25 Years Old: I Have NO Friends...I Have Social Anxiety @benmayz202

Ben Mayz I finally overcame my scares and worries of making a youtube video over why I have no friends and about my life living with social anxiety.

I recently just graduated college and am finding it harder to make friends and also finding it harder just to go through any type of social interaction in general.

Social anxiety has drastically taken it toll on my life and I know I am not the only one going through this. I know there are many people out there living with anxiety and fear of social interactions.

It's ironic because as a kid I never had this issue and even up to my early 20's I did not even know what social anxiety was. I had friends, although never any close ones until 21 and 22, I never had a problem making friends and interacting with people.

As i started to enter my mid 20's I knew I had a social issue and it was becoming increasingly harder not only to make friends but to interact with anybody including my family.

Every time somebody, no matter who it was, I would get this rush over me almost like an instant adrenaline rush. I would get it so bad that it would make me stutter on my words and I would not be able to complete my sentences and I would say things that just did not make any sense at all.

This is in turn would fuel my social anxiety even worse and it would just be a viscous cycle and embarrassing cycle of failure.

Now I am doing insane amounts of research on how to overcome social anxiety and how i can get better. I now have to go out and find a big boy job and go through interviews and I know that this will be a challenge if i can not make a connection or seem like a good social interacting individual to my potential employers.

The world is not fair and us who live with social anxiety are disadvantaged. Living with no friends, slight depression, and fear of social interactions can take its toll on us.

I am doing my best to overcome this and will keep you updated along my way.

If you read this please comment down below and let me know as I feel as if I am literally just talking to myself and writing a diary entry for nobody to ever see...

If you read this, I hope I can help you and thanks for reading.

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updated 4 years ago

25 Years Old: I Have NO Friends...I Have Social Anxiety

Ben Mayz 2020-08-05 | I finally overcame my scares and worries of making a youtube video over why I have no friends and about my life living with social anxiety.

I recently just graduated college and am finding it harder to make friends and also finding it harder just to go through any type of social interaction in general.

Social anxiety has drastically taken it toll on my life and I know I am not the only one going through this. I know there are many people out there living with anxiety and fear of social interactions.

It's ironic because as a kid I never had this issue and even up to my early 20's I did not even know what social anxiety was. I had friends, although never any close ones until 21 and 22, I never had a problem making friends and interacting with people.

As i started to enter my mid 20's I knew I had a social issue and it was becoming increasingly harder not only to make friends but to interact with anybody including my family.

Every time somebody, no matter who it was, I would get this rush over me almost like an instant adrenaline rush. I would get it so bad that it would make me stutter on my words and I would not be able to complete my sentences and I would say things that just did not make any sense at all.

This is in turn would fuel my social anxiety even worse and it would just be a viscous cycle and embarrassing cycle of failure.

Now I am doing insane amounts of research on how to overcome social anxiety and how i can get better. I now have to go out and find a big boy job and go through interviews and I know that this will be a challenge if i can not make a connection or seem like a good social interacting individual to my potential employers.

The world is not fair and us who live with social anxiety are disadvantaged. Living with no friends, slight depression, and fear of social interactions can take its toll on us.

I am doing my best to overcome this and will keep you updated along my way.

If you read this please comment down below and let me know as I feel as if I am literally just talking to myself and writing a diary entry for nobody to ever see...

If you read this, I hope I can help you and thanks for reading.

instagram.com/ben_mayz

A Day in My Boring Life - First Workout in Over a Year - Confidence Boost

Ben Mayz 2020-12-04 | here is my instagram if you want to follow me: instagram.com/ben_mayz

i dont really use snapchat anymore.

Today when I woke up, I thought heck, i'm gonna make a video today. In doing so, it forced me to go to the gym and get back to working out. So thankful for that. this was my first workout in over a year after my injury.

It felt extremely good to go and workout, well actually not really before, but working out and the feeling and mood boost that I got after my workout was great.

I highly recommend if you feel like junk, go hit the gym and see how you feel afterwards. I bet you will get a nice mood boost that will start your day off right. I plan to stick with this whole working out thing for 30 days and just see where it takes me and see how far i can go with it. Will post results after 30 days to keep myself accountable.

cheers everyone! :)

My Alcohol Addiction Story, Sober Day 1 - Why I Quit Drinking

Ben Mayz 2020-11-19 | This is my Alcohol addiction story. Today is my day one where I have officially decided to quit drinking alcohol and go entirely sober for 30 days.

I noticed that I was becoming emotionally unstable, not angry but very sad.

I was having issues with low motivation, anxiety was coming backs, I was just not happy with myself on the path I was on, and I really started to worry.

Maybe I really am an alcoholic. I started drinking on my own and thats when it started to click with me that maybe the people around me are right. I am an alcoholic and I need to get it under control.

I started running into some slight money, im not rich at all, and this combined with boredom I noticed was becoming nothing but a recipe for disaster and addiction.

So today, I am changing that.

Today is your day one. Today is my day one. We can do this, we will do this. We will not live by the bottle of vodka or whiskey.

I plan to do 30 days sober, no alcohol, no drugs, no nothing. I will get my life back on track.

My first plan of action is to get through my surgery and then work on changing up my social circle. You are who you hang out with.
Next plan is to go ahead and get a job and keep myself busy. Boredom is the enemy.
Make it 30 days and re-evaluate

My Journey Beating Social Anxiety and Improving Social Confidence - Update 1

Ben Mayz 2020-10-14 | My name is Ben Mayz, and If you know me from my last videos and are following me then you know I have and struggle severely with social anxiety and low social confidence.
I decided, after a year or more that I am Going to log my journey in beating and overcoming this life debilitating thing we all call social anxiety. It's the single thing that runs my life as I am sure it does yours as well if you are anything like me.

I know after my last video that I am not the only one out there that struggles with this and I know how difficult it can be. I have decided that I am going to do updates like this to not only keep track of how I am improving but also to help others out there that are also experiencing what I am going through.

If you are out there, read this, and watch my videos let me know. It feels good to know other are out there going through this as well.

I plan to log my journey into becoming as social confident as I possibly can as well as overcoming social anxiety.

I will respond to every comment left on my videos at some point or another. Every single one.

Take care

Anybody Else Say Um Too Much? Any Ideas on How To Stop?

Ben Mayz 2020-09-25 | if anybody wants to give me a follow:
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So I recorded a video earlier before this one and when I finished I noticed that I constantly am saying um in between sentences. To the point where I am actually saying um too much and I have to make a real effort to not say um... Please tell me I am not the only one who says umm too much?

Like I know what I want to say but for some reason my mouth likes to say um before I can even get to my next sentence. I have not noticed this is my daily interacting life so much but most certainly just noticed it when I try and record a YouTube video.

Saying um sounds just, like idk not good? I would most certainly rather not say it if I had the choice. It sounds unintelligent.

Has anyone else dealt with saying um or another sentence place holder before they can say what they want to say? If so, do you have any ideas as to why we say this?

And do you have any strategies on how to stop saying umm so much? If you do please comment and let me know because I would really like to stop saying umm too much.

Cheers guys and gals!

Whats Helping Me Overcome Social Anxiety, High Dose TRT & Confidence

Ben Mayz 2020-08-21 | I wanted to make this video to talk about how i have been overcoming my social anxiety as well as what has been helping me along the way.

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Social anxiety has ruled my life for the greater part of 2 years and to be quite frank it hinders how i live my life. Social Anxiety effects the decisions i make, who I spend my time with, and the relationships I build and keep.

Because of this making friends has been proven to be quite the challenge. Recently after getting injured i decided that I was going to read up as much as i could to try and see how i could go about fixing this issue because i for one know that this is not normal, it's not who i am, and i am too smart to just sit around and let this petty little issue effect me.

So i came across testosterone and TRT. I will start off by saying. yeah i think this in itself can actually fix or help fix social anxiety for a lot of peeps out there. I know for a fact it has significantly helped me.

But I will now say, it has been one heck of a roller coaster ride trying to dial everything in. Some days i feel excellent other days i do not, although still better than without TRT. Weeks go by and i don't even notice that i feel numb to everything, i make a change, and i realize how much better i feel.

What i have noticed so far is that TRT has helped improve both my confidence and how i interact with people. It has improved my relationship with my girlfriend, my family, and my friends. And I know that once i get dialed in that i will feel way better than I have been.

Will keep you all updated with what has been helping fix social anxiety so that you guys can learn from what I am doing and can use this information to hopefully help improve your lives as well.