Uploaded February 2010 | Updated September 2026, 3 days ago
Welcome, one and all, to my least favourite day of the year. ;D
Other than exam days.
Bahhh, I HATE Valentine's Day- I'm the Scrooge of today. I'm going to be horrible and grouchy all day! ^^
Song name is in the tags.
Let it be known that I love- and I mean LOVE- the doujinn I edited this with. It's gorgeously drawn and I adore the story- sadly, I have to admit, I'd probably react in the same way to Sora's straying as Riku did.
Even if it meant letting his cute little pet die and his heart break.
It managed to make me laugh (especially the chocobo biting Riku and Tidus' random appearence), it managed to make me cry (Sora at the grave and Riku during the arguement with Kairi) and it managed to make me feel just about everything in between. Plus it's adorable and there's no snogging or shagging going on.
I'm ashamed to admit that those are the kind of doujinns I've downloaded, save for this one- all but one are just kissing, though, so it's not TOO bad or perverted.
I originally had a full GMV planned, a slightly amusing/saddish one about Riku and his [lack of cannon] relationships, to Charlie McDonnell's "A Song About Love". I got nowhere. xD
And nowwww I have t do something for Psychic -squeeeee- before I move. T-T -runs-
I really struggled to find a song for it, but I think I've got one now.
At first, all I could find was "Scream" from High School Musical 3 -dies- and "Last to Know" by Three Days Grace, which seemed a little harsh towards the end (she was my WORST love, blah blah, and when she leaves you for dead, you'll be the last to know) I didn't want to just use the slow bit, either, because THAT would make it emo and it's Psychic!Riku already and he makes up enough emo, thank you very much.
Welcome, one and all, to my least favourite day of the year. ;D
Other than exam days.
Bahhh, I HATE Valentine's Day- I'm the Scrooge of today. I'm going to be horrible and grouchy all day! ^^
Song name is in the tags.
Let it be known that I love- and I mean LOVE- the doujinn I edited this with. It's gorgeously drawn and I adore the story- sadly, I have to admit, I'd probably react in the same way to Sora's straying as Riku did.
Even if it meant letting his cute little pet die and his heart break.
It managed to make me laugh (especially the chocobo biting Riku and Tidus' random appearence), it managed to make me cry (Sora at the grave and Riku during the arguement with Kairi) and it managed to make me feel just about everything in between. Plus it's adorable and there's no snogging or shagging going on.
I'm ashamed to admit that those are the kind of doujinns I've downloaded, save for this one- all but one are just kissing, though, so it's not TOO bad or perverted.
I originally had a full GMV planned, a slightly amusing/saddish one about Riku and his [lack of cannon] relationships, to Charlie McDonnell's "A Song About Love". I got nowhere. xD
And nowwww I have t do something for Psychic -squeeeee- before I move. T-T -runs-
I really struggled to find a song for it, but I think I've got one now.
At first, all I could find was "Scream" from High School Musical 3 -dies- and "Last to Know" by Three Days Grace, which seemed a little harsh towards the end (she was my WORST love, blah blah, and when she leaves you for dead, you'll be the last to know) I didn't want to just use the slow bit, either, because THAT would make it emo and it's Psychic!Riku already and he makes up enough emo, thank you very much.
![Breaking Ice [Psychic Redux]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/HZESRZHOYzI/mqdefault.jpg "Breaking Ice [Psychic Redux]
Warning: If you are reading this then this warning is for you. Every word you read of this useless fine print is another second off your life. Dont you have other things to do? Is your life so empty that you honestly cant think of a better way to spend these moments? Or are you so impressed with authority that you give respect and credence to all that claim it? Do you read everything youre supposed to read? Do you think every thing youre supposed to think? Buy what youre told to want? Get out of your apartment. Meet a member of the opposite sex. Stop the excessive shopping and masturbation. Quit your job. Start a fight. Prove youre alive. If you dont claim your humanity you will become a statistic. You have been warned.
In short: Riku meets Namine first because hes a hot piece of ass and she wants the d and so decides to arrange to meet him in the city. They talk in a badly masked alley, and then head back to her place. They talk a lot for no reason, bonding and shit, while Lulu is pattering around finding Snow. Nami then gives Riku a really vague shitty go to this place because Ive had a vision that you should be there, and he heads off.
Tooooooooo be continued in Part 2 for this Chapter!")
![T a i n t e d. [ vs Firestar1243 ]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/HvVhLaorwi0/mqdefault.jpg "T a i n t e d. [ vs Firestar1243 ]
Trailers.
NOT my strong point. xP
And this most likely will NOT be getting me through to the next round, but its the best I can do.
-shifts-
I wanna start over.
D:
Sorry, subscribers, this is rubbish. Again.
Oh GOD. I know some of the names are dead wrong. But Noctis HAS no voice actor, and I couldnt find the name of Serahs... Well, actually, I found A name, but it didnt seem right, as she was the voice of Lust from FMA and Cloud of Darkness from DFF, who had really mature voices, and Serah does NOT sound mature... Although, turns out it IS her. Crap. D: xD If you cant tell, I have developed an unhealthy obsession with changing eye colours, and am ashamed to admit its probably the only decentish effect in here, and its SO repetetive theres not much point.
Okay, it should be obvious, but... Heres a quickish backstory. Be warned, Im /slightly/ hungover from having a hangover yesterday, so I cant type too well.
YES. I get hungover FROM the hangover. Not my fault, it was my first time really drinking that much. And I was sharing a sofa bed all morning [didnt even think about sleeping until 5am, then woke up at 1Pm, soooo...] with an extremely figity pair of people and watched the Blair Witch Project so I was effing /terrified/...
Anyway. Story.
[Past]
At the age of 5, Sora was stolen from his hometown by an anti lCie group. Much to the shock of the people living there, he came by boat to a different world, the city of Cocoon, six years later. A girl named Serah took him in soon afterward, though he claimed to not remember anything between days before his disappearence and then. Serah and Sora were extremely close, until Sora disappeared again,when they were 13. He started travelling again with the shadowy group who had taken him in the first place, called the Organisation, who were obsessed with obtaining the power of a lCie, which was a rare and extremely versatile power only granted to a select few. He eventually came back, two years after disappearing, refusing to tell her what hed been doing, all over again.
Until she came out and told him.
While hed been missing, Serah had become a lCie for reasons even she didnt know. Sora acted strange around her when he found out, and his thoughts quickly changed from his love for her to his love for her power, and that alone. When it did, it consumed the caring, brave boy shed loved- utterly and completely.
One day, he finally decided to take her power for himself, and murdered her while half-disguised as one of the organisation. He gained all her power...
But, five years later, he found out he had gained an enemy. More than one.
Hope Estheim had been Serahs rock while she had been mourning over Soras disappearence. They had become lCie together, easily become friends. Hope had always wanted them to be more, but Serah was fixated on Sora- and, besides, he was never going to live up to Sora in her eyes, was he?
There were two others, who he had barely even glimpsed the faces of. The first was a blonde boy, dressed like he was from the organisation. And, the second?
Maybe, were he not so fixated on his lust for power and his ignorance about others, he might have remembered. He might have recognised her.
The girl his age, with the slight frame, aged weapon, pink tinted blonde hair.
The eyes hed gazed into so, so many times before he changed.
She went by Lightning, but had he not been so self-obsessed and arrogant, he might have noticed that he knew her by another name.
She would be the one to finish him, in the end. Lightning was sure of it.
x")
![Lost In The City Lights [333+]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/I0MZWgdnp8k/mqdefault.jpg "Lost In The City Lights [333+]
EDIT 18/01/10: Blimey, if Id known this would be more popular than most of my stuff I wouldnt have rushed the Xion/Noctis section at the end! D:
But, anyway, entered in Artistic Generation Studios cause I suck and couldnt come up with anything new. Uhm, fingers crossed, I guess. And if I get it (which I wont) Id want to bagsie Zero from Vampire Knight. But I wont so no worries. ;)
I tried to make you guys a decent tribute, and well...
I cant go as far to say I /hate/ this, but I only like some of it. The rest... well, meh.
The quality will be horrible, but my Vegas cant seem to save anything over half a minute at the moment without crashing during the rendering, so I had to render it in ten second parts and then all as one. Im sorry if some of the glow towards the end is too fierce; I was going blind as Vegas wouldnt show me any clips clearly.
I... dont know what to say. Im in shock, and Im in denial.
Because theres no way I have so many subscribers.
Its been about a year since I reached 50, and back then I was totally ecstatic about it.
I never thought Id hit 100, let alone way over 300. Im nearly at 350. ^^;;
I love you guys SO much.
And, if anyone had any kind of request they wanted me to do... Anything at all...
Id be honoured to do something for you guys.
Except not this month. xD
I know, I KNOW, it sounds horribly selfish and mean. But Im attempting NaNoWriMo this year, and already have three- no, four- no, wait five if you count the C.lack BBT Round II which is December 1st... deadlines in this month.
AND I SUCK AT WRITING ANYWAY.
I have a page.
A PAGE.
Some people have FINISHED 50,000 words already.
Gah.
Im sorry. So, um, yeah. If you have anything at all to request or an idea or anything, Im always open.
You just wont get it until next month. ^^;;
Basic story because Im lazy and should really be working on Malady (682 words and counting!) right now...
Cloud is a Nobody. He was never meant to exist, only coming into the world because a /real/ person lost their heart. However, theres one change for him in comparison to the other Nobodies.
His other half, the original him, is still alive, to some extent. The only thing stopping Noctis from living a full, normal life is Clouds existance.
Cloud knows this, and spends his days waiting for the moment where he can find his others resting place, finally become who hes supposed to be... Even when he meets Yuna, he doesnt sway from his ideals.
Yunas feelings for him grow, invoking Noctis heart, hidden inside him, and despite him being a Nobody and supposedly being unable to feel, he falls for her. [Soppy, I know. Im sorry D:]
When he finally comes across Noctis, its by accident, travelling the islands with Yuna. Even though he loves her, he resigns himself to fading away, so Noctis can live the life he deserves, and Yuna can have a man who she was meant to be with, who was meant to exist in the first place...
His last thoughts are of Yuna.
With Cloud gone and Noctis recovering under Namines care, Yuna is lost, unaware that a part of Cloud still carries on inside Noctis.
Namines healing goes wrong, because of Clouds feelings for Yuna messing Noctis up, and Noctis loses his mind a little, believing himself to be Cloud rather than vice versa (stealing from FFVII now, arent I?) and he joins the Organisation.
Yunas songstress career picks up suddenly, and the fame almost sweeps her away until she hears about Noctis. She gives up, much to the disappointment of her fans, seeing Cloud in Noctis, and thinks Cloud is still there.
Noctis real memories start returning, and upon seeing Yuna, lying on the floor after she fell under the pretense that Cloud was there to catch her, he gets angry, asks her who the hell she is.
She shakes her head, Cloud would have known. Her heart sinks, and Noctis attacks.
Yunas Nobody struggles with her past, and her faint feelings for a man like her, a Nobody shes never met, as her others heart fades away, lost in old memories of the man she will never see again...
[Well, Cloud is a Nobody, eh? So his heart wouldnt go to the same place as Yunas, because it was Noctis to begin with...]
At the very farmost end of this white world, where we shall never again be together.
And, yes, that be a Vampire Knight quote. :3")
![HELP MEEEEE! T-T [Struggling with Psychic]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/IBSRQl6YuvM/mqdefault.jpg "HELP MEEEEE! T-T [Struggling with Psychic]
Im silly and I need someone for Repliku to piss off. xDD
Because I indeed am VERY silly, Im also attempting two videos this time around... one of Riku emoing and getting experimented on a lot, and the other of his replica... well, thats kind of up to you.
I might take the manga bits out, theyre such bad quality... I couldnt find the last pages of Chain of Memories anywhere except a really bad quality scan... T-T And that was the only panel I desperately wanted to use.
Oh, and also- if youre in psychic, but youre a bit stuck and havent caught up yet... Im willing to help in any way whatsoever. Though itll probably involve Repliku and not Riku for a while.
Muahahahahaha, I SO have an idea for what to do with the real Riku now. Im not telling, though~!")
![STALK MEH. [And some psychic chewy betas to munch on].](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/JVGWoh6T2GQ/mqdefault.jpg "STALK MEH. [And some psychic chewy betas to munch on].
http://twitter.com/xEnglishRosie
...Because I have had it for months and have never been bothered to link it. If you follow me, I will love chuuuu.
As for the betas, blah.
Some (like Never Coming Home) seem inconsistent, because some of the editing is from later in the video but I had to move it or the beta would be TINY.
Anyway, I will probably update the description later.
IF YOU WANT THE SONGS, GOOGLE THE BLEEDING LYRICS.
I have to do it, and its just inconvenient when people ask constantly.")
![Turning Tables [Reapers Edit - Day 1]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/Jq30b-V2-1Y/mqdefault.jpg "Turning Tables [Reapers Edit - Day 1]
Collab with PriscyIchigo, for the first day of Reapers Edit. :3 Her part is the first 40 seconds, and mine for the remainder of it (43 seconds, maybe? I dont know. xD). The colour change is pretty noticible, at least.
Shes here- http://www.youtube.com/user/PriscyIchigo
For once, this actually went pretty smoothly. xD Ive been on a huge editing block, where I cant really seem to edit anything I consider worth putting up here anymore, which is really just great. I guess entering RE again should act as a kick up the arse, fingers crossed.
Edit: full story link here; http://englishrosie.tumblr.com/post/9673187576/it-wasnt-clear-how-long-it-had-been-since-cisna
I should have the story written out for this week properly soon, but for now, its TWEWY basics- while the new Game starts up, Cisna and Noctis end up as partners, when they manage to find each other or whatever and fight a Noise, supposedly sealing a pact. Things seem to be going alright, except for Noctis just generally being cold, until they try to talk about their entry fees.
While Cisna has lost her will to... er, get to the end of the game properly, find out the truth...? Sorry if I got the wrong end of the stick, there, Priscy Noct woke up with his all his emotions gone. He takes the huff about picking up someone who might hold him back from winning, and attempts to leave, but she attempts to shout after him, and Noise attack them while theyre not together.
They manage to beat them, and Noct gets out an apology or something for nearly abandoning his partner. Luckily, Cisna isnt too mad and they manage to carry on. Gah.
I dont even know.
xDDD")
![no way to reach me. [yuna/serah]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/K-DYyTIZCro/mqdefault.jpg "no way to reach me. [yuna/serah]
This is for Pokemon Leagues #burninglove event! Unlike icy regret, where we could do any NOTP of ours, for burning love we had to pick someone elses OTP to edit to. I wanted to do one of the crossover pairings on the list, so I went for Yuna/Serah in the end!
France also edited Yuna/Serah for this event, so check that out here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hJQP17YuWE0
Okay so I realised Im like. Stupidly bad at editing happy endings, lmao. This has a bittersweet ending and they love each other very much??? So its a start???
Plot-wise: Yuna is possessed by Etro during prayer. Her fiancee Serah and brother Noel find her spirit in the Farplane, and she tells them she cant pass on while Etro is possessing her body. Serah decides to destroy Etro, without leaving Noel with his sisters blood on his hands. She cant bear leaving Yuna all alone to pass on, so she joins her - and they enter the lifestream together, where theyll never be separated again.
This COULD have been a successor to the past lives video, but then I added Noel in and goofed that all up. Its a spiritual successor, I guess.")
![Beyond Human Aid [SRS]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/KbU6-BpsA4Q/mqdefault.jpg "Beyond Human Aid [SRS]
I did videos for both characters at once! 8D
There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.
Riku:
It was my fault, I knew that.
Sora tried to tell me, but I wouldnt listen. I was just so overwhelmed by all the power, I refused to acknowledge that it was eating away at my heart. I was cocky, I was ignorant, and I shut him away over and over.
I destroyed my home, just to escape. It was like a prison to me, and I was, at first, honestly just naively trying to get to other worlds. Just to have some time away from those damned islands. I was so sick of them, I didnt care when they were destroyed.
I stopped caring about what the other worlds were like, too obsessed with the darkness and all the power it held for me. I didnt want freedom, just wanted power. Even when Sora desperately tried to stop me, I sent him away, beliveing he was weak and stupid. And yet, all along, I was the stupid one. The weak one.
My heart turned on me, and the darkness was making me steadily more and more unstable. I couldnt control it, so I let it control me instead.
Even when she came, when she offered to help... I was stupid enough to think it all would just stop, and be the way it used to be. Of course it couldnt- Id ruined it all beyond repair, and I wasnt just going to reverse it, no problem.
Im struggling, but I think...
Im getting a little better at controlling it.
But I still cant trust myself.
Snow:
I was like a brother to her. Sure, I wanted to be more, but it was never gonna happen. For one thing, Light would have killed me with her bare hands, had anything happened to Serah.
I wanted to protect her, of course I did. That was always at the root of my behaviour. she became a lCie, and there was nothing I could do to save her. I offered to help, but I think we all knew that I wouldnt be any use.
I want my life back. I want it all back how it used to be.
Sure, Im blunt about it.
But I want it more than anything, and Im going to fight for it.
That kid, the darkling Namine picked up? I dont think he likes me, hell, I think he probably doesnt even have feelings anymore, hes that far gone. But Im never going to end up like him.
You can fight dirty, even if youre light and not dark.
- x - x - x - x - x -
Uhm, yeahhhh...
Why did I pick Snow? I HATE Snow. xDDD
I just couldnt think of any other character who I wouldnt picture in a relationship with Riku and taint the whole thing. Other than Wakka, but I was NOT using WAKKA.")
