your pieces and promise to keep yourself safe
if you stick around I'll make you proud at nineteen you still won't be skinny and you'll still be loud and darling, the world's not against you someday you'll climb out don't hurt yourself give me a chance to make you proud
don't hurt yourself give me a chance to make you proud
Song Credits: Acoustic Guitar - Jensen McRae
Recording engineer: Rahki Recorded at Rahki’s Room, Pulse Burbank
Mixed by Tony Maserati Mastered by Michelle Mancini, Demifugue Mastering at Larrabee Studios, North Hollywood CAJensen McRae - Happy Girl (Visualizer)Jensen McRae2022-03-01 | “Happy Girl” began, quite fittingly, as a mistake—I was trying to play one chord progression but wound up playing the opening notes of what it eventually became. I was in Rahki’s studio, halfway through my last year of college, reflecting on all the girls I’d been to get me to that point. I thought about how I’d done everything I was supposed to do, had sanded off the edges of myself that had always pushed people away from me, and I still wasn’t happy. And I thought about how articulating the pain and loneliness of being chronically apart from others is often more trouble than it’s worth. So I wrote this song about the language gap between feeling pain and explaining it, and, as on “Dead Girl Walking,” how it is both easier and harder to manufacture a happy exterior than to invite people into your darkness" - Jensen McRae
Sit down, got something to say though I don’t know if I should By the way my light’s gone out You know I’m not doing good
I took the years like a pill so I’m supposed to be cured Lost weight and smiled for the camera What a happy girl
Sometimes I am, I am, I am Sometimes I am
Know you wanted a happy girl I can lie if I cannot learn How to become a happy girl I can act like a happy happy girl Happy girl Happy girl I can act like a happy girl
These days, not sure where the bruise is everywhere hurts Say chin up, sad girl The truth is it could be worse You want to meet in the middle We both make wrong turns I try to map out the pain but There are no words
Know you wanted a happy girl I can lie if I cannot learn How to become a happy girl I can act like a happy happy girl Happy girl Happy girl I can act like a happy girl
HUMS
Know you wanted a happy girl I can lie if I cannot learn How to become a happy girl I can act like a happy happy girl Happy girl Happy girl I can act like a happy girlJensen McRae - Happy Girl (Lyric Video)Jensen McRae2022-02-24 | Stream my new single "Happy Girl": orcd.co/happy-girl
Sit down, got something to say though I don’t know if I should By the way my light’s gone out You know I’m not doing good
I took the years like a pill so I’m supposed to be cured Lost weight and smiled for the camera What a happy girl
Sometimes I am, I am, I am Sometimes I am
Know you wanted a happy girl I can lie if I cannot learn How to become a happy girl I can act like a happy happy girl Happy girl Happy girl I can act like a happy girl
These days, not sure where the bruise is everywhere hurts Say chin up, sad girl The truth is it could be worse You want to meet in the middle We both make wrong turns I try to map out the pain but There are no words
Know you wanted a happy girl I can lie if I cannot learn How to become a happy girl I can act like a happy happy girl Happy girl Happy girl I can act like a happy girl
HUMS
Know you wanted a happy girl I can lie if I cannot learn How to become a happy girl I can act like a happy happy girl Happy girl Happy girl I can act like a happy girl
Song Credits: 12 String guitar - Keith Askey Acoustic guitar - Jensen McRae Slide guitar - Keith Askey Cello - Doc Allison Bass Guitar - Rahki Bongos - Rahki
Recording engineer: Rahki Recorded at Rahki’s Room, Pulse Burbank
Mixed by Tony Maserati Mastered by Michelle Mancini, Demifugue Mastering at Larrabee Studios, North Hollywood CAone year since the tweet that birthed ‘immune’ 💉Jensen McRae2022-01-14 | ...all about my journals! 📓Jensen McRae2022-01-07 | ...Jensen McRae - My Ego Dies At The End (Visualizer)Jensen McRae2021-11-23 | Stream my new single 'My Ego Dies At The End': orcd.co/myegodies
“My Ego Dies At The End is about disenchantment with the life you thought you wanted. Growing up and becoming the person I’ve always wanted to be has been rewarding, but it’s also been painful. There’s a lot about being a little girl that I’ve had to let go - things I always valued that no longer serve me, things I miss. Sometimes I don’t recognize the girl I’ve become, even though I’m proud of her. Its a process that I know will continue for the rest of my life. This song is a love song to the girl I used to be and to the woman I’m becoming, and all the glory and growing pains that go with that.”
I think I lost something in the water I tried to swim to it I could not swim to it drowned in a dream that should’ve made me stronger I tried to swim through it I could not swim through it
leave my body and the party early cry on the train playing Justin Vernon such a long walk back to 30th
I have the dream again I have the dream again my ego dies at the end it’s ego death
I live the dream I guess still don’t know what it meant who am I, I’ve lost the thread my ego dies at the end
I lost the girl I was over a winter I tried to cry for it I could not cry for it sank down to search the bottom of the river I tried to die for it I could not die for it
leave my body and the water early dry baptism but it felt like burning if I don’t write about it was it really worth it?
I have the dream again I have the dream again my ego dies at the end it’s ego death I live the dream I guess still don’t know what it meant who am I, I’ve lost the thread my ego dies at the end
leave my body and my ego early kill it kind with a surgeon’s mercy claim I put it out of its misery
I have the dream again I have the dream again my ego dies at the end it’s ego death
I live the dream I guess still don’t know what it meant who am I, I’ve lost the thread my ego dies at the endJensen McRae - My Ego Dies At The End (Lyric Video)Jensen McRae2021-11-17 | Stream my debut album "Are You Happy Now?": orcd.co/areyouhappynow
I think I lost something in the water I tried to swim to it I could not swim to it drowned in a dream that should’ve made me stronger I tried to swim through it I could not swim through it
leave my body and the party early cry on the train playing Justin Vernon such a long walk back to 30th
I have the dream again I have the dream again my ego dies at the end it’s ego death
I live the dream I guess still don’t know what it meant who am I, I’ve lost the thread my ego dies at the end
I lost the girl I was over a winter I tried to cry for it I could not cry for it sank down to search the bottom of the river I tried to die for it I could not die for it
leave my body and the water early dry baptism but it felt like burning if I don’t write about it was it really worth it?
I have the dream again I have the dream again my ego dies at the end it’s ego death I live the dream I guess still don’t know what it meant who am I, I’ve lost the thread my ego dies at the end
leave my body and my ego early kill it kind with a surgeon’s mercy claim I put it out of its misery
I have the dream again I have the dream again my ego dies at the end it’s ego death
I live the dream I guess still don’t know what it meant who am I, I’ve lost the thread my ego dies at the end
Song Credits: Acoustic guitar - Jensen McRae Electric guitar - Keith Askey Bass guitar - Chris Smith Percussion (guiro, tambourine, djembe, shakers) - Rahki
Recording engineer: Rahki Percussion recorded by Stuart Schenk Recorded at Rahki’s Room, Pulse Burbank
Mixed by Tony Maserati Mastered by Michelle Mancini, Demifugue Mastering at Larrabee Studios, North Hollywood CAJensen McRae - Who Hurt You?: Behind The ScenesJensen McRae2021-07-22 | An inside peek into the creative shoot for "Who You Hurt?"
LYRICS I was 15, still in the valley Walking in a parking garage First time I met a wolf in person At first I thought it was a dog I tried to dodge him, he was faster Than I’d ever had to be He smiled and howled in the same moment It knocked the wind right out of me And though I got away I never walked the same
Now I bury my smile and show no interest Now I carry myself a little different Now I avoid the woods Now I know the wolves
I was 19, still fun at parties He plied me with shot after shot He assured me he was harmless Why did I ever trust a fox I ignored all of my teachings How I survived I can’t believe I almost let him get his claws in Still knocks the wind right out of me And though I got away I never walked the same
Now I bury my smile and show no interest Now I carry myself a little different Now I avoid the woods Now I know the wolves
Saw a teenage girl on my street Talking tall to one of them Recognized him in an instant Heard about him from my friends Thank god women learned to whisper But I crave a megaphone That wolf said “it’s dangerous out there” That wolf said “let me walk you home”
Now I bury my smile and show no interest Now I carry myself a little different Now I avoid the woods Now I know the wolvesJensen McRae - Dead Girl Walking (Visualizer)Jensen McRae2021-07-01 | Stream my debut EP 'Who Hurt You?': orcd.co/whohurtyou
LYRICS: grim is knocking I’m a dead girl walking always hits me hardest in stranger’s cars aches in my body like I stayed up boxing I’m a dead girl walking but I’ve walked this far
hey, will you hit me where it hurts I won’t feel anything otherwise babe, I don’t know anything for sure don’t think I’ll make it but I guess I might is there any stopping what the illness causes I’m a dead girl walking I’m a dead girl
world is watching me, the dead girl walking keep my ghosts from talking and the mask won’t fall friends come often with their praise and problems I’m a dead girl walking for a good time call
hey, will you hit me where it hurts I won’t feel anything otherwise babe, I don’t know anything for sure don’t think I’ll make it but I guess I might is there any stopping what the illness causes I’m a dead girl walking I’m a dead girl
should enjoy it while I can walk mouth full of blood like I just flossed does the bleeding mean I’m still alive you should see the other guy you should see the other guy
hey, will you hit me where it hurts I won’t feel anything otherwise babe, I don’t know anything for sure don’t think I’ll make it but I guess I might is there any stopping what the illness causes I’m a dead girl walking I’m a dead girl
I’m a dead girl walking I’m a dead girlJensen McRae - Adam’s Ribs (Live from The City Of Angels) Pre-Premier HangoutJensen McRae2021-06-29 | The EP has been out for a week and already I am giving you a gorgeous new surprise: a live performance of “Adam’s Ribs,” one of my new songs off my debut EP, “Who Hurt You?” It premieres RIGHT HERE - youtu.be/yeU-4sM9PyQ on Tuesday 6/29 at 11a PST !
“Adam’s Ribs” is a rare song that isn’t about one person or experience in particular, but rather a record of a feeling, a pursuit of the explanation of a lifetime’s worth of unrequited love. I’m not a biblical person, but I find the allusions and imagery in the bible to be incredibly profound. The narrative of a love sprung from one’s own bones was too rich to pass up. This live performance is one of my favorite things I’ve ever done, and I hope it reminds you of every time you clung to love that didn’t cling back to you, how utterly hopeless and devastating that was, but also powerful, and how full of light.
Co Director / Creative Director / Production designer: Nicky Parks Co Director / DP: Madeline Leach Recording & Mixing Engineer: Stuart Schenk Gaffer: Tristan Moffatt Key Grip: Manchin Hsiang Steadicam: Luke Rihl 1st AC/Loader: Matthew Borek 2nd AC: Amber Buchanan Editor: Tom Felke Colorist: Arianna Shining Star Styling: Kat Typaldos Styling Asst: Antonio Soto HMU: Tara Segar Producer: Amy Geist
Camera Package: Standard Camera Film Development & Processing: Fotokem Film Scanning: Origins Archival
LYRICS: I tried to bargain not to get thrown from the garden too fast I fell to begging have you ever lost heaven feel like the product of such a savage harvest you break it makes me bloom it’s like I’m made of you it’s like I’m made of you
I can’t lose you yet I refuse to let you go loving you is in my bones something’s gotta give Adam, will you claim me as your own
this heartbreak quietly rewired me my world is ending now don’t tell me to calm down this love letter begins to Adam from your ribs so-called intelligent design without you I would die without you I would die
I can’t lose you yet I refuse to let you go loving you is in my bones something’s gotta give Adam, will you claim me as your own
the high is worth the bruise I’d still eat the fruit (x2)
I can’t lose you yet I refuse to let you go loving you is in my bones something’s gotta give Adam, will you claim me as your own
I can’t lose you yet I refuse to let you go loving you is in my bones something’s gotta give Adam, will you claim me as your own
claim me as your ownJensen McRae - Immune (Visualizer)Jensen McRae2021-06-28 | Stream my debut EP 'Who Hurt You?': orcd.co/whohurtyou
LYRICS: traffic from the east side got me aggravated hotter than the day my brother graduated wait for hours in the sun in line at dodger stadium I’m not scared of dogs or getting vaccinated
lay the seat back, turn this place into a bed someone’s smoking in the camry just ahead yeah, I know the irony would never be lost on me you don’t have to point it out again
what will we say to each other when the needle goes in what will we be to each other if the world doesn’t end
radio is static through the taylor song think a college football game is coming on god you hate top 40 shit but as the sports preempted it your mouth in my ear, you hummed along
what will we say to each other when the needle goes in what will we be to each other if the world doesn’t end
think the nurse that gave our shots is judging us can she tell that we just fucked the friendship up as we leave, I turn to you ask how it feels to be immune and you know what I mean a bit too much
what will we say to each other when the needle goes in what will we be to each other if the world doesn’t end
what will we say to each other what will we be to each otherJensen McRae - Starting To Get To You (Visualizer)Jensen McRae2021-06-25 | Stream my debut EP 'Who Hurt You?': orcd.co/whohurtyou
LYRICS you’re tough, so what, I’ve learned to take a punch you don’t break but I do - I’m starting to get to you
she took your crown but she can’t hurt you now I will lay my weapons down, I will lay my weapons down
nah nah nah nah nah, I know you’re scared but you l-l-loved me for a second there look at what a heart can do I’m starting to get to you
mm, mm, starting to get to you mm, mm, starting to get to you
low light, few words, some porch on 23rd you’re warm, that’s new, I’m starting to get to you
did we drink too much before this? won’t know till it hits in the morning loving you is habit forming loving you is habit forming
nah nah nah nah nah, I know you’re scared but you l-l-loved me for a second there look at what a heart can do I’m starting to get to you
mm, mm, starting to get to you mm, mm, starting to get to you
Starting to, starting to, starting to get to you (x2)
nah nah nah nah nah, I know you’re scared but you l-l-loved me for a second there look at what a heart can do I’m starting to get to you
mm, mm, starting to get to you mm, mm, starting to get to youJensen McRae - White Boy (Visualizer 2.0)Jensen McRae2021-06-24 | Stream my debut Album 'Are You Happy Now?': orcd.co/areyouhappynow
LYRICS: Now my hair smells like smoke Something’s burning, I don’t know what it is I won’t laugh at your dumbass jokes white boy
I don’t owe you anything I am learning not to sing for you Your cage is not Maya Angelou’s white boy
But you’ve still got a grip on me Sword to hilt, hand to God, bring me to my knees If I stand down, if I bleed, If I am what you ask me to be— White boy, what will you make of me?
Passion play, almost biblical White girl arrives, I turn invisible I don’t like who I am to you white boy
Trance state, you’re hypnotic Twirl my hair, watch my voice jump the octave I don’t like who I am for you white boy
But you’ve still got a grip on me Sword to hilt, hand to God, bring me to my knees If I stand down, if I bleed, If I am what you ask me to be— White boy, what will you make of me?
Instrumental
But you’ve still got a grip on me Sword to hilt, hand to God, bring me to my knees If I stand down, if I bleed, If I am what you ask me to be— White boy, what will you make of me?Jensen McRae - Adams Ribs (Visualizer)Jensen McRae2021-06-23 | Stream my debut EP 'Who Hurt You?': orcd.co/whohurtyou
LYRICS: I tried to bargain not to get thrown from the garden too fast I fell to begging have you ever lost heaven feel like the product of such a savage harvest you break it makes me bloom it’s like I’m made of you it’s like I’m made of you
I can’t lose you yet I refuse to let you go loving you is in my bones something’s gotta give Adam, will you claim me as your own
this heartbreak quietly rewired me my world is ending now don’t tell me to calm down this love letter begins to Adam from your ribs so-called intelligent design without you I would die without you I would die
I can’t lose you yet I refuse to let you go loving you is in my bones something’s gotta give Adam, will you claim me as your own
the high is worth the bruise I’d still eat the fruit (x2)
I can’t lose you yet I refuse to let you go loving you is in my bones something’s gotta give Adam, will you claim me as your own
I can’t lose you yet I refuse to let you go loving you is in my bones something’s gotta give Adam, will you claim me as your own claim me as your ownJensen McRae - Starting To Get To You (Official Music Video)Jensen McRae2021-06-22 | Stream my debut EP 'Who Hurt You?': orcd.co/whohurtyou Listen to Starting To Get To You: orcd.co/starting-to-get-to-you
‘Starting To Get To You’ is a song I will always have a soft spot for, about a person I will always have a soft spot for. There is something so magical falling in love (or something close to it) with a friend, even if it’s only for a brief moment of time. This video seeks to capture the quiet chaos and warm, gentle magic of becoming infatuated with someone, and realizing that those feelings are slowly being reciprocated. I want you to feel like you’re in your room, on the other end of a breathless phone call, hearing that yes, it finally happened, your best friend has fallen again, but this time someone was there for the big catch.
Director: Elizabeth Archer DP: Madeline Leach Creative Direction: Nicky Parks Gaffer: Junbai Zhou Editor: Tom Felke Color: Arianna Shining Star Styling: Kat Typaldos HMU: Julie Dinh
LYRICS you’re tough, so what, I’ve learned to take a punch you don’t break but I do - I’m starting to get to you
she took your crown but she can’t hurt you now I will lay my weapons down, I will lay my weapons down
nah nah nah nah nah, I know you’re scared but you l-l-loved me for a second there look at what a heart can do I’m starting to get to you
mm, mm, starting to get to you mm, mm, starting to get to you
low light, few words, some porch on 23rd you’re warm, that’s new, I’m starting to get to you
did we drink too much before this? won’t know till it hits in the morning loving you is habit forming loving you is habit forming
nah nah nah nah nah, I know you’re scared but you l-l-loved me for a second there look at what a heart can do I’m starting to get to you
mm, mm, starting to get to you mm, mm, starting to get to you
Starting to, starting to, starting to get to you (x2)
nah nah nah nah nah, I know you’re scared but you l-l-loved me for a second there look at what a heart can do I’m starting to get to you
mm, mm, starting to get to you mm, mm, starting to get to youJensen McRae - Starting To Get To You (Lyric Video)Jensen McRae2021-06-22 | Listen to my debut album 'Are You Happy Now?': orcd.co/areyouhappynow
LYRICS: you’re tough, so what, I’ve learned to take a punch you don’t break but I do I’m starting to get to you
she took your crown but she can’t hurt you now I will lay my weapons down I will lay my weapons down
nah nah nah nah nah, I know you’re scared but you l-l-loved me for a second there look at what a heart can do I’m starting to get to you
mm, mm, starting to get to you mm, mm, starting to get to you
low light, few words, some porch on 23rd you’re warm, that’s new I’m starting to get to you
did we drink too much before this? won’t know till it hits in the morning loving you is habit forming loving you is habit forming
nah nah nah nah nah, I know you’re scared but you l-l-loved me for a second there look at what a heart can do I’m starting to get to you
mm, mm, starting to get to you mm, mm, starting to get to you
I’m starting to get to you (x2)
Song Credits: Electric guitar - Jensen McRae Additional electric guitar - Keith Askey Bass - Rahki
Recording engineer: Rahki Recorded at Rahki’s Room, Pulse Burbank
Mixed by Manny Marroquin at Larrabee Studios (North Hollywood, CA) Mix Engineer Robin Florent assisted by Chris Galland, Scott Desmarais and Jeremie Inhaber Mastered by Michelle Mancini, Demifugue Mastering at Larrabee Studios, North Hollywood CAJensen McRae - White Boy (Lyric Video)Jensen McRae2021-06-22 | Stream my debut album 'Are You Happy Now?': orcd.co/areyouhappynow
LYRICS:
Now my hair smells like smoke Something’s burning, I don’t know what it is I won’t laugh at your dumbass jokes white boy
I don’t owe you anything I am learning not to sing for you Your cage is not Maya Angelou’s white boy
But you’ve still got a grip on me Sword to hilt, hand to God, bring me to my knees If I stand down, if I bleed, If I am what you ask me to be— White boy, what will you make of me?
Passion play, almost biblical White girl arrives, I turn invisible I don’t like who I am to you white boy
Trance state, you’re hypnotic Twirl my hair, watch my voice jump the octave I don’t like who I am for you white boy
But you’ve still got a grip on me Sword to hilt, hand to God, bring me to my knees If I stand down, if I bleed, If I am what you ask me to be— White boy, what will you make of me?
Instrumental
But you’ve still got a grip on me Sword to hilt, hand to God, bring me to my knees If I stand down, if I bleed, If I am what you ask me to be— White boy, what will you make of me?
Song Credits: Acoustic guitar - Jensen McRae Second acoustic Guitar - Keith Askey Electric guitar - Mallory Hauser Live drums - Rahki Bass guitar - Rahki Percussion (tambourine, shakers, congas) - Rahki Cello - Doc Allison Viola - Jeremy Jones
Recording engineer: Stuart Schenk Recorded at Speakeasy Studios, Burbank, CA Mixed by Manny Marroquin at Larrabee Studios (North Hollywood, CA) Mix Assisted by Chris Galland, Robin Florent, Scott Desmarais and Jeremie Inhaber Mastered by Michelle Mancini, Demifugue Mastering at Larrabee Studios, North Hollywood CAJensen McRae - Dead Girl Walking (Lyric Video)Jensen McRae2021-06-22 | Stream my debut album 'Are You Happy Now?': orcd.co/areyouhappynow
LYRICS: grim is knocking I’m a dead girl walking always hits me hardest in stranger’s cars aches in my body like I stayed up boxing I’m a dead girl walking but I’ve walked this far
hey, will you hit me where it hurts I won’t feel anything otherwise babe, I don’t know anything for sure don’t think I’ll make it but I guess I might is there any stopping what the illness causes I’m a dead girl walking I’m a dead girl
world is watching me, the dead girl walking keep my ghosts from talking and the mask won’t fall friends come often with their praise and problems I’m a dead girl walking for a good time call
hey, will you hit me where it hurts I won’t feel anything otherwise babe, I don’t know anything for sure don’t think I’ll make it but I guess I might is there any stopping what the illness causes I’m a dead girl walking I’m a dead girl
should enjoy it while I can walk mouth full of blood like I just flossed does the bleeding mean I’m still alive you should see the other guy you should see the other guy
hey, will you hit me where it hurts I won’t feel anything otherwise babe, I don’t know anything for sure don’t think I’ll make it but I guess I might is there any stopping what the illness causes I’m a dead girl walking I’m a dead girl
I’m a dead girl walking I’m a dead girl
Song Credits: Electric guitar - Jensen McRae Second electric guitar - Keith Askey Additional electric guitar - Mallory Hauser Bass guitar - Mackin Carroll Drums - Cameron Lee Percussion (tambourine, shaker) - Rahki Grand piano - Sara Mulford Organ - Sara Mulford Viola - Jeremy Jones
Vocal engineer: Rahki Vocals recorded at Rahki’s Room, Pulse Burbank Live band engineer: Stuart Schenk Live band recorded at Speakeasy Studios, Burbank, CA
Mixed By Tony Maserati Mastered by Michelle Mancini, Demifugue Mastering at Larrabee Studios, North Hollywood CAJensen McRae - Adams Ribs (Lyric Video)Jensen McRae2021-06-22 | Listen to my debut album 'Are You Happy Now?': orcd.co/areyouhappynow
LYRICS: I tried to bargain not to get thrown from the garden too fast I fell to begging have you ever lost heaven feel like the product of such a savage harvest you break it makes me bloom it’s like I’m made of you it’s like I’m made of you
I can’t lose you yet I refuse to let you go loving you is in my bones something’s gotta give Adam, will you claim me as your own
this heartbreak quietly rewired me my world is ending now don’t tell me to calm down this love letter begins to Adam from your ribs so-called intelligent design without you I would die without you I would die
I can’t lose you yet I refuse to let you go loving you is in my bones something’s gotta give Adam, will you claim me as your own
the high is worth the bruise I’d still eat the fruit (x2)
I can’t lose you yet I refuse to let you go loving you is in my bones something’s gotta give Adam, will you claim me as your own
I can’t lose you yet I refuse to let you go loving you is in my bones something’s gotta give Adam, will you claim me as your own claim me as your own
Song Credits: Electric guitar - Jensen McRae Cello - Doc Allison Viola - Jeremy Jones
Recording engineer: Rahki Recorded at Rahki’s Room, Pulse Burbank
Mixed by Tony Maserati Mastered by Michelle Mancini, Demifugue Mastering at Larrabee Studios, North Hollywood CAJensen McRae - Immune (Official Music Video)Jensen McRae2021-06-15 | Listen to my debut EP 'Who Hurt You?': orcd.co/whohurtyou Listen to "Immune": orcd.co/immune
This video looks and feels the way the song sounds—a little hopeful, a little colorful, tentative but still reaching. We went all around LA because LA is my home and because I have spent all of this pandemic in LA and because LA was absolutely battered by the virus in the winter but now, in the spring and early summer, it’s getting better every day, and everything about this song and this city feels like me: both irony and earnestness, slapstick romcom dramedy rolling like the wheels of a car that I’m trying my best to steer.
Director: Elizabeth Archer DP: Madeline Leach Creative Direction: Nicky Parks Producers: Nicky Parks, Kristin Gregory, Armand Troy Editor: Tom Felke Color: Arianna Shining Star Styling: Kat Typaldos HMU: Julie Dinh
LYRICS traffic from the east side got me aggravated hotter than the day my brother graduated wait for hours in the sun in line at dodger stadium I’m not scared of dogs or getting vaccinated
lay the seat back, turn this place into a bed someone’s smoking in the camry just ahead yeah, I know the irony would never be lost on me you don’t have to point it out again
what will we say to each other when the needle goes in what will we be to each other if the world doesn’t end
radio is static through the taylor song think a college football game is coming on god you hate top 40 shit but as the sports preempted it your mouth in my ear, you hummed along
what will we say to each other when the needle goes in what will we be to each other if the world doesn’t end
think the nurse that gave our shots is judging us can she tell that we just fucked the friendship up as we leave, I turn to you ask how it feels to be immune and you know what I mean a bit too much
what will we say to each other when the needle goes in what will we be to each other if the world doesn’t end
what will we say to each other what will we be to each otherJensen McRae - Wolves (Acoustic Version)Jensen McRae2021-02-24 | Wanted to give you all something to commemorate the 1 year anniversary of the release of my song 'Wolves'. To everyone who’s been here since the beginning thank you SO much for all you support, and to all the new friends and fam who just arrived I hope you enjoy! Thank you! Love you! Happy Trails!Black Girl Culture - by Jensen McRaeJensen McRae2021-02-17 | “Black Girl Culture” is a poem I wrote about all the experiences that I have taken for granted as just a part of life growing up as a Black girl in America, but have now realized are more than that. There is a constant emotional labor and weighing of other people’s moods and expectations. It has made me weak just as often as it has made me strong. And the compulsion to perform who I am for other people is something I am trying to transfigure into a performance I do only for myself.Jensen McRae - Immune (Visualizer)Jensen McRae2021-01-27 | A couple weeks ago I had this idea about the idea of the vaccination anthem. This pandemic has colored pop culture permanently, whether we like it or not. On the way to us, almost inevitably, are pandemic romcoms and pandemic novels and, in my case, pandemic songs. This song came about partly as a joke, a parody of one of my favorite songwriters of all time, Phoebe Bridgers, who specializes in dark, spare, precise lyrics about Our Unprecedented Times. My prediction about how Bridgers would tackle love in the time of vaccination—and an accompanying clip of the hypothetical song—took off on Twitter, so me and my producer, Rahki, decided to finish the song and turn it into something that sounds like me. It’s about how the emotional stakes of our relationships have been ratcheted up in light of global calamity, about hipsters and science and dogs and love. Enjoy.25 Facts About Jensen McRaeJensen McRae2020-08-21 | here are some facts about me the human person
tweet - twitter.com/jensen_mcrae gram - instagram.com/jensenmcrae spotify - open.spotify.com/artist/11dABkjSoOjcP9p3TFSNRj?si=NzQ5SPZyRReezG1jPNrXIwJensen McRae - The Plague (Official Audio)Jensen McRae2020-03-30 | I wrote this song to cope. I wrote this song because last weekend after the virus had been declared a pandemic I started thinking about the history of this country and how bad it has been, how it feels worse now. me and my fellow americans are living in a country with an economic system that is quite literally debating whether or not the deaths of millions is a “good trade-off” in order to save the economy, as if the economy is not in fact a metaphor that is made up of people and their work, people that deserve time and support and free healthcare. I cried while recording this video because I was hit, all at once, with all the horrors I’ve watched unfold on the national stage since I was born. we will recover from this outbreak, but I sincerely hope that as we move forward, we focus on mutual aid, civic engagement, and most importantly: empathy. care. please please take care of each other, and of yourself. make choices that are driven by people rather than profit. please. and assuming we get an election in november, please vote.Jensen McRae - The Plague (Original Video)Jensen McRae2020-03-30 | I wrote this song to cope. I wrote this song because last weekend after the virus had been declared a pandemic I started thinking about the history of this country and how bad it has been, how it feels worse now. me and my fellow americans are living in a country with an economic system that is quite literally debating whether or not the deaths of millions is a “good trade-off” in order to save the economy, as if the economy is not in fact a metaphor that is made up of people and their work, people that deserve time and support and free healthcare. I cried while recording this video because I was hit, all at once, with all the horrors I’ve watched unfold on the national stage since I was born. we will recover from this outbreak, but I sincerely hope that as we move forward, we focus on mutual aid, civic engagement, and most importantly: empathy. care. please please take care of each other, and of yourself. make choices that are driven by people rather than profit. please. and assuming we get an election in november, please vote.Jensen McRae - Wolves (Official Video)Jensen McRae2020-03-04 | Stream my debut EP 'Who Hurt You?': orcd.co/whohurtyou Listen to "Wolves": resources.lnk.to/Wolves
This music video is meant to communicate the story of psychic violence against women. Not to be a frame for frame retelling of the lyrics; no, instead it needed to show the bigger problem, how women’s pain is commodified, fetishized, transfigured by male heroism and then broadcast as artistic. Katharine immediately understood the song completely, and her direction fiercely & precisely interpreted the source material. It was so rewarding to watch the incredible crew so efficiently bring her vision to life. And I’m so glad my music lent itself to something so striking.
Lead: Lina Green Featured: Sophie Wood, Preston Daniel Grant, Justin Kim, Adam Vaughn, Andy Kenareki, Tania Possick Background: Bruce Hu, Ashley Hopgood
Director: Katharine White Producers: Erin Dellorso, Julianne Dowler, Virginia Reece Production Company: Little Bull Productions DP: Katharine White Steadicam: Thor Wixom 1st AC: Kylie Hazzard 2nd AC: Kate Graves Gaffer: Kyle Thor Key Grip: Daniel Kang Swing G&E: Armando Vazquez, Sebastian Lam Production Design: Gabe Notarangelo HMU: Tara Segar HMU Assistant: Megan Nicoll PAs: Alex Vaughan, Kat Gregory, Cameron Kelly Editor: Erik Vogt-Nilsen Color: Dave Levine @ Breakaway Post
LYRICS I was 15, still in the valley Walking in a parking garage First time I met a wolf in person At first I thought it was a dog I tried to dodge him, he was faster Than I’d ever had to be He smiled and howled in the same moment It knocked the wind right out of me And though I got away I never walked the same
Now I bury my smile and show no interest Now I carry myself a little different Now I avoid the woods Now I know the wolves
I was 19, still fun at parties He plied me with shot after shot He assured me he was harmless Why did I ever trust a fox I ignored all of my teachings How I survived I can’t believe I almost let him get his claws in Still knocks the wind right out of me And though I got away I never walked the same
Now I bury my smile and show no interest Now I carry myself a little different Now I avoid the woods Now I know the wolves
Saw a teenage girl on my street Talking tall to one of them Recognized him in an instant Heard about him from my friends Thank god women learned to whisper But I crave a megaphone That wolf said “it’s dangerous out there” That wolf said “let me walk you home”
Now I bury my smile and show no interest Now I carry myself a little different Now I avoid the woods Now I know the wolvesJensen McRae - Wolves (Lyric Video)Jensen McRae2020-02-24 | Listen to my debut album "Are You Happy Now?": orcd.co/areyouhappynow Subscribe to my channel: youtube.com/channel/UCZTnNKbAAoWx2eIQEfrvN1Q?
This visual is a sort of confessional. By writing the lyrics in a notebook, the song becomes a diary entry. The sharp cuts lend themselves to the raw, fragmented way that stories of sexual harassment and assault get told. And while I tend to write my lyrics digitally, I spend hours filling longhand journal pages with my feelings, so this is definitely a nod to that as well.
LYRICS
I was 15, still in the valley Walking in a parking garage First time I met a wolf in person At first I thought it was a dog I tried to dodge him, he was faster Than I’d ever had to be He smiled and howled in the same moment It knocked the wind right out of me And though I got away I never walked the same
Now I bury my smile and show no interest Now I carry myself a little different Now I avoid the woods Now I know the wolves
I was 19, still fun at parties He plied me with shot after shot He assured me he was harmless Why did I ever trust a fox I ignored all of my teachings How I survived I can’t believe I almost let him get his claws in Still knocks the wind right out of me And though I got away I never walked the same
Now I bury my smile and show no interest Now I carry myself a little different Now I avoid the woods Now I know the wolves
Saw a teenage girl on my street Talking tall to one of them Recognized him in an instant Heard about him from my friends Thank god women learned to whisper But I crave a megaphone That wolf said “it’s dangerous out there” That wolf said “let me walk you home”
Now I bury my smile and show no interest Now I carry myself a little different Now I avoid the woods Now I know the wolves
Song Credits: Electric guitar - Jensen McRae Recording engineer: Stuart Schenk Recorded at Speakeasy Studios, Burbank, CA
Mixed by Manny Marroquin at Larrabee Studios (North Hollywood, CA) Mix Assisted by Chris Galland, Robin Florent, Scott Desmarais and Jeremie Inhaber Mastered by Michelle Mancini, Demifugue Mastering at Larrabee Studios, North Hollywood CAJensen McRae- Killing Me Softly [Cover]Jensen McRae2020-01-07 | don’t normally stretch myself this much vocally but after all the love I’ve been getting on these covers I decided to try somethin new!!! here’s my folk alt pop rendition of killing me softly!Jensen McRae- White Boy: Behind The ScenesJensen McRae2019-12-19 | Behind the scenes magic from my new music video 'White Boy.'
“White Boy” is about a party I went to my junior year of college, where I felt completely and utterly invisible, but it's also about all the cultural issues I've grappled with my entire life--wondering whether I'm truly so different from my white peers and finding a way to be okay with it if I am. It’s about unpacking what I’m looking for from love, how I seek it out, and why.
Writer: Jensen McRae Music Producer: Rahki Video Director: Nikko Lamere Video Producer(s): Shawnette Heard, Spittin Image Cinematographer: Michael Greenwood Makeup: Raoul Alejandre Hair: Suzette Boozer Male Lead: Christian Collins Female Lead: Mattie Harris-Lowe Female Dancer: Aisha Skye Male Dancer: Brandon Beltran Choreographer: King Chris
Lyrics: Now my hair smells like smoke Something’s burning, I don’t know what it is I won’t laugh at your dumbass jokes white boy
I don’t owe you anything I am learning not to sing for you Your cage is not Maya Angelou’s white boy
But you’ve still got a grip on me Sword to hilt, hand to God, bring me to my knees If I stand down, if I bleed, If I am what you ask me to be— White boy, what will you make of me?
Passion play, almost biblical White girl arrives, I turn invisible I don’t like who I am to you white boy
Trance state, you’re hypnotic Twirl my hair, watch my voice jump the octave I don’t like who I am for you white boy
But you’ve still got a grip on me Sword to hilt, hand to God, bring me to my knees If I stand down, if I bleed, If I am what you ask me to be— White boy, what will you make of me?
Instrumental
But you’ve still got a grip on me Sword to hilt, hand to God, bring me to my knees If I stand down, if I bleed, If I am what you ask me to be— White boy, what will you make of me?Jensen McRae- White Boy (Official Trailer)Jensen McRae2019-12-10 | Stream 'White Boy' everywhere now- resources.lnk.to/WhiteBoy