Matt Scott - Surefootstumbler
Overview Effect
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This is the story of my partner; her journey for the last three years...
Open the window
Open the window babe
So I can listen to the rain
I want to drown the voices in my head
Open the window babe
I know the sun ain’t shining, but I can wait
Can I just lay here in your arms
To silence the devil in my veins
So I can feel less broken
These shadows on these walls
Have fast become my friends
They’re always here to tend my tears
Lying in wait to fight my fears
Their whispers; softly spoken…
I’d settle for one day, I’d sell my soul
Just to have a taste of the me of old
And as the night is falling
That dreaded hum - is calling
Open the window babe
It’s a way for these doubts to escape
May they take wing into the night
Wither and die in morning’s light
I’ll form new ones to replace them
(A glass half full)
Full of questions, and with all good intentions
(I’m coming)
Home to exhaustion, internal combustion
Running on fumes - no fight for the cause
I’d settle for one day, I’d sell my soul
Just to have a taste of the me of old
And as the night is falling
That dreaded hum - is calling
Open the window babe
So I can listen to the rain
And fall into to the gentle lullaby
Breathing in time; the fall - the rise
To drift and dream of healing…
Take the wheel
Could you excuse me for a moment
I'm sorry I've gotta go, there's somewhere I need to be
And I can't take this sitting down
By staying here, I'm not covering ground
I'm not gonna wear this, this ain't on me
I'm not saying I'm blameless. I guess we'll see
If that's the way it is
Then that's the way it'll be...
Could you excuse me for a moment
I've got some thinking to do, give me a minute or two
I know I'm ruining all your plans
But staying here, I'll have blood on my hands
I'm not gonna wear this, this ain't on me
I'm not saying I'm blameless. I guess we'll see
If that's the way it is
Then that's the way it'll be...
I can't do this on my own
It's just a feeling in my bones
I believed that I could stand alone
But I don't wanna fly solo
Can anybody else take the wheel
This is suddenly all too real now
Can someone throw me a bone
Cos I don't wanna fly solo
Could you excuse me for a moment
Can I take a little time, I need some quiet to find
I feel the struggling setting in
it's up to me if I sink or I swim
I'm not gonna break here - that isn't me
I'll be back and better for it - just wait and see
Cos that's the way it it
And that's the way it'll be
I can't do this on my own
It's just a feeling in my bones
I believed that I could stand alone
But I don't wanna fly solo
Can anybody else take the wheel
This is suddenly all too real now
Can someone throw me a bone
Cos I don't wanna fly solo
I'm not gonna fly solo
Live our lives, just be there
And with all that's going round
Knowing that, we're gonna hit the ground running
We're gonna hit the ground running
Let's be true, it's time to play
Time for us, time away
Free from all the madding crowds
Knowing that, we're gonna hit the ground running
We're gonna hit hit the ground running
And as we scribe this paradigm
Co-writers, we
Just filling pages, spinning time
And re-writing geometry
And as each other's satellites
Up where we most clearly see
Just dance among the endless night
And bend and break reality
We bend and break reality
Say my name, stake your claim
Don't refrain, feel free to feel it
Turn our bodies into playgrounds
Our souls to the glow of gold
Our souls to the glow of gold
To the glow of gold
There they go
There they go
They came out from under the rubble, of someone else's battle
Rubbing their eyes, faces turned to the sky
Out into the daylight
And they made a life of dance and song
A colour TV; they had a warm dinner on the table
Didn't they
Here we go
Here we go
So we got a land to play and frolic in, back in our childhood
And those summer days were all about falling down, and a friend to get you up again
Time burned slow, and the days ran long
We made our way home when the streetlights came on
Didn't we
Didn't they didn't we didn't I
Didn't they didn't we didn't I
Didn't they didn't we didn't I
And now it's coming round again
All the answers are plain to see
Why. Can't. You. See. Them.
Listen to what they say, look at all we'll do
All I see is burning to the ground again
This is always how it ends
On I go
On I go
Now the world I know is slowly eroding
And some delight in its demise
But I harbour the hope that what we have will survive and thrive
When the dust has settled
And I thought I knew my way around
Read between the lines, but it seems, I bought into the lie
Didn't I
Didn't they didn't we didn't I
Didn't they didn't we didn't I
Didn't they didn't we didn't I
Amen (So be it)
Would that I had the secret
Would that I had a hold of the key
But time is getting the better of me, yeah
As of us all
But now and then I shed a tear for all that's been
Might as well have just been shed in the sea
For all that it's meant
Amen
Could it be that I missed it
Could it be that I was blind to the signs
It was all getting the better of me, yeah
Crowds at my door
But now and then I shed a tear for all that's been
Might as well have just been shed in the sea
For all that it's meant
Amen
Should I tell you my secret or shouldn't I
The question is yours to ask
But this suspense will take the better of me and drive it up the wall
But now and then I'd like to feel that I finally won
So I'll simply softly float in my sea
Because that's where my peace was won
So I'll simply softly float in my sea of tears
Because that's where my peace was won
Amen
Bones and marrow
From a painted sky, I knew you were watching
On the turning tide, I felt you walking
By my side, in my shadow listening
My aching heart, the pieces breaking
And with a child-like mind, I'll enter this endeavour
I'll graze my knees, in the name of adventure
When my bruises heal, and the wounds scar over
I'll have my proof, it all came down to you
Time will tell, and the stories follow
Pages bound in bones and marrow
From dust they came and into ash they'll turn
There'll be no tomorrow, won't be my concern
I'd rather count my blessings than count my days
Write another chapter and turn the page
Be a lifter of curses, not a layer of blame
Take time to dance in the rain
And when my body fails, and the veil starts lifting
I'll close my eyes and feel the worlds all shifting
When I breathe my last, and relive my past
The simple truth, it all came down to you
Time will tell, and the stories follow
Pages bound in bones and marrow
From dust they came and into ash they'll turn
There'll be no tomorrow, won't be my concern
There'll be no tomorrow, it won't be my concern
Demon tide
Well the demon tide it ebbs and flows
Sometimes in crashing waves and sometimes in foam
And the demon tide it rises and falls
It's inescapable, it clutches us all
So we go and run, we hide
Try to figure out the who the what the when, then the why
Broke my rhythm gotta get back in my stride
I'll be having the occasional triumphant day but baby, there'll be demons on the tide
And the demon tide it beckons and calls
It holds a mirror to your failings and flaws
And on your knees, the squeeze, you question it all
But you pull yourself together, you embrace the stormy weather, turn your back into the wind and face your sins and know there's demons on the tide
You can build a wall to save a city from the fall
Try to tame the waves and change the way the world behaves
But when the lights go out and shadows deepen all the doubt
The demon tide will come to claim the blame that it wanted all along
So we go and run, we hide
Try to figure out the who the what the when, then the why
Broke my rhythm gotta get back in my stride
We'll be having the occasional triumphant day but love me 'cos there's demons on the tide
(I need your love 'cos on the tide there's demons)
Fight or flight
There was a way through, there was a path here
It's overgrown now, nobody's been here for years.
Feels like it's haunted, no sunlight strikes on the ground.
What creatures hide here, oh hell now, what was that sound.
How did I get here what is this world that surrounds me now.
I feel my mouth go dry, fight or flight - choose somehow.
(I can't tell you how I am now)
This misadventure, work of a curious mind.
A soul indentured, a slave to space and to time.
The rations run low, the plan's gone out the window.
Survival is the game now, your guess is as good as mine.
I've gotten lost I thought I knew these woods, this land was mine.
But somehow everything is strange, I must have missed the signs.
(I can't tell you where I am now)
There was a way through.
There was a place where I could go.
It's overgrown now.
Space and time have taken their toll.
I feel I'm fading, everything I touch turns to stone.
A thought invading, maybe I should be heading home.
The passions run low, there's whispers on the down low.
He's lost among the trees now.
Send in the dogs, make him run.
I've gotten lost, how did I get here what surrounds me now.
I feel my mouth go dry, fight or flight - choose somehow.
(I'm frozen to the spot now)
I know I'll know
I'm always waiting, for my time to come around
And when it does, I know I'll know just what to do.
Or, so I keep telling myself
Gotta talk myself up, cos there's no-one else, who can
But when they do, I know I'll know just what to be.
I won't do myself over, anymore
Gotta hold my ground, I won't make a sound now
I've laid my weapons down
I'll be patient. It's what Jesus would want me to do.
But I don't want to end up quite like he did.
Cos I haven't got that in me...
Plasma rain
I saw you standing with your face to the sun
There was no-one in the world you were the only one
For a moment you saw every star through the day sky
A summer queen drenched in a plasma rain
You push away all the same old, same old
Not going around again
You make a bubble in time, it's a sign to stop and breathe it in again
And with your feet just off the ground
You're finally coming down
In a daze, eyes glazed with the fading glow
You're welcome home
I saw you lying with your face to the stars
Every one of them a sun burning behind your eyes
Every moment unfolded like petals in your mind
A summer queen draped in a diamond veil
You push away all the same old, same old
Not going around again
You make a bubble in time, it's a sign to stop and breathe it in again
And with your feet just off the ground
You're finally coming down
In a daze, eyes glazed with the fading glow
You're welcome home
Matter of the heart
Nobody ever truly takes you for who you are, no
Cos they can always make you better - yeah
And when it comes down to it
It's a matter of the heart
You should be loving them better - yeah
And if you say you really mean it
Why aren't you trying harder
Cos you should be more than you are
Cos it's a matter of the heart
And I should've seen this coming my way
Well it's a matter of the heart
I don't want the past to replay
Cos it's a matter of the heart
Everybody lives in the grey
Well it's a matter of the heart
Or so they say
And I'm falling on my sword again
Giving in as the controls begin
I haven't any fight in me
Too many punches have put me down
Whatever you say goes
Give me a line to toe
Cos it's a matter of the heart
And I should've seen this coming my way
Well it's a matter of the heart
I don't want the past to replay
Cos it's a matter of the heart
Everybody lives in the grey
Well it's a matter of the heart
Or so they say
Am I not the man you fell for
Am I not the one who stole your heart
When did you wake to find
That you needed more
Am I not the man you fell for
Am I not the one who stole your heart
Why isn't that enough now
Tell me how did I fall short
Cos it's a matter of the heart
And I should've seen this coming my way
Well it's a matter of the heart
I don't want the past to replay
Cos it's a matter of the heart
Everybody lives in the grey
Well it's a matter of the heart
Or so they say
So they say
Save the day
I could have come to save the day
I could have found a less intrusive way
I could have spoken a truth or two
How would I know if I had gotten through
I could break through the walls, turn back the time
Make sense of it all, and redefine
I could chain all the fools, prevent every crime
Live by my rule and you'd all be fine
If I could have come to save the day
I could have donned a shimmering cape
Been the best hero, make no mistake
Throw mountains at monsters, they'd tremble and quake
I could break through the walls, turn back the time
Make sense of it all, and redefine
I could chain all the fools, prevent every crime
Live by my rule and you'd all be fine
If I could have come to save the day
I could have come and saved the day
I have played the long game, I've cried on the sidelines
I will wait with bated breath for the day I set this all aflame
And paint my face with all the ashes
I'll paint my face with all the ashes
Cos I could have come to save the day
I could have come and saved the day
Turnaround
Take it up with someone who cares
Cos that ain't me, I've got my crosses to bear
Who's to say you'll listen
Who's to know if you'll hear
Maybe we'll be back here in a couple of years
Well it's the same old runaround
Covering same old ground
The roads all go the same way
Maybe it's time to turnaround
And see just how we've drowned
In all that we've put into play
Keep it to yourself, I'm in no mood to share
I've had it with semantics and the splitting of hairs
I'm not going anywhere, my place is here
Maybe there's a future free of living in fear
Well it's the same old runaround
Covering same old ground
The roads all go the same way
Maybe it's time to turnaround
And see just how we've drowned
In all that we've put into play
Don't come around here
I've locked the doors and I've swallowed all the keys
Don't come around now
Full of need
Cos I'm already on my knees
Well it's the same old runaround
Covering same old ground
The roads all go the same way
Maybe it's time to turnaround
And see just how we've drowned
In all that we've put into play
Well it's the same old runaround
Maybe it's time to turnaround
Take this outside
I could have found a better way to say to say this
I should have taken a little time to spell it out
I'm sick and tired of the rattling of cages
So put 'em up, let's see this out you know it's worth the fight
I could have seen this in somewhat of a different light
I should have waited for the shadowplay upon the walls
I've got the spirit, but my will is kinda calcified
So put 'em up, let's see this through I want to break the rules
Let's take this outside
Let's let the sky cast a weary eye
Oh, nothing new here, she's seen it all before
Let's take this outside, there's no need to stain the floors
I would have sung a different song if you had played along
A single string can only sing so long until it's numb
And after all's been said and done
Well, there's not much left to say
I guess we're all just pulling strings, it's just another day
Let's take this outside
Let's let the sky cast a weary eye
Oh, nothing new here, she's seen it all before
Let's take this outside, there's no need to stain the floors
Children draw with chalk, and
Chalk outlines the crime, and
I try to walk my talk, but I
Talk myself out of it most of the time
So let me just take this...
Let's take this outside
Let's let the sky cast a weary eye
Oh, nothing new here, she's seen it all before
Let's take this outside, there's no need to stain the floors
Everything
Before we get into that let's get into this
We've gotta rearrange priorities and edit our lists
Leaning into all the lies and wasting time on alibis
We're gonna miss our ride are you gettin the gist
Look how we've come so far
Leaving our wake of stars
And as we light the dark, I can't feel my fading scars
Before we get into that I want to say this
I always felt that there was something in the the something I'd missed
We're always fixing things but nothing gets fixed
Poking and a prodding just to see if it stinks
Look how we've come so far
Leaving our wake of stars
And as we light the dark, I can't feel my fading scars
While we watch the world still spins
Full of love and full of sins
But every colour every song we bring
Isn't that everything
Isn't that everything
Before we get into that look out for the ditch
Blind leading the blind we need the flick of a switch
I don't have all the answers but I can tell you this
You leave behind the love you gave sealed with a kiss
Look how we've come so far
Leaving our wake of stars
And as we light the dark, I can't feel my fading scars
Look how we've come so far
Leaving our wake of stars
And as we light the dark, I can't feel my fading scars
While we watch the world still spins
Full of love and full of sins
But every colour every song we bring
Isn't that everything
Isn't that everything
Out
You hang me out to dry
Leave me out in the cold and rain to die
And I hear your defenders say - that I probably deserve it anyway
(The ramblings of a bitter man)
You may not think it true what I say
but I'm going to say it anyway
you broke my heart years ago
And still the game went on
(Dancing around each other's fears)
So I'm getting out before we go the rounds again
I'm out of the ring before you knock me down again
I've said my piece before
And yesterday I found it rolling around the floor
you never hear a word I say
but I'm going to say them anyway
(Shadow boxing other's fears)
So I'm getting out before we go the rounds again
I'm out of the ring before you knock me down again
You broke my heart years ago
You never hear a word I say
Dancing around each other's fears
What a way to waste the years
So I'm getting out before we go the rounds again
I'm out of the ring before you knock me down again
I'm out of the ring before you knock me down
Ache
I can let it linger just a little bit longer
But if it's too long my drinks are getting stronger
I need you like the links in a chain
I miss you every muscle every fiber every grain
I can sit and suffer cos I haven't had enough of what's on offer
These promises of love
I need you like the links in a chain
I miss you every muscle every fiber every grain
I can stop the stingin with a touch of my finger
But you need to be here
I can't touch a figment of my imagination
Despite all these machinations I'm reaching out
Take my hand now and we'll find out how to find
I can let it linger just a little bit longer but if it's too long
My mind is gonna wander and I'll build myself a prison
Is that enough of a reason to break me out
I need you like the links in a chain
I miss you every muscle every fiber every grain
Skinsuit
Existin in this skinsuit kinda cramps my style
It's clammy, claustrophic and it don't comply
And now they're telling me it has to last
These things they don't come cheap you know
Just ask the brass
This machine we've put you in is designed to take the strain
Just grease the joints and don't leave it out in the rain
Don't ask too much now cos it's difficult to explain
But if it lets you down there's always lack of training to blame
The system's bust a sensor somewhere I can't find
I'm trying to read the manual but there's smoke in my eyes
A buzzin in my bones a rattle in my ear
My boots are full of water and I can't think clear
This machine...
I am the light that shines behind these eyes
Behind this visor that dims the bright
Out of the corner of my eye just out of sight
Caught in a glare that will flare your bones
I had to vent the atmosphere and I choked in the cold
But the pressure's up and I'm chargin now but I'm still not sold
No guarantees but apparently I signed on the line
From here I'll take things easy make the most of my time
This machine you've put me in it's designed to take the strain
I grease the joints I don't leave it out in the rain
I don't ask too much take it in my stride
And when it lets me down
I'll just take it one day at a time
Twitch
I've taken myself apart
Watched you break your own heart
I had no need to undertake
These lessons these mistakes
We've been drawn down different paths
Plot X and Y I can show you the graphs
It's not that hard to grasp
Where all I walked was glass
And so I languish in this limbo
Slowly turning, twitching, at the end of my rope
But alive. Barely, but alive
We've been poking sticks at a dying fire
Barking up trees and flogging horses as they're dying
This is how far we've gotten, now
All waterlogged and sodden
And so I languish in this limbo
Slowly turning, twitching, at the end of my rope
But alive. Barely, but alive
Barely, barely, but alive
Hand over hand I will climb
And make my way back into the light
Hand over hand I will climb
And make my way back into the light
Hand over hand
Hand over hand
I will climb
Navigate
I'm trying to navigate
And I hear every word you say
But it just goes from ear to ear
I can't keep up with your changing gears no
I'm maybe just getting old
Levels of tolerance running low low low low
Out of my face with your blips of fame
I don't know the rules I'm not playing this game
I maybe got it wrong
I'll maybe write a song
But could it right a wrong
I don't know
And could it be that we've hit the wall
Sense and reason don't matter anymore at all
The world's gone mad and I'm dragged along
Head's full of tunes but I can't make out a song
I maybe got it wrong
I'll try and write a song
But could it right a wrong
I don't know
But could it right a wrong
But could it right a wrong
But could it right a wrong
I don't know
Ready
What has come between us
And is it something I should fear
Or something to revere
What if we get between us
And drive the other away for fear of getting near
Well I'm ready, I'm ready to take this ride
I'm ready to lay aside
All that's made me want to hide
And just let it all go now
And I'm ready, I'm ready to lose my mind
I'm ready to find lost time
And in the stillness slow down
What say that you and I just let go give in hang on
What the hell (what the hell) let's give each other a try
And in a kiss that lasts a lifetime
finally found myself a lifeline
All I ask is that you just keep on reeling me in
I'm not among the fields of players
I'm just looking for some layers
That I can wrap around my heart to keep it warm
'Cos I'm ready, I'm ready to lay aside
All that's made me want to hide
And just let it all go now
'Cos I'm ready, I'm ready to lose my mind
I'm ready to find lost time
And in the stillness slow down
Moving
You couldn't catch me if you tried
I'm in new territory crossed the borderline
Looking back now is a waste of time
Gotta keep moving forward push into the light
You don't know how hard I've tried
I've tripped on my tongue eaten words alive
I've taken hits and I've bruised my pride
But I gotta get up get moving back into the fight
I've taken time wasted days dreamed sublime
I've taken blame drowned in shame hid in lies
I've crossed the line eaten words swallowed pride
No looking back shield my eyes from the bright
I wouldn't say that it's all been in vain
I've learned along the way by the mistakes that I've made
I've lost and I've found
I've given and gained
But I gotta keep moving forward
pushing through the pain
Yeah I gotta keep moving forward
Into the light into the fight into the bright and through the pain
Ricochet
Can you be the one to set me free
This world wants to bring me to my knees
But with you by my side, I'll find the strength for this fight
But would you take these doubts, that ricochet in my mind...
Blow after blow
See the blood flow
Thrown to the ground
Thugs all around
I'm being mugged by my life
Strife after strife
But would you take these doubts that ricochet in my mind...
There's gotta be
Change a'comin'
There's gotta be a silver linin' to the clouds
There's gotta be at least a little something better
Cos if this kid keeps gettin' what this kid's gettin'
This kid's gonna get around to havvin' enough...
Can you be the one to set me free
This world wants to bring me to my knees
But with you by my side, I'll find the strength for this fight
But would you take these doubts, that ricochet in my mind...
Will love wipe away
All these bitter stains
Will love find a way
To re-direct oncomin' trains
Will love come to stay
And ease these clingin' aches and pains
Cos if this kid keeps gettin' what this kid's gettin'
This kid's gonna get around to havvin' enough
Can you be the one to set me free
This world wants to bring me to my knees
But with you by my side, I'll find the strength for this fight
But would you take these doubts, that ricochet in my mind
Quantum train
I caught a quantum train
I caught a seed taken root in my brain and I
I am aware now cos I
Know how to care now
And from its windows I viewed
Complexity in sound in density and hue
And I know now
Why I'm here now
I caught a quantum train
I caught a seed taken root in my brain and I
I am aware now cos I
Know how to care now
And I know now cos I
Found out about how I've been wired to my soul
Splashdown
Honey show me the star you fell from
Tell me the secrets you've told to no-one
Oh won't you just let me be the someone
The arms for you to fall into
Tell me about how you felt the burning
Of how you howled while the flames were ablating
Of how you cried in the kiss of the ocean
As you made your splashdown
Crashing into my life
Streaking across my sky
Turning the night to day there's no other way this could have played out
Crashing into my life
Streaking across my sky
Turning the night to day now you're here to stay
Let's get you settled in place
How long did you float in the darkness
All alone in that velvet embrace
Trapped in a cold that I can't imagine
Lost in space
And though you travelled so far for so long
Always hoping you'd finally find a home
Slowly making your way around
Till you made your splashdown
Crashing into my life
Streaking across my sky
Turning the night to day there's no other way this could have played out
Crashing into my life
Streaking across my sky
Turning the night to day now you're here to stay
Let's get you settled in place
Honey show me the star you fell from
Tell me the secrets you've told to no-one
Oh won't you just let me be the someone
The arms for you to fall into
Honey show me the star
Status Quo
Maintaining the status quo
Happy with the state of play
Stay in the trenches; heads down low
Not looking to make a change
Not gonna rock the boat
Not gonna kick the nest
Not gonna raise no flag
Not gonna risk my neck
Not gonna pick a side
Not gonna take the time
Just sit by and watch it spiralling down
Sustaining the apathy
The smoke and mirrors will get you by
Another corporate refugee
Just counting clocks and the passing time
Not gonna rock the boat
Not gonna kick the nest
Not gonna raise no flag
Not gonna risk my neck
Not gonna pick a side
Not gonna take the time
Cos' it's all just passing me by
Passing me by
Passing me by
Because it's spiralling
Not gonna lose my nerve
Not in this wilderness
I'm gonna stay afloat
And rise above the mess
I'm gonna see the stars
I'm gonna kiss the sky
But it's all just passing me by
Not gonna rock the boat
Not gonna kick the nest
Not gonna raise no flag
Not gonna risk my neck
Not gonna pick a side
Not gonna take the time
Just sit by and watch it spiralling down
Just sit by and watch it spiralling down
Cos it's all just passing me by


