DizzyLimme
restrained_anguish
updated
this is the second time I animated a demo tally hall song wo
I made it a few months ago
TW: venting about some issues I had/have below that may be disturbing
The past few days I’ve just felt kinda sad and stressed and haven’t really talked about it with people. I feel guilt over what I’ve already done, and every day I feel more guilt, the more I think about my past and my actions.
It’s hard to believe; I have a life I’ve hoped for where I’m finally away from teachers who caused me problems, I left so many people who caused me problems, I left the school that caused me problems, and I’m at a new place with better grades, less stress and good new friends. I also am on good terms with many of my other friends.
The thing that is probably the most important part to me is that I can escape mentally compared to the state I was in before and now I can actually feel happy, which wasn’t possible for multiple years to simply genuinely feel happy.
This recovery seemed impossible to me, a year ago this month I was being assaulted at school and had to get the police to stop him from stalking and contacting me. I had even blocked my assaulter but multiple friends of mine supported him (even though they knew he harmed me) because they were also friends with him, and they helped him block-evade to contact me and he followed me in person, even with an attempt to give me a stuffed toy as a gift once despite the police telling him not to contact me or else he’d be arrested.
That whole situation severely traumatized me and still impacts my thoughts, idea of self-worth and desires. Today I saw the officer again who helped me to stop that assaulter and it just brought back a lot of memories of what happened.
I had many more situations last year, such as watching someone get hit by a car, a teacher possibly trying to groom me (keeping me after class, I told him I had a mentor already but he insisted it must be with him, he then disappeared and the staff were not allowed to inform students about what happened to him. A lot of other suspicious details followed)
I got bad habits but I worked on it and have been doing better, my friends physically hit me for fun, and I left a close friend I had for almost half my life who meant a lot to me.
I would cry in class and panic from flashbacks I once walked across the classroom to the teacher’s desk and hid under it as the next class came in, it was actually that bad. I didn’t feel like I was in reality, I could only feel a range of negative emotions in my head. I really wasn’t doing well but I honestly think I am doing a lot better.
I am terrified of having another terrible experience like someone dying again, and unfortunately I still have irrational thoughts, and get anxious about people leaving me and not liking me, or abusing me. I’ve even seen my thoughts come out in actions, even though I know they’re not right, I’m trying to make myself think like this less.
I also had a dream last night that my father told me he would visit me at times like in my dreams and sometimes, and that he still existed despite being dead. I don’t really know what to think about that dream but I’ll see if I see him in my dreams and if I can talk with him again. Even if it’s not real sometimes I like to see him just for a short while.
song: youtu.be/yBzy_WahaeI?si=Fh0S00-tF7v9EPd-
I barely know how anything works still, but the ability to do smooth tweening may be useful for the type of animations I do if I can figure out how to use it
song: youtu.be/r2dosVRzLSM?si=n7SCiVazIZn-5wU4
This character is my vent character I’ve had for over 2 years. They represent me
I’m getting better than I was before. It still takes time but I’m trying hard. I’m getting out of some bad habits and my life looks like it will be going better than it did a year ago, things are still very hard sometimes, but I really am doing better with a new environment and some help :)
I am really glad I got my friends, I’m doing my work and I’m getting new opportunities so the path is looking good so far
also my I-pad storage is full so I am struggling to export animations a lot of the exports aren’t working and stuff and I am trying to delete stuff but it’s all procreate and FlipaClip files taking up my storage which would take a long time to fix, but I’m trying
song: youtu.be/AdUBTE9JpgI?si=E71oX9soU1jxQQif
I’m not really as upset about these things anymore I guess? I’m doing alright, still got some things to worry about though
Anyways this song is very weird and goofy so I finally decided to make an animation to it
youtu.be/m3DpMtJx0ZI?si=5MiG98Z4NOc7OoiQ
yo I walked onto campus of my previous school today and so many terrible things happened there I just felt this massive sense of needing to leave that place I can’t be there with dangerous people around all the time doing terrible things I hope people won’t be bad anymore that now I’m gone if you’re reading this and you know me I’m gone man it’s probably over I got out that place I needed to get out of there and I hope life can redeem its worthiness in my eyes so far it’s been alright but I don’t know what this new place is like and I’m afraid it will just be the same. I mean I might see the people who make me so scared to turn around corners back at the old place and that worries me because I want to check in with my old friends who are good and not have to worry about being approached or watched but you know I don’t really support people who support people who do messed up things
I found this song a few days ago and I really like it
song: youtu.be/-2t1oC1LUpI?si=klP70gkiOf-62q0c
i think I’ll animate more alex g songs
mostly based on real situations I’ve been in (besides literally dying)
testing some stuff out, kinda lazy
This character is named Ketchup :D i animated him a while ago, I may more
made this with my ocs
I don’t even know how many Tyler the creator songs I’ve animated at this point 😭
Slight vent? Not as much as others
Oh ya i have so many work in progress animations that are almost done and may finish some this summer if i get the motivation
Yippee today was my last day at my school, I am leaving this place kinda need to get away from some situations so I hope it will be good for me, still sad to leave a lot of friends but I’ll keep in touch ✌️
quick thingy i made
I haven’t animated this song in like 4 years lol
song: youtu.be/Z4yINX2Yw0Y?si=N6qGA-AA6pLnXFnX
things don’t look good
i’ll be able to live through for right now
youtu.be/l8_5HJf2oN4?si=hSnkIFoaic9LbuAG
this video (especially the ending) is actually based on a dream I had last week.
In the dream, my dad walked in the living room, and tried to talk to me casually. I’d already had a lot of dreams where everything was back to normal, and I realized he wasn’t really there, he looked there but I knew I was dreaming, I was so fed up I just started yelling at him, “You’re dead, you’re dead, you’re not real. I’ve done this too many times.” And I woke up in the dark, and he was dead.
song: youtube.com/watch?v=rnn4Z-C7Ido&t=0s
original: youtube.com/watch?v=2kDwallWQPI&t=0s
mad at everything and yell but i don’t have an excuse to
this animation is based on real events I’ve experienced irl in the past year. I’m starting to drift away from many of my closest friendships after all this. I think I could have put even more things that happened into this animation since so much has happened in just a few months, but this shows a few major things. My intentions are never to glorify bad things in my art; I want to show their downsides.
song: youtu.be/xOH3puURtbk?si=kDDIZ0HzUls5YhzF
original animation meme: youtu.be/FnmtjKhTC-M?si=8fpO6yakWxCZBJsc
song: youtu.be/RLpTxUsRSPs?si=PxwWkuM1o0RVZt1t
I’m losing everybody
I must be born anew
song: youtu.be/YdcordL3ItA?si=NcszLzHSPNTOyV6_
this is not only in the past, I am having issues with many of my friends due to complications with this same person, even though they have not talked to me recently. I often miss them so much, but I know I must be remorseless with some things to move on with my life. I know I’ll have to do this again; I need to change some things.
anyways lazy animation
song: youtu.be/Z4yINX2Yw0Y?si=JW3rauPCRAAK1C1s
this was fun to make
YouTube keeps turning off comments on my videos for some reason, and I go to change it but then they just get turned off again a few minutes later and it’s very annoying
youtu.be/mU1kxqv4ZGE?si=aXxn7-1BVWkjLIQV
i haven’t had time to post or animate due to getting associated with some very dark things irl (i didn’t do anything bad, just people around me as well as other stuff, don’t feel like explaining much) and needing time for my mental health and such, also school work is piling up like crazy…
this situation has caused me and many of my loved ones a great amount of stress and fear for my physical and mental well-being. I’m attempting to sort things out the best as I can, but I’ve been put in an extremely difficult spot
ok I just rambled on a bit oops
song: youtu.be/h1drJ36Rwbk?si=mJXWYIkD-ACFBLDu
and i feel awful I can’t walk everything hurts
i can’t sleep or drink or eat anything
emotional warning /j 😔
I made it at like 5 a.m. when I had no sleep and I have no clue what the song is either, please let me know if you know what it is 😭
I made this on an airplane
song: youtu.be/i-S879dfXuo?si=DixunRAoWg7htqs1
I made this around a year ago
song: all my fellas (by frizsk)
yippee
I know there is another original of this song but this is a different part ya
Kinda lazy I guess
https://toyhou.se/13568892.xyab
grief really isn’t getting better. i know he’s not coming back, why does everything remind me of that? i want him to come home, i just want to talk to him, to know he’s out there in some way.
i dont think anyone has animated this song idk
i made this over a few days
song:
youtu.be/WXPMIFhM9Q4?si=tk-0TDx-WFjQOLU3
I might do some animation memes because I’m feeling better at the moment
song: youtu.be/dlxj5QDdCpE?si=wmIglRuHZQA7-Ijn
song: youtu.be/kzQusX9NEgg?si=-gmUY_Kc5KOJ0s9Q
Song: youtu.be/aBjC9772EMk?si=EvZe1N9oH-ihBNhr
quick little animation, I’m not really proud of it, also if you remember this guy you’ve probably been watching my videos for quite a while now because I don’t think I’ve animated them in a long time :D
i haven’t been feeling great lately but I’m trying to make it through each day


