Flower Facei put together this video so that you can watch me be a neurotic mess on my computer while you listen to my song!
thank you to: ✿ alan mckinnon (my dad) for the background photo, which he took of our garden ✿ gerry kaiser for the photo at 2:50 ✿ all of you, for listening to this song and being so hype about it that you inspired me to make a video!! stay safe and stay healthy.
full lyrics:
the lights are always on in the streets so i never sleep my dreams have turned to plastic and they rattle in my head and now there’s concrete in the yard where the sunflowers used to be i thought i heard your voice but it was only the tv
i think i’ll waste away here i think i’ll waste away if the world hasn’t killed me yet, well, it’s just a matter of days the poison ate our lungs up and there’s not much we can do if i could, i would get on a spaceship and spend my last days on the moon
they said they’re building us a garden so when the birds and trees are all gone we’ll live where the sky is golden bathe in artificial oceans
but if they couldn’t tap the marrow every river, every sparrow laying dead inside their cages without their songs they have been wasted
but they say someday we’ll find the answer we’ll be climbing up that ladder while they burn up in the atmosphere, we’ll be okay cause we’ll all live in the garden
i want to build a wall around you and say that i’m the one who found you but despite all of my virtues i know that i’m the one who hurts you
well don’t you know they lied, dear? there is no better place to find here they packed up their things and left you and i don’t think i can protect you
i think that i have found the answer yeah, i’m climbing up that ladder and i’m taking my friends with me, we’ll be okay cause we’ll all live in the garden bury me in the garden
Flower Face - The Garden (Official Lyric Video)Flower Face2020-04-13 | i put together this video so that you can watch me be a neurotic mess on my computer while you listen to my song!
thank you to: ✿ alan mckinnon (my dad) for the background photo, which he took of our garden ✿ gerry kaiser for the photo at 2:50 ✿ all of you, for listening to this song and being so hype about it that you inspired me to make a video!! stay safe and stay healthy.
full lyrics:
the lights are always on in the streets so i never sleep my dreams have turned to plastic and they rattle in my head and now there’s concrete in the yard where the sunflowers used to be i thought i heard your voice but it was only the tv
i think i’ll waste away here i think i’ll waste away if the world hasn’t killed me yet, well, it’s just a matter of days the poison ate our lungs up and there’s not much we can do if i could, i would get on a spaceship and spend my last days on the moon
they said they’re building us a garden so when the birds and trees are all gone we’ll live where the sky is golden bathe in artificial oceans
but if they couldn’t tap the marrow every river, every sparrow laying dead inside their cages without their songs they have been wasted
but they say someday we’ll find the answer we’ll be climbing up that ladder while they burn up in the atmosphere, we’ll be okay cause we’ll all live in the garden
i want to build a wall around you and say that i’m the one who found you but despite all of my virtues i know that i’m the one who hurts you
well don’t you know they lied, dear? there is no better place to find here they packed up their things and left you and i don’t think i can protect you
i think that i have found the answer yeah, i’m climbing up that ladder and i’m taking my friends with me, we’ll be okay cause we’ll all live in the garden bury me in the gardenFlower Face Loveline - Episode 3Flower Face2024-10-01 | I'm joined by Marcus Paquin, my friend and the producer of my upcoming record Girl Prometheus, for the third episode of the Flower Face Loveline. We do our best to answer your questions about going through your first heartbreak, sharing your art with the world, getting married, letting go of your past self, and more! Keep calling and emailing to be featured in a future episode - +1-438-944-2889 / loveline@flowerface.com
** please forgive some issues with the audio in this one :)Flower Face - If I Beg You (Official Music Video)Flower Face2024-09-20 | Stream If I Beg You: flowerface.ffm.to/ifibegyou
Song written and performed by Flower Face. Produced by Marcus Paquin. Mastered by João Carvalho.
Video produced by Boy Wonder. Directed by Boy Wonder and Ruby Mckinnon. Edited by Ruby Mckinnon. Starring Gabrielle Drolet, Jane Mariotti, Kyra Kavanagh, Miranda Pecoraro, and Summer Brighton. 1st AC: Adam Stewart Swing: Jeff King Production Assistant: Ryan Brough Location Manager: Jeff King Shot on 16mm film, developed and scanned by Mel’s.
This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters.IF I BEG YOU is out friday. pre-save now: http://flowerface.ffm.to/ifibegyou 🤍Flower Face2024-09-16 | ...💍🤍Flower Face2024-09-09 | ...Flower Face - Maniac (Official Music Video)Flower Face2024-08-09 | Stream Maniac: flowerface.ffm.to/maniac
Song written and performed by Flower Face. Produced by Marcus Paquin. Mastered by João Carvalho.
Video produced by Boy Wonder. Directed by Boy Wonder and Ruby Mckinnon. Edited by Ruby Mckinnon and Ryan Faist. 1st AC: Adam Stewart Swing: Jeff King Production Assistant: Ryan Brough Location Manager: Jeff King Shot on 16mm film, developed and scanned by Mel’s.
This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters.MANIAC out aug 9 ❤️🔥 presave to join listening party on aug 7 at 6pm EST: flowerface.ffm.to/maniacFlower Face2024-08-01 | ...skeleton key 💙 behind the scenesFlower Face2024-07-02 | ...Flower Face - Skeleton Key (Official Music Video)Flower Face2024-06-27 | Stream Skeleton Key: flowerface.ffm.to/skeletonkey
Song written and performed by Flower Face. Produced by Marcus Paquin. Mastered by João Carvalho.
Video produced by Boy Wonder. Directed by Boy Wonder and Ruby Mckinnon. Edited by Ruby Mckinnon and Ryan Faist. 1st AC: Adam Stewart Swing: Jeff King Production Assistant: Ryan Brough Location Manager: Jeff King Shot on 16mm film, developed and scanned by Mel’s.
This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters.guess the next lyric 🖤 if you get it right i’ll appear in your kitchen and make you a skeleton keyFlower Face2024-06-23 | ...here’s a lil preview of my upcoming song skeleton key, and a recipe for the drink it’s named after🤍Flower Face2024-06-21 | ...pre-save skeleton key 💜 https://flowerface.ffm.to/skeletonkeyFlower Face2024-06-19 | ...Flower Face Loveline - Episode 2Flower Face2024-06-03 | SPOTIFY: open.spotify.com/episode/1hVoDEEl9oOcwJzDCjFi6k?si=277ff7561639484e
I'm joined by my dear friend Matteo (who also happens to be one of my favourite artists, releasing music under the name Allan Hill). We yapped for way too long about flirting, religion, dealing with emotionally unavailable people, kissing your friends, the torture of true love, and more.
Call +1-438-944-2889 or email loveline@flowerface.com to be featured on a future episode of the Flower Face Loveline.Flower Face - Valentine (Official Video)Flower Face2024-05-17 | Stream Valentine: flowerface.ffm.to/valentine
Song written and performed by Flower Face. Produced by Marcus Paquin. Mastered by João Carvalho.
Video produced by Boy Wonder. Directed by Boy Wonder and Ruby Mckinnon. Edited by Ruby Mckinnon and Ryan Faist. 1st AC: Adam Stewart Swing: Jeff King Production Assistant: Ryan Brough Location Manager: Jeff King Shot on 16mm film, developed and scanned by Mel’s.
For the first episode of the Loveline series, I'm joined by two of my best friends, Gabrielle Drolet and Kyra Kavanagh, to answer your questions about growing up, five year situationships, starting an artistic career in the world of AI, why you shouldn't be friends with your ex, and more.
Call +1-438-944-2889 or email loveline@flowerface.com to be featured on a future episode of the Flower Face Loveline.valentine comes out may 17th 💙 presave: http://flowerface.ffm.to/valentineFlower Face2024-05-06 | ...coming soonFlower Face2024-05-04 | ...Flower Face Loveline - TeaserFlower Face2024-04-11 | dear flower face…
are you unlucky in love? friendship? life? can’t seem to get it right? do you need advice, encouragement, wisdom? are you troubled by strange dreams, haunted by ghosts of past lovers? i’m here to help! call 1-438-944-2889 or email loveline@flowerface.com and tell me what's on your mind. i’ll do my best to solve your problems and patch up your broken hearts on the new flower face loveline series. i’ll be joined by special guests on each episode to assist with my semidivine intervention. text emails are accepted but voicemails will be given priority. please be respectful and kind!behind the scenes of cat’s cradle ❤️🐱🪢Flower Face2024-04-10 | ...thank you everyone who joined us at the cat’s cradle premiere on thursday 🤩Flower Face2024-04-09 | ...Flower Face - Cats Cradle (Official Music Video)Flower Face2024-04-05 | Stream Cat's Cradle: flowerface.ffm.to/catscradle
Song written and performed by Flower Face. Produced by Marcus Paquin. Mastered by João Carvalho.
Video produced by Boy Wonder. Directed by Boy Wonder and Ruby Mckinnon. Edited by Ruby Mckinnon and Ryan Faist. 1st AC: Adam Stewart Swing: Jeff King Production Assistant: Ryan Brough Location Manager: Jeff King Starring Samuel Wise. Shot on 16mm film, developed and scanned by Mel’s.
Special thanks to Laura Cappe, Francis Loubert and Jane Mariotti.
This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters.cat’s cradle out next friday 🤍 presave: http://flowerface.ffm.to/catscradleFlower Face2024-03-27 | http://flowerface.ffm.to/catscradlecoming soonFlower Face2024-03-23 | ...Flower Face - You Oughta Know (Official Audio)Flower Face2023-07-07 | Written by Alanis Morissette. Recorded and produced by Ruby Mckinnon.
Broken Glass is the new compilation in support of reproductive rights from @nettwerkmusic's Goodwerks in partnership with @keepourclinics. A portion of the proceeds will be donated to the Keep Our Clinics campaign, the @abortioncarenetwork’s latest effort to protect access to care and support independent clinics across the country. Visit KeepOurClinics.org to learn more & donate.Flower Face - Maybe / Sugar Water (Live)Flower Face2023-06-16 | Shot by NXT LVL Media at The Drake Underground in Toronto, ON.
This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters. I would like to acknowledge funding support from the Ontario Arts Council, an agency of the Government of Ontario.Flower Face - Cornflower Blue (Live)Flower Face2023-06-14 | Shot by NXT LVL Media at The Drake Underground in Toronto, ON.
This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters. I would like to acknowledge funding support from the Ontario Arts Council, an agency of the Government of Ontario.Flower Face - Spiracle (Live)Flower Face2023-06-12 | Shot by NXT LVL Media at The Drake Underground in Toronto, ON.
This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters. I would like to acknowledge funding support from the Ontario Arts Council, an agency of the Government of Ontario.Flower Face - Bad Astrology (Live)Flower Face2023-06-01 | Shot by NXT LVL Media at The Drake Underground in Toronto, ON.
This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters. I would like to acknowledge funding support from the Ontario Arts Council, an agency of the Government of Ontario.Flower Face - Back to You (Live)Flower Face2023-05-31 | Shot by NXT LVL Media at The Drake Underground in Toronto, ON.
This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters. I would like to acknowledge funding support from the Ontario Arts Council, an agency of the Government of Ontario.Flower Face - October Birds (Live)Flower Face2023-05-27 | Shot by NXT LVL Media at The Drake Underground in Toronto, ON.
This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters. I would like to acknowledge funding support from the Ontario Arts Council, an agency of the Government of Ontario.Flower Face - O Holy Night (Lyric Video)Flower Face2022-12-06 | STREAM: http://flowerface.ffm.to/oholynight
Produced and mixed by Ruby Mckinnon. Mastered by João Carvalho.
Don’t fight back, don’t look at me like that Don’t forget I’ll never quite forgive you But I’ll pretend to
Don’t fight fair, and don’t you cut your hair Don’t you make the same mistakes your father did You are not him
It’s always back to you again, always back to you, my friend You keep me on the run I never learned to lose a fight, I never learned to grow up right This is who we are How will I release you now? How can I forgive myself When I’m still in love with you? And it’s always back to you again, always back to you, my friend You keep me on the run
Well baby, you’re so famous but you sold out your soul You went and let it all go on a melody Some kind of tragedy
So quit your job, come sleep in my bed We’ll get by on our roses and our elegies Things we could never see
It’s always back to you again, always back to you, my friend You keep me on the run I never learned to lose a fight, I never learned to grow up right This is who we are How will I release you now? How can I forgive myself When I’m still in love with you? And it’s always back to you again, always back to you, my friend You keep me on the run
It’s always back to you again, always back to you, my friend Now look at what we’ve doneFlower Face - Pisces Moon (Alternate Version)Flower Face2022-10-07 | STREAM: flowerface.ffm.to/piscesmoon-alt
Directed and edited by Ruby Mckinnon. Starring Dalton Mugridge. Director of Photography: Garett McKelvie Grip: Elliott Hale Grip: Reese Martell-Davis Lighting concept by Mathew Pimental.
This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters.Flower Face - Bad Astrology (Official Audio)Flower Face2022-05-27 | Stream 'The Shark in Your Water': flowerface.ffm.to/thesharkinyourwater ----------- LYRICS I wish I could sing louder, I wish I didn’t hate myself so much Now my body’s out of touch again It doesn’t get me any closer just to hold you in my mind anymore when I lock the door, well ha ha ha I don’t want to be comfortable, I want to get hurt And I hate that I know that and I hate that it feels good At least you felt something when you slammed the door They used to hear us through the floor but they don’t anymore So you drop all your friends and you quit your job And you immolate everything you love Haven’t had a thought in that rotten little head Since you figured out how to get high instead And killing yourself, that’s a nice idea Yeah, until you get to the blood and tears You wrote ten notes but they don’t sound right So you decide to give it up for tonight All my friends say that we’ve got bad astrology I don’t care if you’re not made for me
Come to me, baby, just for a second Your body can cure my manic depression Trapped like an animal, Palisade honeymoon I’ll only see what you want me to see
Do I need to put the flowers in a vase? Do I need to keep my body in a cage?
(baby, take it easy, nobody’s crying for you)
Do I need to chase you out into the street? Do I need to hold your arms down while you sleep?
(baby, take it easy, nobody’s dying for you)Flower Face - Paper Doll (Official Audio)Flower Face2022-05-27 | Stream 'The Shark in Your Water': flowerface.ffm.to/thesharkinyourwater ----------- LYRICS Keep me away from what’s left Of all the softness you had I’m a knife always searching for that one tender place I’m a violent paper doll you always misplace In the shadow of your terrifying grace Laying awake until morning Counting the cracks in the wall I’m an empty kaleidoscope, dizzy and grey I’m a light in your telescope, spinning in place I’d burn alive just for the soft light on your face All my days I wait for something more You touch me like you’re learning how to lose me Locking the doors from inside We learned all our sadness from watching tv All the flowers are digital on the cemetery screen I ran every red light just to see If your grave still had room for me All my days I wait for something more I love you like I love being hungry It feels good to want things I’ll go empty and fall til I run out of rope I swallowed my fear in the letters I wrote Saying I’ll sleep in your clothes til you come homeFlower Face - Isobel (Official Audio)Flower Face2022-05-27 | Stream 'The Shark in Your Water': flowerface.ffm.to/thesharkinyourwater ----------- LYRICS You’ll never learn to lie say your French goodbye Stay up in the blue glow, try to rearrange All your insecurity and encyclopaedic rage Do you still think you’re a killer, Or that you could be if you tried? Always thought that you could do it if you couldn’t see their eyes Do you still wake up reaching for an empty space? Do you start to miss your sadness when it goes away? Do you wish your parents gave you someone else’s name? Do you scratch another line out for the same mistakes? You used to hold your body like a gun Now you give yourself to anyone Are you right back where you started, Or have you found another way? Sugar rush, a stranger’s backyard, the devil’s holiday You watch yourself in fragments, amongst the leaves, And you conclude that you never were much more Than a reflection in a pool Do you still wake up reaching for an empty space? Do you start to miss your sadness when it goes away? Do you wish your parents gave you someone else’s name? Do you scratch another line out for the same mistakes? Do you still wake up wrapped around an empty space? Do you only know the good days once they’ve slipped away? Do you wish that he would call you by another name? Do you pour another drink out for the same mistakes? (and I will never know you now)Flower Face - Maybe (Official Audio)Flower Face2022-05-27 | Stream 'The Shark in Your Water': flowerface.ffm.to/thesharkinyourwater ----------- LYRICS You cut so deep but I’ve always loved you deeper Those voices in your hallway, if you let her in, You’ve gotta keep her who’ve you been talking to? What do they want you to do? Baby, I’m afraid you’ve been reckless with my heart While i was sleeping you slipped in and burst apart God knows i love you so, but i won’t be your ghost You’re the one who’s in my body ripping at the seams You’re the one who’s crashing on the highways In my dreams maybe i won’t, maybe i will I haven’t slept so easy since you left me in the wild I wish i could have loved you right but i was just a child maybe I won’t, maybe I will Run back to you There’s something dark inside me and i can’t get it out Your thoughts ring in my voice now and i can’t make a sound You loved me holy with your cross and your disease Did you feel that close to god when you had me on my knees? If you don’t love me now, well then we all go down I’m your sweetest parasite, you fill me up with pesticide bleed me Baby, gemini, hurt me til you feel all right and i won’t, no, i won’t You got into my head and now i’ll never be the same My trigger finger twitches every time i hear your name And maybe I won’t, maybe I will Run back to youFlower Face - Spiracle (Official Music Video)Flower Face2022-05-27 | The Shark in Your Water is out now. Stream the album here: flowerface.ffm.to/thesharkinyourwater
Video created by Ruby Mckinnon.
Special thanks to Zeny Mateo, Alan Mckinnon, Marlon Mckinnon, Ariana Gagnon, Miranda Oxendine, and Miranda Pecoraro.
"Spiracle" recorded at Dream House Studios in Toronto, ON Written by Ruby Mckinnon Engineer: Calvin Hartwick Produced by Ruby Mckinnon, Josh Kaiser, Alex Bonenfant and Jay Merrow Mixed by Alex Bonenfant Mastered by João Carvalho
----------- LYRICS I want the parts of you that you only show to the corner of your bathroom mirror I want the parts of your hand grenade heart that beat slowly with anger and fear I want the parts of you that you only show to the birds outside your bedroom window I want the teeth that you lost as a child that you hide in a box under your pillow
I want your quiet, your screaming and thrashing The salt on your lips and the hands that god gave you I want your violence, your silent sedation Your moon eyes, your telescope, morbid fixation I want your pyro, your born-again virgin Your hands on my insides, your fingertips crawling in I want your Jesus, your suicide mission Your lips on the microphone, soft disposition I want your parties, the shark in your water The scrapes on your knees and the blood that spills over I want your zeroes, your polluted marrow The sweat on your palms and the surveillance shadow I want your secrets, your clementine fields The ropes that you climb up, the parts that don’t heal I want your safe word, your passive resistance The sickness you foster, your favourite addictions I want your nightmares, the ghost in your doorway Your paralyzed sleep and your ... I want you butterfly, I want you sailor I am your lover and I am your jailorFlower Face - October Birds (Official Lyric Video)Flower Face2022-04-15 | Stream October Birds: flowerface.ffm.to/octoberbirds
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Video by Ruby Mckinnon "October Birds" recorded at Dream House Studios in Toronto, ON Written by Ruby Mckinnon Guest vocals by Jane Mariotti Engineer: Calvin Hartwick Produced by Ruby Mckinnon, Josh Kaiser, Alex Bonenfant and Jay Merrow Mixed by Josh Kaiser Mastered by João Carvalho
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LYRICS Where’d the October birds go? I used to watch them from the window When I had eyes to see When I was more like me
Where did your rosy face go? When did your cheeks get so hollow? Just a reflection of me Did I hurt you so badly?
I want to be good but the moment I see That runaway bride on the train headed east I want to be like her, I want to be free She lifts her dress and runs into the street
But I’ve never seen a staircase without dreaming of falling
I’m the flinch in your cheek, I’m the shake in your hand And I’ve laid here before and I’ll lay here again I haven’t seen war but I’ve tasted the sand I’ve died five hundred times with your flag in my hand
And I’ve never seen a river without dreaming of jumping
Call me lucky and spoiled, I’m selfish and awful I wake and I want more, I go to sleep needing you Over and over, I take what you give me No man is an island, I’m the girl on your shoreline Washed up and heaving, pathetically breathing I cling to your sleeves and I stop you from leaving October birds singing and wedding bells ringing Tied to the altar, I’ll keep you forever Don’t let me down easy, you’re in me too deeplyFlower Face - Pisces Moon (Official Video)Flower Face2022-03-04 | Stream Pisces Moon: flowerface.ffm.to/piscesmoon ----------- Directed and Edited by Mathew Pimental Conceptualized and Produced by Ruby Mckinnon Assistant Producer: Ariona Kalaj Key Grips: Garett McKelvie and Elliott Hale ----------- Cast: Dalton Mugridge, Marlon Mckinnon, Joshua Kaiser, Amanda Barbosa, Mitchell Staffen, Allesandro Rotondi, Matty Morand, Noah Renaud, Kai Dutton, Aidan Dutton, Olivia Seal, Stefanie Adams, Julia Mammarella, Ashley Spina, Caitlin Miller, Talysha Bujold-Abu, Shayla Hudson, Tim Maitland, Jaleah Taylor, Allysa Batin, Colin Sutton, Dan MacDonald, Josh Lowe, Payton Laforet, Makayla Ashenden, Jack Meadows ----------- Filmed at the Capitol Theatre in Windsor, ON Very special thanks to the Capitol Theatre staff (Julia Galli, Tom Savage, Gayle Allen, Zak Dunn), Shayla Hudson, Laura Cappe, Alison Mckinnon, Jasmine Clarke (Hairstyling), Green Bean Cafe (Catering), and J&J Tailoring ----------- "Pisces Moon" recorded at Dream House Studios in Toronto, ON Written by Ruby Mckinnon Engineer: Calvin Hartwick Produced by Ruby Mckinnon, Josh Kaiser, Alex Bonenfant and Jay Merrow Mastered by João Carvalho ----------- LYRICS I survive on a second chance I feel your love secondhand It's someone else's flowers on the table But I don't mind I'm crawling through your window, babe I’m falling at your feet again Right before you run out the door I’m calling your name
I'm trying to be less volatile and I’m finding new ways to get high But I do it again every time I can't walk away with my pride I'm always running after that train I’m always running after that boy After he leaves me at the station again Cause I know it's in his heart to be good I know it's in your heart to be good
He was born with the Pisces moon Dim light and honeydew I know that he'll never love me But I can't let it go
He's walking through my dreams again In the palm of someone else's hand His dark eyes still watching me spinning Through the chemical glow
I'm always staring at my phone I’m always trying to get you alone My wires crossed along the way Now I’m standing here with nothing to say Fell in love with the Pisces moon Now i’ll follow you wherever you go Til you leave me at the altar some day Well I think that I’d love you anyway Yeah I know that I’d love you anyway ----------- This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters. I would like to acknowledge funding support from the Ontario Arts Council, an agency of the Government of Ontario.Flower Face - Sugar WaterFlower Face2022-01-21 | Stream Sugar Water: flowerface.ffm.to/sugarwater ----------- Directed, Produced and Edited by Ruby Mckinnon Director of Photography: Garett McKelvie Key Grip: Elliott Hale Gaffer: Tim Den Otter Special thanks to Julia Mammarella, Jeremy Coulter, and Josh Kaiser. ----------- "Sugar Water" recorded at Dream House Studios in Toronto, ON Written by Ruby Mckinnon Engineer: Calvin Hartwick Produced by Ruby Mckinnon, Josh Kaiser, Alex Bonenfant and Jay Merrow Mastered by João Carvalho ----------- LYRICS My boy plays a game with my heart on the flatline He likes to keep me halfway out You know girls like me we’ve got a slow pulse Hit the trip switch baby I’m all right My boy’s got a sharp twist no he’s wicked in the heart Feeds me sugar water just to keep me alive Saw him in my dreams again He’s wiping down the fingerprints Press so hard I float up to the sky Hanging round like a puppy til you let me in Coming home with a black eye begging for you You like to treat me like a child, but that’s all right I kinda like it when you talk the way you do It’s kind of tripping me up, babe I’ve got it bad for you Laying back sipping sugar water I’m so weak for the things you do Drop to the floor every time I hear your voice Seeing stars on the borderline Sinking through the floor ----------- This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters. I would like to acknowledge funding support from the Ontario Arts Council, an agency of the Government of Ontario.Flower Face - Back to You (Official Lyric Video)Flower Face2021-12-10 | Stream Back to You: http://smarturl.it/ffbacktoyou
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Video by Ruby Mckinnon "Back to You" recorded at Dream House Studios in Toronto, ON Written by Ruby Mckinnon Guest vocals by Jane Mariotti Engineer: Calvin Hartwick Produced by Ruby Mckinnon, Josh Kaiser, Alex Bonenfant and Jay Merrow Mixed by Josh Kaiser Mastered by João Carvalho
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LYRICS Don't fight back, don't look at me like that Don't forget I'll never quite forgive you But I'll pretend to Don't fight fair, and don't you cut your hair Don't you make the same mistakes your father did You are not him
Well, it's always back to you again Always back to you, my friend You keep me on the run Never learned to lose a fight Never learned to grow up right This is who we are How will I release you now? How can I forgive myself when I'm still in love with you? And it's always back to you again Always back to you, my friend You keep me on the run
Baby, you're so famous but you sold out your soul You went and let it all go on a melody Some kind of tragedy So quit your job, come sleep in my bed We'll get by on our roses and our elegies Things we could never see
Well, it's always back to you again Always back to you, my friend You keep me on the run Never learned to lose a fight Never learned to grow up right This is who we are How will I release you now? How can I forgive myself when I'm still in love with you? And it's always back to you again Always back to you, my friend You keep me on the run And it's always back to you again Always back to you, my friend Now look at what we've done
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This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters. I would like to acknowledge funding support from the Ontario Arts Council, an agency of the Government of Ontario.Cornflower Blue - Behind the ScenesFlower Face2021-11-19 | thank you everyone for giving this song + video so much love! here is a lil look at our time creating it.
with mathew pimental, ariona kalaj, rachel andes, and eric blovits
www.flowerface.comFlower Face - Cornflower Blue (Official Video)Flower Face2021-10-29 | Stream Cornflower Blue: https://smarturl.it/cornflowerblue
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Directed & Edited by Mathew Pimental Conceptualized by Ruby Mckinnon and Mathew Pimental Produced by Ruby Mckinnon and Ariona Kalaj Starring Rachel Andes and Eric Blovits
Special thanks to Arion Kalaj, Kelly Pasik, and Miranda Steinhauser.
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LYRICS I want to lay on the kitchen floor with you I want to do all the things that lovers do Bruised on your face like a watercolour bloom Moonlight paints your skin cornflower blue
You love me til you wear me out, then you love me more I'm blue to the middle, just like you, freezing to the core The days, they fly like trains go by when I'm on my way home to you And I think about, if they ran me down, baby, what would you do?
I want to lay on the train tracks with you I want to tie you down the way that lovers do In the morning I'll love the mangled bits of you I'll love you when your lips turn cornflower blue
I love you til I wear you out, then I love you more Now all the things that we don't talk about are waiting at the door I won't let you out of my sight, even when you're sleeping So baby, take your medicine and promise me you're eating
Who will I say goodnight to when you're gone?
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"Cornflower Blue" recorded at Dream House Studios in Toronto, ON Written by Ruby Mckinnon Engineer: Calvin Hartwick Produced by Ruby Mckinnon, Josh Kaiser, Alex Bonenfant and Jay Merrow Mastered by João CarvalhoFlower Face - Jupiter (Official Video - 2021 Version)Flower Face2021-10-08 | when i was young and in love i wrote a song and made a video about being young and in love - the sweetness, the dreaminess, the awkwardness, the untouched and not-yet-jaded rose-coloured view of the world. it stars a lovely team of high school dancers who captured that feeling perfectly. years later, i decided to revisit and re-edit the footage (while keeping my glasses as rosy as possible, despite no longer being quite so young or in love). i hope it also gives all of you a chance to revisit this old song, because it forever has such a special place in my heart.
love, ruby.
directed, shot + edited by me choreographed by roger wellington and the walkerville centre for the creative arts dance team
dancers: felicia maguire, cameron wilson, micki craig, lauren callaghan, karly benson, george brothers, chamon "west" provo, maddy marchand, kaili trothen, izabella niemasik, rylan bryer, marianna bisetto, maria davis, claire devaney, jordan gamble, lexie farrerFlower Face - Kaleidoscope (Official Music Video)Flower Face2021-03-05 | KALEIDOSCOPE written, recorded and produced by Ruby Mckinnon. Mastered by João Carvalho. Video created by Ruby Mckinnon.
The creation of this song was supported by the Ontario Arts Council.
- every day you're digging at the cavity sinking to the bottom of the pool the doctor said your shame is eating everything but when you're in love, you get so cruel when you're alone it's all you think about pulling little bugs out of your skin crack open your skull, you are an embryo and you can eat yourself again
plastic dripping through the feeding wire liquid metals in your blood hard to keep sleeping when the room's on fire they're cutting deeper than they should tried to call her from the southbound train thought you were headed somewhere new but you wake up on the floor again the concrete pouring out of you
now every night you are a scientist stirring up your blood until it's clean fill yourself with fantasy and klonopin it's why you keep on dying in your dreams something's just been fucking with your chemicals you can see your halo in the mirror paralyzed in sleep, you are the alchemist she's on her back a thousand miles from here
want to be hunted like an animal feel yourself torn between her teeth your black eyes bloom in the kaleidoscope the spinning colours make you weak cocaine left holes in the occipital your starry eyes are burning out dig your grave and lie down quietly there's nowhere left to go but down
// when i think about the universe being infinite, the concept of no beginning and no end, i cannot fathom it. i get frustrated. i try to rationalize, to wrap my mind around it, but i just can’t. it’s a strange thing, being aware of your inability to understand something. one year ago, i faced this struggle once again in the loss of my nana.
i have experienced a lot of loss in my life. i have also experienced a lot of love. a great deal of it came from her. ruth was a light. a brilliance you couldn’t ignore. sunlight glaring off of every shiny surface, every windowpane, sparkling in the eyes of anyone she spoke to. she was loud and exuberant and unapologetically alive. she laughed at everything. she cried, not because she was sad, but because she thought life was so beautiful. she prayed for every animal she saw. she wept for inanimate objects. she put life into everything.
i will never get used to living without her. it’s been a full year today, and i am still brought to my knees some days crying, shaking, screaming, because i can’t cope with her being gone. i am not trying to be melodramatic or to overindulge in my own grief; i am trying to be honest. it is not easy to lose somebody who cared for you from the moment you were born. every single step i have taken since i lost her has been heavier. every single day has been darker.
f scott fitzgerald said “there are all kinds of love in this world, but never the same love twice.”
there will never be another like her, but i wouldn’t want there to be. there will be more love in my life, taking on different forms, surrounding me and transforming me. but never the same love again.
it has been one year, and i am still heartbroken. i am still shattered. i wrote and recorded this song a few weeks after her death as a private gift for my mother — i never planned to release it, but it feels right today. i want to honour her. to remind the world how her soul still shines in every corner. every window. every piece of sky.
thank you for listening, as always. i love you.
// LYRICS i'm standing in your house again and everything looks so small everything is in its place like you never left at all the world's gone dim without you and i don't know what to do the only sacred part of me is everything from you
patterns from the window paint in light a silhouette of you turn around, hear me now i'm dizzy in the centre of the room i'm dizzy in this moment without you
it's got less to do with heaven and more to do with time i thought i heard you calling for me in the middle of the night if i could be a child again i'd run into your arms but i keep getting older and you're scattered in the stars
every red light breaks my heart this road is ripping me apart i'm on the pavement bleeding myself dry you don't look the same to me an angel in my memory i'm sorry that my love grew old and blind i'm sorry that i couldn't say goodbyeFlower Face - Bedhead (Official Music Video)Flower Face2019-05-10 | The official music video for the 2019 re-release of "Bedhead", newly recorded and produced by Joshua Kaiser and Ruby Mckinnon.
Thank you to everybody who took part in this project. I am so happy and full of love.
All clips were submitted to be used as a part of this music video. Edited by Ruby Mckinnon aka Flower Face.
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