Song written by Nathan Wagner Produced and performed by Nathan Wagner
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LYRICS Blowing with the wind Going nowhere Going nowhere Lost and so aimless Just take me anywhere Take me anywhere
I’d give anything to not feel empty But I’m just a little speck in the grand scheme So tell me why I’m still regretting
Show me is there something more Anything worth living for I need an answer Cause I can’t stand All this remorse There’s something crying out in me Tryna rid me of this dormancy Could there be purpose For just a worthless man like me Help me believe
Drifting with the waves Going nowhere Just going nowhere Storm comes I can’t be breath Take me anywhere Anywhere but here
Been chasing all these fleeting moments Thought nihilistic ways would set me free Just left me more alone and broken Droves of casualties
Tell me is there something more Anything worth living for I need an answer Cause I can’t stand All this remorse There’s something crying out in me Tryna rid me of this dormancy Could there be purpose For just a worthless man like me Help me believe
There’s more than Pain and scorn Than a world that’s bound to suffer Only hope is fleeting comfort Would you show your face Teach me the way Out this never ending spiral Breathe on me be my revival
Show my that there’s something more Anything worth living for I need an answer No I can’t take This aimless course There’s something crying out in me Sayin wake up have some urgency Let down your ego Stop all the games No more deceit Quit swaying morals Be a man they can receive Then you will see
Song written by Nathan Wagner Produced and performed by Nathan Wagner
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LYRICS Blowing with the wind Going nowhere Going nowhere Lost and so aimless Just take me anywhere Take me anywhere
I’d give anything to not feel empty But I’m just a little speck in the grand scheme So tell me why I’m still regretting
Show me is there something more Anything worth living for I need an answer Cause I can’t stand All this remorse There’s something crying out in me Tryna rid me of this dormancy Could there be purpose For just a worthless man like me Help me believe
Drifting with the waves Going nowhere Just going nowhere Storm comes I can’t be breath Take me anywhere Anywhere but here
Been chasing all these fleeting moments Thought nihilistic ways would set me free Just left me more alone and broken Droves of casualties
Tell me is there something more Anything worth living for I need an answer Cause I can’t stand All this remorse There’s something crying out in me Tryna rid me of this dormancy Could there be purpose For just a worthless man like me Help me believe
There’s more than Pain and scorn Than a world that’s bound to suffer Only hope is fleeting comfort Would you show your face Teach me the way Out this never ending spiral Breathe on me be my revival
Show my that there’s something more Anything worth living for I need an answer No I can’t take This aimless course There’s something crying out in me Sayin wake up have some urgency Let down your ego Stop all the games No more deceit Quit swaying morals Be a man they can receive Then you will seeNathan Wagner - Suffocate (Cinematic Version)Nathan Wagner2023-02-10 | #nathanwagner #suffocate #cinematic
Hey everyone! Here's a new recording of "Suffocate"! I feel this version is a lot clearer and hopefully you like it better! Initially, I had labeled this song "Power Poison." It was about the idea of "Power without character is poison." As a young person, I was so attracted to the idea of fame. As I've grown, I could not be more grateful that my career didn't blow up overnight when I was 18. The larger the influence, the larger the wake you leave. If the 18 year old version of my self had blown up, I'm positive that wake would've been so full of devastation and hurt. I don't want power/money/fame if I don't have the character to make good of it. So grateful to each and everyone of you. Never thought anyone would ever care to listen. You'll never know how much it means to me that you'd even give me a moment of your time. Hope you like the track :)
Lyrics If I were a king I'd probably dream Of bringing peace into the world Noble deeds, heroic things Until I'd seen the shining pearls And all of the greed stored underneath Could go and leak at anytime I want him dead, they bring his head An impulse ruins all their lives
I could be wise most of the time But just one slip up makes them starve And all this chaos makes its way As I'm here feasting on their farms The problem ain't they're never good The problem's power taints the mind A heart of gold will turn to stone The throne's where good men go to die
Hold on to me, don't give up on me If I start to sink would you reach for me? I get so afraid, break down suffocate Would you help me breathe? Help me breathe
If I were to gain all of this world Don't let them take away my soul Don't want the arrogance, the ignorance This selfishness I hold Instant access is a flame That I don’t think I can control Don't let this ember enter in If I’m not worthy of its load
Don't wanna hurt the ones I love Don’t wanna let everyone down I try so hard but I slip up Lose my grip, fall on the ground The problem ain’t they’re never good The problem's power taints the mind Don't let this heart turn into stone Don't let these lights burn me alive
Hold on to me, don't give up on me If I start to sink would you reach for me? I get so afraid, break down suffocate Would you help me breathe? Help me breathe
I'm really proud of this one. The original version was the last track I mixed on my first computer. By the end of the song, the Macbook just couldn't take it anymore. So the song ended a bit abrupt haha Hopefully this version is better. Anxiety for me has definitely been a struggle. But I don't want something I hate determine what I do with my life. So I've been trying my best to keep pushing anyway. Love you all. So grateful to each and every one of you.
I remember blocking out everyone and everything from my life for about a year and half because I was too anxious to leave my house. There was this underlying panic that wouldn't just leave. I pushed so many people away, not because I didn't love them, but because I was afraid to see them. It's hard to explain. I've been fighting like crazy to face these fears and not allow own. I don't want the thing I hate most to tell me how I'm gonna live my life. I hope you guys like this one. Tried to be as honest as possible. Love you all.
You take all my energy you Taunt me til my wrists are bleeding Wish I was stronger had some peace I’m just a slave to you Every moment you are reaching For my throat I’m barely breathing Tortured memories got me sinking I’m Just a slave to you
Look at all the things you’ve stolen Every time you’ve made me frozen I hate everything about you Shouldn’t have to be this way Constant panic constant pain I hate everything about you
Constant struggle every minute I take one step you start you start medaling Puppeteering take me over Just a slave to you
Give you the reins All Decisions You got me cornered I can’t pivot Feel so worthless see you grinning Just a slave to you
Look at all the things you’ve stolen Every time you’ve made me frozen I hate everything about you Shouldn’t have to be this way Constant panic constant pain I hate everything about you
Sinking further In your ocean Reach for shore but But waves keep forming falling faster You love to torture Well here’s to one last Fight to sever
Oh this bottled up rage inside Starts to light up in flames tonight Oh I'm looking you in the eye You're so sick you look paralyzed Feel this power rush through my veins As this milestone it separates I link it to your neck I Watch you sink I catch my breath
Hey everyone! Here's another remaster for "Imposter." Really hope you like it! Next week, I'll be releasing an extended version of "Anxiety." Love you all so much. Thank you thank you thank you for taking the time to listen. I never thought anyone would care. Sending all my love :)
Song written by Nathan Wagner All instruments produced and performed by Nathan Wagner
Lyrics
Walking this tight rope, one Misstep I'll fall to the den The higher you fly just the steeper The fall when it ends Oh, I'm an imposter, I'm not what I Seem If you could just hear all the things That I think The anger that's boiling when Jealousy scrеams All these illusions will bury me Deep
Drеams of my downfall, convinced That they'll see me someday Lying there naked no hiding in Money and fame Be careful of power, it's not what it Seems If you ain't integrous, a scoundrel Like me It'll send you to heaven until it Meets hell Where everyone's laughing as You're locked in your cell
Hey everyone! Thank you so much for taking the time to listen! Out of all the tracks I've done, "The Antihero" has always been one of my favorites. Looking back, I felt there were a lot of things within the mix/production I felt could've been better. So I decided to re-record it! Really hope you like it. Love you all!
Song written by Nathan Wagner All instruments produced and performed by Nathan Wagner
[Verse 1] Look at all this devastation Walk away humiliated Ignorance revived this dormant Beast inside now I can't take it there's
[Pre-Chorus] Blood on my hands Now this moment is stamped in my Memory, I panic Created catastrophe Can't take it back Now I am who I am My innocence vanquished The criminal awakened
[Chorus] Who could save me now? Watch me spiral down I made such a mess of my conscience It's making me nauseous Been drifting so slowly It's takin me fully, oh Who could save me now?
[Verse 2] This virus is over bearing This trauma is never letting go The darkness it creeps In all of my bеing This monster is taking all control Had no one to listen, no onе to care Everyone acted like I wasn't there Was only a kid How could I forgive? See vengeance will be my only
[Chorus] Hope, don't save me now Watch me spiral down I made such a mess of my conscience It's making me nauseous If no one will love me At least they'll feel something, oh Who can save me now?
[Ending] Don't steal my soul Don't steal my soul Don't steal my soul Let me beNathan Wagner - As You AreNathan Wagner2022-12-30 | #nathanwagner #asyouare
I wanted to write something peaceful for the New Year. I pray it provides comfort no matter the circumstances. And truly be a safe haven.
I'm so grateful for each and every one of you. You've provided me the greatest job I could've ever imagined. I never believed that full time music was a possibility for me. You proved me wrong. Love you all. Happy New Year. I pray your 2023 will be blessed beyond comprehension.Nathan Wagner - O Come, O Come, EmmanuelNathan Wagner2022-12-23 | #nathanwagner #ocomeocomeemmanuel
A few of you guys asked for a Christmas song, so here you go! I had a lot of fun just messing around with the orchestration. I really hope you guys like it! Merry Christmas! What a gift each and every listener has been to me. Could not be more grateful. Love you all.
It may take me a couple of days to get back to your comments but I promise I will! I'm sorry, my families only all together once or twice a year. Sorry about that!
Lyrics O come, O come, Emmanuel, And ransom captive Israel, That mourns in lonely exile here, Until the Son of God appear.
O come, desire of nations, bind In one the hearts of all mankind Bid Thou our sad divisions cease And be Thyself our King of peace
Rejoice Rejoice Emmanuel Shall come to thee O Israel Rejoice Rejoice Emmanuel Shall come to thee O Israel
Rejoice Rejoice Emmanuel has come Rejoice Rejoice Emmanuel has come
Hope has come to Earth we sing Behold our savior Christ the king Hope has come to Earth we sing Behold our Jesus Christ the king
Hope has come to Earth we sing Behold our savior Christ the king Hope has come to Earth we sing Behold our Jesus Christ the king
Rejoice Rejoice Emmanuel has come Rejoice Rejoice Emmanuel has comeNathan Wagner - A Letter to my Wife... From 2072Nathan Wagner2022-12-09 | #nathanwagner #ALetterToMyWife #fromthefuture
Me and Tiffany wrote this one together on the one year anniversary of our engagement. Really hope you like it :) Love you all.
Song written by Nathan and Tiffany Wagner All Instruments performed by Nathan Wagner Produced and performed by Nathan Wagner
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Lyrics: I see you smile radiant You haven’t changed a bit Still pure at heart that vibrant Youth within your soul it never quits So many years together Decades will come and go Who would’ve thought that after All this time still our love could grow
Now we ain’t far from heaven These bodies in regression So many choices full of deep regret The one thing right was you
This takes me back to the
First Kiss First Time That we stayed up all night long Just kids with hope and dreams Who knew you’d be be my destiny First Dance First fight Thought I’d never be alright But God had intervened The fate was set it’s you and me
I never thought we’d happen Was so lost in all my grief Searching for silver When the purest gold Was right in front of me All of that pain inside me You found a way to free The angst of adolescence washed away Somehow you gave me peace
You used to write me letters Forever I’ll remember Melted the ice around my frozen heart Meant truly everything
This takes me back to the
First Kiss First Time That we stayed up all night long Just kids with hope and dreams Who knew you’d be be my destiny First Dance First fight Thought I’d never be alright But God had intervened The fate was set it’s you and me
They say the key The missing piece Is in a grateful heart Keeps shining even in the dark When your with me Can’t help but be Thankful for these years My joy my rock through every tear Praise God he made a way to here
Song written by Nathan Wagner All Instruments performed by Nathan Wagner Produced and performed by Nathan Wagner
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Here's a song I wrote about porn addiction. It's been such a struggle throughout my life but by the grace of God, I have found a good amount of freedom lately. As a young person, the concept of discipline and righteousness seemed like such a prison. But the older I grow, the more it seems to be the key that lets you out. I can’t think of anything more constricting than the lack of self-control. Which unfortunately, I lack most of the time. I really hope this song means something to you. I could not be more grateful for each and every one of you. Love you all.Nathan Wagner - Sins of our FathersNathan Wagner2022-11-18 | #nathanwagner #sinsofourfathers SUBSCRIBE: youtube.com/channel/UCHbuxE4Q21o_QnGohSiBVNQ?sub_confirmation=1 Patreon: patreon.com/nathanwagner Spotify: open.spotify.com/track/4Z6DsB6FP0yLzadpDk95JH?si=JSYL82pkQgu6EQpOLQo0Aw DISCORD: discord.gg/yR5SkbSSBk
Song written by Nathan Wagner All Instruments performed by Nathan Wagner Produced and performed by Nathan Wagner
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Lyrics: Clean our slates Dear hero in the sky Blood red Stains Forefathers left behind
Let it burn away Let it burn away
Wash my hands Of the hurt they’d breathe to life Rid my heart Of this impartation Generation tie
Let it burn away Let it burn away
The virus entered in my ancestors Trauma passes on to successors Trying to make me into my oppressor The one I hate the most comes in tremors Take all this dying flesh stop it spreading Ghost of regret won’t stop manifesting Lineage tainted slave to my making Only you can save me
Hey everyone! Here's a new version of "Lonely" with a video! Huge shout out to Josias Torres for putting it all together! I've always been a bit afraid of the camera (hence the typical still image haha) but if you guys want more content like this, I'll try my best! This will probably always be one of the most personal songs I've written. I really hope you like this version. Love you all!
Lyrics: Is everybody lonely Is everybody scared Is everybody worried That no one really cares
See I'm afraid to love, but afraid to be alone Still I wonder why my heart is always broke What a way to live, let the fear take all control Oh, this ain’t life, no, I'm not alive
Are we all the same looking for love Looking for love Are we all in chains 'Tryna be enough Be enough
I’m 'tryna write my perfect story I'm working nights and working days To prove the world that I am worthy Of being seen, of being praised
'Cause I'm afraid to show the people who I am I'm not special, just a simple broken man So I will hide my face with my picture perfect mask Oh this ain't life, no, it's just a lie
Are we all the same looking for love Looking for love Are we all in chains ’Tryna be enough, be enough
Woah If I looked you in the eye And showed the broken things inside Would you run away Would you run away Woah If you saw my darkest parts The wicked things inside my heart Would you run away Or are you the sameNathan Wagner - Endless WarNathan Wagner2022-10-28 | #nathanwagner #endlesswar
Here’s a darker song I wrote about propaganda and war. I’ve been so nervous about this one. It’s honestly been one of the most painful songs I've worked on. Thinking through history about so many atrocities. I hate war. I hate loss. I know it's often necessary and to those who've served, I could not be more grateful for your courage. Your protection. I didn't want to share this one. It seemed like it might be offensive/divisive/just be too painful for so many people. But something in me felt like I should. So here it is. Love you all so much. Taking the time to listen to my work means more than you could ever know.
Song written by Nathan Wagner Backing vocals by Nathan and Tiffany Wagner Produced and performed by Nathan Wagner
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Lyrics: They told stories of legends and old Ever since I was young Of protectors our saviors our heroes That’s who I’ll become said
Give your heart And your strength To the cause Never break You can be like them to Take your gun And your flag Hold it strong Take their land We can show them the truth
What is it for? Endless war Just toil away To spread our plague Keep devastating All in vein What’s it for?
So they sent us away on their mission Thinking heroes we’ll be Through the smoke saw a man looked suspicious So I put him to sleep
How it woke me up From this daze Killed a man He had a name For what sake I don’t know Constantly It’s in my head The memory It never left Can’t escape it won’t go
What is it for? Endless war Just toil away To spread our plague Keep devastating All in vein What’s it for?
I don’t want to fight no more Watch my brothers die no more Everything feel’s so out of place I don’t wanna cry no more See another life get torn Tell me what’s the point to this pain I don’t wanna lie no more Just don’t know what’s right no more Gotta be a different way I just can’t stay quiet no more Been twisting with my mind since birth It’s looking like we’re all being played
I thought it be cool to do a more stripped down version of "Angels vs Demons" and see how you guys liked it. Should I do more versions like this? Should I strip them down even more? Love you all! Thank you so so so much for listening.
Song written by Nathan Wagner Produced and performed by Nathan Wagner
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Lyrics: I’m feeling the monster The demon in my head It’s warring the angels That say they will protect Oh I lie awake through the Napalm Feel it rain under my skin Oh I try so hard just to stay calm But this battle never dims
I gotta stay strong Just a little bit more And we’ll get through this storm Just keep pushing along Know you’ll make it Hear angel’s scream through the war cry Ain’t no way we’ll let you die Just gotta hold on Don’t you give up the fight We are with you tonight
Got one foot in heaven And the other stuck in hell I wish I could sever The piece of me that fell The demons prowl so swiftly Coming in to take their prey But the guardians so quickly Enter in and keep me safe
Searching to find safe asylum Running through these battle sirens AK’s AR’s rattle violent Stay strong gotta stay strong All the doors are bordered shut I’m pounding they won’t open up But in the guardian’s they run Just hang on hang on
Song written by Nathan Wagner Produced by Nathan and Tiffany Wagner All instruments performed and arranged by Nathan Wagner
Lyrics Lie awake In a cold sweat Dreams of how we were before the world was synthetic Memories restore Why’re we here Can’t remember How they sent us online Disappeared From our natural homes and no one realized
Like a prophet in his scorn No one listens as I warn That we’re packed away in this Lifeless game we’re caged
Screaming through the sky Please open up your eyes Don’t let them fog your vision Get reprogrammed by their system We’re dead men walking All like soulless zombies Hypnotized by algorithms In our artificial prison
I can’t help but feel afraid No ones seeing through these frames Bunch of binary encased In these surrogates we cling
No ones looking through the veil Through the murky water Just ignore me as I tell it’s all a game
Screaming through the sky Please open up your eyes Don’t let them fog your vision Get reprogrammed by their system We’re dead men walking All like soulless zombie Hypnotized by algorithms In this artificial prison
Don’t you see’s what’s going on All the puppeteering Ooh this sinking ship we’re on is going down
Oh there’s gotta be in exit From this technical device Oh I’m searching for direction Know it’s gotta be inside Just think a little more Had to enter in sometime Let the memories restore And this circus end tonight
They’ve been twisting us so long In this pixelated cage No it ain’t where we belong Oh we’ve gotta break these away Said the servers were within So I’ll beat them at their game Right at the masters point I’ll Destroy everything
Song written by Nathan Wagner Produced and performed by Nathan Wagner
Lyrics Coming towards me like a tidal wave Brace for impact smile on my face Can’t run away can’t run away there’s too much trouble on my mind I need the touch I need the rush something to get me through this night Incisions made flow through my veins I swear this is the final time Can’t run away Can’t run away Can’t run away
Take my soul my life If it makes me better Just tonight Would you make me better Make me better
Crush my body please just numb the pain For just a moment need to feel okay Can’t run away can’t run away there’s too much chaos in my mind I’m so afraid I’m so afraid I just can’t handle this tonight Incisions made I’m so ashamed I swear this is the final time Can’t run away can’t run away can’t run away
Take my soul my life If it makes me better Just tonight Would you make me better Make me better
I really enjoyed the concept of "The Antihero" so I thought it be fun to write the other side. I really hope you guys like it! Poured my heart and soul into it! Love you all so much. Could not be more grateful each and every one of you. Thank you for taking the time to listen.
Song written by Nathan Wagner Produced and performed by Nathan Wagner
Lyrics: Waking up to the sound Sirens screaming aloud So disoriented how’d this happen These buildings are crumbling down
Hear everyone panic This monsters gone manic Pray somethin can to turn this around My cities in ruins I’m feeling so useless Can’t even get off the ground
I’m calling all heroes Legends and stars Anyone listening just open your heart I’ve gotta do something I wish I were strong enough to see A hero in me
All these people they need me But fears got me freezing I can’t even get off the floor All these minutes are fleeting More damage he’s leaving Don’t wanna be a coward anymore
I’m trembling I’m quivering This menace is winning It’s such a one sided war My people are bleeding They’re dying and screaming Just lying here watching them burn
I’m calling all heroes Legends and stars Anyone listening just open your heart We gotta do something We’re falling apart Lose everything I wish I were better I Wish I had strength I wish I had anything To prove I was brave Can’t watch and do nothing Hiding away Try to believe A hero could live in me
He won’t back down Family crying out
Made such a mess of my conscience It’s making me nauseous My world is crumbling can’t watch and do nothing I’m done with this panic I’ll hop into action And save this town
I don’t need no heroes No Legends or stars The fight is within us just Open your hearts We ain’t’ going under This city is ours Take everything We’re born for this moment This moment is ours Now the battle is turning We’re making our mark Together we’re stronger He’s falling apart Seems they retreat Now heroes are all I seeNathan Wagner - Angels Vs DemonsNathan Wagner2022-08-05 | #nathanwagner #angelsvsdemons #alternative
Really proud of this one. I hope you guys like it! Love each and every one of you!
Song written by Nathan Wagner Produced and performed by Nathan Wagner
Lyrics: I’m feeling the monster The demon in my head It’s warring the angels That say they will protect Oh I lie awake through the Napalm Feel it rain under my skin Oh I try so hard just to stay calm But this battle never dims
I gotta stay strong Just a little bit more And we’ll get through this storm Just keep pushing along Know you’ll make it Hear angel’s scream through the war cry Ain’t no way we’ll let you die Just gotta hold on Don’t you give up the fight We are with you tonight
Got one foot in heaven And the other stuck in hell I wish I could sever The piece of me that fell The demons prowl so swiftly Coming in to take their prey But the guardians so quickly Enter in and keep me safe
Searching to find safe asylum Running through these battle sirens AK’s AR’s rattle violent Stay strong gotta stay strong All the doors are bordered shut I’m pounding they won’t open up But in the guardian’s they run Just hang on hang on
I gotta stay strong Just a little bit more And we’ll get through this storm Just keep pushing along Know you’ll make it Hear angel’s scream through the war cry Ain’t no way we’ll let you die Just gotta hold onNathan Wagner - PsychosisNathan Wagner2022-07-22 | #nathanwagner #psychosis
Song written by Nathan Wagner Produced and performed by Nathan Wagner
I really didn’t want to release this song. It’s something I’ve maybe talked about to two or three people. Terrified of the reaction. Terrified of the assumptions that come along with this topic. But it’s something that’s never talked about. Really ever. So here it is. I spent three years studying music every moment of every day. I completely cut myself off from everyone and everything except my studies. I knew that if I gave it everything, my chances of “Making it” were still slim. So I held nothing back. About a year and a half into isolation, I started to really really disconnect. This song explains the state of mind almost perfectly. Just this feeling of “Nothing is real” was overwhelming and would haunt me day and night. Couldn’t find peace of mind. By the grace of God, love and human connection brought me out of it. We’re not meant to be alone. If you’re in that place, reach out. Talk to me. I'll be praying. You're not alone. So sorry about the obscure topic, but if it could help someone feel less alone/more understood, It’s worth it. I love you guys so much. Can’t even begin to explain how fortunate I am. Thank you so much for listening.
Lyrics
Everything is in my brain All the Thunder all the rain Mental pictures they became Everything is in my brain
All the pleasure all the pain The one I love the one I hate Mental pictures they became Everything is in my brain
It’s like nothings real Chemicals we feel Nothing tangible I can’t feel your soul
Is it all a lie Get so petrified That it’s all a dream When I wake I’ll see
I’m falling in my head again This winding road just never ends
Maybe we’re comatose in purgatory lines A fleet of lonely ghosts pretending we’re still alive Maybe the afterlife is where we all reside Maybe it’s over
Beautiful destruction seeps When there’s too much time to think Such abysmal tendencies When delusion reigns in me
Maybe we’re comatose in purgatory lines A fleet of lonely ghosts pretending we’re still alive Maybe the afterlife is where we all reside Maybe it’s over
Everything is in my brain All the Thunder all the rain Mental pictures they became Everything is in my brain
All the pleasure all the pain The one I love the one I hate Mental pictures they became Everything is in my brain
It’s like nothings real Chemicals we feel Nothing tangible I can’t feel your soul
Is it all a lie Get so petrified That it’s all a dream When I wake I’ll see
I’m falling in my head again This winding road just never ends
Maybe we’re comatose in purgatory lines A fleet of lonely ghosts pretending we’re still alive Maybe the afterlife is where we all reside Maybe it’s over
Been lost for so long Schizoid man off and on Will I ever belong Just Me and me
Song Written by Nathan and Tiffany Wagner Recorded/Produced and Performed by Nathan Wagner
"Creative Mind" is live on all platforms!
I really struggled through education and honestly through most normal human things. I’ve always been extremely in my head. For the longest time, I thought it was because I was dumb. No matter what I did, I couldn’t focus on anything that was out of my normal wheelhouse. I’d just hit a mental wall. This songs about the tension of being a little different trying to fit into a world not necessarily acclimated to my frame. I really hope you like it! Love you all!
I wasn't going to finish this one, but a few patrons said they liked it, so here it is! Huge shout out to Destany and Aylias! This one's dedicated to you! Love you all!
Lyrics I always was the kid who sat in class and dreamed of stories They saw numbers I saw colors just how it was The teachers never understood my framed forever worried Wanted total recall the only default They’d say why you got your head up in the clouds I said why’d I wanna stay there on the ground Never thought I’d make anything of myself just useless Had to get stronger to hold on longer that’s what I did
I heard if you don’t quit Then you’re bound to win So I gotta dream big Cause I won’t give in Ima take this vision to the top For the kid who feels he’s not enough And we’ll shine through the dark Be who we are
Never understood the way I was It got so lonely Everyone though I wasn’t good enough to make it work Had to go for hours and hours through sweat and tears To write a different story But it all was worth the pain endured it helped me learn Sometimes critics are the ones that make us thrive Lack of honesty’s the way we die Now every singe day we’re inching a little closer I can’t believe it just keep on pushing on A little more
Lyrics You open my eyes You open my eyes again You bring me to life you’re raisin me from the dead And this hell in my mind You somehow can make it mend Can’t let it be wasted So please never let it end
Walls fell down And joy came in for the first time In millions years In you entered I knew That this was the last time I’d fall for someone new
You’re my rock and my strength When I’m drifting away Oh you fill me with faith Say you ain’t going nowhere And I’ll test you I’ll break When I’m caught in my shame You just smile with grace Say I ain’t going anywhere
You open my heart you open my heart again You take me away Too place I’ve never been And I know it’s insane but I’d swear that you’re heaven sent Can’t let it be wasted Let’s please never let this end
Walls fell down And joy came in for the first time In a million millions years And in you entered I knew That this was the last time I’d fall for someone new
And I promise To never love another To chase you down again again Til we’re all out of breath I Promise To be your crying shoulder And lift you up again and again From the depths of the trenches Oh I promise To listen when I’m tired To never stop admiring your strength And the courage you’ve made And I promise To focus on affection You don’t have to reach perfection I love you the way that you are I’m not leaving You’re sticking with me forever Regardless of the weather the pain No I won’t go away Oh I chose you And that’s all that’s gonna matter There’s nothing else I’m after it’s true Oh you know I doNathan Wagner - ShameNathan Wagner2022-06-10 | #nathanwagner #shame #originalsong SUBSCRIBE: youtube.com/channel/UCHbuxE4Q21o_QnGohSiBVNQ?sub_confirmation=1 APPLE MUSIC: music.apple.com/us/album/shame/1628137288?i=1628137289 SPOTIFY: open.spotify.com/album/7Ci20KAUqpTEtnL4aMRFVP?si=CJoT87qkRbuXtAHv4JNMXA PATREON: patreon.com/nathanwagner Artwork licensed by Shutterstock
Someone asked me once if I loved myself. It’s a weird question. Of course I said yes. Didn’t feel like being open. Vulnerable. Wanted the spotlight off of me. Years went by and I realized I had all the symptoms of one who doesn’t. Was wondered why I needed everyones approval. Why it took me days to get over one semi negative comment. Why anything less than perfect led me to the deepest guilt. As a kid, I grew up in sort of a “Shame Culture.” It was this weird twisted theology where if you speak positive about yourself in any way, it was pride and wrong. Of course, you can say all the negative you want. In fact, they’ll find them for you. I’m sure most of it was the way I perceived things as a kid and no one was truly at fault, but that perception left it’s mark. I woke up not long ago realizing I’d gone almost most of my life without having a single positive thought about myself. So, it’s basically self-hatred by default. It’s so strange. Trying to rewire my brain can almost feel immoral because of this toxic legalism in my head. Been a grueling journey. Here’s a song I wrote about that "Shame." I really hope it means something to you. I know it does to me. Love you all so much. Thanks so much for listening.
Lyrics I’ve got everything I’ve wanted So tell my why I’m still in pain It’s like I’m afraid to being happy Like I deserve to be this way
As a kid they formed my conscience Good and evil right and wrong Know they didn’t mean to make it vicious But now all I have are tortured thoughts
I could scale the tallest mountain Change the world make it right Make the world something But it won’t be enough won’t be enough Won’t be enough I could win the highest honor Save the future make it bright But it won’t be enough won’t be enough Won’t be enough No I’m never enough never enough never enough
I’ve got everything I’ve wanted My younger self would stand in awe Still I can’t let myself be happy Cause it just feels like it be wrong
As a kid they said be humble Liftin your self like that is pride Well now I’m drawing in self hatred That was my last thought that was nice
I could scale the tallest mountain Change the world make it right Make the world something But it won’t be enough won’t be enough Won’t be enough I could win the highest honor Save the future make it bright But it won’t be enough won’t be enough Won’t be enough No I’m never enough never enough never enough
20 years locked in this prison A couple words rewrote my frame It’s funny something that’s so little Can still be causing all this pain
I could scale the tallest mountain Change the world make it right Make the world something But it won’t be enough won’t be enough Won’t be enough I could win the highest honor Save the future make it bright But it won’t be enough won’t be enough Won’t be enough No I’m never enough never enough never enough Never enough never enough never enough Never enough never enough never enough Never enough never enough never enough Never enough never enough never enoughNathan Wagner - OpiateNathan Wagner2022-05-30 | #NathanWagner #Opiate SUBSCRIBE: youtube.com/channel/UCHbuxE4Q21o_QnGohSiBVNQ?sub_confirmation=1 SPOTIFY: open.spotify.com/track/6snjcQjxu6GhqDYQT085d7?si=3lZ0tCYDR3edl8n-9r02nQ PATREON: patreon.com/nathanwagner
Huge shout out to David Zach from remedy drive and the guys from 4th point for helping get this story encapsulated into a song. Not long ago I was recommended a “Healthy” “Natural” medication to help treat depression/anxiety. As someone in pain, you’re willing to try almost anything to feel better. That’s why the first line of this track specifically almost always hits a chord in me. “I just wanted to feel better.” To my amazement, it worked. The storm inside, was gone. The constant neurosis, was lifted. Instead of getting through the day, the day was enjoyable. Everything more vibrant. Didn’t walk into rooms with the assumption that I’m a bother and everyone hated me. All was good. Until it wasn’t. And then it took larger doses. And then some more. And then more to feel worse than I did prior. So I had to detox. Love you guys so much. I don’t know if there’s ever been a scarier song to send out into the world. But if it help someone it’s all worth it. So here it is. Love each and every one of you.
I didn't realize it was Memorial Day when I scheduled this release. "There's no greater love than one who lays down their life for another." No words can ever express my gratitude.
Lyrics: I just wanted to feel better, Now I sweat here in the dark Oh I'm struggling to remember How I even let this start
You said you’d heal me That’d you’d reveal the better version of myself
You’re only stealing You use me up and Just to leave me on the shelf
Said you’d free me from these gallows, Just to fancy up my hell All I wanted was some sunshine Not a lantern in my cell
You’re an artificial solace You’re a counterfeit relief Always meet me at my lowest Just to multiply my grief
Oh, Oh,
I just wanted to feel something really anything at all But now it’s taking higher doses To get back to my default
You said you’d heal me That’d you’d conceal this Gaping hole inside my heart Just one more gram You’re such a scam I Should’ve known it from the start
Said you’d free me from these gallows, Just to fancy up my hell All I wanted was some sunshine You’re a lantern in my cell
You’re an artificial solace You’re a counterfeit relief Always meet me at my lowest Just to multiply my grief
You said you’d free me from these gallows, Just to fancy up my hell All I wanted was some sunshine Not this lantern in my cell
You’re an artificial solace Just a chemical relief Always meet me at my lowest And take everything from meNathan Wagner - Shadow Of The Day (Linkin Park Cover)Nathan Wagner2022-05-20 | #NathanWagner #LinkinPark #ShadowOfTheDay
LYRICS I close both locks below the window I close both blinds and turn away Sometimes solutions aren't so simple Sometimes goodbye's the only way, oh And the sun will set for you The sun will set for you And the shadow of the day Will embrace the world in grey And the sun will set for you In cards and flowers on your window Your friends all plead for you to stay Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple Sometimes goodbye's the only way, oh And the sun will set for you The sun will set for you And the shadow of the day Will embrace the world in grey And the sun will set for you And the shadow of the day Will embrace the world in grey And the sun will set for you And the shadow of the day Will embrace the world in grey And the sun will set for youNathan Wagner - Narrow RoadNathan Wagner2022-05-13 | #NathanWagner #NarrowRoad #AltRock
You guys have no idea how grateful I am that anyone would listen. I've been reminiscing lately on where I was at even three years ago. Working at steak n shake, constantly dreaming of the day where I could just work on music. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for taking the time to listen.
I've been having a ton of fun experimenting with rock. It's what me and my brothers grew up listening to. The only genre my Dad really likes (It's his birthday today by the way, happy birthday dad!) To the listeners that don't love rock yet have stuck around, thank you from the bottom of my heart. It means everything. The past few weeks, I've been producing tracks more around my initial orchestral genre. They're more like "Lonely/Man of Stone." I really hope you'll like them. Love you all so much.
Sorry for all the comments Haha This track was inspired by the parable of the narrow road. This one means a lot to me. I really hope you like it.
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Lyrics I’m on the road of pure destruction Wide the lane so pretty at the start Til’ the land it parts
Fell in the belly of the giant Didn’t think they’d lure me this far But they stole my heart I’m worn and tired Lit my world on fire
Know you warned me Didn’t listen Can’t escape the pain I’ve sown I’m sorry Wish I did better Gotta brave my coming storm Oh we get what we deserve
I didn’t think I’d get so broken Play with fire of course I’m gonna burn Now grief is deeper than the ocean I wish I knew the pain before
I let it get the best of me The lust the pride the jealousy Now it’s takin nearly everything Oh I gotta reach sobriety
Would you let me have a second chance Oh I swear never take it back Give up all I hold Give up all control Be a better man and get out of this trap
Sinking in this endless sea I Snared my self here in the deep I know that you can rescue me Oh, I’m begging are you listening
Would you let me have a second chance Oh I swear never take it back Give up all I hold Give up all control Be a better man and get out of this trapNathan Wagner - MercyNathan Wagner2022-04-29 | #NathanWagner #Mercy
Love you guys so much. Can't express to you how blessed I am. I may not get back to all the comments right away (Moving this weekend - life's been so busy) but I promise I'll get there eventually. I really hope you like this one!
Lyrics: Go and write your Scarlett letter Keep your head up in the sky Go and preach your moral chatter As your soul is filled with pride Let the people know your judgment Mighty ruler king on high (Moral supreme king on high)(As you ignore her children’s cry) Tell me what makes you so special To decide who lives or dies Let the man without a sin throw the first stone throw the first brick Oh who are you to not forgive You slimy evil hypocrite
I hope you get what you deserve When justice makes it’s way to earth You’ll reap the bitter wrath you’ve sown And quiver ’til you’re all but bone e
Tell me how’d you up so numb What kind of trauma would it take To delight in someones killing Let your conscience be erased Still you talking like you’re holy Tell me how’d you get this way Can’t you see the speck in your eye Utter ignorance you’ve made
I hope you get what you deserve When justice makes it’s way to earth You’ll reap the bitter wrath you’ve sown And quiver ’til you’re all but bone e
How could I forgive someone Who brought this on himself Don’t deserve no piece of heaven Made our lives a living hell
Love you guys so much. I promise I'm not sick of your opinions haha This was written mainly about the cultural divisiveness going around. I want to love others first and foremost regardless of anything. Hope you like this one. Huge shoutout to Joseph Daniel! We wrote this one together. He came up with the concept. Happy Easter!
Lyrics: I’m sorry I don’t love you anymore I’m trying Didn’t mean to slam the door
But this country and my family All these people and my friends From the pastors to the pundits Oh dear God it never ends
And I’m so tired of this place Oh I’ve gotta get away The way it used to be is so far gone And I’m so sick of your opinions Like a gun against my head I’m dreaming of the place where I belong
I’m sorry Staring at the stars above Out here quietly I know I forget to love
I’m just so exhausted soul is nauseous I don’t care who’s right Everything’s divisive so self-righteous Not worth another fight
And I’m so tired of this place Oh I’ve gotta get away The way it used to be is so far gone And I’m so sick of your opinions Like a gun against my head I’m dreaming of the place where I belong Oh there’s gotta be a place where I belong
Just shut up shut up Have a little mercy Look at us now We’re all dying slowly Come on come on I’m begging you please just Let it go
Shut up shut up Have a little mercy Look at us now Destroying a family Shut up shut up I’m begging you please just let it go
I’m so tired of this place What I’d give to get away The way it used to be is so far gone And I’m so sick of your opinions Like a gun held to my head I’m dreaming of the place where I belong Oh there’s Gotta be somewhere that I belong
Love you guys so much! This is one I wrote years ago. I added the outro to try and make it a bit more epic haha I want to be a man of integrity. Over anything else. I've been writing a lot about that lately. The struggle of a broken man trying to overcome his instincts for iniquity. I think I may turn that concept into an album ;) Thank you so much for listening! I could not be more grateful!
Lyrics: Drifting through moments then all of the sudden it hits me What if I stumble and all of my world starts to fall The people I love lose respect though they swore they’re unwavering Everything crumbles as I’m just here losing it all
Hearing these critics they’re cheering and saying they hate me Taking my whole life of work and burn it to the ground Was trying to open my heart and they go and betray me Putting a knife in my back without making a sound
I could be doing fine perfect life everything is great ’til you take my mind and hypnotize show my world in flames Nowhere to hide from what’s inside can’t run can’t get away Guess one more night of constant fight it always stays the same
Won’t you let me go I’m crumbling I’m crumbling
Fantasizing bout the worst that could be I’m not ready Making decisions preserving what’s not even real false prophecies keep on following make me unsteady Just wanna be free of these troublesome dreams let me be
I could be doing fine perfect life everything is great Til you take my mind awaken all my memories my mistakes And you hang them high won’t let them die control me with my shame Say wait til they can see your darkest parts and run away
But you’re never right you always lie your promise never comes I’m still standing I’m still breathing having died not from your gun Haven’t fallen in the slaughter lost the people that I love You’re a liar you’re a thief and It’s time to give you up
Won’t you let me go I’m crumbling I’m crumbling Won’t you let me go I’m crumbling I’m crumbling
My father Please take this thorn Cause I’m bleeding I’m tired and worn Please listen Don’t you hear me cry I’m weary I need your light4th Point & Nathan Wagner - Think of MeNathan Wagner2022-03-25 | #4thPoint #NathanWagner #ThinkofMe
Song Written by Matt Ellis, Nathan Wagner, Bradley Kus and Bryce knight Song Recorded and Mixed by Matt Ellis Drums by Bradley Kus Bass by Bryce Knight Guitars by Matt Ellis Vocals by Nathan Wagner and Matt Ellis
Song written recorded and mixed by Nathan Wagner Scream vocals by Zach Wagner
As I get older, the more responsibility I've had to take on. The more responsibility I take on, the easier it is to become bitter. My fear of failure makes it easy for me to blame external forces every time there's a lack in a certain area. In reality, it's almost always due to my own inadequacy. Here's something I wrote about that struggle. Love you guys so much. Couldn’t be more thankful for all of you. Hope you are all doing great.
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Bringing out the worst of me You lie like I can’t even see Through all your narcissistic pleas You cover up in rosy speech You don’t believe in anything Just spout the cliche words you preach You hide your power lust and greed As we’re all bleeding on the streets
Gotta let it go This world I can’t control The things I think I know
Take it away This anger and rage The pride possessing everything My personal cage With shackles and chains The perfect penitentiary I crumble I shake From all of this weight Can’t let it get the best of me Oh take it away This prison I made This isn’t what I’m mean to be
I can feel myself burning alive Trying to still these boiling veins Can’t get this out of my mind Oh you better get away from me So hard to know what anger’s just In middle of these dangerous rushes Sense incinerates just get away
Gotta let it go This bitterness I hold Don’t wanna lose my soul
Take it away this anger and rage The pride possessing everything My personal cage With shackles and chains The perfect penitentiary I crumble I shake From all of this weight Can’t let it get the best of me Oh take it away This prison I made This isn’t what I’m mean to be
You won’t believe the darkest part The beast that breathes inside my heart I try to keep it tamed and far But when it’s free the panic starts I lose my grid for wrong and right When darkness rids all of the light Under my skin I try to fight The nightmare enters in my mind
Then I’m the menace I’m the fiend The wicked catastrophic being I lose control for just a second Rest my life I spend regretting
Trust I’ve built up all my years Will wash away and disappear Don’t wanna bring no hell to earth Just rid me of this wretched curse
Fire in my veins Like poison in me Instincts inflame And burn everything My world in flamesNathan Wagner & Rebecca Ray - JusticeNathan Wagner2022-03-04 | #NathanWagner #RebeccaRay #Justice
So so so so thankful for you guys. You truly have no idea. I made this track years ago as an instrumental. Huge shoutout to Rebecca Ray for helping me finally put a melody to the track. I really hope you enjoy it. Love you all. Stay blessed.
Song Written By Nathan Wagner, Tiffany Bodine and Rebecca Ray All Instruments Performed by Nathan Wagner Mixing and Mastering by Nathan Wagner
Here's something I made purely for fun. Totally thought it sounded like an old school anime opening hence the name haha Really hope you like it !Huge shout out to Tiffany Bodine for helping write the track and Rebecca Ray for singing on the acoustic version! Love you all!
In light of recent events, I wasn't sure if I should've postponed this track or not.Especially with the topic having to do with war. I don't know much about what's going on but wanted to send my love and prayers to all who need it. May God be with you and may you and your loved ones stay safe.
Song Written by Nathan Wagner and Tiffany Bodine All Instruments Performed by Nathan Wagner Mixing and Mastering by Nathan Wagner
It’s been so long Since I’ve seen you in the flesh You’ve been so strong You’re an angel heaven sent It’s been so hard Oh these trenches are so bleak You’ve been the spark When the dark is all I see
Just give me time And the battle will subside I’ll be your light Slay the dragon for you Live like the legends and carry on this flame For our children we’ll fight for better days For now I’ll write to you
These winds they blow Feel the chill down to my bones My spirits low I think of you Only one who pulls me through My strength renewed
So much of my life I’ve been afraid Then In came a girl she gave me strength Through all of this
Just a little more And we’ll carry out this war I’ll sail towards shore And we’ll be together
Live like the legends and carry our days Raise our children until we’re old and gray For now I’ll wait
You won’t believe Oh the news that came to me Seems the monsters flee’d Back to Jupiter we’re free Tell our village the battles reached an end Tell our brothers our sisters and our friends I’m coming home to youNathan Wagner - The Antihero (Extended)Nathan Wagner2022-02-11 | #TheAntihero #AltRock #NathanWagner
Hey guys, I'm really nervous about this one. This was how I initially heard the track in my head, but ended up cutting the ending due to how abstract and aggressive it was. This version came up when I was showing some of my new songs to my family and they loved it. So I figured I'd share it with you guys as well! Really sorry if it's too different for you. Still love you all. Love Gara. I hope the extended cut does him justice :)
Lyrics: Look at all this devastation Walk away humiliated Ignorance revived this dormant Beast inside now I can’t take it
There’s blood on my hands Now this moment is stamped in my Memory I panic Created catastrophe Can’t take it back Guess I am who I am My innocence Vanquished The criminal awakened
Who could save me now Watch me spiral down I made such a mess of my conscious It’s making me nauseous Been drifting so slowly Now it’s takin me fully oh Who could save me now
This virus is over bearing This trauma is never letting go The darkness it creeps Into all of my being This monster is taking all control Had no one to listen no one to care Everyone acted like I wasn’t there I was only a kid How could I forgive Seems vengeance will be my only hope
Don’t save me now Watch me spiral down I made such a mess of my conscious It’s making me nauseous But if no one will love me at least they’ll feel something Stay there watch me drown
Don't steal my soul Don't steal my soul Don't steal my soul Let me be
Die just die You can't save me Won't you learn It's taken over Watch me burnNathan Wagner & Rebecca Ray - Live Like LegendsNathan Wagner2022-02-04 | #NathanWagner #RebeccaRay #LiveLikeLegends
Hey guys! I had the huge honor of working with Rebecca Ray. She was one of the kindest most humble people I've come across. Definitely check out her YouTube and Spotify! Love you all! Thank you so much for listening!
Song Written By Nathan Wagner, Tiffany Bodine and Rebecca Ray All Instruments Performed by Nathan Wagner Mixing and Mastering by Nathan Wagner
Lyrics: Well I’m angry And I’m tired Of your self ordained power It’s so like you to Ignore what I say Disrespectful never caring Always stressful when you’re near me Now I’m waiting go and minimize my pain It’s the pattern that your using To confine me to abuse me Well it’s over ‘less you hear what I say It’s so costly to be near you Know it pains me but it’s the truth Would you hear me You’re just proving your not safe
Go on keep talking like go on keep talking like that I hope it serves you well When there’s nobody there for you in the end Keep on screaming Know I don’t want this I promise I wish you the best But you’re dragging me through hell Can’t take anymore Just gotta protect myself
I’ll admit it That I’m blemished Not pretending that I’m perfect I know fault can’t be only put on you I’m a coward Know I’m so dumb I get walked on never speak up But just hear me Do you know what you put me through ? Losing sleep over your words The constant screaming constant curse Oh you confront me all you want But when I try you up and walk Well here’s a taste of what you gave me Still you’re saying I’m the crazy one Do you even know the things you’ve done Ahhhhh
Go on keep talking like go on keep talking like that I hope it serves you well When there’s nobody there for you in the end Keep on screaming Know I don’t want this I promise I wish you the best But you’re dragging me through hell Can’t take anymore Just gotta protect myself
Go on keep talking like go on keep talking like that I hope it serves you well When there’s nobody there for you in the end Keep on screaming Know I don’t want this I promise I wish you the best But you’re dragging me through hell Can’t take anymore Just gotta protect myselfNathan Wagner - UnbearableNathan Wagner2022-01-03 | #NathanWagner #Unbearable
Love you guys
Song Written by Nathan Wagner All Instruments Performed by Nathan Wagner Mixing and Mastering by Nathan Wagner
You know I hate this distance I never meant to hurt you love Can I ask forgiveness I should have never gave you up
I pushed you far away Cause I was so afraid To let this armor break I sabotaged this flame And left you so alone With a broken soul Cause I just couldn’t cope With being vulnerable
And these memories they come back like A movie in my mind And our laughter is the soundtrack 'til I wrecked all of it's life And oh my God I am so selfish Insecure so foolish blind I let you go now I got nothing Stand here frozen stuck in time
Well I see you standing there you Look so beautiful but You're standing next to him and It's unbearable you're In your favorite dress he Goes to hold you close and I can't catch my breath still Wishing I was yours I’m so ashamed I should’ve fought to save And given everything for what was Everything to me Can’t cope Just dancing on my own Stuck with this empty soul How could I let you go
And these memories they come back like A movie in my mind And our laughter is the soundtrack 'til I wrecked all of it's life And oh my God I am so selfish Insecure so foolish blind I let you go now I got nothing Stand here frozen stuck in timeNathan Wagner - The AntiheroNathan Wagner2021-12-03 | #NathanWagner #TheAntihero #AltRock
Ever since I did "Second Place" with Bosslogic, I've been drawing a ton of inspiration from Anime/Comics. This one was inspired by Gara from Naruto. Really hope you guys like this one. Love you all.
Song Written by Nathan Wagner All Instruments Performed by Nathan Wagner Mixing and Mastering by Nathan Wagner
Lyrics: Look at all this devastation Walk away humiliated Ignorance revived this dormant Beast inside now I can’t take it
There’s blood on my hands Now this moment is stamped in my Memory I panic Created catastrophe Can’t take it back Guess I am who I am My innocence Vanquished The criminal awakened
Who could save me now Watch me spiral down I made such a mess of my conscious It’s making me nauseous Been drifting so slowly Now it’s takin me fully oh Who could save me now
This virus is over bearing This trauma is never letting go The darkness it creeps Into all of my being This monster is taking all control Had no one to listen no one to care Everyone acted like I wasn’t there I was only a kid How could I forgive Seems vengeance will be my only hope
Don’t save me now Watch me spiral down I made such a mess of my conscious It’s making me nauseous But if no one will love me at least they’ll feel something Stay there watch me drown
Don't steal my soul Don't steal my soul Don't steal my soul Let me beNathan Wagner - ImposterNathan Wagner2021-11-19 | #NathanWagner #Imposter
Forever thankful for you guys. I studied music production for three years convinced every moment that no one would care to listen. You mean everything.
Lyrics: Walking this tight rope one misstep I’ll fall to the wind (den) The higher you fly just the steeper you fall when it ends Oh I’m an imposter I’m not what I seems If you could hear all the things that I think The anger that’s boiling when jealousy screams All these illusions will bury me deep
Dreams of my ruin convinced that they’ll see me someday Lying there naked no hiding in money and fame Be careful of power it’s not what it seems If you ain’t integrous a scoundrel like me It’ll send you to heaven until it meets hell Where everyones laughing as you’re locked in your cell
The fire is rising right under this rope as my My armors igniting I start to let go My mask burns to ash and my face is revealed Well we’ve made it at last now I’m forced to be real With this mess I’ve made destructive ways These sinful games I keep on playing If fall short of would you endure Or tear my soul with strife and scornNathan Wagner - WorthlessNathan Wagner2021-11-05 | #NathanWagner #Worthless
I wrote this song with my buddy Matt Ellis from 4th Point. Most days are great. But some days, I can't get my head out of the gutter. Love you all so much.
Verse 1: We all fade away In the end we're all the same Desperate please we make In the silence of our Pain
Pre Chorus: Here in the slow mundane, I break Stuck in the memory of my shame When all that I am, crumbles like sand In this lonely room, I say
Chorus: Where is the meaning Everything’s fleeting Everyone I see Ends in the ground Where is the purpose When everything’s worthless And all that I want is, to be unbound To be unbound
Verse 2: We all crave the same To be understood and known Longing for the day When this searching soul finds home
Pre Chorus 2: Here in the silent room, I pray As these weary bones decay When all that's within, starts to go dim The breath inside within me fades
Chorus 2: Where is the meaning When everything’s fleeting Everyone I see Ends in the ground Where is the purpose When everything’s worthless And all that want is, to be unbound To be unbound
Bridge: If I fall asleep for eternity Would you even care at all If I start to sink Would you rescue me Would you even hear me call
Chorus 3 And where is the meaning When everything’s fleeting Everyone I see Ends in the ground Where is the purpose When everything’s worthless All that want is, to be unbound To be unboundNathan Wagner & 4th Point - RunNathan Wagner2021-10-15 | #NathanWagner #4thPoint #Run
Verse 1 (Matt) Hurt that inside, feel I’m never enough When truth becomes lies, so broken and numb
Pre-chorus ( Nathan) My heart inside, beats a little louder Here tonight, Will you take me higher and oh, you just need to go home
CHORUS: (Matt) And Oh, you need to run From Darkness Chasing us
Verse 2 (Nathan) I’ll look to the stars, know that I’m not alone Storm in my heart pray you're leading me home
Pre-chorus ( Matt) My heart inside, beats a little louder Here tonight, Will you start a fire Oh how I’ve needed some hope
CHORUS 2 And Oh, you need to run (Nathan) From darkness, chasing us (Nathan) You need to run, (Dub) You need to run (Dub) It’s chasing us (Dub) It’s chasing us (Dub)
Bridge (Nathan) And all I am is lost Only home I know is gone Would you point me back to shore
The waters rising up Troubled thoughts won’t seem to stop Would you point this ship back home
CHORUS 3 And Oh, you need to run (Nathan) From darkness, chasing us (Nathan) And all you need is (Matt) What you see (Matt) And now it’s time to run (Matt)
And all you need is (Matt) What you see (Matt) And now it’s time to run (MattNathan Wagner - FriendlessNathan Wagner2021-10-08 | #NathanWagner #Friendless
Love you guys so much. My buddy Joseph Daniel wrote these lyrics and pitched them for me to use as a song. I was absolutely moved. So I put together a melody/structure and here we are now. Hope you guys like it. Gave it everything I had.
Lyrics
Cold hearts break beneath the strain But mine fills up in pouring rain Feels like drowning in icy seas surrounded by boats with no place for me
All tangled in my heart strings I try to play this melody Was never meant to be alone Was never meant to be alone
Let me in—from this storm “There's no place to make you warm” On locked doors, I keep pounding Please, I scream, I think I'm drowning Let me in! Let me in!
In the cold, I keep on swimming, Boats drift by, with huddled figures Shoulder to shoulder, they keep from freezing Making it all just look so easy
All tangled in my heart strings I try to play this melody
Let me in—from this storm “There's no place to keep you warm” On locked doors, I keep pounding Please, I scream, I think I'm drowning Let me in! Let me in!
Beneath the dark, something calls to me I hear a voice, whispering softly But I'm still drowning, I’m treading faster, But another figure, is in the water
A plank of wood, drifts on by, So I’m Racing towards and there I lie I reach on out, for this stranger Make room for her, despite the danger
Was never meant to be alone Was never meant to be alone Was never meant to be alone Was never meant to be alone
Let her in—from the storm “There's a place to make her warm” On locked doors, she kept pounding Please, she screamed, “I think I'm drowning.” So I let her in Let her in. Let her in
Written by Nathan Wagner Produced by Nathan Wagner and Samuel Wagner All Instruments Performed by Nathan Wagner
Lyrics: Look around I hear them whisper All the lights begin to flicker Paranoia fills my head Heart it pounds my face is red The silence drowning out my screams See everybody look at me Their bodies turning into beasts There eyes are red they come for me
Wait it’s only in my head just breath in breath out Another episode just calm down calm down
Instincts waging war inside The hold me up so tight Fear freezes me to ice I’m locked up inside my mind
Mind it wavers back and forth Paranoid so calm and sure Lucid dreaming everyday From chill to hyperventilate See everything that could go wrong It clings to me from dusk to dawn To isolates the only way As mental health deteriorates
Everything’s foggy hold on breath in breath out Another morning come on calm down down
Won’t you let me go - Won’t you let me go - I can’t take much more - Won’t you let me go
Don’t know if I’m awake or I’m asleep These thoughts are burying me deep Afraid of eery little thing I’m drowning - I’m drowning This souls just longing here for peace But the darkness screams and shouts and shrieks Shoot all their arrows down on me Please save me please save me
It's been a long day without you around Wishing I could tell you whats been going down And I'm missing you And the things we'd do when we were young And we'd chase the moon And I wish you knew How much we loved you But I guess there's really nothing that we can do To get to you
Been thinking 'bout the promises that we made And I vow that I will never ever let them break I feel you near though it's been some years It's like you're right there through every tear And you comfort me though I can't see you It's like you know exactly what I'm going through Like I can get to you Like I can get to you Like I can get to you Like I can get to you Like I can get to you
I remember blocking out everyone and everything from my life for about a year and half because I was too anxious to leave my house. There was this underlying panic that wouldn't just leave. I pushed so many people away, not because I didn't love them, but because I was afraid to see them. It's hard to explain. I've been fighting like crazy to face these fears and not allow own. I don't want the thing I hate most to tell me how I'm gonna live my life. I hope you guys like this one. Tried to be as honest as possible. Love you all.
You take all my energy you Taunt me til my wrists are bleeding Wish I was stronger had some peace I’m just a slave to you Every moment you are reaching For my throat I’m barely breathing Tortured memories got me sinking I’m Just a slave to you
Look at all the things you’ve stolen Every time you’ve made me frozen I hate everything about you Shouldn’t have to be this way Constant panic constant pain I hate everything about you
Constant struggle every minute I take one step you start you start medaling Puppeteering take me over Just a slave to you
Give you the reigns All Decisions You got me cornered I can’t pivot Feel so worthless see you grinning Just a slave to you
Look at all the things you’ve stolen Every time you’ve made me frozen I hate everything about you Shouldn’t have to be this way Constant panic constant pain I hate everything about you
Sinking further In your ocean Reach for shore but But waves keep forming falling faster You love to torture Well here’s to one last Fight to sever
Oh this bottled up rage inside Starts to light up in flames tonight Oh I'm looking you in the eye You're so sick you look paralyzed Feel this power rush through my veins As this milestone it separates I link it to your neck I Watch you sink I catch my breath
Hey guys, I had the privilege of collaborating with BossLogic on this one. He's one of the most incredible artists on planet earth. We wrote "One" awhile back and to be able to work with him again meant everything to me. For this one, he was inspired by Vegeta's story from DBZ. Forever seeking first yet always remaining behind Goku. When he pitched it to me a few weeks back, I really resonated. Had that feeling like no matter how hard I work I'm falling behind. Really hope you like it. Love you guys so much.
Lyrics When I was young Life it seemed so long Like I could live forever I thought I was strong But as I grew it felt like the length of a song Filled with rights and wrongs Holding ties that bind Till The end of the words Of the lyrics you heard Oh I ponder I search For the meaning of it all
I ask myself why Would I even try? Spent my whole of my life Trying to touch the sky But I keep falling on the ground Watch them pass me all around Feels like I’m losing all my faith That I will ever take first place
The rain hides The tears upon my face And where the sun is so distant Another losing race even though I Never stop never stop fighting Or giving up the chase I always find myself stuck in second place
I ask myself why Would I even try? Spent my whole of my life Trying to touch the sky But I keep falling on the ground Watch them pass me all around Feels like I’m losing all my faith That I will ever take first place
Babylon the great harlots mother abominations of the earth It’s blasphemy
I see the ember sky collapsing on us all Rigid mountainside it quivers til it falls I never thought that I would see it all so clear Armageddon chimes the end is here
Take me into memories Something stable some tranquility Catastrophic dreams of Noahs day Paranoias taking everything
Now who’s to blame Gotta break away I can’t escape
I've been trying to record this one for years but it just never turned out the way I wanted. Really hope you guys like this one. It means everything to me. Love you all.
Song Written Produced and Performed by Nathan Wagner
Lyrics A broken heart in trouble I feel the light go dim I Look at my reflection And only see my sin I’m Wondering how I gat here The walls are closing in And I pray oh God how could you love me You know what I did
When I feel my hope is burning The worlds weight on top of me You say child why are you guilty Can’t you see I made you clean And I cannot give an answer I just fall down on my knees and you Say child why are you worried Can’t you see I’ve set you free And you are loved You are loved
A wandering soul inside me I chose the world again and I know the light’s abiding But It’s gotta have it’s ends, oh Can’t you see I’m dirty Can’t you see my mess Oh God how could you love me I’m not good enough for this
When I feel my hope is burning The worlds weight on top of me You say child why are you guilty Can’t you see I made you clean And I cannot give an answer I just fall down on my knees and you Say child why are you worried Can’t you see I’ve set you free And you are loved You are loved
Stop trying so hard You’ve already won my heart And that will never change no That will never change, woah No place too far No sin too dark Could make me go away Oh I’ll never go away
When I feel my hope is burning The worlds weight on top of me You say child why are you guilty Can’t you see I made you clean And I cannot give an answer I just fall down on my knees and you Say child why are you worried Can’t you see I set you free And you’re so lovedNathan Wagner - Growing UpNathan Wagner2021-06-25 | #NathanWagner #GrowingUp #SingerSongwriter
Currently, this song means everything to me. I don't know if it's my best production, or my best vocal, or my best lyrics, but it's definitely one of the most honest tracks I've done. Love you guys so much. Hope you like "Growing Up"
Song written by Nathan Wagner Produced and Performed by Nathan Wagner
Lyrics: I found a gray today Childish instincts grow farther astray (Sinking farther from childish ways) Time it slips away Days are long but years they race
Would you slow down just a little I don’t wanna reach the middle I’m terrified of change ‘nother landmark in my story ‘nother bill another worry My youths so far away
Would you hold on love I’m just trying to catch up Cause these leaves keep on falling Then winter is stormin’ These seasons are shifting Like dusk to morning Wake me up Make this slumber stop It’s all slipping away These hours to days I’ll admit it I’m afraid Of growing up
Another line on my face a sign of wisdom or a mortals chain? I guess we’re born in decay Before you know it these decades chase you Down like there’s a bounty Count to ten and they’re surrounding Can’t outrun natures pace Nothing new under the sun came from ash return to dust Can’t win this wretched game
Would you hold on love I’m just trying to catch up Cause these leaves keep on falling Then winter is stormin’ These seasons are shifting Like dusk to morning Wake me up Make this slumber stop It’s all slipping away These hours to days I’ll admit it I’m afraid Of growing up
Of getting older of growing up I’ve never thought I was strong enough To be my savior bear my own crutch Afraid to see what this becomes
Would you slow down just a little I don’t wanna miss the riddle This moments all we have Tell my mother that I love her Tell my father tell my brothers You’re everything I am
Oh hold on love I’m just trying to catch up Cause these leaves keep on falling Then winter is stormin’ These seasons are shifting Like dusk to morning Wake me up Make this slumber stop It’s all slipping away These hours to days I’ll admit it I’m afraid Of growing upNathan Wagner - FULL ALBUM | just a little bit of my storyNathan Wagner2021-06-11 | #NathanWagner #JustALittleBitOfMyStory #FullAlbum
This moment means everything to me. I can't listen through all these songs in this order without losing it. If I'm speaking honestly, this album was mainly birthed from me trying to cope with constant negative emotion. No matter what I did. It sounds weird, but looking back, I'm grateful. Grateful for the pain. It forced me to look deeper inside myself. To learn more. Get smarter. Get stronger. If you're struggling with depression/anxiety or any sort of mental illness, I promise you you're not alone. It takes extreme pressure to create a pearl. Extreme heat to purify a diamond. Sometimes pains the only way we come to life. The only way we're able to maximize our potential. I love you. Life is worth living I promise. If this weights to heavy to bear I encourage you to reach out in the comments and I ask everyone else to pour some love on those brave enough to open up. I know I will. Hope you enjoy this. I gave it everything I had. Love you all.
I know these songs were previously released, but I hope the order breathes some new life into them. Love you guys so much.
TRACKLIST 0:00 BLOOD 3:49 I MISS YOU 6:29 SOMETIMES HEARTS BREAK 12:08 TRAUMA 15:52 LONELY 19:07 MAN OF STONE 24:39 LOVE 29:09 INNOCENCE 34:37 HOPE 40:13 KEEP BREATHING 43:38 BLOOD BONDSNathan Wagner - Shattered HalosNathan Wagner2021-06-04 | #NathanWagner #ShatteredHalos #PunkRock
My buddy Joseph Daniel pitched this song to me a few months ago and I was just absolutely blown away by the lyrics. I hope I did them justice. Love you guys.
Song written by Joesph Daniel Produced and Performed by Nathan Wagner
Lyrics AND SHATTERED HALOS FALL ACROSS THE STREET OF SOLID GOLD I KNOW YOU LONGED FOR A PLACE TO CALL YOUR OWN I FORGET THE WAY I CRIED WHEN I HEARD IT CALL YOUR NAME BUT I HOPE FOR LAUGHTER THAT IS COMING AFTER PAIN I'D CHASE THESE TIDAL WAVES TO TOUCH YOUR HAND ONCE MORE BUT THE CURRENT STRENGTH WON'T LET ME LEAVE THIS SHORE AND THESE SANDCASTLES BREAK BENEATH WATERS I ONCE WORE AND THESE TIDAL WAVES WILL CARRY YOU FURTHER NORTH SO THIS IS HOW IT ENDS SELLING PIECES OF YOUR SOUL IN THIS GARAGE SALE OF ALL THE THINGS YOU OWNED YOUR FAVORITE SWEATER GOES BOUGHT BY SOMEONE I DON'T KNOW AS THEY STRIP AWAY EVERYTHING BUT BONES I'D CHASE THESE TIDAL WAVES TO TOUCH YOUR HAND ONCE MORE BUT THE CURRENT STRENGTH WON'T LET ME LEAVE THIS SHORE AND THESE SANDCASTLES BREAK BENEATH WATERS I ONCE WORE AND THESE TIDAL WAVES WILL CARRY YOU FURTHER NORTH AND LET THE ANGELS SING LA-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA AND LET THE DEMONS HOWL WOAH-WOAH-WOAH ANOTHER SWEATER GOES ALONG WITH THE TROPHY CASE EMPIRE BUILDING BUT WHO WAS IT REALLY FOR? CASKET IN THE GROUND AND YOUR SOUL STARES FROM THE SKY FROM THIS HIGH UP'S LIKE SAND CASTLES ON THE SHORE I’D SWIM THROUGH TIDAL WAVES TO TOUCH YOUR HAND ONCE MORE BUT THE CURRENT STRENGTH WON'T LET ME LEAVE THIS SHORE AND THESE SANDCASTLES BREAK BENEATH WATERS I ONCE WORE AND THESE TIDAL WAVES WILL CARRY YOU FURTHER NORTH AND LET THE ANGELS SING LA-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA AND LET THE DEMONS HOWL WOAH-WOAH-WOAH AND LET THE ANGELS SING LA-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA AND LET THE DEMONS HOWL WOAH-WOAH-WOAH