Elko
Elko - Im falling apart fast feels like Im flying [LYRIC VIDEO]
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This song explains coming to terms that I might have to deal with these issues i’m facing right now for the rest of my life, trying to make peace with that. all the while feeling so torn that it has to be this way.
-lyrics-
There’s something else above me
I got walls and got ceilings
There’s no one else that loves me
I got issues to deal with
My head thinks way too much now
Run this shit to the ground
Burn myself in this town
No one has a say now
Oh no one has a say
I cannot take the pain out
It will not go away
Oh something else I know now
That you would never change
And nothings been the same
I put the on your grave
I put that on your grave
But I did
I might do something that I regret no
Gotta get this weight off my chest yeah
Don’t come asking me if i’m depressed no
You never helped oh it’s me i’m against yeah
Y’all hate me can’t stand a black sheep
Out casted the world fucking hates me
All these thoughts no wonder I can’t see
All this weed no wonder I won’t think
This isn’t love it’s lucky
We’re just too fucking lonely
There’s no one else that loves me
I’ve got too many feelings
There’s nothing else you know now
Fucked up but don’t know how
If I cry kick me out
No one has a say now
Oh no one has a say
I cannot take the pain out
It will not go away
And something else i know now
We were never the same
And you could never change
I put that on your grave
I put that on your grave
Yeah
You go psycho cos i’m not the same me anymore
Why are you so close that’s not my problem that be yours
Nobody texts me cos they expect me too
Your bullshit gon come back and stick to you
That shit follows through
That shit falls through
See me online but don’t hit me up yeah
I’m a reckless kid who can’t listen up yeah
Maybe it’s these drugs that made me so loveless
I don’t bother you so why you bothering me
Yeah not really that deep if you don’t look closely yeah
Let these problems bother me cos i’m so lonely huh
Quarantine inside my head and you don’t know me yeah
Let these drugs kill me dead and know no one will see yeah
This song explains the process of misunderstanding who’s to blame. I was very stuck in looking for someone to blame in these times not realizing that accountability had to be taken on both sides.
-lyrics-
Everything up in my head is spinning
I can’t seem to figure it out
Life’s a mess can’t tell who’s winning
An unhealthy dose of self doubt
Life sucks when your mom’s not smiling
Wish she would just figure it out
Dad thinks i’m the reason she’s upset
Can you hear yourself though now
Hear yourself hear how you sound
Wish you knew but it’s just a cover up
Lord knows that he needs some self love
You see right through me and my bullshit
At least that’s what you think it is
So I tune out you don’t make sense
How is it my fault it can’t be my fault
You see right through me and my bullshit
At least that’s what you think it is
So I tune out you don’t make sense
How is it my fault it can’t be my fault
So many layers to my soul
I’m not surprised you don’t get me at all no
Maybe i’m too complicated or you don’t wanna Know me and you hate it
So you don’t say shit
And ignore me
But i’m unfazed
How boring
See my life is
Like a movie
I’m not watching
Cos i’m destroying
You see right through me and my bullshit
At least that’s what you think it is
So I tune out you don’t make sense
How is it my fault it can’t be my fault
You see right through me and my bullshit
At least that’s what you think it is
So I tune out you don’t make sense
How is it my fault it can’t be my fault
(yeah that just felt good to say.)
(okay um, hold on I still have more in me um)
Nicotina I can’t leave her no not at all
All these cigarettes been stuck to my lips
Fingers burning and my stomach hurts so much
I could quit but for some reason I love it
Mama wouldn’t like to see it give her a call
She thinks she fucked up and can’t forgive herself
She’s the purest soul I wish her nothing but love
But sometimes my dad gets in her head
In her head
And sometimes I am too
In her head she don’t know what to do
In her head she think she’s done me wrong
But in my head i’ve gotta stay so strong
Why is it always my foot forward
Why is he so stuck up annoying
Don’t get it and you don’t get me either
There’s differences I think I see clearer
You see right through me and my bullshit
At least that’s what you think it is
So I tune out you don’t make sense
How is it my fault it can’t be my fault
You see right through me and my bullshit
At least that’s what you think it is
So I tune out you don’t make sense
How is it my fault it can’t be my fault
This song talks about what constantly fighting between each other can so to you mentally.
-lyrics-
Why do we have to fight so much
Sick of us
I don’t wanna be beaten up
Split my trust
And I know that I did that too
Hurting you
But you say things that aren’t true
About me and you
Always seen the worst in me the worst
Never chasing love too scared of hurt
Just wanted to tell you wanna know what to do
When my heart is hurting I feel so imperfect
Lately I can’t let anyone inside
Whenever I try
They fuck up my life so I started to hide
Hide from myself
Life’s living hell
Not doing well
From what you can tell
You can tell you can tell we have tensions
We can tell we can tell you’re speaking nonsense
Wish you knew wish you knew just how you make sense
That thought process take another moment
Why do we have to fight so much
Sick of us
I don’t wanna be beaten up
Split my trust
And I know that I did that too
Hurting you
But you say things that aren’t true
About me and you
Why do we have to fight so much
You keep on acting so typical
Not again
I don’t wanna let it go
Baby don’t you understand
The devils calling again
He said that we’re not gonna work out
Okay i’m in way over my head
Now you don’t know what to say you haven’t already said
You can tell you can tell we have tensions
We can tell we can tell you’re speaking nonsense
Wish you knew wish you knew just how you make sense
That thought process take another moment
Why do we have to fight so much
Sick of us
I don’t wanna be beaten up
Split my trust
And I know that I did that too
Hurting you
But you say things that aren’t true
About me and you
Why do we have to fight so much
Sick of us
I don’t wanna be beaten up
Split my trust
And I know that I did that too
Hurting you
But you say things that aren’t true
About me and you
Why do we have to fight so much
Why do we have to give it up
Sick of us
Fuck your trust
You fucked it up
This song explains the struggles of unlearning things you were taught as a child, having to relearn new habits and how that can be incredibly frustrating and existential because you don’t really understand what’s wrong and isn’t anymore.
-lyrics-
Always see you when I close my eyes
You’ve been breaking my mind for a lifetime
If I stay i might cut off my
Life line
Cos no one gets help at the right time
Know there’s evil sometimes it might get worse
But that’s just me trying not to get hurt
Never see you when i’m out with her
I’ve been thinking that’s for the better
You’ve been breaking my mind for a lifetime
Now i’ve gotta sift through all of your lies
You don’t even know what on my mind
Too many thoughts to hear you out
You’ve been breaking my mind for a lifetime
Now i’ve gotta sift through all of your lies
You don’t even know what on my mind
Too many thoughts to hear you out
Stuck in my ways
Nothing to think
Leaving my brains
All on the sink
Dancing for fun
And crying right after
Oh i’m feeling like
A fucking disaster
You’ve been breaking my mind for a lifetime
Now i’ve gotta sift through all of your lies
You don’t even know what on my mind
Too many thoughts to hear you out
You’ve been breaking my mind for a lifetime
Now i’ve gotta sift through all of your lies
You don’t even know what on my mind
Too many thoughts to hear you out
Hear you out
Hear you out
This song was created when I had a dream that I saw my sister after been away for several years but due to family issues, in the dream she couldn’t hear me and I couldn’t break through. I woke up feeling so alone I needed to express it somehow.
-lyrics-
Every time I try to talk to you I choke
Things got kinda awkward don’t know if I should call
Wishing we could see past our differences
I’m giving you love because we’re all healing
I wish I could save my own life
Helping everyone but can’t take my own advice
I know some days when you feel it in your heart
But don’t let that crush your soul
You were in my dreams last night
Tried to talk to you but you can’t hear me
In my feels tonight
I just woke up but you’re not near me
Why do we ever fight
At least these memories will keep me safe
My heads all over the place
You were you were you were in my dreams last night
And I can’t even sleep at night
How the fuck you do all that shit to me i’m not feeling right
Past you been healing I
Tried to get you near my side
But baby you were you were you were never truly mine
Let’s talk about it
Waited on love but never found it
Makes sense that you wouldn’t even count it
Chasing a dream that’s stuck in fountains
Wake up hope I forget about it
You were in my dreams last night
Tried to talk to you but you can’t hear me
In my feels tonight
I just woke up but you’re not near me
why do we ever fight
At least these memories will keep me safe
My heads all over the place
You were you were you were in my dreams last night
You were in my dreams last night again
You walk past by
Without wincing an eye
Baby I saw you there again
I saw you there
Again
Again
Lovesong is the outro to the album because this album came from a dark place and feels like a good close to remind those people that no matter what we do say or feel, we’ll always love each other ❤️
-lyrics-
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
Said that I’ll always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
Said that I’ll always love you
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
Said that I’ll always love you


