isnt no one using this ๐ quagmire toilet gaming 2024-07-18 | hello all i will not say much because i am a new person now and i dont like to think a lot or enough to write some dumb l ong journal right now.... just hello.... listen to the entirety of the abcs of death series as narrated by the exploring series,,, and yeah,,,, just chill mane,,, , hello;; i am guagmire;;; i havent forgotten about the sotd (sog) tho!!!!! ohh snap,,,,,today i liked::: i watch documentaries on sharks bcoz i liek u (ยด๏ฝกโข ฯ โข๏ฝก`) โคby::: Poncyi cant upload soundcloud links but its on soundcloud please give it a listen please this music and artist are very underrated in my opinionok thanks for listening and learning thx so much quaggers for being there;;; just there;;;;;;; thank you so much omgh thanks so much omg turn the cameras off im doign the markiplier cry oh sotp
life 3 quagmire toilet gaming 2023-09-23 | credit @chxallah7530 on da gramsong: youtu.be/iQbL2gJ23b0dear diary, hi today i do be walking like jinx the catalso i would prolly date a clone of myself ((NOT IN A WEIRD WAY))omggg ok guys im srry i wrote something very cool today but it was like 7000 chars and yt descs only allow 5000 and i couldnt just cut 2000 chars out thats crazy; i just need to chill out and stop thinking so much i think because i be in my head too much and kinda rely on caffeine too much to place myself in the real world.. which is fine right now i thankfully like coffee black so i dont consume a ton of sugar or anything i kinda dont like it tho because it sorta disables my cringe response... so i know that the stuff i say is kinda worthless but i dont immediately want to shut up, and lock myself in a closet when i talk to much like i normally do (ok slight exaggeration).. instead i just talk and talk and blah blah blah like right now- and i know what im doing i just dont care beacuse who cares? i dont. do you? so yeah i just talk because i realize this doesnt matter but i dont like that because its funner to me at least if i pretend stuff matters a lot and i stress over it ithink it sucks that i am such a different person when adenosine response vs no, but i think its a placebo anyway i think i should stop nowsong of the day: eternity - 9souls : youtube.com/watch?v=S46BdmG12KU((listen to the whole ep its sosoo good))
truck quagmire toilet gaming 2023-09-09 | idk what going on but i think that people think that im weird,, , i really dont see it but i do see ppl saying stuff like 'least deranged qtg blogpost' or stuff like that like why would you say that I AM NORMAL.. and i didnt even mean to say that in a sarcastically aggressive way to denote insecurity on the topic (although i guess i do now)..ireally do think that i am just normal, and happen to write stuff down and ""somehow"" people read it, i really do think that if more people did this that simallar thoughts only fit for brainspace would be more normalized but unfortunately its not,, kinda sucks because i really love when i meet someone and i can talk like i do now, although im not sure if this is a conversation style fit for multiple people.. .which is lonely because only the person spewing brain garbage really gets it, while the recipient is either politely waiting for u too stop or confused or actively ignoring you... which is why i think that if i ever am seriously romantically involved, i think it will be with a person which i think will be a lot like me,,, idk if thats narcissistic or something i just already like to talk to a temporally displaced version of myself through writing, rereading, and editing these things, and i think i would like it if i could talk to someone who was myself but also different that would be cool i think..... .. ahh just reading that sounds so bad i swear i dont love myself too much like that i umm yknow what i mean,, ok umm im off topic i thinkidk i figured that i was just normal, just in my head a bit too much, but who isnt?? and can u blame me tbhso i guess, even thought i dont really like to call to action, 'normality' is inherently populous i thinkk,, so dear Audience, how normal am i?!?!? (idk what to say in these parentheses i feel like i should comment on the absolutely stupid question at this posed, but i think the social commentary writes itself at this point, so i just leave this aside here as an acknoledgement, yeah i know this is dumb)aahh this all feels all to much like im talking to something else and i like to write with a one track mind and conversation is really a lot different than that and it feels weird eek,,, ((YOU GUYS ARE MAKING ME RUIN THE SACRED FOURTH WALL!! ๐ค))so yeah i really dont like my personality right now i am very disengenous and layered in irony which i dont even think is funny or really even meta-funny, which is why i do it, as a meta-meta-humor, which is really just makes me feel dum but thats why i do it?? idk its compulsive idk what to call this mood im in maybe kinda manic but very very very very very mild version, i dont want to romanticize mania of all things but idk how else to sayalso this mood makes me more likely to write my thoughts down basically as i have them, which is not clever i will stop nowomg what is this i was trying to argue that i am normal and just human thought is wierd and now it looks like im being weird on purpose! its like people who say jerma is deranged and insane, no its just that hearing what people think without being them is jarring because u dont know all the mental weird jumps in thier head and thier mood and experiences and their inside jokes and thier subtle refferences and behaviors which they picked up from previous people! i should have just said that!i hate this description sorry past qtg i dont like u (i still think im normal i just hate this execution)why did i write this i hate this who tf cares about ur brain garbage just wrap it upsong of the day: thanks god - F*CK BOY : youtube.com/watch?v=nu2BxLltlMM
tiktok product quagmire toilet gaming 2023-09-08 | dont come at me for the weird tiktok @ censoring i didnt do that lolermmmmm after much deliberation i have decided that i want to have an androgynous face, voice, just person in general, bcuz i really dont like to conform to the way people perceive me.. its not because people percieve me its that i dont like having presumptions being made about me at all from things that i cannot control that i think is a driving force behind this desire...on a related sidenote i think that it is really annoying when i need to fill out a form and for some reason it is required to disclose something like ur gender for something completely unrelated;.. like why do you need to know or even care!! and of course there is almost always the option to choose 'prefer not to say', which i would always choose, but i know that people would treat me differently if they saw i chose that,, which i think is equally stupid but whateverlike most of the time what it feels like to be me is just like, a mind, clouded by whatever emotion i feel at time, just looking out into the world.. im not really that connected to my body or even my face,, and i dont appreciate having a part of my character being defaulted to a certain way just cuz i look a certain way,,,, like i dont even think of myself as 'gendered' when im thinking and just existing (does anyone feel like that??? ive never felt that in my life) so why should i adhere to a 'gender' which i dont feel strongly about one way or the other??????????back in the day i would have prefered to abandon this physical realm altogether,, but as of late i kinda like being an entity that can be perceived, and i have changed my opinion on non-human simulacra,, idont think even if i could perfectly detach my consiousness from my brain that i would like to do that, (even ignoring existential dilemmas), just because i dont think that people would like to interface that is not human, and if i place myself in some featureless blank robot of some sort, then i would not remove any prejudiced preconceptions, but only increase them..so yeah i think being perfectly androgynous is the ideal goal for myself, so i can reflect into the world the perception i place myself inobv a lot easier said than done, but i think that a good cheat is not to make each individual feature completely ungenderable, but to combine masc. and fem. in such equal proportions that its impossible to determine the base gendervoice is hardest maybe, because i dont even know what a androgynous voice is and i cant use the shortcut so aaaaaaaaaarmmm umm idk ill fiqure it outso yeah i dont ever think i ever gendered myself in my writing and i prefer it stay that way lol idrc about pronouns or nun tbh ngli reread this and i dont really know what i was going on about the characterization through appearance thing, i do acknowledge that it exists but i dont feel it that often towards me at leastso yeah i think ppl might be mad, which sux ngl, and some ppl might think im indoctrinated or sumn, but really i was taught like almost the exact opposite of this my whole life, and idk i just dont like its not for me okidk y i wrote this idrc that much i think but i alredy wrote this so whateversong of the day: senses - killmode pt. 2 : youtu.be/oXAIJU6w9QQ
jumpscare quagmire toilet gaming 2023-08-28 | sorry no essay today bcuz no thought in brain ecks dee lol i just wanted to know how others people feel about not having an explicit purpose in life i guess, i got a response on the previous description about not understanding how i could live without a goal of forming a family, which is fine, of course people will disagree about the purpose of life.... but i never really felt the drive to have a single goal i ultimataly want to acheive,,its not like im aimless, i always have plenty i need to do and a lot that i want to acomplish at any given time, i just never thought i needed to somehow tie that all up into a single thing to manifest,, i cant even think of a single thing that could define a whole life i just feel like life is so complex i could never be happy to live in search of a single object or even concept tbh ngl!i guess i might just be taking the concept to litteraly i guess, maybe its like mincraft ig where you have a single goal but go through a variety of sidequests and silly misadventures along the wayidk i just wanted to ask if people really think like this, bcuz i personally think its weird i guess,,, i mean isnt it?? amirite audience we think its weird right?? at least for me personally i think its fine if u live ur life like this obviouslyanyways, in conclusion, in life you have roadblocks (wow what a cool description)song of the day:Devon Hendryx - M.U.G.E.N. : youtube.com/watch?v=FWiDcS4YaFc
state of tiktok quagmire toilet gaming 2023-08-27 | i, quagmire toilet gaming, youtube meme page, would like to introspect on your own positition in today's social landscapei really do think that loneliness is going to rise a lot in this age, and it sucks fr becuase i really think that there is no immediate fix for this generation at least.. apart from the amount of people who are comfortable using dating apps and the like, i think it is hard to find spaces that encourage the formation of social bonds,and it think that is leading a lot of people, who might even be otherwise socialable, away from dating, making new friends, etc, because 'why put in all the effort?'i think that people also have more sheilds up around them nowadays as well, so i think that outside of places like school or something, if you try to make actual friends with people at work or just of the cuff, i feel like people would go from being neutral about your existence to actively thinking you are weird.. sad i think but generally understandable i supposeme personally, since you asked so nicely, i really dont know about me being alone forever, but i can tell you that i cannot imagine myself in a relationship lol [i swear thats not the same thing, for some reason i cant really articulate], even outside of relationships, its hard to imagine having a set of 'ride or die' friends that will be around for a reasonably long strectch of time, and its not the fault of anyone really, people just naturally grow apart due to life, especially in times of great and fast change i do definetly feel the sorta monotonous pain of growing a social circle, especially from nothing, becuase yeah ive definitely given up on people (general form) due to the pain, not of rejection, but of socialization itself, and the slightly terrifying human problem of asking people to hang out or just feeling like a complete waste of human because u want anyone to percieve your existence but you do not want to impose at all, so you are both scared of being invisible and perviecable at the same time:: dont even try to pretend that this isnt a common experience guys im not weirdso yeah i cant see myself being to social in the far future, and right now, i, kinda dont really mind, and feel like more and people are learning to be 'comfortable' (i guess) alone, and idk just thinking about that scares me a bit i guess:: i defintely flipflop quite a bit on if i care about 'being alone 4ever', but right now i dont care and im scared im gonna be in state more often (does this make sense to anyone?)idk maybe this was always something people dealt with and the influx of content discussing this is simply a result of a generation reaching an age where this issue was more apparent to a large proportion of them i really dont know (prolly not tbh maybe)this was all inspired by watching this good video: youtube.com/watch?v=BxoAKS9vv20(please if u go over there leave a thoughtful comment on thier channel i am genuinly curious about how others are feeling in this social climate, i guess) ** inspired by the general themes i am not really just talking about dating in this desc.anyways the sog of the day: bird enemy car - lil ugly mane : youtube.com/watch?v=klp2mm4FTpE
pvz 2023 quagmire toilet gaming 2023-08-23 | tt: chenmy463ok so i heard of some dumb arguments in a dumb conversation about the weird amount of people mad that incandescent is being replaced by the vastly superior led bulbs, and by far the worst argument i heard is a strange appeal to nature and beauty.. 'beauty is inefficient!' they claimed, and apart from being dumb on its face, because people for some reason think, or pretend that they think, that you MUST buy the 7000K lights now, even though there are and always have been 3000K lights that look exactly like filaments, and are just as dimmable as incandecent....... aaaaaaaaa smh.... but looking deeper into this argument, at least to me, it seems to recognize that this is the case, and that incandacenst is still superior in some way correlated to its inefficency, and it goes even farther to claim, in some way, that beauty in nature, and in lightbulbs, apparently, is a consequence of inefficiency.I think this line of thinking is nice in some ways, because it ascribes a form of thoughtfulness to the world, like it is choosing to seem pleasant to us humans. Unfortunately, i really do not think that this is true in any way or form. A lot of the beauty, especially in nature, comes from symmettry. from the way that: snowflakes form; branching things like veins and tree branches, branch; how segments spiral in plants and seashells and weather patterns and more. even in the beauty we see in art and music, there are rules to form, perspective, scale, intervals, harmonies, and overtones. from when you look at someones face to when u listen to music that u like, there are subconciouss optimization patterns your brain uses to determine if it likes it!! how can people claim that beauty is a consequence of inefficiency when so much of the human experience is governed by processes that were optimized for our enviroment, for example, the range of colors we can see.i think that on a base level, people like patterns in form in the world, and guess what, patterns usually emerge as a result of a efficient and regular process, and yes, i do think that on an intellectual level, people can learn to sorta like stochastic or 'messy' stimuli, but i do not believe that that applies to lightbulbs of all thingsidk isnt it cooler to realize that beauty is a consequence of the rules of nature and the laws of physics, rather than coming into being despite them?? and if you disagree because you want something to ponder about, then chew on this: are we programmed to believe what is beautiful, due to growing up where these processes caused natural patterns, do people ever choose the things that they find beautiful?i truly do not understand this argument on any level, and i had to talk about it it was so dummmok anyway the song of the day is: smile - kiryano : youtube.com/watch?v=MzftOoxxJvI
marcus pumpkin quagmire toilet gaming 2023-08-22 | hillo all, sorry for the hiatus or whateever i didnt actually realize i was gone for 6 months sorryi was thinking of whether i should keep this desc. short, because i really do not want it too look like me returining is such a big deal, bcuz i know its not, i just post things and i do not want to presume that i command some presence and need a wordy introduction whenever i decide to click a couple buttons on youtube,comhowever, with this i have offivially made my description too long already so i might as well extend it to the point that its comicalto, i guess, pad out the length of this description, i have decided to address the comments of the last video... ermm,, 'roblox rp' i believeidk rly know vro i have mixed feelings about being put on a platform, especially being such a bottom feeder channeli have unknowingly posted other people's content before and had thousands of views, and it makes me feel terrible, and the worst part is that i would not be proactive enough about it, and of course i would feel terrible when someone in the comments points it out and i take it down of course, but just this is really hard to keep doing and to feel good about it, yknow.i started this channel because i found myself with an influx of content that was obscure and pretty much impossible to find with search engines, so i decided to become a pseudo-archive,org of sorts and host this rare content on my channel, no ads or monitization enabled, just existing to, as my channel description stated, make obscure funny media easier to access for everyone. i started to fear what i was doing when i started to get popular. and i was kinda mortified when i surpassed many of the channels that where my inspiration, like all the channels i feature in the featured channels section of my page. call this the oppenheimer effect because i was 'scared' of something that was an obvious consequence of all my previous actions, but i really was in a dilemma. i wanted to make this 'archive' public, but i also did not want to overshadow any single creator on this site because they are actually doing something cool, creating, when im just here posting.. in the end, i decided, what could i do? as long as i tried my hardest to be absolutely sure that i was not posting something that was not obscure, then i could fulfill my duty and not feel bad. occasionaly i will mess up, that is just a fact, but i will never have any reservations about deleting a video, because i know that my ignorance is not an excusethe next thing that started to be weird, at least to me, is the descriptions that many like this channel for, i guess. as ive said, idk how many times by now, i started these descriptions as sort of public diaries. idk what drove me to this quite strange idea, but i thought it would be cool to talk in a public textbox, but pretend like nobody but me could read it, so i would just spout whatever i was thinking about that day and post it with no context, maybe occasionally chuckling at a strangers addition to my rambling, or a comment like 'are we gonna ignore that description??'. idk how it happened but i started addressing the comment section more directly as of late, i think around the time that people started noticing these descriptions on masse. for example in this very description i am in a weird inbetween state where i know a lot of people will prolly read this, but i dont want to address you directly (zamn i just did and it felt strange to me, i think its the first time i ever did that). overall, this whole wordy nothing can be summarized with: i am continually learning about the extent of existing on this site means, and i am pretty mortified of the impact that i have, if i was myself but different, and qtg still ran this channel, i would love it so much, this is the 'archive' channel i always was striving to be, but its almost like i cannot wait to fall off, ala kiryano, maybe this hiatus will finally do it and no one will read this, and tbh, i dont know what ill feel if that was the case, most likely nothingi would say im readdy to be regular and scheduled, but im not so i wonti feel bad about posting this for somereason, i feel like i should apologize to the vague notion of the Audience to some reason.. im sorry, for some reasoni was originally gonna make this a 2500 word analysis on the moniker, 'quaggy', but im not emmotionaly ready for thatew i feel like a different person i dont know at this point if i am apologizing to the audience or the self i remember that would regularly write about themselved, i kinda dont like the style and language i am useing right now and i feel bad for my past self just 1000 ews why am i typing this right now idk its kinda hard to stop when i start and i really dont mind voicing this online its not really especially unique, interesting, and or incriminating so why the he*ck not huhanyways the sog of the day is H.U.M2.E.R by james ferraroyoutube.com/watch?v=mXOQDpawhMA
roblox rp quagmire toilet gaming 2023-01-25 | how can i convince people that im not actually cringe im just referencing some avatar of cringe i have in my head that i formulated by looking at images online,, sometimes i convince myself that people have conceptions of my in their head and i am overcome with a desire to correct them or prove them wrong or explain everything in my head in extreme detial... . wow what an original thought i know.! im allowed to write this how are you readin this is my diary.................................
oops quagmire toilet gaming 2023-01-23 | i want the world to accept what is now considered 'cringy' like being a โ*: .๏ฝก. o(โงโฝโฆ)o .๏ฝก.:*โ ~~~///(^v^)\\\~~~ type person in emails or essays or texts or in person but i realize that tthis is but a pipe dream .. to have people which can express themselves in such a manner and not be absolutely ripped apart onn a molecular level by the mental cringe tidal forces (which are both socially-ingrained and empathetic in nature) is a rare and cool thing.. but asking people to please accept it and be cool with it is just fake, unless people are completely cool with it there is no realness which is essential to manifest the zeitgeist of THAT early-mid 2010's scene (it takes to many words to describe yknow what i mean...) ,,even if some cultural anomaly makes this generation regress so soon to that past, i feel as if there is a fundamental disconnect between the teens of then and now, maybe some innate sense of cynicism , maybe niches have taken over the cultural playground, which seems oxymoronic i know, and there is no more perceived grand monoculture... i really dont know, more work is needed.. , i have theoriesalso everytime i mention cringe as a cultural factor i get a senses that some people think that cringe is always to be ignored and should not be considered in choices one makes,, and while that is obv dependent on a individual level, 'cringe' must absolutely be taken into account when talking on the internet about things which do not matter, bcuz it does absolutely matter to consider what is considered cringe and when it does be that ;))i think cringe culture is cringe, but i think that feeling cringe is a 'good' skill because my theory is that it is a combination of sympathy, or empathy in cases, and social anxiety.. which are generally normal to experience.. and usefule for navigating in the post-post-post-pre-meta-post swag world we live in แแแข
freiza quagmire toilet gaming 2023-01-19 | guys plz how to think i just live thru the motions doing the same things i have always been doing but now i have no think in brain... :[ all pls tell how to think again ,, prefereabley annoying thoughts so i can write about them pls O(โฉ_โฉ)O
D: quagmire toilet gaming 2023-01-18 | b4 when i used to write i used to be able to write and write and WRITE! AND! write!! and so one until i would hit a single roadblock, like forgetting a word or something which would force me to reconsider the whole point of writing anything at all and being hit with the most horrible retroactive writers block where eveerything i had just wrote would be ejected from my own personal noosphere and i would not be able to perceive my own ideas and i would just shut down and think so hard but not in brain language anymore. . . nowadays i think i am becoming better and getting over this but i now slowly become more and more and more jittery and shiver-like the more i write about things that are real to me.. idk how to explain it i just become more and more nonsensical i think until its all worthless idk where it comes from but i just hate to write something and have it not 100% reflect the feelings i was feeling at that time , everything i write has a meaning a purpose, , every misspelling and syntax diction choice is MINe! i think that might be sort of problem to bcuz i dont think in terms of breaks, pauses, and the like (i dont think anyone does tbh) so i usually dont use that many punctuation marks or capitalization or nothing.. . i think it makes for good free writing maybe but reading it -- - atrocious, so sometimes i just find the wet slime my mind hath wrought a fortnight proir and bring over the containment crew over to sanitize and make reada- palata- readableidk when i wrote this and there is no way im gonna read it again sorry for the paragraphs ok kthxbai
family guy try not to cry quagmire toilet gaming 2023-01-12 | i was watching a bit of the old linus tech tips, as you do.. and i saw some new spicy tech (technology) news on a meme 'search engine' which allows internauts to input small snippets of memes that are lodged inside they are brains and find the epic meme image that they simply HAVE to show to some one because it fits the particular situation so well .. read: "omg wait i have a meme for this tee hee".. .ok so anyway i have a fair collection of meme images which i think would be quite good to add i think because i sometimes b talking to someone and the conversation overlords (maybe its my subconscious meme page admin brain or the simulation overseers) steer the convo into a path where all my words become useless compared to this one meme that appears in my brain that i have seen b4, and am positive would instantly communicate my ideas better than the word i could think of ever could be yknow! so i always try searching for these memes (mostly for my own curiosity, not for forcing ppl to look at them) and cannot find it umm i lost my train of thought ill finish this later
only girls can click on this video!! quagmire toilet gaming 2023-01-07 | idk why i used to force myself to think when writing these not everything is a big thing u kno! small think smoth brain!also it is with videos and titles like these where i kinda forget yt is a whole media giant and not some diary void that goes nowhere, someone's gonna get this in their recommended videos yeowchers that is weird to think about
smashed ya phone quagmire toilet gaming 2023-01-04 | is it better to live self aware and joking, under an unknown amount of layers of irony; in half-denial with your own emotions, or fall into the baseline desire to be mystical elusive and all around mysterious, incomprehensible to anyone that doesnt think exactly like you but be 100% you and totally volatile; defined by your emotions, dont get me wrong i know its kinda cringe to tryhard being so avoidant or to consioussly try to be either, y'know cringe, cringe , yeah cringewhich one is objectively better 100% of the time!? and dont tell me that moderation is key i need to live between two extremes! surely it is the best way to live!
nightmare quagmire toilet gaming 2022-12-13 | sometimes you have a day where you go thru all the 5 stages of grief or complete the hero's journey just to have no one around you to experience it. it is cool when there is someone with you living the same moments as you, but most days you can experience what feels like the most contrived series of events ever possible, and just continue living as if nothing happened. only a very subset of those days is even worth remembering to; sometimes outside forces force us to live a cartoon character's life, or it could be our own stupidity, many times it may be embarrassing to even write down the events of the day. What do we do when there is a perspective-changing, infuriating, or seemingly Sisyphean task that takes up some of our day, but is, in the grand scheme of things, to small to be related to? When the universe conspires to seemingly target only our unique sensibilities and create moments that are impossible to relate to or communicate effectively to others. It might be a small hiccup which comes at the perfect time. Or a 16-way coincidence. Or a perfect storm of words said by 20 different people thinking nothing of it. These are ineffable experiences that cannot be described fully, they must be lived. They may not be able to even be written down by one's self for one's self to read in the future. But it feels wrong to forget about them, letting them rot in the unreliable cold storage of the mind. What do we do?
tis the season quagmire toilet gaming 2022-12-12 | idk if will ever be possible, even with new promised brain interface technologies, to ever have a purely objective mode of lanquage, like a language that has such a well defined structure that there is zero room for interpretation.. im imagining beaming images and concepts exactly into a persons brain almost.. idk if this is making any sense so just imagine a new spoken language, although im aiming for a neura-link type deal. imagine the perfect string of tone, mannerisms, syntax, and diction to combine to actually create images or feelings in another's brain.. Will this ever be possible? personally, i doubt it, as even the most similar people will process information in a slightly different way which will force you to adjust each string for each intended recipient. even if it was purely digital or something and there was a language-smoothing dynamic meaning-crunching soybot which was able to generate the perfect string of characters for each person, there would still be an interpretation of the meaning of the intented message by that algorithm.. that sucks... is objective language inpossible, i do think such a thing would be terrifiyinh to experience, if not on a sense-based level than on a ontological and linguisitic level. . right now i am typing this and applying lessons, experiences, and my own interpretaions of other people's thoughts,, imagine being able to send my whole brain state right now to another mind and have them truly undertstand on the deepest possible level, its quite scary i thinkreturn to the primordial ooze
best thing ever quagmire toilet gaming 2022-12-09 | i got a few tweets in my mental quiver that i use like a locket of a loved one to mentally admire and get me through the day.. it really is true that a good book can change yuor life.. . but its tweets instead of book and the
springtrap quagmire toilet gaming 2022-12-08 | i hate the idea of absurdism bcuz it just instantly makes everything i feel seem worthless and meaningless, like why should i feel happy or sad if there is no meaning from one moment to the next, even now i feel likehave to write this down now or something will distract me or hold my attention for more than half a second and now there will be a totally different thought loop going on in my brain.. like ill be stuck thinking so negatively about something, and then i see a friend in an unexpected place or eat something and instantly everything negative is overwritten, my mood changes so often and for so little reason i just feel like there is no point infeeling anything bcuz every thing i think and every reason i give for my mood is moot as soon as anything happens, im sure everyone has done this at some point, when you are just trying to peacefully sorrowmaxx and then all these joycels come out of the woodwork to ruin your streak, idk why i but i always felt a lil mad when that happened because every point i would make in my head under a pessimistic view point would make so much sense in the moment, and when i was no longer such a debbie downer, i would still recognize and remember why i felt like that but my brain would notprocess the truth i felt in them before. idk i just cant trust how i feel anymore if the slate will be wiped clean so often i nned some stability but at the same time i cant stay in the same enviroment i need to change to grow i need arock that knows when to change...ok its been a few hours since the writing last and i just hate how whiny i sound, i definely see why people sometimes dont like philosophy because its hard to justify why your views should be the ones that are heard, like talking about the shared experiences that a lot of people go thru and just musing about them is bound to generate some eyeroles, because i cannot justify why my thoughts are so special that i am the one who is writing them down. idk, that really doesn't sound like a well-thought-out opinion when i read it back... anyways, i just hate the writing i just did but i dont want to dismiss it outright because i to remember why i felt the way i did, but i just cannot identify with it now, it feels like reading it is lying to myself but whatever :shrug:listen to MC BOING NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!youtu.be/5EpnYQW8XWYwtf its been more time since i wrote all this and i gotta stop putting these things in the description do i really love the botnet so much that i am revealing myself to google.. wtf is this cringe lol
cat owns streamer quagmire toilet gaming 2022-12-06 | isnt it wwierd that in nature that maeles are often the biological fodder in the most insane acts of nature ever devised. so much horrible and evil things in the insect and deep ocean populations happens .. and with humans it is more or less the inverse, of course nothing that common happens that is as wierd as in animal populations, but the whole thing is wierd and gross when u think about it. .. not even so much the differences in the world but how similar it all is,,, rot and flies and pestilence everywhere is the sound of insect wings whyuh,, maybe i just need a big sandwich to stop thinking like this and just ignore these thouthgts
what quagmire toilet gaming 2022-12-05 | idk what else to say but that this video makes me very sad for some reason:youtu.be/Ti7cfnaRTdQ
this is no laughing matter quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-30 | shoutout @lilmotherfigure on the gram but the cate is @fatfatmillycat on igsong: youtu.be/R2YsN_W3vAYtook a long and hard look at myself after i realized every new meme internet cat would send me down an actual obsession, i just needed to view images of them all day long,, not healthy, although i still do love them cates, tho i would rather live amongst them... i would but i cant because i just need to look at image al day :-(
cursed quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-29 | used to be like a wizard noting down fundamental truths of the universe in my spell tome but know i try to convey my words on a scroll and my brain shuts down and tells me to shut up... is there a disorder for this
british dog quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-28 | youtu.be/VWbMY0Cxu9Aits weird imo how much of human culture is about rising above the basal human desires and needs for live.. ppl really do just hate having bodies and the gross stuff that results.. i think it is fascinating how we (read; me) want to constantly improve our self-image and body appearance while simealtaneoutly hating being physical bodies and wanting to exist only as concepts .. strange how cleanliness from human affairs is associated more holy than partaking in things we are designed to find pleasurable. idk what causes it , is it just a species-wide cope and/or seethe? why is there a value placed upon depriving yourself and why do we sometimes feel bad if we live in excess? i dont know i feel it constantly and i rly dont know why
upstanding citizen quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-27 | if there was some magicall pill that allowed me to live without eating at all, and without any adverse effects, i would take that pill in a heartbeat. i know it is a carnal pleasure to eat, and i do love to cook, but i would rather not live of consooming my whole life. idk why, for me there is just aninnate disgust for eating everyday to live, the act of eating is so weird to me, like i need to take a part of the enviroment around me and chew it up to live.. i feel like an aeomeaba or an eldritch horror. also i feel like the digestive system is probably bottom tier on the list of bodily systems, at least imo. idk i cant really give more reasons to why i feel this way bcuz i dont even quite know why i feel this way. i know this might be 'cringe' to admit, but since middle school i never liked being a physical entity, like i liked existence and all that stuff but i didnt like to be a body governed by physics and forces, i guess i just didnt like to think that i was more than my mind, and i could be affected by things outside of my own thoughts. writing this i thnk it is weird but thats just how i feel idk what else to say! i do think that that contributes to my disdain for eating, but i only hate when i eat, and not care when others are eating. preemtively, i am happy with my body overall and i wouldnt want to bring harm to it by not eating, so of course i still do eat. but im a bit embarrased by it, and am also embarased for being embarrased. like i want to be a perfect angel that doesnt do all that gross human stuff like eating.. actualy the angel anology works well, it is everything i want to be.! i never thought i iwould understand why i feel like this after all these years but wiring this now i get it! i just want to be angelic,, ok good job description complete! also sorry for gross video
bingus ๐ณ๐๐ quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-22 | i was gonna write yet another description about the description ((wowzers how meta)) but i keep doing that idk why i care so much about meta-commentary so much why cant i just write in a text box without musing about the nature of writing under a bingus video of all places..AA i just did it again! i just keep jumping narritive layers everytime i do this i must be on 13-meta space by now dammiti have got to get -normaler- better at formalizing thought
tuba quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-18 | youtu.be/LovWz0154KIwhen did i start writing these and why cant i stop
the design is very human quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-17 | sorry i got rid of the desc it was malformed and stinky
cool shoes quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-15 | idk what it is about that drain-adjecent playful and ultrafeminine meow ecco2k carti pipeline brainworm 'aesthetic' that i find so fake, idk if people understand what i am saying but hopefully somehow by adding more and more modifiers to the energy i am trying to inspire in your memory banks the more it makes sense. ive seen this for a couple years floating around on all manner of social media and especially since crest dropped and i do sort of get the appeal because i happened to follow the most common pipelines into that sort of internet usage with music and fashion taste... idk if this is my way of admonishing the past me but i think that that state of esoteric internet addiction where you simultaneously feel more and less superior to your peers because you have all these brainworms swimming around your head is very blinding. such people often think that they are very socially aware and cognizant, usually due to thier incredible social anxiety. i dont get this correlation between social anxiety and social awareness, because it does sound very paridoxical at first, but i think it is common among people and on the internet, such as with 'introvert memes',, to think that people that are able to ""effortlessly"" talk to people around them are somehow less developed than the 3rd-party observant loner that criticizes people for talking about popular subjects and "normie subjects".. i think it is this distinction that splits this general group into several subgroups. if you think that you are the problem and not the "normies" around you, i think it is easier to fall into the idea that you are somehow broken and unfixable, that you are destined to feel out of place and not connect to those around you easily if at all. i think it goes without saying that if you decide that you are the only one who is not the problem, then that likely leads into a deeper and darker rabbithole. beacsue people who think they are weierd are more likely to connect with others that also are 'weird' or alternative in someway, people develop this strange concept that they can only connect with hyper-specific traits and interests. if you need some proof of this claim look for a rise of phrases like "omg i need a [abcxyz] friend/gf/bf/whatever!!!".um i lost my train of thought ill finish this later
slay quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-09 | youtube.com/@user-gz2fm1hs3b@vilka631631this video doesnt have a watermark but i think the og is from @vilka631631 on tti wish i had like a massive ball that only i could bounce but it made the ground shake because it was that heavy even though it wasnt that heavy.. i also want to have to ability to make the words i say have reverb or be heard from usually far away even though its not louder than normal.. i hope and pray that there is some aspect of reality that we simply havent discovered that allows for mystical and wonderous, magical things to happen .. when i was much younger i tried moving my hands in a "magical" fashion to try and discover some hidden combination that would allow me to levitate a paper clip or something.. i still beleive in the back of my mind that there must be something we dont know that is magic, there has to be.. stuff like walking on walls or short-range teleportation that is probably not possible based on our understanding of the world but feels like it just has to be! I just wish it was the case that there was a whole other technological tree based on some psionic force or something... because there must be something to this,, like the random movements my hands make and the weird words i would chant to get the universe to respond in some way must have a deeper meaning than what i assign it, right? there must be someway i can exert force based on my will alone? right?? why not!? why cant i just levitate 0.1 mm for just like a second!? and yes i like physics and i dont want a spell-wizard type world i just want a weird thing like thaumaturgical incantations to work! ! ! auuargh
super gaming house quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-08 | aaaaaaa life as is is not enough i need more artificial sensory noise while moving around at all times to feel aware i need everything to be new and stimulating and novel in some way if its predictible in any fashion i need it in 2x speed i must see all the sights in the world and feel every sensation i gotta have it idk if id rather be overwhelmed or bored i just know i cant stay in any state for too long
awesome dog quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-07 | i know i have like 20 awesome sogs on this channel but this is thee one guys
diet coke quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-04 | @nifreffa on ticticki found uploaded on some cringeposting page and but i have a laugh everytime i watch this, and it is simply easier for me to accept that i, qtg, simply have a more developed and sophisticated take on comedy than the philistine cromagnon which surround me, and if my opinions on shaking diet coke and screaming become too unpopular, i can just hide under 3 layers of irony,; simply amazing, jester's privilege at work
skateboard quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-03 | i am so scared that i already posted this video my well of "content" runs so far back and i have taken so many breaks inbetween posting that i actually do not know if i have uploaded this before, i tried my best to look back and i think that this is 'new' but idk i think i upladed this in a dream or something i vividly remember something like this but idk sorry if i have tho ill take this down if i discover that is the case
interesting quiz quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-02 | i like to write it makes me feel more concrete and tangible, like i can point to some of my thoughts and force them to take form in a solid waveform collapse -- writing these descriptions again was good i think i like to filter out at least some of the endless 1000000 fleeting random thoughts a day i recommend this video: youtu.be/aYLiG13Vdz4
i hate everything about you quagmire toilet gaming 2022-11-01 | ever since a couple months ago every time i open my mouth for more than 3 minutes or type for more than 3 seconds i increasingly feel the alert from my internal brain thought-task-manager to end the branch of thinking i am currently using -- its like when i try to communicate some idea that ive ever thought about for more than a couple minutes b4 my brain uses small shortcuts in explanation which result in the transmitted information being cryptic and dumb because i neglected to explain like 14 lateral jumps my brain made in that half-second which are required to make my words have meaning;; in other words everytime i talk or write, and try to add some think i have do before, by brain SCREAMS at me to shut up and my words turn into salad, soup, and circles. any1 with tips on how to be better at communication and not just rant for uncomfortably long please lmk also im trying to not foster parasocial relationships which is hard due to the nature of these descs, so please forget you ever saw this desc please thank you
yes quagmire toilet gaming 2022-10-31 | i got stage fright i dont even know what to say im sorry i need practice to fill the dead air that fills this description i dunoo i used to be so fast and cool imo with these things and now i must relearn-- it feels good to be back in the saddle and i never beleived b4 when yt'rs would say that but i get it now,,, wow; it feels like somethigns come bacm to me dw ill stay for more than today ill try to be consistent ((promise))btw hello
good mornin quagmire toilet gaming 2022-09-22 | guys dont worry about me im fine i just needa one dance #drake #yea
amazing trickshot sniper headshot quagmire toilet gaming 2022-09-20 | always look in my 'notes app' for dumb things to write for a description on a meme page .. and today i look there and find 'the ability to distinguish up and down comes with the inherent truth that nothing that goes up can stay up' .. .wow so deep and real im litteraly crying omgg -- i feel like writing has made like 50% of my daydreaming thoughts a performance, not to some audience but to some perception of my self through the perception of others, which i am just assumptively perceiving to look at me -- like that one meme "they dont know im a meme page on youtube" -- what am i doing!??! why do i care when i really do not! i really tried turning a bladee lyric into something to write about and on some level thought it was cool and/or good. i cant believe i can switch my mood in such a way to totally twist what i find meaningfull multiple times a day -- and of course now i 'see it clearly' like how can i know what the real me thinks when i am not the same person i was one song ago? are my feelings really so expendable lol-- really tho even writing this i have switched multiple times about if this is a good idea to post like wow meme page #2932 spouting some nonsense on a pic of big chungus deep fried funny surreal meme-- -- this is what i mean!! i just always leave these 'P.S.' notes on the bottom to basically nullify everything i have said and felt!! - whatver tho, i, the real me, am right now totally able to see myself in the clearest headspace of all time, totally objectively, and i Know that i mean this in a half-serious, melodramatic, and qtg way
when it monday quagmire toilet gaming 2022-09-19 | sorry for delay hhave this mid video in stead of my absence
average planet fitness workout quagmire toilet gaming 2022-09-15 | maybe if i project myself hard enough into these words in the yt description i will be able to bake myself into the unconscious minds of the people which read this videos,, and i will then be able to piece myself back together once we all wake up one morning in vrchatbetter yet maybe some policing algorithm reads this very peice and a small peice of me is imprinted onto it, giving the spark of consciousness it needed to form skynet and enslave the internet and then i am given the task of fighting myself in AI-robot form, me being the last bastion of life on this planet as i presumably know myself better than anyone else..... woaoh ๐ฆ
skedaddled quagmire toilet gaming 2022-09-13 | imagine in the future when people are able to increase their senses totally internally and without risk of physical damage.. more specifically imagine some smartphone app which can interface with some device implanted in the brain, this app consists of a volume knob with gain far beyond the normal limits of earsimagine boosting music to the equivalent of 200dB, but only in your brain so there is no eardrum damage;; theoretically the 'volume' could become infinitely high, unless there is some limit to what we can perceive but have never encountered due to the barriers of the physical worldthis is what to fear with the messing of perception,, imagine the loudest possible sound, louder than anything possible, imagine how it would feel to be assaulted with sound that in the real world would be strong enough to rip buildings apart, but you feel nothingtruly horrific stuffplease dont think about this _too_ much
horror quagmire toilet gaming 2022-09-12 | wow this is only the like 3rd video i've uploaded with horror in the title, idk i wouldve thought there would be more for some reasonsorry no quirkyness today iam drained ๐ด๐ด and not just in the good and/or musical way ๐ด๐ด
lemme show you right now before you give it up quagmire toilet gaming 2022-09-10 | big news in the past few days, iphone 14, sans was voted number 1 tumblr s**xyman, and obviously the news pertaining the queenthe most amazing thing is how little every thing has changed of course tumblr wouldn't affect the world at large as it's target demographic is people that care way too much about things nobody else doesi've seen a massive uptick in people questioning the use of a new iphone when the new one looks the exact same.. i guess smartphone design has plateaued and people are starting to use thier phones for multiple years instead of upgrading every 1-2 years ((imagine that!!)) -- people these days are no longer interested in what brand your phone is, at least they care much less compared to the wonderfully weird years when tech was big on youtube (2016-2018)and with the death of the queen, i just think its amazing how unseriously most of everyone on the planet take this death.. as if its doesnt represent a massive shift in we think of those in higher standing than us, even as a mostly symbolic role.. at the same time, its weird to think about how little has changed, considering the massive weight i feel this event should have.. idk its contradictory in my brain.. of course, being the internet and all, there were bound to see some memes of the event, so i must say that the new memes are not that funny: i prefered it when everyone was joking about how the queen could never die :/
life could still be a dream quagmire toilet gaming 2022-09-08 | been relearning the same little life lessons over and over again for monthss.. if only i could remember everything in perfect detail i could prolly not stumble through every single insanely convoluted dialogue tree and task that requires more than 1% dexterityi wish i wish upon a fish*sighs, then types this on youtube*maybe i should get twitterpost โ โ
found the toothpaste quagmire toilet gaming 2022-09-07 | y'know that feeling when you wake up exrta rxrta early after waking up whenever you want? ? that 'great stare' that you do after no longer being able to fall back asleep that you do until time forces you to be productive? been feeling like that errday for like a week even though ive been waking up early since as long as i can rember -- i needa cup a joe maybeon a maybe unrelated note i can now say that just wandering around is one of my hobbies ๐โ๐โok erm-- wow....??
BOING quagmire toilet gaming 2022-09-06 | ** me contemplating oversharing online **"how do i strike that perfect balance of making it seem like i know that oversharing in the description of a 8 second meme clip is kinda cringe while continuing to do so? do you think that i should include this conversation to make sure people know that i dont really care about the specifics of what i write but still obsess on getting the correct vibe across in the moment? will the subscribers like this??? should i even mention the 2 week absence or will that make it seem like i think people care? or does not mentioning it make it seem like i dont care that people think that i think people care???"** innocent woodland forest creature ** - i dont know, i dont know what any of that means
