Radiarc
Radiarc - Kingdom of the Griffons (Compilation Release)
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radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/gazing-through-a-window
For all I am, all I've done, the window remains before me, and I watch the world in ceaseless motion, overwhelming, wondrous, and haunting. Though I witness, I am alone, yet everything moves on. In patience, I, too, remain, watching all great wonders of a world breaking apart. Though I've yelled, pleaded, cried, there is no difference, and all continues according to chosen fate. At times I wonder if I've even made a sound, if there ever was someone truly gazing back at me.
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I had a longer description written, but I'm at a loss for words. I feel many things, but I understand few of them. All I can do is attempt to convey it, and I hope it's enjoyable. I've been on the fence about this one for a while, but I'm tired from messing with it.
I've been working on a lot of different things, one of them being a Ponies at Dawn submission, but also, a lot of our staff at work recently quit, so I've had to step up a bit there. I still work on music most days, and I've got some workable ideas down, but there's a lot in front of me at the moment. If nothing else, I'll have the Ponies at Dawn song uploaded when the album is released, and I should have another song around the same time, or at least the month following. I've professed my desire to return to one song per month, but I can never guarantee that pace. After Until the End, I had 3-4 projects in the works, but couldn't decide on what to pursue, and life in general has felt directionless. But as much as I'm able, I'll keep pushing. There is much to be done.
This song is free, and my uploads in the future will be as well.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/album/death-of-a-concept
Thank you for remaining as well. I pray the best for you.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/album/death-of-a-concept
Art Commission by deviantart.com/amaryllisno
As above, so below; I see the hell rising around us. Echoes of the horsemans' battlecry reverberate through darkened skies, but they have yet to ride; tremors of hooves amidst the heavens ripple down to a people unaware, entranced by hatred for one another, and those disillusioned, barely hanging onto humanity in compassion. I witness conquest, war, famine, death, and still, I have yet to see them ride.
From a crisis grand and constructed will come the man of sin; the falling away is nearly over. Followers are followers of self and comfort -- do what thou wilt. Truth is denied, and the illusion constructs itself unnoticed, aided by lapses in understanding, lapses often formed with force, by others or by self. This man and those blinded by his false light will eclipse the world, for a time. He will proclaim peace and sow destruction, but not by his own power. I have yet to see him rise.
I've long since returned from the fields; though memories of all I've experienced flood my mind in a sea of wonder and dysphoria, I've learned how to swim. This is not to say the waters do not rise, that they do not overtake me, that I haven't dreamed of the filth this world is immersed in for years; I've dreamed of being isolated entirely, demonic forms dragging men to the ground, nuclear explosion after explosion, to which there were no end. I've dreamed for far too long, and I am now awake, and many days, I only feel pain. This world has willingly bathed itself in sin unimaginable, a den for foxes built by the work of hens, of which, I once was, and desire to be no more. I recall all I've done, the depths I've allowed myself to sink to, the depravity I used to welcome. It was not until I was shown what it truly was to be without life that I turned to God, to Jesus Christ. In belief, I found salvation, I found forgiveness, and until the end, I will pray for forgiveness, and walk the path I'm meant to follow. I stumble greatly and suffer, yet greater did He suffer for my sake.
I do not know when my end will arrive, nor the end itself, but neither leave my mind. Any second of any day, for any reason. I understand. Only by divine grace have I been allowed to live for this long; I should've gone long ago, on many occasions, but mercy was extended to me, and so I speak. There will come a day when I am hated, and in the face of loneliness and despair for the past 2 years, I don't believe it will feel much different. In this moment, I pray for peace, over all. I rejected the prototype, and I will reject the mark when it is to come, should I live to see it. In whatever way possible, we are to be lights in a dark world, bastions of genuine compassion, and seekers of absolute truth. There are many lies, and many did I once believe. Until the end, I will stand, and point to the heavens above. Thy will be done, Lord.
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I've had the idea for about a year, now, but I didn't have the art for it, and never felt ready to make it. I'm grateful to have been halted, as I certainly lacked proper direction, and it would not have meant as much to me as it does now. I know nothing I make will ever be perfect, nor is this, but it is the product of two months of dedication; many sleepless nights, but well worth. I'm thankful to have been brought through everything to finally make this, as this album has spanned the most defining years of my life, for better and for worse. It's nearly unbelievable that I'm finally here, sharing this with everyone. Thank you to all who have supported and listened to my work over the years, again and again. I wouldn't be here without you, and I want you to know that I never forget you. So long as I'm here, I'll keep going. I may rest for a short time as work continues its downward spiral from recent inflation, but I will do what I can.
The album isn't quite done yet; I still need to re-render some songs and possibly add another, though don't hold me to that, at least, not in the short term. It's a bit in pieces at the moment, but this is certainly the last part of the project, and soon enough, I'll upload the whole thing.
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For my sake, which is for His sake, be kind to one another, seek truth, and do good. None are perfect, but perfection is not meant for us. That we try, we've done what we can, and that's worth much more than we'll ever truly know. There will be judgement for all things. Thank you for listening to me.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/hold
I am still, staring into the horizon as the world shifts around me, writhing in the light of the setting sun.
Since waking, though I've found the strength to walk forward, I walk alone, each step ringing through the fabric of time in a sorrowful tone, my heart harmonizing in determination to carry forward to that which is inevitable. As I walk, the fallen and dead line the streets, all civilization ablaze with falsehood, lies, and deceit. Through the echoes of wars and rumors of wars, I hold, for I know the end is soon. In every passing day, I await the end of my suffering, though I feel I have not yet begun to suffer in the way I deserve, as familiars past whisper hauntingly, my chest bleeding steadily from the hole I once carved.
And still, I hold the darkness within, the anger and envious bitterness that claws away at my soul; the self is no longer denied in the wake of truth, and in truth, as a mirror before me, I feel the greatest joy and the greatest pain, that integrity is not gained without the acceptance of that which truly is, and what I am, I do not fully understand. As I near the end of my path, I see shadows form in the air and litter the streets, eventually obscuring the city and its people. The time is at hand.
Many days, I feel similarly. None are without the gravity of everything I know and love falling to ruin, without the pain of loneliness, without wondering if I've neglected anything, anyone. The world will be eclipsed, for a time. I believe it's highly important we retain what humanity we have left in whatever capacity we're able, and to hold on to what we can wherever possible and reasonable. I feel things may soon surpass reason.
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Happiness has been harder to find as of late. I don't talk to many people, and it seems not many care to talk to me. Stress has been eating at me for a while now. There were many things that I had planned this year, but this is all I can do, and I apologize. From the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks, and I suppose songs like this are all I have to say; I don't know that I have the words to really describe my state of mind. Regardless, I pray all is well with you, and I hope the rest of your day is wonderful.
radiarc.bandcamp.com
Everything that's uploaded to this channel recently is free, and the rest of my discography will remain as discounted as I can make it. Any and all support is greatly appreciated, but there may be a bit of a wait until the next upload, since it's something I've wanted to do for months, but it will not be easy, and my computer hasn't been doing the best. I trust everything will work out in the end. Thank you for listening to me and remaining patient.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/in-these-brief-moments
In these brief moments, I look back, to all that has been, to all I have been. All I've done in ignorance, all that has fallen to ruin before me, all I've sought but never found, and in my desperation to love and be loved, the lies I've believed. I see nothing was as I thought, and the world I live in resembles nothing of memory; a sterile pit of troubled husks is all that will remain, a false peace built atop a people misled, divided, betrayed, and slaughtered by avarice, though none care to acknowledge, and I am left alone to watch everything drift away.
In these brief moments, I've since returned to the fields ever waving in search of the path forward. In the disquiet of night, I see a world bathed in sin, and I am no different. Loathesome, wretched, vile, detestable. I hear nothing else, for I've felt nothing else, nor am I deserving. In the fields I lay, pierced, lacerated, every familiar tie to my form severed, the weight of my sin rending my sanity as sawblades pressed into my mind, ringing through every percievable frequency, the taste of blood inescapable; that I've felt even a fraction of hell, I cry out for forgiveness and cling to life, though I witness reality breaking apart everywhere I look, everywhere I think. Imperfection is woven into every fiber of my being, and feeling with every step how thoroughly I've been torn to rid myself of it, I breathe deeply and walk the path of repentance.
In these brief moments, I see what lies ahead, but so much as I am able, I will be there for those around me, and for those that hear my words, know that you are loved. For as long as I am here, I will speak, and it's my hope and prayer that what I've said over the years has resonated to any degree.
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As promised, this is free, though any and all help is immensely appreciated. That you listen to me at all, I am thankful, and I wish you the best.
radiarc.bandcamp.com
deviantart.com/omniscient-duck/art/Faded-Never-Fade-Away-VIP-417819806
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/irrelevance-fading
The field continued to wave in ethereal wind, grass kneeling, leaves stirring gently around her presence which coursed throughout the plains in colors ever changing. I turned to look behind me, and I saw others, great in number, murmuring amongst themselves. I turned to the familiar and listened as she spoke, still and soft, beyond her illustrious form, but I was without focus, and heard the voices of many.
As she whispered, within the sea of voices was woven a tapestry grandiose, impossibly intricate, and terrifying, and I contemplated in disquiet for a long time. The crowd calmed to silence, and turned to face me, though they had heard nothing. I cried out to them, for the weight of the message became too great to bear, but many scoffed in disbelief, and some walked into the distance, from which bled a dark water, killing all who partook of it, or chose to wade in its filth. I turned to the familiar, and she nodded slowly, and knowingly. I burned with divine fire, and I shouted to them, my voice joining the chorus of nations, but darkness crept forward, inevitable and vile, and began to overtake them, many crushed beneath forces they could not understand. I wept greatly, for those fallen, and for my own imperfection, but in perfect light, I was consoled, that I may one day rest. Once more, the words of many poured from me, though my lamentation never ceased, and through tears I accepted that which was to happen. All was calm, but I knew too well. The heavens opened as the blood moon hung in the sky, and all I could do was watch. Time is short.
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I apologize sincerely for my absence, but I've much to say and have fought through far more than I anticipated to come back. I want to thank each and every one of you sincerely, because without your support, I would not have made it. These past months have been rough physically, emotionally, and financially, and I understand you all have likely been going through a lot, too.
At the beginning of the year, I said I was going to figure out who I was. In the search for truth, I learned many things about myself, but more about the world, and humanity. I had not the slightest idea the immense power knowledge can hold, but it can truly change the world, and change oneself. I believe we should move forward in kindness and understanding, with a willingness to listen. We should seek to create strong bonds that last, and to make life enjoyable for ourselves as well as the world around us. We are human. We are imperfect. Most importantly, we are different, and I believe everyone has a calling. If nothing else, that more would simply be less hateful, the world, too, would be different. In all things, be mindful, kind, and forgiving. I've struggled greatly with bitterness on every front, but it doesn't have the strength it once did, because I don't allow it to. We all have free will, and I believe it's time to start really using it.
I've made my discography 90% off permanently (high as they'll let me), and I'm not going to charge for any subsequent songs. I never would've dreamed that I would one day go this far, and all I can say is thank you all.
I wish you the best of days, wishes, and a merry Christmas.
radiarc.bandcamp.com
patreon.com/radiarc
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/all-that-i-am
I was lost. The figure taunting, fighting...guiding me, if only I’d seen more clearly. Just as I felt I’d finally begun to piece everything together, she was just gone. Darkness. I remember darkness, but more akin to the eye of a storm encompassing existence, a steady calm with the promise of absolute wrath following. I walked onward, determined, but with every step came regret, until I fell to the ground instantly in the wake of a brilliant light. The figure appeared once more, illuminating the ground beneath as she approached me. I attempted to stand, but the strength I once counted on was gone. My failures, my flaws...I was nothing in the presence of everything. And yet, she spoke to me. "You can do it too, you know."
In spite of everything, I rose. Slowly, but as her words echoed through my mind, I felt a fire burning within. The surrounding darkness faded to ash, save for that which remained in my hand, blazing. I looked to my other hand, and it burned as well, but with light, and the figure smiled. As my gaze met hers, everything was clear. All that I am, all that I've done...everything. I am all that I am, past and present, but it does not define me. "The darkness will never leave you," she told me as she turned to face the distance, but she looked back. "It's called experience." Like an angel, she flew, and so did I.
Effortlessly, I soared with her, and she revealed the truth. The fields I once saw wave with colors and fractals now teemed with silhouettes, some familiar, others not. I witnessed far more than I can remember, but as we went on, comprehension extended beyond vision and became acceptance. She slowed her pace as we arrived at a rift, a grand abyss in a sea of memory. Her brilliance faded as she landed in the water, still and pure. There was nothing. I breathed in deeply and closed my eyes. I knew this was the beginning of the end, and the promise of absolute wrath would be fulfilled. There was no beauty. There was no liberty. There was only the familiar before me, and I was ready.
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I'm sorry I've been gone for so long, but I wanted to return at the right time, and in the right way. I've finally moved, mostly stopped drinking, and my life is actually pretty wonderful. I haven't felt depressed in so long, and although things aren't necessarily going amazingly, but I don't feel like I'm living in hell anymore. Despite everything, I truly feel happy to be alive, and I'm honestly in awe every time I realize all of the times I wanted it to end.
Emotion. I haven't struggled this hard to make something since Dream No More, but the second I heard the melody in my mind, I knew it had to be done. This took a few weeks to make, although most work was done in a couple days, I didn't want to compromise on anything; I wanted exactly what I felt, and nothing less. That isn't to say this doesn't have its shortcomings, but nothing I make will ever be perfect. This was intended as a sequel to Remember Me, and still acts as such, though much differently than I thought it would. TCB, a fellow pony musician, made a song titled "FOREVER IS NOTHING", and it completely changed my outlook on this portion of the story. It even inspired the beginning and end of this song, and for that, I'm very thankful. I just wanted something to resonate with, as I always do, and I'm happy to have found it again.
On the technical side, though, this song almost didn't happen. I've been operating on 32GB of RAM for a while, and it's worked out well, but I'm finally starting to push this computer to its limits again. I'm independently saving up for more RAM with higher clock speeds and likely a motherboard and processor later on down the line, but any money I receive from music is going directly into upgrading the computer. I'm probably going to get rid of patreon soon because I'd rather feel complete freedom in uploading as opposed to being soft-pinned to a monthly deadline, but I've written far too much already. It's 4 in the morning at the time of writing this, so I suppose I'll have to amend this sometime. Until then, thank you for listening to me. It's truly been an adventure.
For the rest of my work: radiarc.bandcamp.com
And, if you're feeling generous: paypal.com/paypalme/radiarc
"Remember me?" she asked in a familiar voice, freezing me completely in place. I couldn't speak.
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radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/remember-me
The picture was a commission by Amaryllis: deviantart.com/amaryllisno
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"Come on," she continued, "Remember me. I know you do."
I staggered back briefly and inhaled slowly and deeply, regaining composure. I'd...seen her before, but her face was obscured in a way I couldn't understand. She stood still for a minute before she sighed and put her hands in her pockets, then turned around, looking into the horizon, growing darker with every word she spoke.
"It isn't me, and it's not you, either," she said in a mournful tone, walking into the night ahead. "I just can't believe you never saw."
The world was still, but I was shaken. Yet I knew the only way forward was to give chase, so after a moment's pause, I did, and the sky split in two as the fields opened into a grand valley, dividing as the figure walked away. She turned and I stopped, inciting an uncomfortably familiar smile, though her eyes remained a mystery.
I could sense the impending denouement, but I knew it was too soon, and I believe she did, too, but the overwhelming uncertainty I felt compelled me. I leapt forward and swung first, and she swiftly responded. The rest was a blur. All I can remember now are thoughts and emotions, and the beginning of a sense of clarity. Perhaps I did remember, but not completely. I was sad, nostalgic...I recall the scent of ashes scattered in the wind and a pain gradually welling in my heart. I liked her hair, though.
radiarc.bandcamp.com
patreon.com/radiarc
I don't even know what to say about this, other than I've never made a song that I felt represented me more than this one. This is going to be the art used for the album when I complete it, and I feel it says everything I want to convey. I've gone through many things in life, but this year, I feel completely different, like I'm seeing a world that I couldn't before. And it's wonderful. The last trip I took was so beautiful and vivid, and I'm so incredibly positive that I'm on the path to live the life I truly want. It was surreal...it's as though I've never been happy before. About the song, though, the chords were heavily inspired by a song I deeply resonate with called Valentine by Kupla, I believe. It shows up on the lofi hiphop station every now and then, and it just hits so much differently from other tracks. I'm normally a critical listener inadvertently, but I just...feel that song, and I love it to pieces. Speaking of the album, though, this song is at the beginning of the point where Tammy, the figure on the right (also the same one in If Only) starts to understand everything about this place and what it is, but there's still more to witness and wander through before the truth is discovered. I've already written (and uploaded) two songs chronologically ahead of this one, but I've got a few more before the project will be complete. The more I write, the more I see myself as Tammy, and it's strange. I've never connected with my characters like this, but it's nice, and if this keeps going as planned, I'll finally have something that I'm truly happy with. I hope you all enjoy it, too.
Artwork: deviantart.com/sharpieboss/art/Bear-Trap-544632728
Song: radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/ill-go
Beyond the weathered remains we called home, there began a path that stretched for many miles, weaving through vast plains full of wildlife and overabundant in perpetually blooming flora, eventually arriving at a massive clearing. It appeared benign, but I felt differently. All of nature, even so far as the sky above, waved softy in uncertainty, in infinity; it was as if I was peering through time itself, bearing witness to a place surpassing comprehension. A sacred place, perhaps, unfathomably far from any mark of civilization...we'd travelled before, but even she, in her seemingly infinite strength, would not go further. She simply looked into the horizon with emptiness in her eyes. Silence permeated the air; the wind stirred softly.
From then, she, as I would later, turned and began to walk. She, like I, said no more from then on. I believe that we'd both arrived at a similar understanding. The void within me longed to find purpose, and led me to that same path. "I'll go," I thought. I'm the only one that ever could.
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This is one of the first songs on an album I'm working on, meant to be a follow up to The Fulcrum. I wasn't really too sure what to do for this, because everything I'd attempted just didn't get the point across, but it clicked eventually, after listening to other songs that dealt well with bitter souls and feelings of regret. It's kind of strange; I ended up taking a break from this to clear my mind, and when I came back, I just understood it because I felt it. I've been feeling rather isolated as of late both by and without choice, and I feel this is the lingering sentiment that I'll be leaving with. I don't know when, but for all of those that weren't there for me despite all the times I was there for them, I'm going, and I'm never coming back. I've sacrificed so much of my life for others that forget I even exist, and I'm done. I harbor no hatred, just disappointment. Maybe they'll find someone to replace me, or maybe they'll pay more attention to the friends they have left. Whatever the case may be, I'm moving forward with confidence, because there is no opportunity here for the life I desire.
Anything donated will be going toward helping me move; I'm very grateful for your support, and I hope this album will be the undertaking you all and I expect it to be.
For the rest of my work, it's all on bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
13 albums, an EP, plus some stuff that isn't on youtube.
I've also got a patreon, and I make it a priority to upload at least once per month, barring any major life changes:
patreon.com/radiarc
I thought I was going to finish the battle theme, but I still don't have a proper picture for the album, and I'm not going to continue working on it until I do. I've got a good amount of tracks before the whole project is done, so it's not too big a deal, but that song is too important for me to not be patient. No idea what's up next, but it'll probably be more exploration, and I'm quite eager to continue working on it. Thank you for listening, and thank you for sticking with me for all this time. Stay awesome.
deviantart.com/sharpieboss/art/Twilight-Waiting-516983347
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/there
I finally got a job again, but it's just retail, so I've had some time here and there to work on music and start actually making progress on the follow-up album to The Fulcrum. For a while, I'd hit a brick wall, but I've also had a couple other commissions to work on to help me get back that desperation to create anything other than traditional orchestral.
I've been listening to a lot of lofi hip hop as of late, and while I knew I couldn't necessarily nail the genre, I wanted my own take on it, and to be honest, this is something I've been wanting to make for a while for a variety of reasons.
I'm planning on moving early next year. Gonna try to get together all the money I can and just start over in life, so anything I make from music is going directly to that, as well as bills and stuff. It's been a hard year for all of us, but I'm hoping 2021 will be what everyone needs it to be.
Still, thanks for listening to me. If any are interested, I've got a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
And, of course, all the stuff that's on youtube is on bandcamp, plus some bonus tracks here and there:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
I didn't do so well describing the last album because the story was in limbo for several months before I finally figured it all out, but this one is going to be much more straightforward, and I already see what I have to do to make it happen. It's kind of crazy to remember how much work went into The Fulcrum, and honestly, how lackluster the execution was. The heart was there, but I didn't know enough, and I'm really determined to make this next project something I'm truly proud of. Next song has the potential to be soon, but I've also got some commissions that are in awkward spots, so I don't really know what I'm supposed to be working on. Either way, I'm grateful for you all still showing up to listen to what I'm doing, and I hope y'all have a good day. Stay awesome.
Artwork: deviantart.com/minibot-1/art/Golden-Oaks-Library-324302735
Music: radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/archives
This was a commission piece from a friend of mine; he's given me the green light to upload it to youtube and bandcamp, and I figure it's a good way to showcase the kinds of things I've been up to in my "absence".
Though I know I've been on a little bit of a Hollow Knight kick, it's kind of funny now that I listen back to this, and all I hear is Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles. It's a shame the remaster ended up so bland; it was an amazing game and the soundtrack left a massive impression on me. I even named my town in Animal Crossing New Leaf after one of the levels, Tida. I could talk about that game for hours, but i guess back to this song.
He said he wanted me to make something that sounded like a library, and this is what I ended up with. What I find truly fascinating is that it really sounds like what would happen if I were to take one of my 2012 songs and modernize them, which is also interesting considering The Library was one of the songs that ended up making it into the Bronycon Documentary (I was credited, but I never heard it in the actual video).
I don't really know how I feel about this song, I'm just happy to have received work that I enjoyed and I'm glad it works for his purposes. I feel like I've kinda dropped the ball as of late, to be honest. Hopefully soon enough I can get into a place where I can truly put my all into something I'm passionate about; I'm happy that my peers have improved greatly, but I'm disappointed in myself for not feeling motivated enough to keep pushing my boundaries and really differentiate myself. I suppose that's the nature of commission work, which I definitely don't mind, but for my next upload, I really want to make something special. I might have a lead, but I'm not sure yet because I haven't sat down to give it a shot. I dunno. We'll see what happens. Thanks for sticking with me.
radiarc.bandcamp.com
patreon.com/radiarc
deviantart.com/dragonspirit469/art/Solitude-667106391
poniesatdawn.bandcamp.com Featured on Eclipse, the latest album.
radiarc.bandcamp.com
I...don't feel so well about this one. There's a lot I can say about it, but I started this a little bit after the deadline for the latest Ponies at Dawn album, so I had about 4 days to work on this, with one of those being me throwing stuff at the wall that just wasn't going anywhere fun. I chose a different, yet familiar approach, and based the instrumentation and feel off of the Hornet theme from Hollow Knight, albeit I'm a bit impatient and haven't done a faster-paced theme battle theme in a while. The light instrumentation is very hard to pull off well because although I have a lot of sound libraries, there are so many timbres I loathe using because I just hear them so often, and there aren't many libraries suited for strong and lush divisi (though Metropolis Ark IV does this well, it's a bit too powerful for a project like this).
I did have fun, though. It was a project I personally don't like all that much, but it was worth the endeavor to find my strong suits and expose my weaknesses as a composer. I do think that with more time, I may have either worked in rubato or found other ways to smooth the transitions further and give the song more atmosphere, but in terms of the melodies and progressions themselves, I feel I did a fine enough job. At least, I hope it's well enough for you all; I don't like falling short of expectations, and I'm already working to strengthen my next song to be more in line with what I should be making.
Other than that, I don't have much to say. I'm still open for commissions, and I'm still gonna be doing pony music for a long time, even if I have some other projects sprinkled in here and there. I'm greatly appreciative of all the support you guys have given me, and I look forward to giving back soon. I shouldn't be rushed on anything any time soon, and I'm eager to make something I can truly feel proud of. Thanks for listening.
Artwork: www.deviantart.com/plainoasis/art/Home-844671166
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/reminisce (it's free, but donations are very appreciated)
I'll admit, I made this today; took me about 4 and a half hours, but I really wanted to have something for the 10th anniversary of pony, so I just...did it.
I forgot that it was coming up since I've been trying to wrap up all these other commissions (which I am still definitely open for), so I do apologize for the rather rushed sound it may or may not have.
Everything I've tried to write for this channel has been depressing. I guess I still haven't gotten over everything that's happened, and I'm starting to understand that it's possibly going to take a long time to heal. When I was writing this, I remembered all of the people wanting something like the other songs on my album Perception, so I took that angle and added a small nod to the single track that I felt really cemented my desire to learn orchestral. Props if you know which one, because it's a melody I've always associated with a particular character, though it's not in her key. Interesting how stories of redemption can be rather similar; maybe soon enough I'll find my happiness, too.
Well, if you like what you hear, it'd be cool if you checked out the rest of the stuff I've done: radiarc.bandcamp.com
I'm still in-between jobs, so any support is immensely helpful. I'll do my best to keep uploading what I can, though -- I've got something else on the way soon that's part of Ponies at Dawn, so if you like Hollow Knight-inspired pieces, I should have that up on the 17th during the listening party.
Well, it's definitely been wild. I'll talk a little more in the comments, but for now, I wish you all a happy anniversary; 10 years of pony, and here's for 10 more!
I don't have superchat set up because I don't stream often and hadn't even considered it until now, but I do have links in my previous video descriptions in case you would like to donate.= I'm still doing a lot of commission right now since I'm in between jobs, so anything is immensely appreciated. I'm going to try to see if I can do some more Hollow Knight inspired music soon, but the only thing I have as of now is a faster-paced battle theme in that style set to release on the 17th. Maybe I'll be able to make something before then, though!
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/dream-no-more
deviantart.com/sharpieboss/art/Splitting-Elements-575465751
I've never struggled with any song nearly as much as this one. I don't think a day's gone by that I haven't broken down. When I finally had a name for it, I couldn't even type it, and honestly, I'm having a bit of trouble with this now. I hate so intensely my inability to quell the way I feel, but there's only so much one can take after years of pretending everything's fine.
I'm alone. Everything's gone. I walk around the house and I'm overwhelmed, not with regret, but the one thing that's left -- the reminder of what I thought I had, thought would be, and never truly was. This song only took me about three days of real work, maybe, but every second of playback felt like an eternity. It all means something. Everything. And I hate it, but it had to be done. I feel so, so intensely, and it just hurts. But I hope it was worth it.
Thank you for being there; may the future be bright.I'm wide open for commissions; I'm looking around for another job, but though I know it's horribly likely, I don't want to end up anywhere that's nearly as bad as the last place I worked. If you have nothing you want from me, but would still like to give, I do have a paypal:
paypal.me/radiarc
Anything and everything is greatly appreciated; I've disabled monetization for this track on youtube because I don't get much from ads anyway, and I don't want anything getting in the way of this song and its message. Hopefully I'll be able to work back up to where I was soon enough, I just knew that before I did anything, this song had to be made. And, again, thank you for listening to me. Sometimes, it's just nice to be heard.
She is here.
As she always was, before and after. The duality of self lies before me and within, like a mirror, and dysphoria like no other courses through my being. I am broken; the fragments comprise a cipher far beyond my understanding, yet within the path to understanding, though I suffer, I begin to see the infinite, and the obscured truth appears ever clearer.
The Familiar assumes many forms, but as I am, she is as well. Through this moment, we may finally lay to rest the emptiness inside of me.
deviantart.com/sharpieboss/art/I-can-handle-it-all-615850120
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/crux
I've...been.
Thinking, processing, predicting, understanding, suffering. I've quit my job. I've broken away from marriage. My life feels like it's ending pretty much every day, and I can't help but be anxious of the future every night. It honestly makes me sick to think about, and I'm aware everything will resolve inevitably, but it took months to face not only myself, but life, as well as the infinite possibilities.
I'm sorry I disappeared for so long, I just really needed time away from everything. I've had this project on my mind for a while, but was originally intended to be toward the end, if not the end of the album. To be honest, I don't know what the future holds. I know what I'm hoping for, what I want, and what I'm willing to work for, but I don't know anymore.
Update: A few people have come forward to ask me about avenues to donate, and I'm incredibly awkward about accepting offers of money, but if you'd like to, you can here:
paypal.me/radiarc
or if you just wanted to talk, I do have my own discord server, albeit a relatively quiet place:
discord.gg/FqUSnW5
Anything will be greatly appreciated. I'll be looking for another job soon, but if I don't move out of this house, my expenses are going to double. Every single plan I've had this year has fallen through, I've lost connections with friends, and were I not so used to being slighted or shorted, I'm sure the next thing to go would be my mind. As thankful as I am to be away from everything that was killing me inside, this is probably one of the most stressful times I've faced because I have no guarantee of anything. All I can do is move on and build myself back up, and I fully intend to do so.
I wish you all the best; thank you for being there.
Donate if you want, but the song is completely free.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/button-forest
The past is as much a mystery as the present; souls of stitching and fabric guide me through and away, yet upon every gaze I wonder in a dreadful silence if, perhaps, these are beings such as I, empty of all save that which animates them. Eyes akin to my own, I can't perceive what lies within, and questions yield nothing but the grim reminder that I am alone. Maybe someday, I, too, will join them. No voice to cry out, no face to reveal pain and sadness...maybe, it is so that I've already become. May I be as a guide for you as well.
I've had this idea since 2014, but something about this weekend made me want to finally restart and finish this. I just...felt this, I guess.
Not sure why I've been in the mood for this style as of late, but I hope it's enjoyable. It's possible I'm wringing myself out, and everything I don't tell others is said through music. I don't know.
Not sure I have much to say this time. I've got a lot going on, but it seems I've had an awakening of sorts, in that I understand that I matter. Despite constantly feeling as though I don't, I do, and I can't let myself worry so much about others without taking time for myself. It's honestly quite exhausting, and I wish so strongly I'd realized this earlier.
I hope you all understand and take comfort in the fact that you matter as well. Thank you.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/tears-of-the-abandoned
You can download it for free or pay for it if you truly wish to.
Artwork: medium.com/@beaumontwrites/authoritarianisminhollowknight-9a367d32e0a1
Hallowed Night, my last attempt at achieving the feel of Hollow Knight's soundtrack, got me thinking about trying it again.
I've had the idea of making a Hollow Knight-inspired album from the perspective of a wandering citizen of no relevance, either before or during the plot of the game. Sometimes it's fun to tackle different perspectives of an idea, even if Christopher Larkin did it better.
It's always worth a shot, I feel.
I realize I've been "gone" for a while, but there's just been so much happening that it's hard to really explain it all; I hope this is enough for now until I can formulate other thoughts and ideas.
If this is something you'd like to hear more of, please let me know in the comments, since I know a lot of people have asked me to return to traditional orchestral pieces, and I understand that's why many of you are still here.
Well, if you're new to my work, you can find pretty much all of it on bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
13 albums and an EP, but maybe this concept will get off the ground and become something greater someday.
I'm pretty excited for Silksong's release, so I figured maybe this is the ideal path for now. I dunno. I guess we'll just see what happens.
Thank you for listening.
Artwork: deviantart.com/ventious/art/Sidus-548363075
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/oblivious-ii
The original goal was to remake an old song of mine, since he commonly tells me it's his favorite, but we ended up doing a sort of amalgamation of all the elements of Cynosure.
I really did want to fully remake the album, but timing constraints and the like just made it feel like an impossibility, but considering that this is my first in-person collab and first true collab (excluding my work on Aviators' track His Arrival), I feel it was worth it.
We've had so much fun working on this over the weekend, and it's kinda nice to break out of being a lone wolf for 8 years.
I'm posting this from his place, and we'll be doing a stream together a little bit later on his channel, so go check him out if you like what you hear:
youtube.com/user/ShadowFireMario999/featured
I think I'll be focusing on some calm orchestral soon enough, so there's that, but I don't have much to say this time other than I hope you all enjoy this.
Artwork: deviantart.com/sharpieboss/art/I-remembered-something-very-different-560746681
radiarc.bandcamp.com/album/the-fulcrum
"I did it...we can finally go home..." she says, staggering as a sickening darkness pulses through her veins and bleeds from her eyes.
She falls, but catches herself, kneeling in great agony as her breathing intensifies.
Summoning what little bit of strength she has left, she attempts to use this dark energy, reaching forward with her palm facing the ground between her and the boy, but her efforts are in vain; only ashes form, and the wind carries them away.
Her eyes begin to cloud over as she rises with sorrow and loathing, muttering between sharp breaths, "I was so tired..."
"So tired of being cursed with this frail body, so tired of the voices calling out to me, promising a way out...a way out for all of us."
"I see now that I was wrong."
"I'm sorry."
She grips the gun she'd once held so dearly, but the Null has accepted its new host, pulling her into the air and casting away her only possession.
With her final moments of composure, struggling to hold back tears, she looks at the boy before her, his face worried, but understanding.
"Don't let it live."
I figured I'd save this one for last, because the chord progression comes from a song that's both nostalgic and meaningful to me as well as the plot of this album I've been working on for about a year now. So much has happened since then...
Actually, I didn't want to release this because I had more songs I wanted to make, but that's for another time when I'm in a better place in life.
Basically, a couple girls act as involuntary gatekeepers for a dark entity telepathically seeking a host until this guy drops out of the sky, and the entity calls for him, too, with the promise of power beyond comprehension, and a way to go home.
A lot's been changed, but Paige, the character in Weight of the World, is still very much an extra, though equally unwilling as a newcomer to the dimension, stricken with rage from living a life where a lapse in self-control could kill.
I'm sorry I haven't done much horse stuff, but I'm always at a point where I do what I want to do, and as of now, most of it isn't pony related.
I've got some ideas up my sleeve, but I've been working through so much stuff this year, and I'm just tired.
My car's in the shop for the third time now, thus setting me back again in my efforts to quit this job, and my future is as uncertain as ever.
I just want peace of mind at this point.
I hope that, at the very least, I'm still putting out quality content, and maybe you all will connect with it like I do.
Thanks for sticking around.
If you like what you hear, please check out the rest of my bandcamp; I'm re-opening commissions, so DM me on Discord.
radiarc.bandcamp.com
discord.gg/FqUSnW5
I also have a patreon, if you're feeling extra generous:
patreon.com/radiarc
This song, this album...they mean a lot to me.
This has been the most difficult year of my life, but hopefully, everything will turn out alright.
I've still got faith.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/skip
Artwork: deviantart.com/sharpieboss/art/floridian-549655467
Maybe something good, maybe an anthro cat girl that's condensed the mass of a semi truck into her being, and has to live with the struggle of trying immensely hard not to destroy everything by complete accident. Y'know, normal stuff.
Can't tell you all how long I've been trying to make something for this picture. It's been a struggle, but I'm happy that I can release something I'm moderately happy with, especially since I know The Void Undying isn't exactly everyone's cup of tea.
This song acts as an epilogue of sorts for the main plot, which I'll just leave open to interpretation at this point, since it's become a mess from the original and...well, it's just better this way. I've dealt with enough difficulties this year, both out of my control and self-inflicted.
Things are hard. And they likely will be for a long time, but I'm on a slow path to mutual understanding and, perhaps, a better life.
I've got a lot going on that I can't talk about, but trust that I'm dealing with it very well and have strong faith everything will turn out for the best, even though it seems awful.
I can't even begin to tell you all how I wish for my own Skip, to see what the future holds. There's a lot on the horizon, but we won't get a clearer image until we get there, and all we can do is be civil and patient, moving ever closer toward our destiny.
If you like what you hear, please check out the rest of my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
12 albums, an EP, plus some stuff you won't find on youtube.
And, if you're feeling especially generous, I also have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
All funds go right back into the music, one way or another.
I also have a discord server, for those of you who are interested:
discord.gg/FqUSnW5
The final episode is upon us. I've seen it, but I won't spoil anything.
All I can say is that I was right. 2012, I was right, and with any luck, I'll have the strength to do something that's long overdue, and I hope you'll support me through that, because I'm seriously so excited about it, and I hope you all are, too.
Thank you so very much.
poniesatdawn.bandcamp.com/album/eternal
Artwork: deviantart.com/mywatercolorheart/art/Forever-in-her-eyes-611738729
This was my submission for Ponies at Dawn, so I hope you all like it. It's meant to be for the encounter with the formless evil that lies within every villain, and its insanity and power from relentless hatred of all living things.
I've just been hurting, guys.
Physically and mentally, these past couple of months have just drained everything out of me, and for a couple weeks straight, I couldn't even focus because I had constant headaches that medication wasn't helping.
There's a lot going on right now, but there's also a lot I can't talk about. Personal stuff is very difficult. Just want you guys to know that I'm really sorry I haven't been able to work on everything, and I've been trying my hardest every day to at least attempt something.
I hate disappearing for a few months, but time never stops, and things rarely get easier. If I miss another day of work, I'm fired, but I wouldn't have missed nearly as much if it weren't for my car's engine going out of commission at the beginning of the year, and then the visits to the doctor for high blood pressure from the amount of stuff that's been piling up on my mind. Hell...in that picture, I'm starting to see myself.
And it hurts.
But, I've been told that from great suffering comes some of the most beautiful art, and, at the end of the day, I hope that all of this was worth it. Maybe, someday soon, I'll find what I'm looking for, and everything will be alright. I really, really wish you all the best, and I hope it'll all work out for all of us.
If you like what you hear, check out the rest of my bandcamp: radiarc.bandcamp.com
12 albums, an EP, plus some stuff you won't find on youtube.
Or, if you're feeling especially generous, I've also got a patreon: patreon.com/radiarc
I'm grateful for all your support.
It means a lot to me that you all are still here after all these years, and hopefully for years to come. I've got another thing I'm working on, but chances are that I'll upload it soon enough, so expect something on the horizon soon.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/the-familiar
Artwork: deviantart.com/sharpieboss/art/Splitting-Elements-575465751
As she nears, I am still, though troubled and stricken with a fear greater than I can comprehend, my life slipping through the space between the fingers of a clenched fist.
Breathe.
She follows me. Her presence emanates and manifests in the darkness of shadows cast by the only saving grace, shining fiercely in front of me; from the null, she reaches out to me, and I tremble, pulling away and walking into the light, blinding me.
Breathe.
I run, and she follows, ever closer. Her pull surrounds me, and I lose sense of all direction and clarity. The light never fades, yet, I fall, and I can't stop. I land, broken, but she nears, and I run.
Breathe.
The precipice, the beyond, the self, the other. She does not waver. The light, the darkness, the void. She remains. The hope, the dream, the nightmare, the last thread of my waning sanity and will. She reaches out, and I gasp.
I can't.
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If you like what you hear, please check out the rest of my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
12 albums, an EP, plus some stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.
And, if you're feeling particularly generous, I also have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
All funds donated go right back into the music.
I've got a couple conventions coming up, so every bit is going to help a lot. If you're going to Trotcon or Bronycon, I hope to see you there!
And now, for the real stuff.
Sometimes, things just don't get better, I guess.
I started this song about a week or so ago, but it's gone through so many phases that you could say I've been working on this file for maybe a month. I don't know anymore.
I just hate how everything has gone, and maybe it's the source of not having my car for over 4 months (all the while continuing to make payments on it and drop a couple thousand on a new engine) and being stuck at a job that just drains all my energy so I can't even work on music, but I'm just tired of even trying to do anything.
I've spent some time reflecting as of late, and it feels like all my life, I've been coerced and pressured to do things that weren't really the best thing for me. I haven't even been able to come to terms with who I am and where I am in life up until now, and I've just wanted to bash my skull in because it feels like everything's wrong and there's nothing I can do. It's too late.
I just have to be okay because that's what people do. I just have to be fine with how things are going and fix everything because that's what I'm supposed to do. When do I get to keep what I've worked for? When does everything stop bombarding me with more negativity? When do I get to be happy?
I guess all there is for me to do is wait.
That's what I'm supposed to do, right?
I'm tired, guys. I'm just tired.
I hope you all are doing much better than I am.
I don't know what's next, but expect things.
Stay awesome.
Artwork: deviantart.com/amaryllisno/art/Radiarc-Commission-800846751
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/if-only
"I have to."
I've been doing a lot of work on this album, and naturally, the plot took a much different, much more simple direction.
This song has actually been "done" for a very long time, but I've waited to find the perfect person to commission, and Amaryllis did exactly what I needed her to do; it's truly phenomenal how well this picture conveys what I was thinking.
If you all remember What Was, this is the scene that immediately follows, with the main protagonist encountering Tammy, the cat girl with the shotgun, for the second time (the first one being That Spark).
She's a kind soul, but there are some things that have to be done for the sake of preserving what is.
As for me? Been through a bit of hell, honestly.
Lots of really bad stuff's been going on, and it just keeps getting worse, and I've been closer to having a breakdown these past few days than I care to let on.
My car needs a new engine and I haven't been able to drive it or even see it for three months, I had to pay half of what I've been saving up just to pay for my end since the warranty doesn't want to cover all of it, and I was only able to get to that part a couple weeks ago; the car situation was in limbo for about two months before we were able to get anywhere with that.
On top of that, work's been taking a nosedive and I'm really trying my hardest to get out of there, but it's too much money to pass up right now, especially when I can't upload music since I couldn't work on music with full knowledge that I had a finished song but no picture despite my many, many attempts.
A lot of my plans have fallen through, and I'm seeing former friends become something I don't resonate with, and it just seems like everything is being held together by threads.
At this point, I'm just waiting to be brought out of this trench by something just short of divinity; I just feel like nothing I do matters because it's all going to get worse anyway, but I'm too tired to keep laughing it off.
Maybe it'll all get better.
Well, if you like this, there'll be much more to follow, and everything else I've done can be found here:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
And, if you want to donate toward the music, all funds go to more stuff to work with:
patreon.com/radiarc
https://clyp.it/nqnteptj
I started working on that Pinkamena album, and if you all know PegasYs, I've got a collab in motion with him.
Something I've had on my mind for quite some time, but maybe that'll be interesting.
https://clyp.it/nxgf4xst
It's an older render, so not everything in this is accurate, but the feel is there. I've been wanting to do something with inspiration from Celeste, so I thought I'd give it a shot.
I really, really, really hope you guys like this song.
I started it about 8 months ago and I've been busting my tail to get the song and the picture done, but I've encountered a great deal of road blocks.
discord.gg/FqUSnW5
If you aren't part of my Discord server, feel free to join.
I'll answer any and all questions, and I'm always happy to see you there.
Stay awesome, guys.
A stairwell eternal breathes with sorrow, her lingering despair beckons me forth, ascending, ascending. Beneath me lies the ruin of my works, the blood of the fallen and the unforgiven, a dark inferno burning quietly, seeking only to be, not to reach. The answer lurks ahead, but I pay it no mind; I will see it in time, and deal with it likewise.
And so I ascend.
But...of course, there is another. It writhes in a furl of the demonic and angelic, rising with a deep and overwhelming presence. Judge and executioner, fault is found within me, though I am pure; she, the dreadful, forgotten plague within me, is mistaken, and I will prove my worth and my purity. What is this being, to stand before me?
And so I ascend.
It rises in a hellish blaze, albeit radiant as the morning sun; this, too, shall set in time. I am guiltless. The nightmares, the visions, these...things I've seen, all of them cruel and malformed manifestations of a perfect being. She must know this. A Jacob's Ladder, how foolish. All things come to an end.
And so I ascend...
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This is one of the last tracks for my final Pinkamena project, possibly the last directly fandom-related major project I'll do.
I'll still upload random pony songs, of course, but I always wanted the last Pinkamena album to be a big deal.
There will be three encounters and a yet-to-be-determined amount of locations, but I will attempt to put this into motion as quickly as I can.
Work's just been bad, and I'm still upset that I missed the Ponies at Dawn deadline because of everything else I had going on.
This is the SuperEgo of Pinkie, potentially the last encounter in the whole story.
I wanted this to be something grandiose and terrible, something with a frightening gracefulness.
It's fought in an eternal stairwell, and it exists solely to right all wrongs and give way to the truth; what that is, we may never understand.
So, uh...I hope you all enjoyed it!
If you like what you hear, please check out my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
Whole bunch of albums plus some stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.
I've hated everything, to be honest.
I come home every day and feel like I should just be dumped into the garbage.
I'm just tired. Tired of everything.
Maybe stuff will get better.
It sure ain't tryin' to.
Hope all goes well with you guys; everything works out eventually.
Stay awesome.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/hallowed-night
It isn't associated with the album I'm working on, so it's free, if you want it to be.
Artwork: deviantart.com/sileentdo/art/Ohh-Luna-743870592
I've been playing a LOT of Hollow Knight as of late, and while I'm nowhere near the level of Christopher Larkin, I decided I wanted to take some notes from the game's score (namely the tracks for the White Palace and City of Tears) and see how far I could go.
Also, seeing as I'm well aware of my beginnings, I wanted to upload something orchestral, but far different than what I normally would do.
This song could've gone a lot of ways, but ultimately, I felt it was best to let it be what it is.
After all, I did want to be the second Makkon, so I figured I should probably step up to the plate and give a proper swing.
Is this indicative of other orchestral to come? Perhaps.
For now, this is all I have, and I deeply hope you all enjoy it as much as I enjoyed working on it.
Apologies if my words are brief; I've got work in the morning and I've had a satisfactory amount of wine.
As usual, if you like what you hear, please check out the rest of my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
12 albums, an EP, plus some stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.
And, if you're feeling especially generous, I also have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
All donations go right back into the music.
I've got a lot of semi-orchestral stuff planned, but I thought it'd be fun to give a shot at "pure" orchestral again.
I've also got a lot of weird stuff planned, but for the meantime, I hope this is enjoyable enough, since I've been dying to make Hollow Knight-inspired music, but I haven't quite figured out the dynamics yet.
Even still, I hope to see you all again soon.
Stay awesome!
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/what-was
Artwork: deviantart.com/sharpieboss/art/paper-wings-553567052
What happened?
This song is for that album I'm working on; wasn't actually supposed to even be on the album, but the more I thought about it, the more it fit.
I've been looking at this picture for months, trying to think of what to do for it, and I'd been messing with the idea of including a section with an abandoned city (well, by civilized beings), but I didn't know how it'd work in with the rest of the plot.
After working on this song for a while, everything just fell into place, oddly enough.
I'll probably talk about it more at a later time, but the condensed plot is that it's evident something went very wrong here, and the creatures found are nothing like those living on the rest of the planet. The protagonist comes across a large beast, but they both seem to try to avoid each other, when eventually, nearly out of sight of the protagonist, the beast is caught and chastised by Tammy (the character which That Spark was made for), who has warned him multiple times to stay away from the city. Following that will be the second encounter theme with Tammy, which is next on my agenda after another fandom project that's a bit under wraps at the moment.
If you like what you hear, please check out my bandcamp:
12 albums, an EP, plus some stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.
radiarc.bandcamp.com
And, if you're feeling particularly generous, I also have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
All money donated goes right back into the music.
I've had a lot on my mind and a lot going on as of late, but thank goodness for these nearly back-to-back holiday breaks.
Hopefully, I'll be able to quit this job soon, because there's honestly nothing I love more than working on music.
This album is reminding me exactly why I wanted to make music in the first place, and I'm so ready to finish it off in these upcoming months.
Thanks, you all, for helping make this a reality, and I'll keep doing my best to give you guys everything I've got, even when it seems like life itself is trying to push me back.
Stay awesome, all.
Oh! Almost forgot. Couple things, if you don't know, I *do* have a Discord server:
discordapp.com/invite/5ehrcg5
Also, I mentioned that second Tammy encounter -- I'm still waiting on the artwork for that, but this is what this song is going to lead into:
https://clyp.it/2eyyj4zq
Everything until 1:01 is semi-finalized, I just need the artist to get back to me so I can finish this up. Hope you guys like this project so far; I've put in so much work and money into it, and really, I'm just happy to be doing it.
Artwork: deviantart.com/sharpieboss/art/Not-having-a-home-keeps-me-alive-566794732
It's free, just put $0.00 for the price: radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/here-we-are
This is something I've had for a little while that I wasn't sure what to do with, so I dusted it off and added some shine to it.
It's a bit more lax than a lot of my recent stuff, but I hope you enjoy it anyway; I was really on the fence about uploading it, but I decided to go ahead and let it loose.
The rest of my stuff can be found on my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
I've got a lot of stuff in the works, and any support goes right back into the music.
Now that I've got all of that out of the way, I'd like to get some stuff off my chest.
I've not been a happy person as of late.
I dunno, guys. I'm always trying to work on music, but it seems like more often than not, I have strong starts that just can't get off the ground because either work breaks up my train of thought, or I just don't have the drive for it anymore, and I feel like working on something else.
Most days I get off of work and I'm exhausted; our line tends to work well past what everyone else does because we just can't hit the rates we're supposed to, and they keep raising our numbers when we can't even guarantee we'll have the parts ready to assemble the next run of product.
It's very, very frustrating to deal with this every day.
On top of that, I've been pulled in so many different directions that I end up just not wanting to hang out with anyone despite ending up trying to make time for them because a lot of people from out of town are back, but only briefly.
Over all of that, I'm really trying to get this album done, but I've been hitting constant roadblocks in reworking the story and trying to get artwork commissioned and it just really sucks because this was the one thing I wanted to make a reality, and it's as if life itself is working against me.
Been wanting to do some pony stuff just so I could put out something because I truly hate going for too long without uploading, but man, it's just...it's terrible.
I've spent well over 2 grand on libraries that I thought would help spark that interest, but I just simply do not have the energy or time to do much of anything right now, and it hurts because this is the one thing in life I always enjoy spending my time on.
I get a bit down every now and then when I remember how hard I tried to improve myself so that I wouldn't have to be in this position and I could just work on music every day to carry me, but I just feel like I somehow messed up along the way, since it seems like so many of my peers are so far past me in terms of relevance.
I'm just stuck here.
I've always joked that, in reference to life in general, I have Mario Kart luck, by which I mean that at any given point in Mario Kart 8, you have the chance to get a coin, which is the most useless item in the game, and you have this chance from 12th to 1st place. I typically always get this item when I play, while everyone else magically avoids this despite how much of a disadvantage I'm already at.
This song in particular is something I felt might help, because in reference to the album, this is for when the characters find themselves in this new world, and there's no perceivable way out. They're just there now, and they have to figure out how to live on basically nothing outside of what's surrounding them.
I feel like I've just been dumped into a position that I can't break out of.
I don't have any other jobs lined up, and I'm making more money here than I would anywhere else in this city.
The only problem is time, and I feel like it's wasting away.
Pretty much every day feels like a reminder of a mistake I made, and I can't learn from it because I don't know what I did.
I'm here now, until life brings me elsewhere.
May you all fare better than I.
Artwork: deviantart.com/gan-91003/art/Deltarune-771749782
Download (free): radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/rudest-buster-deltarune-remix
Just put $0.00 for the price, and you'll get it for free, but if you wanna donate, I'd be extremely grateful!
I used to do Undertale originals, and I plan to do at least one for Deltarune, but I wanna start off with a remix, since I really like the main battle theme.
I wasn't so sure about the game at first, but it's really grown on me, and the dark goat child warms my heart.
I've been dying to work on something more energetic since I feel like most of my stuff just ain't fun enough, so I hope this is satisfactory.
On the topic of life stuff...
I try to make at least one song per month, but I've got a lot of stuff on the backburner; stuff's been rough as of late, so it's hard to find time to actually get stuff done.
Work's been kicking my tail pretty bad as of late, and they keep forcing our line to stay over later and later, and now they're increasing the amount we have to produce, and...yeah, I'll probably be working a lot of 12 hours shifts.
I at least wanted to get something out to you guys to show that I still do care a lot about you, because not a day goes by without me thinking "Well, did I try as hard as I could to work on music today?"
Perseverance is key, I guess.
Still hurts, but it's better than taking a beating lying down.
As always, if you like what you hear, please check out the rest of my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
12 albums, an EP, plus some stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.
If you're feeling extra generous, I also have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
All proceeds go right back into the music.
I've been reworking the plot of that furry album, so I actually have a bit less to compose, but I still want it to be one of the best things I've made in a while, so it'll probably be another couple of months before it's complete.
As far as pony stuff goes, I've got some collaborations planned, but for now, I'm just seeing what my free time will let me do, and what I feel truly passionate about.
And, for you full-description readers...
https://clyp.it/2eyyj4zq
This was gonna be the other Tammy battle theme.
The way the story goes now, she's still part of that group of three, but the circumstances are different, so I might not even need this track. Still wanna make it, though, since it's fun to mess with.
Well, regardless of what happens, I hope you'll stick around.
Things have been difficult, but I'm thankful for all of you.
Stay awesome.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/weight-of-the-world
Artwork commissioned by: http://www.furaffinity.net/user/namelessenemy
If you like this, please check out the rest of my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
12 albums, an EP, plus some stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.
And, if you're feeling particularly generous, I also have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
And, finally, the only reason you're still reading.
Paige is the second to be sent to kill two bioweapons named Robbe and Tammy, as well as their living catalyst, a large beast named Gus, and retrieve the first assassin, Paul, dead or alive.
Of these individuals deemed "too dangerous to let live", Paige has unwillingly given up all hope of leading a normal life to eradicate the world of others like her, if only to settle the supposed "rising tensions" between races she's had little contact with.
All she knows is that she weighs as much as a truck, and hits like one, too, making a job like this one of the easier things to take on. But after arriving to her destination, she's unsure if she wants to.
So...yeah. It's a furry story that I'm working on, simply put.
And, just to be clear, it's not just on a whim; this is the most passion I've had for a project since I first worked on Mistaken, arguably even since I worked on Cynosure all those years ago.
I've hinted at this before, but I decided that this time, I'm serious, and I want to put full effort into this, because all my life I've had so many ideas that I never acted on, and I've hated myself for it.
I realize that the running gag is pony musicians going to furry stuff, but here's the thing -- I was always drawing anthros and making stories involving anthros, and this, if anything, is what I should've done a long time ago.
A number of months ago, I uploaded a song titled "In the Know", which was actually when I first got the idea of three characters unfortunately and inadvertently finding themselves in the middle of a grand controversy concerning abilities they never knew they had or wanted to use. All of them have a trace of a strange energy, and for Robbe, the character that song was for, she continuously generates this energy until her body reaches its limit and it releases regardless of any effort to contain it, so she's basically a walking bomb.
Her sister, Tammy, thrives off of this energy and it essentially fuels her body, mostly in the way of mental processes and the like, but without it, she becomes weak. She doesn't even know she has this flaw, but she generally stays close to her sister because "it makes her feel better".
And lastly, Gus, the beast roughly twice their size, is one of a few others of his race that can amplify this energy passively, but he's 9, and doesn't really understand what's going on.
This whole project has been in the works for several months, and it's over halfway done, but I understand if you guys don't care about it, and that's fine. All I want to do is make music that tells a story I made, and if you wanna leave, that's cool.
I've got some pony stuff in line later, but when I said I was gonna go in different directions, I meant it.
Maybe I'm overreacting, but I just wanted to let you guys know that this is something that I've been unsure of ever since I started, so I thought it'd only be fitting to officially start it with Weight of the World.
Also I really like Paige, even though she's technically a later addition.
I've never really done a song for an original character, so it's really cool to finally be in a position where I can do that.
I've got some other stuff that I'm not gonna post to youtube just yet, but if you wanna hear something else for the album I was working on, I've got something for particularly earlier on in the album:
https://clyp.it/2agluhvb
This is for when Paul, the first assassin, first arrives where the characters are believed to be.
I know all this is weird, but trust me, guys, this is some of the best work I've done in a long time, and I've got a lot of ideas for where I want to take this.
If you didn't already figure it out, Loose and That Spark were part of this, I just didn't have the artwork for it, and I even told you guys what was going on in the comments section of That Spark.
Not that it makes me feel better, since even though I did alter that song to better fit Rainbow Dash after realizing that the only art I had was sketches, I don't like telling partial truths.
I dunno. This is all weird for me, too, but I have to have confidence in this.
I wish you all the best, and I hope you'll stick with me.
If you're curious, this was the original sketch of the character:
cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/87067968315346944/498519353923469313/Paige_sitting.png
The commissioned picture ended up portraying her kinda differently, but I don't mind too much. I guess I never did stop liking anthro.
poniesatdawn.bandcamp.com
deviantart.com/sharpieboss/art/Eternal-562979884
An impossible being, the beginning of infinity, the void itself walks forth; what fool would dare to challenge it?
Yeah, this is what I was working on for a while for the Ponies at Dawn album.
I kinda like it, I kinda feel I could've done better. I dunno, it's made, and people were happy, so I'm cool with it, too.
I just really wanted to leave an impression this time, something to really catch everyone's attention and let them know I'm out here putting in work, y'know?
I guess this is the part where I tell you what I'm working on outside of this, and I have a feeling it'll ruffle some feathers, so I'll just let it mostly speak for itself after I get this artwork done. The song's done, and those of you who pay attention to what I post on clyp probably already know about it, but I'm working on another semi-OST, but this time, I'm taking it a bit more seriously.
I've got a story set up, actual characters, I'm getting the artwork commissioned, and for the first time in a long time, I actually feel like this is gonna be something worth the effort, even if others don't like it or get it.
Even still, as always, I'm putting all I've got into this, so if you like what I've done so far, you're probably gonna like what's to come.
At least, I sincerely hope you do.
Well, as always, if you think this is cool, check out the rest of my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
12 albums, an EP, plus some stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.
And/or, if you're feeling super generous, I also have a Patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
All proceeds go directly back into the music.
As much as I want to show you guys the next song, I don't want it to be so easy to access. It's in the penultimate stage, so it's moooostly what it's gonna sound like, but I still gotta tweak some stuff, and I'm waiting for the artist to get back to me on it.
But, what I can do is link you to other stuff I've been messing with, and maybe you'll check out the rest of my clips to see what's next.
https://clyp.it/xzibfg3g
And this, as well, will have custom artwork commissioned; that picture's placeholder.
Also, for those of you who don't know, I've got a Discord server, so if you've got questions or just wanna talk, I'll be listening.
discord.gg/FqUSnW5
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/that-spark
No matter what, she'll always have it.
Well, I've actually been working pretty consistently on stuff, it's just that nothing's panned out into a full-fledged song, just random ideas here and there.
Gotta admit, it kinda sucks, and then I hear about an acquaintance of mine doing a song in about two hours, so the next day, I did the usual and got whatever I could find that had caffeine in it so I could be productive.
Took me half a day to make this one; it's a bit of a dual-purpose song, so that made it easier, but I really wanted to go all-out with this one, just to mess with more progressive ideas and complexities I haven't fully explored.
Never made a song for my original favorite pony, and I knew I had to change that, but the alternate purpose was for a bit of a secret project I've got in the works.
Basically, I just wanted to capture that spark, that spark I used to have, that spark that a certain rainbow pony gave me.
It's been too irritating sitting in the background getting frustrated with myself, feeling like maybe I just can't hack it anymore.
Same BS that was going on when I made Bury Me, I'm just so done with it all that I wanted to make a statement with this song, showing what I'm capable of and what I stand for.
I've still got that spark, and I'll gladly let everyone know that I'm not done yet.
Well, as always, if you like what you hear, please check out my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
12 ablums, and EP, plus a whole bunch of stuff you won't find on youtube.
And, if you're feeling really generous, I also have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
If you wanted to know what this was springboarded from, it was a project I was just gonna call Skip, also related to that secret thing:
https://clyp.it/mxgcjjjb
Just a sorta aquatic/swampy level thing, but I'm so much happier with this.
Also, Aleph Null awaits~
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/loose
Artwork: deviantart.com/segraece/art/Road-to-nowhere-639750740
Loose like the untied, loose like the untamed, loose like the promise of another day.
Not quite sure why I made this, I just...felt it. I felt everything.
Every aspect of this was just something I needed to make, and about halfway through making it, I realized that I'd been influenced pretty heavily by Risk of Rain without even realizing it, so I decided to go as far as I could with the blending of styles.
Coalescence is one of my all-time favorite songs, and Chris Christodoulou is a genius, so I gotta say I'm pretty happy with this one, even if it is weird.
As far as why the song was made...
Things have been kinda sucky as of late, despite married life going pretty well and getting a new car.
I just always feel tired and upset, like everything's spiralling out of control, and I don't know why.
I''m getting hired in to work full time soon, and I'll be making a lot more money, but...I dunno.
I feel like ever since my wife and I watched Aggretsuko, I've wanted something greater in life, something that I just can't have.
I can't relate to most of my coworkers because they're old and stubborn and have no life goals or ambitions outside of the factory, and the few people I can talk with are suffering, or just as broken as I am.
At the end of the day, at least I have music, I suppose.
Hopefully, there will be more where this came from.
As always, if you like what you hear, please check out the rest of my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
12 albums, an EP, plus some stuff you won't find on youtube.
And, if you're feeling extra generous, I also have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
All donations go right back into the music.
I also have a Discord server, for those that are interested:
discord.gg/BWFy7c
I've got something killer in waiting right now, and it tears me up inside that I can't show it yet, but it's gonna be part of the next Ponies at Dawn album.
It's something I've been really, really wanting to make, but I'd been waiting for the perfect time to do it.
If you liked Kyrie and Always There, it's...something along those lines.
All I can give you is a picture and a name...
cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/235630811490156544/475499526103367700/eternal_by_sharpieboss-d9b6m2419.png
Aleph Null.
weirdofish.deviantart.com/art/Green-Fury-edit-465636662
The heart of darkness beats from within the hive rife with impurity, the breeding ground for parasites of putrid anarchy seeping with verdant filth.
The murmuring ceases as you delve deeper within her chambers, her rage immeasurable; the ground seethes lurid toxins and the air itself bites at your flesh with acidity.
The creature before you is still, but writhing with animosity, her mouth salivating with unadulterated hatred.
"You," she breathes, her gaze piercing yours. "You disgust me. Believing yourself to be so pure, so innocent..."
She pauses, closing her eyes as a crooked smile creeps across her face.
"So vile."
I told you guys I was gonna make another Chrysalis song, and I prefer to keep my word, regardless of how long it takes.
This one was extremely close to being scrapped, but after a friend protested, I decided to dive back in and salvage it into something I'm actually kinda happy with.
For a good long while, I feel like people have been doing Chrysalis all wrong -- well, not *all* wrong, but I had an atmosphere for her in mind, and nobody was making it, so for years, I've tried on occasion to get it into song form.
Harder than you'd think, which explains why people haven't done it, but hey, here it is, I guess.
hope you guys enjoy it, especially since there's a small nod to my original Chrysalis theme somewhere in there (a cookie to whoever guesses where).
Life's been pretty rough as of late; I'll talk more about it in the comments, but basically, I moved out with my soon-to-be-wife, I can't walk normally because of either something that happened at work or the shoes I've been wearing while working, my car is acting up again, and a bunch of other junk.
I would've loved to work on more stuff, but I frequently come home either tired or with a headache, and I just can't work on anything or get any ideas, so I end up just relaxing or playing games.
I'm really unclear with what I should do at this point in life, whether I should keep pursuing music or try to work more hours at my job, which is why this album is named Void.
I feel pretty lost right now, but I know I'll get through it soon enough; probably after I get married and all that, things will begin working out.
As usual, though, if you like what you hear, please check out my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
12 albums, an EP, plus some bonus stuff that you won't find on youtube.
Or, if you're feeling extra generous, I also have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
Also, for those of you who don't know, I have a Discord server:
discord.gg/FqUSnW5
It's a calm place, so no need to worry about constant pings and such.
Normally, I don't share stuff that's part of a story before the story's done and released, but since it's the final Pinkamena album and the conclusion to this trilogy I've started (also the story that Always There is referencing), I'd like to say that it is officially in the works, but there's no ETA on when it'll be done.
https://clyp.it/cyg40xis?token=4730270e4ce8d8b15cb8d4d87750704d
This is the beginning, where Pinkie has just woken up to seeing her friends, quickly realising that the events of Forgotten and Mistaken were simply dreams...or so she thinks, as she begins to take notice of a mysterious figure in the distance, her friends disappearing one by one as she looks back and forth, rising to approach whoever this may be.
I've got some really neat stuff planned for this album, but it'll take time to get right, and to make sure it doesn't retread old territory without it being necessary.
Hope you guys will continue to stick with me, even though I don't know where I'm going.
Stay awesome, all.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/always-there
pondis-dant.deviantart.com/art/Pinkamina-399983714
We'll meet again. I'm sure of it.
I saw the picture and immediately knew I had to do another dark song, but I was pretty sure that I couldn't outdo The End or Ex Machina, so I tried something else.
And I tried for about 20 hours before I finally got some semblance of an idea of what exactly I wanted to do.
And then, about 10 hours of work later, I scrap 1/3rd of the song because it sounded like absolute garbage, and reorganized everything, and scrapped more, added more, reorganized, altered...
This song was a massive pain in my side and I've spent anywhere from 30 to 40-something hours on it total over the past week.
To give you a rough idea, I typically finish songs in about 10-20 hours, with most things getting done in about 14, but I wanted more than anything for this project to not be a failure.
If I'm gonna do horror, I'm gonna do it right, and I hope you guys enjoy it; the decisions I made in sound design ended up setting my personal record for most instances of Kontakt at 40, and my total RAM usage was about 14.3GB out of 15.6.
But, even still, I wanted something heavy and unique, and I finally made it happen.
This song is a precursor to the third album in the Pinkamena trilogy, but I'll detail that more in the comments.
As usual, if you like what you hear, you can find more on my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
11 albums, an EP, plus some stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.
Also, if you're feeling extra generous, I have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
All proceeds go right back into the music.
You wanna hear something stupid?
https://clyp.it/ehmbfqz0
That's what this track started out as.
And then it was https://clyp.it/zge1a1yu
And then a million renders later, I finally get the song done. But then I have to go back and add another segment. And another.
And then I spend like 2 hours on the video.
But I don't have to worry about it anymore, do I?
I just have to worry about making this next album the best I possibly can, and I welcome the challenge.
Rather, I would, but I'd like to do a couple other songs to keep my head out of the dark waters, just long enough to cleanse myself, and then I'll dive to the deepest depths I can manage.
's gonna be a good one, and I hope you all will stick with me.
poniesatdawn.bandcamp.com (the album is pay what you want; until I release my next compilation, this will be the only way to get this song, but doing so supports me and everyone else who collaborated on this)
If you want to listen to more of my stuff or support me:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
patreon.com/radiarc
Artwork: deviantart.com/art/Warrior-Dash-365912847
This song actually started with me just wanting to completely drop everything pony related and had nothing to do with ponies, but I was browsing through my pony archive for inspiration, and when I saw this picture, everything clicked.
This song was made during a very dark time where I'd just lost all hope of anything getting better, and if you look at the titles of my songs released since All That's Left, you can see how I felt.
The original plan was to make a series of songs leading up to the point of this upload, Bury Me, where I'd just break away from the fandom because I just feel like I'm not who I used to be and I never became who I wanted to be.
Ever since Makkon left, I wanted to not necessarily take his place, but seek to do what he did, and innovate in the orchestral side of the fandom and keep pushing the boundaries as far as I could while hopefully inspiring others to do the same, but after a while, I noticed that I just kept getting overlooked in favor of people like Carbon Maestro and Aurelleah, and I just couldn't take it anymore.
I was tired of being repeatedly shoved into the backseat, and going to cons where even some fellow musicians that I respect seemed to treat me like I didn't belong anywhere near them or just looked at me as a sales opportunity.
Music was never about any fame or money or whatever, it was about pushing myself as a musician to get to a point where I could freely express my thoughts and my stories, and work to help others on their path to do the same, but outside of sub count, I just never seemed to gain much traction and ended up falling on my face time and time again.
All That's Left, Don't Look At Me, Still, I Fall, Denouement, Bury Me.
After that, I was gonna go out not with a bang, but with a sort of passing note; I just felt that after 6 years of giving it my all in this community, it was time to just move on, and maybe I'd come back later.
It was just too much stress to constantly look back over my work and think "Was any of this even good?", especially after continuously refining myself and my processes and feeling like I'd gotten somewhere, and then to look at people who I felt still had a lot to learn but had gotten tens of thousands of views just out of nowhere.
I just felt like maybe I wasn't capable of making anything that really mattered, and this song was my way of saying "I'm done."
The story of the song will be detailed in the comments section, but I hope you guys understand what I'm talking about.
I don't feel any more special than any other musician in the fandom, and I honestly forget half the time that I even make music, but I wanted to gain popularity so it would be easier for people to hear what I could do and ask questions that would help further their own work, and possibly surpass me.
I can acknowledge that I'm likely the face of the orchestral community, it just never feels that way because on my end, I've just been in the shadows for the entirety of my time here.
It's hard to get across that feeling since I know there are people that would love more than anything to be where I am now, and I'm grateful for this channel and the progress it's made and the people who support me, but...I dunno.
A lot of times, I wonder how other "big" musicians would feel if they only got 1k views on their latest and greatest upload that they apparently poured all of their heart and soul into.
I wonder if they would be just as "passionate" as they are now.
I wonder if they'd still have such a positive outlook on the community and the direction everything is headed.
I wonder if they'd start to see that maybe there are others out there who don't feel the same way, that maybe the big picture isn't the beautiful masterpiece they thought it was.
I wonder if they'd be like me, drawing from recurring feelings of genuine brokenness.
Maybe they'd get it.
Thanks for listening.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/king-of-darkness
Artwork: lo-23.deviantart.com/art/King-Sombra-Wallpaper-386051164
Some of you guys said you wanted epic orchestral, so I set aside some time to get something done as quickly as possible for the one character I said I'd never compose for, because I felt it was only too perfect to combine the two things I didn't care much for anymore.
And, honestly...it was kinda fun!
's nice to do a speed challenge every great once in a while, but I more so prefer quality over quantity.
As far as not liking epic orchestral anymore, it's...okay, but I just don't really feel the same way I used to about it.
I wish people cared more about the other things that I really pour all of myself into, like Denouement and Uncertainty.
Still, I guess it's the nature of the beast, and all I can do is keep moving forward.
As always, if you like what you hear, please check out my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
11 albums, an EP, plus some stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.
And, if you're feeling extra generous, I also have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
All proceeds go right back into the music.
Well, I did it.
Didn't think I'd do it anytime soon, but I got the energy I needed and used it pretty well, I suppose.
Sadly, I might not have anything to upload for a while, and I'm gonna hold off my Ponies at Dawn track so it doesn't get flooded by all the others again, but you can check it out this Friday at the premiere!
I also have a 19-day work week because this factory is the best place and it's almost like I don't want to kill myself.
I mean, I won't, but this is gonna be abysmal if I can't find another job soon; they're really working the welding department way too hard, but there's nothing we can do about it aside from quit.
Well, I'm sure eventually things will get better.
Thanks for sticking with me, all.
What's it gonna be, kid?
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/in-the-know
sharpieboss.deviantart.com/art/The-BobCat-is-in-the-Know-618169676
Lv 92 Supreme Badass Bat Cat, 5% chance to drop a normal bat
Inspired directly by that picture; the second I saw it, I knew I had to make something for it, but the project kinda flopped and sat there for a while before I felt like resurrecting something.
This was gonna be a collab between me and Frozen Night, but we both had a lot on our plates, so I just decided to finish it up on my own.
Gotta say, I had a lot of fun with this -- the goal was to emulate Risk of Rain originally, but everyone told me it sounded a lot like Borderlands.
Having played Borderlands now, I see what they mean, and that made me enjoy working on this even more because I love that style.
This actually sparked a whooooole set of ideas, but I can't reveal much more than the character that I based on the one in the picture is either the main protagonist or the main antagonist, depending on routes chosen in the story, kinda like a CYOA.
It's set on an earthlike planet where you kinda wander around until you eventually meet this character, and that's all I can say for now since I don't want to spoil too much.
I've been thinking a lot about this, especially at work, and I'll go more in-depth if I can get this idea up and running.
Well, as always, if you like what you hear, please check out my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
11 albums, an EP, plus some bonus stuff you won't find on youtube.
Also, if you're feeling extra generous, I have a patreon as well:
patreon.com/radiarc
All proceeds go right back into the music.
I really, really wanna thank you all for being so patient with me; these past months have been increasingly rough, and last week, they told us we wouldn't be getting a day off, so I gotta work 13 days straight until I can finally sleep at a reasonable time and have a good drink.
After that, I'll probably get laid off since they're tearing down even more stuff at the factory and...goodness, it's all just stupid and infuriating, but I've already applied elsewhere, so I'm hoping that goes through.
I reeeeeeally want to share my Ponies at Dawn submission, but that will be revealed in due time; if you really wanna be the first to hear it, follow their twitter for info on the release date and livestream.
They've also got a Discord channel, which I will be in!
Of course, I also have my own channel, so if you'd ever like to talk to me, I'm always there:
discordapp.com/invite/5ehrcg5
Again, many, many thanks for being so patient; I'm sure things will get better eventually.
Stay awesome, all.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/denouement
sharpieboss.deviantart.com/art/All-you-will-see-is-Grey-578836596
The end is always in sight, but we try to enjoy the moments we have.
As usual, I wanted to do something for either my birthday or Valentine's Day, but after finishing my Ponies at Dawn submission, I decided to keep going while I had the fire in me and get this done before my birthday ended.
That being said, there are a few iffy parts, but I had so much fun with it that I almost don't even care.
With any luck, things will continue to look up for me.
Of course, as always, if you like what you hear, check out the rest of my bandcamp as well:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
11 albums, an EP, plus some bonus stuff you won't find on youtube.
And, if you're feeling extra generous, I do also have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
100% of the proceeds go toward better and more varied music.
I'm so sorry I've been away for so long, I've just been rethinking a lot of things in life and trying to find something to look forward to, so I ended up playing a lot of Borderlands 2 and Borderlands: The Pre-Sequel with some friends.
That actually helped a lot since I'm not used to playing something I thoroughly enjoy, and while I can't say it completely dug me out of the rut (it seems so easy to fall back in), it gave me the energy I needed to come back to music full-force.
I'll do my best to at least keep to one song per month, but I'm gonna push forward as hard as I can to keep doing new stuff, so I hope you guys are looking forward to that as much as I am.
I don't have anything new to share because the only other project I *did* have is done now, and it will be premiering on the next Ponies at Dawn album.
It's a lot different than what I usually do, but I think I did well with it, and I hope you'll feel the same.
Stay awesome, all.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/i-fall
Artwork: sharpieboss.deviantart.com/art/arrow-614364985
Things haven't been going so well.
Work keeps getting more difficult, it took me about 3 days to finally get enough rest and not feel like I have to go to sleep every few hours or so (which I did, but it barely helped), and, for some reason, the factory keeps forcing us to work on one of our two days off.
As far as music goes, this song was actually nearly shelved, but I was determined to figure out how to at least get the mixing to a tolerable level, and then I'd see how strongly I felt about finishing it.
Oddly enough, it was compelling.
I've been wanting to do something like this for a while, but figuring out how to balance all of the elements as well as actually make the idea interesting has been an enigma.
I've been a fan of Jake Chudnow's music (if you watch Vsauce, that's the guy behind the music) for quite some time, and I wanted to blend that style with my own to see just what would happen.
Normally, when I sit down to make something to get across how I feel, it's more along the lines of pure orchestral, but for some reason, it was different this time.
I'd explain, but I prefer to let the song speak for me.
That being said, I hope you guys enjoy it.
If you like what you hear, as always, check out my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
11 albums, an EP, plus some bonus stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.
Or, if you're just feeling generous, you can support me on patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
All of the funds go right back into the music.
And, if you didn't know, I have a Discord channel:
discord.gg/5ehrcg5
It's a calm place, but it's nice.
A lot of stuff has happened, and there are a lot of things I'm unsure of at the moment, but regardless, I hope you guys will stick with me.
Stay awesome, all.
Artwork: sharpieboss.deviantart.com/art/As-I-gaze-around-at-these-strangers-in-town-560194819
patreon.com/radiarc
The story for this is in the comments section; I just felt like I'd use this video to talk a bit.
In addition to increased work at my job and the guy on our weld line quitting, there've been some other things messing me up.
Some of you may have noticed that I've been growing farther and farther away from the fandom, partly because I'm tired of dealing with the drama and tired of feeling compelled to do epic orchestral because that's what everyone else is doing and that's what people are paying attention to.
I'm tired of working toward pushing the boundaries and trying to set a good example (well, as good as I can manage; I'm not perfect) for what can be done with orchestral, but I just don't feel like anyone really cares or even wants to try to slow down and get feedback before uploading because it seems like even more so than ever, people are in it for the views and not furthering themselves as musicians.
I know that it's present in every fandom, but it just hurts to see potential fly out the window because someone opted for quantity over quality yet again.
Again, I don't know everything, and I'm well aware I'm lacking in many fronts as far as music is concerned, but I've been perpetually in the shadow of others for nearly the entirety of my 6 years here, and, over time, it's worn on me; it's hard to keep up the smile when the rest of life feels empty and the one thing that's supposed to make me happy just doesn't do it anymore because the community surrounding has fallen apart.
There's a lot I'd like to get off my chest, but I've said the majority of what I want to say.
I just miss when it felt like people were so eager to experiment and truly push themselves express themselves as well as they possibly could.
Then again, who am I to say that these people aren't trying, and I'm just a jerk for thinking that they'd be farther along by now?
I sincerely apologize, and I know these are rather controversial opinions, but I feel that I've been quiet about it for too long, and all I want is to see the fandom prosper, perhaps not as well as it once did, but at least the beginnings of something great.
A lot of people have left, but I truly and honestly believe that everyone can be fantastic if they keep working at it and minimize all compromise.
Maybe you don't agree with all that I've said, and that's absolutely fine, but I do hope you understand that I want the best for the community and all surrounding it.
Thanks for listening; I'm sure things will be better soon.
I know there are a few out there who are doing great work, and I deeply appreciate them, I just hope there will be more to follow.
We're gonna make it.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/sweet-dreams
It's free, just enter 0.00 for the price.
Artwork: dadio46.deviantart.com/art/Let-Me-Out-of-This-Corruption-352532944
I have been so, so busy with work and real life stuff; I did not think I was gonna make anything this year, but I managed to barely get it done in time.
It doesn't exactly sound like I wanted it to, but I hope you guys enjoy it, since I always try to do something different for Halloween.
For you guys that don't know, I work the night shift (11:30pm - 7:30am) at a factory now; I'm a weld tester for air compressors.
It's tough, but it's good money, and I can hopefully get more used to the shift in work so that music doesn't feel like such an insurmountable mountain.
I'm a little frazzled right now since I've been mostly working on music for the past few days while not doing much else other than work and sleep, but I'm sure I'll regain composure in the morning.
Happy Halloween, everybody.
As usual, if you like what you hear, check out my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
11 albums, an EP, plus some bonus stuff you won't find on youtube.
Also, if you're feeling particularly generous, I do have a Patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
But, if you just wanna hang out or something, I've got a Discord server, too:
discord.gg/5ehrcg5
Whatever you choose to do, I wish you the best, and I hope to see you again soon.
poniesatdawn.bandcamp.com/album/anthology
sharpieboss.deviantart.com/art/You-all-feel-the-same-580088232
If you recall the episode with Iron Will, this piece was meant to convey the scene following Fluttershy's realization of the monster she'd become. Usually, I like to leave my work up to interpretation, but the inspiration from the show and the picture was so strong that I felt it to be necessary, if only for times few and far between.
As always, if you like what you hear, check out the rest of my stuff on bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
11 albums, 1 EP, plus some stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.
If you're feeling particularly generous, I also have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
All proceeds go directly to the music.
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So, here's a little backstory on this, and a general update on my life.
As many of you know, I've always wanted a factory job, and I finally managed to get one about a month ago; I now work 3rd shift (11:30pm to 7:30am) as a weld tester for air compressors.
It's rough on the body, but the pay is enough for me to move out, so it's fantastic.
The only problem is that when I get home, I'm completely wiped out, so I wake up around 3 in the afternoon, and it's hard to want to work on music immediately after waking up.
It's been getting progressively easier, but it's a real challenge, just finding a balance of working and playing.
You guys are really important to me, and I've got a lot of new ideas, but it's just hard to find the time.
Anyways, I was approached to submit something for a secret Ponies at Dawn project, now known as Anthology, and while I knew I had the ability to pretty much work on it whenever, I also had no idea what I should do.
I thought at first about going for a Tirek boss theme, then a Chrysalis boss theme, and after hitting brick wall after brick wall, it was a day before the submission deadline, and I had nothing.
So, I did the only thing I could think of, and channeled all my emotion into music.
I got the melody started on the night before, and the rest of the song was done on the due date.
I'm not really happy with it since there are a few areas where I could've executed a lot better, but I'm not gonna make any changes since it's already on the album.
The best I can do is promise you guys that the next song won't be as rushed, and as always, I'll put 100% effort into making sure it's as good as I can get it -- you guys deserve nothing less.
If you've been reading up to this point, I'm incredibly thankful.
As some of you know, I have a Discord server now:
discord.gg/5ehrcg5
It's a calm place, so don't worry about notification overload.
I also have my recent WIPs posted there, so if you wanna hear 'em, you can find all of them there.
I am so thankful to have you guys, since I couldn't be doing any of this without you.
Stay awesome; I hope to see you all again for the next song.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/album/resilience-album
Artwork: sharpieboss.deviantart.com/art/Did-I-go-at-it-wrong-600006935
I've been extremely swamped with work and other things as of late, so I opted to just cut the album here and lower the price.
It seems like I'm always talking about how rough things are, but I'll be honest, they definitely don't seem to be getting easier any time soon.
I would've liked to finish this sooner, but the job that I just left required me to work split shifts daily with no days off, so I just had no energy to work on anything, and it was terrible.
The worst part is that I loved my job, I just can't do it every day without stopping, and the pay wasn't enough to live off of.
It was stressing me out beyond belief, but with any luck, things will begin looking up.
As far as this song goes, I contacted Sharpieboss because of his amazing stuff, and I knew I had to do something for one of his pieces, so I chose this one.
It really spoke to me, and I wanted to see how well I could convey its message.
It's a little reminiscent of Iteration, but I wanted to really let the vocals create the atmosphere this time.
I hope you guys like it; it was a quickie, but a fun one.
As always, if you like what you hear, check out the rest of my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
11 albums, an EP, plus some other stuff you won't find on youtube.
If Patreon's more your cup of tea, I've got one of those as well!
patreon.com/radiarc
All the proceeds go right back into the music.
For those that *don't* know, I do have a Discord channel now:
discord.gg/5ehrcg5
It's a pretty casual place, but if you like me and what I do, and maybe you just wanna talk a little bit, you're more than welcome to.
I'd normally also link something that I've been working on, but I really haven't had the chance to; I mean, for this song, I had to stay up late with a can of NOS twice just to ensure I was making as much progress as possible, but I had a feeling I could get it done in a couple days of off-and-on work, and I did, so 's a nice feeling.
Well, Bronycon's coming up, so I'm gonna be focused on that.
I hope to see some of you guys there!
And, even if I don't, know that I truly appreciate you, and I wish you the best.
Stay awesome, all.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/carry-on
Artwork: fuzzyfox11.deviantart.com/art/Silent-Night-455616646
This song was a commission by Wing Dancer, and one of the stipulations is that it's free. So, it's free! (just enter 0.00 in the price field)
Commissions are almost always open, I just ask that you have some reference material for me to go off of; as far as contact goes, I'm fine with email or Discord DMs.
As far as the song...I'm not sure exactly how much I can talk about the character, but I struggled with this one for the longest.
Regardless of how much I tried, I could barely get anything started, and what I did get started sounded kinda crappy and soulless.
It wasn't until I started re-reading the character description, and I drew parallels between me and that character -- that's when I found my inspiration, and it connected very deeply with me.
The feeling of a neverending struggle, being submerged in work and depression, all while trying to keep everyone else in high spirits and smiling. It hurts.
I find my happiness in making others happy, and when I have no time to do that, it just eats away at me, sometimes to where I feel like there's almost nothing left. So I sleep. I sleep, and I just trust that the next day will be better.
And it will be.
I don't know what this song will mean to you, but I know what it means to me, and it means a lot.
I really hope you all enjoy this one; it's one of those times where I'm so, so glad that I get the chance to make stuff like this, things I can really just express myself and my emotions in, and I can only hope other musicians feel the same way.
If you like what you hear, check out my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
10 albums, an EP, plus some bonus stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.
If you want to support what I do, I've also got a patreon!
patreon.com/radiarc
All funds go right back into the music.
As I posted in the description of Kyrie, I now have a Discord channel:
discord.gg/5ehrcg5
I don't really have any WIPs to share at the moment, but if I ever do, I will definitely post them in here.
A lot has been going on as of late, which is why I'm uploading twice in one month, but I skipped last month and promised the commission would be done by June, so I figure this should put me back in line, but I can't make any promises about side projects right now, because every time I get all excited about an album idea, life hits fast and it hits hard, and I'm just not able to do anything for so long that I lose the motivation.
I will say, though, there's still a lot in store for 2017, and I'm eager to see what's around the bend; I hope you all feel the same.
Stay awesome, guys.
poniesatdawn.bandcamp.com
Please support all the people that worked on this album; they did a fantastic job and I was honestly impressed by a lot of the work on here.
It's a pay-what-you-want kind of deal, so you can get it for free, but I fully encourage you to donate.
Artwork: deviantart.com/art/Solar-Empire-Wallpaper-294934601
That being said...did you notice it?
It's been a few years, but I finally brought Rise of the Solar Empire back from the dead and made it into what I always wanted it to be.
Granted, this is for Daybreaker, but for the longest time, I've been wanting to do a proper Celestia-themed song, and what better than to make the proper counterpart to Eleison?
I really do hope you guys like this one, because I put a loooooooooot of time into this, and actually requested a resubmission because I felt like I didn't give it my all, despite maxing out my RAM once again and pushing my computer and mixing skills to their limits (and it kinda shows, for better and for worse).
This was made during a month where I had two jobs once again, one being picking strawberries from 6/6:30 in the morning to either 9 or 12, and then going to my other job.
It was a very miserable time, since it severely limited my time to work on music, so I ended up taking a day off (after I briefly messed up my arms from overexertion), and during that day, I got the bulk of Kyrie done, but the next days and nights and early, early mornings were spent on pushing this song as far as possible, since I've felt like I was skimping out on you guys as far as epic orchestral goes, and I wanted to give a real answer to the other orchestral guys at the fandom's forefront, just to say I've still got it in me.
As always, if you like what you hear, check out my bandcamp (which has been redesigned from that awful background I used to have; I didn't realize how tacky it was on other displays):
radiarc.bandcamp.com
10 albums, an EP, plus some stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube!
And if you feel like being really awesome, I've got a patreon and a paypal:
patreon.com/radiarc
paypal.me/radiarc
All funds go directly back into the music, and since it's the summer, a lot of places are having sales, so every bit definitely helps!
When I say that, I mean it -- I couldn't be anywhere NEAR where I am now without you guys, so I want to sincerely thank you for everything.
So, you might be asking yourself, "But what are you doing to celebrate? You got 10,000 subs!"...but that's why I have so much text here.
You see, I now have a Discord channel!
discord.gg/5ehrcg5
Because I spend most of my time on Discord, I thought maybe some of you guys would be interested in joining.
I don't expect it to be all that big of a chat, but, y'know, why not try?
I would show you guys what I'm working on right now, but I'm so close to being done that if you just wait a couple days, it'll be there.
You guys stay awesome!
Artwork: http://ajvl.deviantart.com/art/What-A-Breezie-Day-555725724
Along a path not forgotten but untouched, a lonely breeze drifts freely, the flowers stirring ever so slightly beneath her wings.
Memories of her friends float by and through, though the way home eludes her; she calmly proceeds, awestruck by such beauty, a scene far surpassing nature familiar to her.
The sun makes its way to the edge of the horizon, reluctant to say its goodbyes -- she surveys her surroundings, uncertainty creeping into her mind, but only momentarily.
A distinct chattering draws her nearer and nearer, and finally reunites her with her many beloved, faces cheerful and bright under a starlit sky.
Just as she has found her way, so will we.
This was actually a challenge by Orchestral Design ( youtube.com/user/OrchestralDesign ) to make something happy and calm, so I decided to take him up on that, especially in celebration of his return to music and the fandom, although I don't believe he ever necessarily left!
However, in doing this, I also challenge him to do something dark and intense, following something in my typical style.
Normally, I'd even extend that to say specifically hybrid cinematic, but I'll let him freehand it and see where it takes him.
As far as the song itself goes, I dunno; I just wanted to take something relaxing and roll with it.
I started out doing the normal major scale stuff, but I knew I wanted to have the melody do something that with just a hint of uncertainty, and that's where the concept for this song arose.
It was a great exercise in writing something that sort of keeps evolving and flowing, but I could definitely push myself harder for a more natural feeling since it's still a little wonky, but that's what the future is for.
I hope you guys enjoy it, because it was actually surprisingly fun to work on, though despite it being conceptually accurate, I was concerned that a more minimalist approach wouldn't work.
As always, if you like what you hear, check out my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
10 albums, an EP, plus a whole bunch of cool stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.
If you really, REALLY like what I do, I also have a Patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
This right here is what keeps me on a monthly/biweekly (if things are going particularly well) schedule, since I always wanna deliver the very best I can as often as I can, and I always love seeing you guys happy.
For you description readers...
I've actually been racking my brain trying to come up with something new and interesting.
https://clyp.it/vzixklye
I knew that if I continued this, I'd really have to make it into something interesting since it legitimately bothers me that my music has had such a distinct timbre; it's mainly the piano, and I'm gonna (hopefully) be able to buy the full version of the piano soon since what I'm using is actually a pianissimo patch from the full library, but boy is it versatile.
I'm planning something pretty cool soon based on Zelda: Breath of the Wild, but it'll take a bit to get done.
The Animal Crossing thing is on the backburner for now since I've had a lot of other stuff show up, but the Breath of the Wild thing shouldn't be too difficult, so if all goes well, I can have that done either by next month or this summer (but I want to try to work on it soon since, honestly, it's still topical).
I truly and honestly thank you so much for your continued support, and I just hope you'll stick with me on this crazy ride.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/iteration
And again, and again (but it's free again), and again, and OH
http://fractality.deviantart.com/art/Twilight-Sparkle-s-cutie-mark-255775335
Again! Over and over and again. And
patreon.com/radiarc
Again, and again.
Again? Again and again. Again AND again, again again and again.
Again and over again and again, but again.
And over and over.
radiarc.bandcamp.com
10 overs plus some extra agains that aren't even on youtube!
But before you click on another video (again), I've got a special clip detailing exactly how I feel about being an orchestral musician in a world of EDM
https://clyp.it/snxakggp
But we go on, over and over, again and again.
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/the-guardian
It's free; I've got 24k+ free downloads available on bandcamp, so I may as well use some of 'em!
I was a little iffy on remixing anything since I prefer to do my own thing most of the time, not to mention the original theme is pretty simplistic, but I found a bunch of stuff I could do with it to make it a bit less repetitive and keep the riff interesting.
Hopefully, at least.
I do really like how intimidating the original is, and I wanted to keep that same factor evident in this, but being that my rendition doesn't play in-game, I wanted to see if I could convey an encounter with dynamic and tonal shifts.
Maybe it worked, maybe it didn't -- that's for you to decide!
If you like what you hear, feel free to check out my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
10 albums, an EP, plus some bonus stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.
If you REALLY like what you hear and want to support me (and, in turn, the music) directly, I also have a patreon:
patreon.com/radiarc
I don't typically do remixes, but I'm working my hardest to ensure that whatever I upload is the best I can do.
And, for you description-readers out there, I've got some stuff I've been doing behind-the-scenes:
https://clyp.it/5u0eahhi
https://clyp.it/3qxbngkg
I've been taking on commission work for small indie games to help pay for stuff since my work hours got cut, so there'll surely be more to come (no links to the games available at the time; sorry).
I've been doing a little better in spirits and in finances, but I'm a long way from where I need to be, so here's hoping this is just the beginnings of something great.
Stay awesome, guys.
Artwork: http://qsteel.deviantart.com/art/Together-we-will-live-forever-341519351
Patreon: patreon.com/radiarc
If you like what you hear, this and much more can be found on my bandcamp:
radiarc.bandcamp.com
10 albums, an EP, plus some bonus stuff you won't find everywhere on youtube.
Throughout time and our thoughts, we wander endlessly, despite any confidence or peace found in the comfort of what we know.
Beyond is a mist, a dark cloud of ambiguity wherein both a beautiful light and terrible darkness reside; we walk ceaselessly, embracing the new, regardless of want.
Those who choose to remain still find themselves in a solace unlike any other, perhaps better than we could ever know, but from their greed sought within singularity, abandoned by the grace of another day, though respect is always due.
A gift of understanding, of wisdom clearing the temporal cloud, many desire, but none have found, but rest assured the necessity remains just as hidden.
Through the dark and light alike, we go on, our way never known, but found as we walk; the promise of what lies ahead is more than enough to give meaning to our wandering.
I was actually going to abandon this project, but the few that have heard it enjoyed it, so I decided to resurrect it and finish it.
I've been on a heavy music slump as of late because I've just been so depressed; I've had to completely funnel music money into my general income because my work hours are so few nowadays, and landing a job is near impossible because it's luck-of-the-draw, and goodness, do I have terrible luck.
I never, never like asking for money, but I've reached a point where I'll just say that any generosity is heavily, heavily appreciated.
Even if it's just sharing this song with others or something simple like that, I'm more than grateful, I just need whatever I'm able to get since the rest of my family isn't exactly in a good spot, either.
There have been a lot of opportunities over the years, with a lot of potential, but I feel the thing that people forget is that potential is just that -- the possibility of something good, not a guarantee.
It's tough to want to make music when I just feel like garbage all the time and I know that nothing else has worked out even remotely the way I'd hoped it would, but I've recently applied for a factory job wherein I have connections, so if things can just go right for once, I could possibly be set for life, even if it's at the cost of free time, it's more than worth getting rid of the stress and depression I'm constantly riddled with.
I really wanted to stay more quiet about all of this, but if I did, I'd only be hurting myself more.
paypal.me/radiarc
I don't expect absolutely anything to come of it and it actually bugs me that I'm in a place where this is useful, but anyone and everyone who chooses to donate will be noticed and thanked accordingly with the name provided.
But don't let any of that lead you to believe that I am not already thankful for you all, for where I am and what I've done, and the people that I've been inspired by as well as the people I've inspired; I know very well that without you and without the rest of the fandom, I wouldn't be anything.
And also don't think I forgot about you description-readers out there!
Some of you don't know, but on my last album, I included a small theme called Anteclipse.
I thought about uploading it, but it wasn't nearly strong enough for a standalone, so I decided to just include it with the rest of Perception and be done with it, but for those of you who didn't hear...
https://clyp.it/awnaourr
I'm willing to bet you ALSO didn't know that a long time ago, I worked on a small birthday gift for Aviators, but I didn't upload it because I kinda stopped caring about working on it.
https://clyp.it/piuyyuo5
And so we continue our wandering, hopefully, together.