Production Company: Milkcrate (@milkcrate_tv) Director: Galin Foley (@galinfoley) Director of Photography: Ashton Harrewyn (@ashtonjharrewyn) Creative Direction: Mikey Lavi (@mikey_lavi) 1st AC: Joel Wolter (@joelwolt) Gaffer: Michael Fisher Stylist: Jenny Orszulak Hair & Makeup Artist: Rachel Routhier (@racheldrmakeup) PA: Graham Reicher (@grahamreicher) Edit: Galin Foley Color: Nicholas Lareau (@nick_lareau)
Lyrics: As you promised me that I was more than all the miles combined You must have had yourself a change of heart like halfway through the drive Because your voice trailed off exactly as you passed my exit sign Kept on driving straight and left our future to the right
Now I am stuck between my anger and the blame that I can’t face And memories are something even smoking weed does not replace And I am terrified of weather ‘cause I see you when it rains Doc told me to travel but there's COVID on the planes
And I love Vermont but it's the season of the sticks And I saw your mom she forgot that I existed And it’s half my fault but I just like to play the victim I’ll drink alcohol ‘till my friends come home for Christmas
And I’ll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have but I did not lose Now you’re tire tracks and one pair of shoes And I’m split in half but that’ll have to do
So I thought that if I piled something good on all my bad That I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from Dad No I am no longer funny ‘cause I miss the way you laugh Once called me forever now you still can't call me back
And I love Vermont but it's the season of the sticks And I saw your mom she forgot that I existed And it’s half my fault but I just like to play the victim I’ll drink alcohol ‘till my friends come home for Christmas
And I’ll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have but I did not lose Now you’re tire tracks and one pair of shoes And I’m split in half but that’ll have to do
Oh, that’ll have to do My other half was you I hope this pain’s just passing through But I doubt it
And I love Vermont but it's the season of the sticks And I saw your mom she forgot that I existed And it’s half my fault but I just like to play the victim I’ll drink alcohol ‘till my friends come home for Christmas
And I’ll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have but I did not lose Now you’re tire tracks and one pair of shoes And I’m split in half but that’ll have to do Have to do
Production Company: Milkcrate (@milkcrate_tv) Director: Galin Foley (@galinfoley) Director of Photography: Ashton Harrewyn (@ashtonjharrewyn) Creative Direction: Mikey Lavi (@mikey_lavi) 1st AC: Joel Wolter (@joelwolt) Gaffer: Michael Fisher Stylist: Jenny Orszulak Hair & Makeup Artist: Rachel Routhier (@racheldrmakeup) PA: Graham Reicher (@grahamreicher) Edit: Galin Foley Color: Nicholas Lareau (@nick_lareau)
Lyrics: As you promised me that I was more than all the miles combined You must have had yourself a change of heart like halfway through the drive Because your voice trailed off exactly as you passed my exit sign Kept on driving straight and left our future to the right
Now I am stuck between my anger and the blame that I can’t face And memories are something even smoking weed does not replace And I am terrified of weather ‘cause I see you when it rains Doc told me to travel but there's COVID on the planes
And I love Vermont but it's the season of the sticks And I saw your mom she forgot that I existed And it’s half my fault but I just like to play the victim I’ll drink alcohol ‘till my friends come home for Christmas
And I’ll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have but I did not lose Now you’re tire tracks and one pair of shoes And I’m split in half but that’ll have to do
So I thought that if I piled something good on all my bad That I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from Dad No I am no longer funny ‘cause I miss the way you laugh Once called me forever now you still can't call me back
And I love Vermont but it's the season of the sticks And I saw your mom she forgot that I existed And it’s half my fault but I just like to play the victim I’ll drink alcohol ‘till my friends come home for Christmas
And I’ll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have but I did not lose Now you’re tire tracks and one pair of shoes And I’m split in half but that’ll have to do
Oh, that’ll have to do My other half was you I hope this pain’s just passing through But I doubt it
And I love Vermont but it's the season of the sticks And I saw your mom she forgot that I existed And it’s half my fault but I just like to play the victim I’ll drink alcohol ‘till my friends come home for Christmas
And I’ll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have but I did not lose Now you’re tire tracks and one pair of shoes And I’m split in half but that’ll have to do Have to do
Lyrics: County line, I’m counting down mailboxes until my house This place had a heartbeat in it’s day Vail bought the mountains and nothing was the same
Yes, the boys are drunk, the sun is high Their license plates Live Free or Die But it just ain't that simple, it never was We’ll drink to New Year’s then they’ll leave me to clean up
One day I’m gonna cut it clear Ride like Paul Revere and when they ask me who I am I’ll say “I’m not from around here”
I’ll leave before the road crew’s out Before those joggers looking way too proud And I’ll turn up the music And I’ll forget until it ends that I’m not ready to let go yet
One day I’m gonna cut it clear Ride like Paul Revere and when they ask me who I am I’ll just pretend I didn’t hear
It’s typical, I fear Folks just disappear And when they ask me who I am I’ll say “I’m not from around here”
I’ll say “I’m not from around here”
But I’m in my car And I see the yard The patch of grass where we buried the dog
And the world makes sense Behind a chain link fence If I could leave, I would’ve already left
But I’m in my car And I see the yard The patch of grass where we buried the dog
And the world makes sense Behind a chain link fence If I could leave, I would’ve already left
Lyrics: The only time I got to praying for a red light was when I saw your destination as a deadline This is normal conversation babe, it’s all fine I’m making quiet calculations to where the fault lies
“This is good land” or at least it was It takes a strong hand, and a sound mind
The college kids are getting so young ain’t they? They’re correcting all the grammar on our spray paint And I even gave up driving after nightfall I got tired of the frat boys with their brights on
“This is good land” or at least it was It takes a strong hand, and a sound mind
But it makes me smile to know when things get hard You’ll be far, you’ll be far from here
That while I clean shit up in the yard You’ll be far, you’ll be far, far from here
So pack up your car, put a hand on your heart Say whatever you feel, be wherever you are We ain’t angry at you love, you’re the greatest thing we’ve lost
The birds will still sing, your folks will still fight The boards will still creak, the leaves will still die We ain’t angry at you love, we’ll be waiting for you love
And we’ll all be here forever And we’ll all be here forever
We sure will
We’re overdue for a revival We spent so long just getting by That’s the thing about survival Who the hell likes living just to die?
You told me you would make a difference Well I got drunk and shut you down It won’t be by your own volition If you step foot outside this town
But it’s all we had, for always
So pack up your car, put a hand on your heart Say whatever you feel, be wherever you are We ain’t angry at you love, you’re the greatest thing we’ve lost
The birds will still sing, your folks will still fight The boards will still creak, the leaves will still die We ain’t angry at you love, we’ll be waiting for you love
And we’ll all be here forever And we’ll all be here forever
You’re gonna go far You’re gonna go far You’re gonna go far You’re gonna go far
Lyrics: Let’s drive for no reason Let’s see where these wheels land Let’s grind down the curve of this earth You look fine in the evening And honey, it’s starting to storm When we kissed in the car in the school parking lot Where I’d go with my friends to get drunk Used to wish I meant anything, to anywhere, to anyone
When forever was a sentence, sentence to death Oh, when you were a running tear, I was a drop of sweat And the edges of your soul, I haven't seen yet Now I’m glad I get forever to see where you end
I won’t be alone for the rest of my life I’ll build a boat for when the river gets high And I’ll meet a girl in the heat of July And I’ll tell her so she knows That I’m broke But I’m real rich in my head That I broke a bone That never healed in my hand So when I hold her close I might loosen my grip But I won't ever let her go I won't ever let her go
Remember when we called the cops? Cause we got too high And you got scared And the cops just laughed We can't make rent So we window shop In the upper west side Oh my god Could you imagine that
Won’t be alone for the rest of my life I’ll build a boat for when the river gets high And I’ll meet a girl in the heat of July And I’ll tell her so she knows That I’m broke But I’m real rich in my head That I broke a bone That never healed in my hand So when I hold her close I might loosen my grip But I won't ever let her go I won't ever let her go
When forever was a sentence, sentence to death Oh, when you were a running tear, I was a drop of sweat And the edges of your soul I haven't seen yet Now i'm glad I get forever to see where you end To see where you end
Lyrics: Two months since you got back How have you been and are you bored yet? The weather ain’t been bad if you’re into masochistic bullshit And every photograph that’s taken here is from the summer Some guy won Olympic gold eight years ago a distance runner
And that makes a lot of sense this place is such great motivation For anyone tryna move the fuck away from hibernation Woooo
Well I grew up in the fallout from the riots in the nineties Static cranes stand lifeless casting shadows on the town I stare at that hallowed ocean as if to pick a fight For the dreams my old man dreamt for me lay on the other side
I would leave if only I could find a reason I’m mean because I grew up in New England I got dreams but I can’t make myself believe them Spend the rest of my life with what could have been And I will die in the house that I grew up in I’m homesick I’m homesick I’m homesick
Ohhh
I would leave if only I could find a reason I’m mean because I grew up in New England I got dreams but I can’t make myself believe them Spend the rest of my life with what could have been And I will die in the house that I grew up in I’m homesick I’m homesick I’m homesick I’m homesick
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Lyrics: Oh well, who was I? Who was I to watch you wilt? You ain’t gotta tell me what it means trace the outlines of your dreams
You’ll always be a flower on my skin And the pain that I am in It’s all the same The losing touch, the waiting game When you cross that county line I promise to be there this time Alright?
You were a work of art That’s the hardest part
Howling like dogs in the light of the moon Holding our breath after 132 You asked me why I wasn’t saying a word I’m naming the stars in the sky after you
It was a work of art That’s the hardest part
To spiral out To try and float To see a friend To see a ghost
Bitter-brained Always drunk Rail-thin Zoloft
Subtle change Shorter days Dead-eyed Dead weight
Your life Your dreams Your mind Your needs My needs
Your needs My needs
To spiral out To try and float To see a friend To see a ghost
Lyrics: As you promised me that I was more than all the miles combined You must've had yourself a change of heart like halfway through the drive Because your voice trailed off exactly as you passed my exit sign Kept on drivin' straight and left our future to the right Now I am stuck between my anger and the blame that I can't face And memories are somethin' even smoking weed does not replace And I am terrified of weather 'cause I see you when it rains Doc told me to travel, but there's COVID on the planes And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas And I'll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have, but I did not lose Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do So I thought that if I piled something good on all my bad That I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from Dad No, I am no longer funny 'cause I miss the way you laugh You once called me "forever," now you still can't call me back And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas And I'll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have, but I did not lose Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do Oh, that'll have to do My other half was you I hope this pain's just passin' through But I doubt it And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas And I'll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have, but I did not lose Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do Have to do
Lyrics: I'm remembering I promised to forget you now But it’s raining and I’m calling drunk And my medicine is drowning your perspective out So I ain't taking any fault Am I honest still? Am I half the man I used to be? I doubt it, forget about it, whatever It’s all the same anyways I ain’t proud of all the punches that I’ve thrown In the name of someone I no longer know For the shame of being young, drunk, and alone Traffic lights and a transmitter radio I don’t like that when they threw me in the car I gave your name as my emergency phone call Honey it rang and rang even the cops thought you were wrong for hanging up I dial drunk, I’ll die a drunk, I’d die for you I’m untethering from the parts of me you’d recognize From charming, to alarming in seconds I’ll be bedridden, and I’ll let the pain metastasize But that’s morning, I’ll forget it And the dial tone is all I have I ain’t proud of all the punches that I’ve thrown In the name of someone I no longer know For the shame of being young, drunk, and alone Traffic lights and a transmitter radio I don’t like that when they threw me in the car I gave your name as my emergency phone call Honey it rang and rang even the cops thought you were wrong for hanging up I dial drunk, I’ll die a drunk, I’d die for you I’d die for you I beg you sir just let me call I’ll give you my blood alcohol I’ll rot with all the burnouts in the cell I’ll change my faith I’ll praise the flag Let’s wait I swear she’ll call me back “Son, are you a danger to yourself?” that sir just let me call I’ll give you my blood alcohol I’ll rot with all the burnouts in the cell I’ll change my faith I’ll kiss the badge Let’s wait I swear she’ll call me back “Son, why do you do this to yourself?” And I said I ain’t proud of all the punches that I’ve thrown In the name of someone I no longer know For the shame of being young, drunk, and alone Traffic lights and a transmitter radio I don’t like that when they threw me in the car I gave your name as my emergency phone call Honey it rang and rang even the cops thought you were wrong for hanging up I dial drunk, I’ll die a drunk, I’d die for you
#NoahKahan #DialDrunk #SNL
http://vevo.ly/o8xdUANoah Kahan - Stick Season (Live on SNL)Noah Kahan2023-12-03 | Noah Kahan performing on SNL December 2, 2023
Lyrics: As you promised me that I was more than all the miles combined You must've had yourself a change of heart like halfway through the drive Because your voice trailed off exactly as you passed my exit sign Kept on drivin' straight and left our future to the right Now I am stuck between my anger and the blame that I can't face And memories are somethin' even smoking weed does not replace And I am terrified of weather 'cause I see you when it rains Doc told me to travel, but there's COVID on the planes And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas And I'll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have, but I did not lose Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do So I thought that if I piled something good on all my bad That I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from Dad No, I am no longer funny 'cause I miss the way you laugh You once called me "forever," now you still can't call me back And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas And I'll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have, but I did not lose Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do Oh, that'll have to do My other half was you I hope this pain's just passin' through But I doubt it And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas And I'll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have, but I did not lose Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do Have to do
Lyrics: Breathin' in, breathin' out How you been? You settled down? You feelin' right? You feelin' proud? How are your kids? Where are they now?
You build a boat, you build a life You lose your friends, you lose your wife You settle in to routine Where are you? What does it mean?
If I get too close And I'm not how you hoped Forgive my northern attitude Oh, I was raised out in the cold If the sun don't rise 'Til the summertime Forgive my northern attitude Oh, I was raised on little light
Bought some shit, you search online You're gettin' lost, you're gettin' high All alone, late in life Scared to live, scared to die
You build a boat, you build a life You lose your kids, you lose your wife You settle down, you're feelin' lost You're gettin' stoned, then kickin' rocks
If I get too close And I'm not how you hoped Forgive my northern attitude Oh, I was raised out in the cold If the sun don't rise 'Til the summertime Forgive my northern attitude Oh, I was raised on little light
If you get too close And I'm not how you hoped Forgive my northern attitude Oh, I was raised out in the cold If the sun don't shine 'Til the summertime Forgive my northern attitude Oh, I was raised on little light
#NoahKahan #Hozier #NorthernAttitude #StickSeasonNoah Kahan, Kacey Musgraves - She Calls Me Back (Official Lyric Video)Noah Kahan2023-10-06 | “Stick Season (We’ll All Be Here Forever)” Out Now: noahkahan.lnk.to/StickSeasonWABHF
Lyrics: Oh you’re spiraling again The moment right before it ends, you’re most afraid of But don’t you cancel any plans ‘Cuz I won't let you get the chance to never make them
Stayed on the line with you the entire night until you let it out and let it in
Don’t let this darkness fool you All lights turned off can be turned on I’ll drive, I’ll drive all night I’ll call your mom
Oh dear don’t be discouraged I’ve been exactly where you are I’ll drive, I’ll drive all night I’ll call your mom
I’ll call your mom
Waiting room, no place to stand Just greatest fears and wringing hands and the loudest silence If you could see yourself like this If you could see yourself like this, you’d have never tried it
Stayed on the line with you the entire night until you told me that you had to go
Don’t let this darkness fool you All lights turned off can be turned on I’ll drive, I’ll drive all night I’ll call your mom
Oh dear don’t be discouraged I’ve been exactly where you are I’ll drive, I’ll drive all night I’ll call your mom
Medicate, meditate, swear your soul to Jesus Throw a punch, fall in love, give yourself a reason Don’t wanna drive another mile wondering if you’re breathing So won’t you stay, won’t you stay, won’t you stay with me
Medicate, meditate, save your soul for Jesus Throw a punch, fall in love, give yourself a reason Don’t wanna drive another mile without knowing you’re breathing So won’t you stay, won’t you stay, won’t you stay with me?
Don’t let this darkness fool you All lights turned off can be turned on I’ll drive, I’ll drive all night I’ll call your mom
Oh dear don’t be discouraged I’ve been exactly where you are I’ll drive, I’ll drive all night I’ll call your mom
Oh you’re spiraling again The moment right before it ends, you’re most afraid of But don’t you cancel any plans ‘Cuz I won't let you get the chance to never make them
Stayed on the line with you the entire night until you let it out and let it in
Don’t let this darkness fool you All lights turned off can be turned on I’ll drive, I’ll drive all night I’ll call your mom
Oh dear don’t be discouraged I’ve been exactly where you are I’ll drive, I’ll drive all night I’ll call your mom
I’ll call your mom
Waiting room, no place to stand Just greatest fears and wringing hands and the loudest silence If you could see yourself like this If you could see yourself like this, you’d have never tried it
Stayed on the line with you the entire night until you told me that you had to go
Don’t let this darkness fool you All lights turned off can be turned on I’ll drive, I’ll drive all night I’ll call your mom
Oh dear don’t be discouraged I’ve been exactly where you are I’ll drive, I’ll drive all night I’ll call your mom
Medicate, meditate, swear your soul to Jesus Throw a punch, fall in love, give yourself a reason Don’t wanna drive another mile wondering if you’re breathing So won’t you stay, won’t you stay, won’t you stay with me
Medicate, meditate, save your soul for Jesus Throw a punch, fall in love, give yourself a reason Don’t wanna drive another mile without knowing you’re breathing So won’t you stay, won’t you stay, won’t you stay with me?
Don’t let this darkness fool you All lights turned off can be turned on I’ll drive, I’ll drive all night I’ll call your mom
Oh dear don’t be discouraged I’ve been exactly where you are I’ll drive, I’ll drive all night I’ll call your mom
Oh well, who was I? Who was I to watch you wilt? You ain’t gotta tell me what it means trace the outlines of your dreams
You’ll always be a flower on my skin And the pain that I am in It’s all the same The losing touch, the waiting game When you cross that county line I promise to be there this time Alright?
You were a work of art That’s the hardest part
Howling like dogs in the light of the moon Holding our breath after 132 You asked me why I wasn’t saying a word I’m naming the stars in the sky after you
It was a work of art That’s the hardest part
To spiral out To try and float To see a friend To see a ghost
Bitter-brained Always drunk Rail-thin Zoloft
Subtle change Shorter days Dead-eyed Dead weight
Your life Your dreams Your mind Your needs My needs
Your needs My needs
To spiral out To try and float To see a friend To see a ghost
I thought I had something and that’s the same as having something I’d get mad at nothing blame my dad for something I’d pull no punches then feel bad for months
Thought I was raised better Tried to fake better Tried to blame weather and escape better Hoped the skin heals where the pain enters
But I finally got sewed up Set a time then I showed up Now the weight of the world ain’t so bad
I saw the end it looks just like the middle I got a paper and pen and a page with no space I filled the hole in my head with prescription medication Then forgot how to cry, who am I to complain?
And now the pain’s different It still exists it just escapes different and evades vision Makes the rain different Makes the news boring and my rage distant
Yes I’m young and living dreams In love with being noticed and afraid of being seen But I can finally eat and I can fall asleep It’s fine, fine, fine
I finally got sewed up Set a time then I showed up Now the weight of the world ain’t that bad
Well I saw the end it looked just like the middle I got a paper and pen and a page with no space I filled the hole in my head with prescription medication Then forgot how to cry, who am I, who am I, to complain?
To complain To complain
I saw the end it looked just like the middle I got a paper and pen and a page with no space I filled the hole in my head with prescription medication Then forgot how to cry, who am I to complain?
County line, I’m counting down mailboxes until my house This place had a heartbeat in it’s day Vail bought the mountains and nothing was the same
Yes, the boys are drunk, the sun is high Their license plates Live Free or Die But it just ain't that simple, it never was We’ll drink to New Year’s then they’ll leave me to clean up
One day I’m gonna cut it clear Ride like Paul Revere and when they ask me who I am I’ll say “I’m not from around here”
I’ll leave before the road crew’s out Before those joggers looking way too proud And I’ll turn up the music And I’ll forget until it ends that I’m not ready to let go yet
One day I’m gonna cut it clear Ride like Paul Revere and when they ask me who I am I’ll just pretend I didn’t hear
It’s typical, I fear Folks just disappear And when they ask me who I am I’ll say “I’m not from around here”
I’ll say “I’m not from around here”
But I’m in my car And I see the yard The patch of grass where we buried the dog
And the world makes sense Behind a chain link fence If I could leave, I would’ve already left
But I’m in my car And I see the yard The patch of grass where we buried the dog
And the world makes sense Behind a chain link fence If I could leave, I would’ve already left
I'm remembering I promised to forget you now But it’s raining and I’m calling drunk And my medicine is drowning your perspective out So I ain't taking any fault
Am I honest still? Am I half the man I used to be? I doubt it, forget about it, whatever It’s all the same anyways
I ain’t proud of all the punches that I’ve thrown In the name of someone I no longer know For the shame of being young, drunk, and alone Traffic lights and a transmitter radio
I don’t like that when they threw me in the car I gave your name as my emergency phone call Honey it rang and rang even the cops thought you were wrong for hanging up I dial drunk, I’ll die a drunk, I’d die for you
I’m untethering from the parts of me you’d recognize From charming, to alarming in seconds I’ll be bedridden, and I’ll let the pain metastasize But that’s morning, I’ll forget it
And the dial tone is all I have
I ain’t proud of all the punches that I’ve thrown In the name of someone I no longer know For the shame of being young, drunk, and alone Traffic lights and a transmitter radio
I don’t like that when they threw me in the car I gave your name as my emergency phone call Honey it rang and rang even the cops thought you were wrong for hanging up I dial drunk, I’ll die a drunk, I’d die for you
I’d die for you
I beg you sir just let me call I’ll give you my blood alcohol I’ll rot with all the burnouts in the cell
I’ll change my faith I’ll praise the flag Let’s wait I swear she’ll call me back “Son, are you a danger to yourself?”
Fuck that sir just let me call I’ll give you my blood alcohol I’ll rot with all the burnouts in the cell
I’ll change my faith I’ll kiss the badge Let’s wait I swear she’ll call me back “Son, why do you do this to yourself?”
And I said
I ain’t proud of all the punches that I’ve thrown In the name of someone I no longer know For the shame of being young, drunk, and alone Traffic lights and a transmitter radio
I don’t like that when they threw me in the car I gave your name as my emergency phone call Honey it rang and rang even the cops thought you were wrong for hanging up I dial drunk, I’ll die a drunk, I’d die for you
The only time I got to praying for a red light was when I saw your destination as a deadline This is normal conversation babe, it’s all fine I’m making quiet calculations to where the fault lies
“This is good land” or at least it was It takes a strong hand, and a sound mind
The college kids are getting so young ain’t they? They’re correcting all the grammar on our spray paint And I even gave up driving after nightfall I got tired of the frat boys with their brights on
“This is good land” or at least it was It takes a strong hand, and a sound mind
But it makes me smile to know when things get hard You’ll be far, you’ll be far from here
That while I clean shit up in the yard You’ll be far, you’ll be far, far from here
So pack up your car, put a hand on your heart Say whatever you feel, be wherever you are We ain’t angry at you love, you’re the greatest thing we’ve lost
The birds will still sing, your folks will still fight The boards will still creak, the leaves will still die We ain’t angry at you love, we’ll be waiting for you love
And we’ll all be here forever And we’ll all be here forever
We sure will
We’re overdue for a revival We spent so long just getting by That’s the thing about survival Who the hell likes living just to die?
You told me you would make a difference Well I got drunk and shut you down It won’t be by your own volition If you step foot outside this town
But it’s all we had, for always
So pack up your car, put a hand on your heart Say whatever you feel, be wherever you are We ain’t angry at you love, you’re the greatest thing we’ve lost
The birds will still sing, your folks will still fight The boards will still creak, the leaves will still die We ain’t angry at you love, we’ll be waiting for you love
And we’ll all be here forever And we’ll all be here forever
You’re gonna go far You’re gonna go far You’re gonna go far You’re gonna go far
Creative Direction: Mikey Lavi (@mikey_lavi) Photography: Patrick McCormack (@patrick.mccormack) Animation: John Andosca (@john__ny)
Lyrics: Darling speak to me but don’t you say a word Light a cigarette I’ll watch it as it burns Remember telling me that you thought you were cursed? I’m in love with every song you’ve ever heard
If I could lose you I would We buried your bones in plywood If I could lose you I would We buried your bones in plywood
I said love is fast asleep on a dirt road with your head on my shoulder
Strawberry wine and all the time we used to have Those things I miss but know are never coming back For you darling For you
No thing defines a man like love that makes him soft and sentimental like a stranger in the park For a few moments I see you
If I was empty space and you were formless shape we’d fit But love leaves little runway and every time we run straight over it If I was empty space and you were formless shape we’d fit But love leaves little runway and every time we run straight over it
Creative Direction: Mikey Lavi (@mikey_lavi) Photography: Patrick McCormack (@patrick.mccormack) Animation: John Andosca (@john__ny)
Lyrics: So I took my medication And I poured my trauma out On some sad-eyed middle aged man’s over-priced new leather couch
And we argued about Jesus Finally found some middle ground I said I’m cured
And I’ve divvied up my anger Into thirty separate parts Keep the bad shit in my liver And the rest around my heart
And I’m still angry at my parents For what their parents did to them But it’s a start
But I ignore things and I move sideways ‘Till I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day I know there are worse ways To stay alive
‘Cuz everyone’s growing And everyone’s healthy I’m terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty I guess I’ll drive I guess I’ll drive
So I forgot my medication Fell into a manic high Spent my savings at a Lulu Now I’m suffering in style Why is pain so damn impatient Ain’t like it’s got a place to be Keeps rushing me
But I ignore things and I move sideways ‘Till I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day I know there are worse ways To stay alive
‘Cuz everyone’s growing And everyone’s healthy I’m terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty I guess I’ll drive
And if all my life was wasted I don’t mind I’ll watch it go It’s better to die numb than feel at all
Oh, if all my time was wasted I don’t mind I’ll watch it go It’s better to die numb than feel at all
So I ignore things and I move sideways ‘Till I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day I know there are worse ways To stay alive
‘Cuz everyone’s growing And everyone’s healthy I’m terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty I guess I’ll drive I guess I’ll drive
Creative Direction: Mikey Lavi (@mikey_lavi) Photography: Patrick McCormack (@patrick.mccormack) Animation: John Andosca (@john__ny)
Lyrics: I don’t, I don’t, I don’t want to say goodbye I don’t, I don’t, I don’t want to say goodbye
It only falls into place when you’re falling to pieces You find love that lasts a while ‘till you lose the reasons Saying god I’m alive But the whole place is quiet You miss something that you can’t place but you can’t deny it
Don’t know whether you want a place in the coast or the country you can’t stay here it’s hard to face and it feels so ugly You light a fire inside yourself Let it burn Stare up at a starless sky and you say
It’s like I’m still here with you It’s like I’m still here with you
I don’t, I don’t, I don’t want to say goodbye
The past coming back with the light in the morning Look down on myself like a patient in surgery And I used to watch my mother move Like god was in the room
It’s a bottomless hole I’ve found out here with a trace of no one Grab a past box of photos I rip myself open I’m in bed and I’m wondering If I’m callous but hoping Can fix what is broken When the words have been spoken
It’s like I’m still here with you It’s like I’m still here with you
I don’t, I don’t, I don’t want to say goodbye
It’s like I’m still here with you It’s like I’m still here with you
I don’t, I don’t, I don’t want to say goodbye
It’s like I’m still here with you It’s like I’m still here with you
I don’t, I don’t, I don’t want to say goodbye
I don’t, I don’t, I don’t want to say I don’t, I don’t, I don’t want to say I don’t, I don’t, I don’t want to say goodbye
I don’t, I don’t, I don’t want to say I don’t, I don’t, I don’t want to say I don’t, I don’t, I don’t want to say goodbye
It only falls into place when you’re falling to pieces You find love that lasts a while ‘till you lose the reasons Saying god I’m alive But the whole place is quiet You miss something that you can’t place but you can’t deny it
Creative Direction: Mikey Lavi (@mikey_lavi) Photography: Patrick McCormack (@patrick.mccormack) Animation: John Andosca (@john__ny)
Lyrics: Two months since you got back How have you been and are you bored yet? The weather ain’t been bad if you’re into masochistic bullshit And every photograph that’s taken here is from the summer Some guy won Olympic gold eight years ago a distance runner And that makes a lot of sense this place is such great motivation For anyone tryna move the fuck away from hibernation Woooo
Well I’m tired of dirt roads named after high school friends’ grandfathers And motherfuckers here still don’t know they caught the Boston bombers Time moves so damn slow I swear I feel my organs failing I stopped caring ‘bout a month ago since then it’s been smooth sailing
I would leave if only I could find a reason I’m mean because I grew up in New England I got dreams but I can’t make myself believe them Spend the rest of my life with what could have been And I will die in the house that I grew up in I’m homesick I’m homesick I’m homesick
Oh
I would leave if only I could find a reason I’m mean because I grew up in New England I got dreams but I can’t make myself believe them Spend the rest of my life with what could have been And I will die in the house that I grew up in I’m homesick I’m homesick I’m homesick I’m homesick
Creative Direction: Mikey Lavi (@mikey_lavi) Photography: Patrick McCormack (@patrick.mccormack) Animation: John Andosca (@john__ny)
Lyrics: Oh, silence is making me nostalgic Two sizes big your shirt in my apartment Oh, we were kids but that don’t make this less hard
If I could fly I doubt I’d even do it I’d probably get high and crash or something stupid You made Ohio feel just like Central Park
Liberal rednecks get drunk on a dirt road Attention deficit kids in their gym clothes Paper bags drift wherever the wind blows And mine’s full of receipts
Oh, this town’s for the record now The intersection got a Target And they’re calling it downtown
You and all of your new perspective now Wish I could shut it in a closet And drag you back down
Gave me your word and now I can’t pronounce it No thing so sure that I can’t learn to doubt it Now the state bird it sings our song so out of key
Liberal rednecks get drunk on a dirt road Attention deficit kids in their gym clothes Paper bags drift wherever the wind blows And mine’s full of receipts
Oh, this town’s for the record now The intersection got a Target And they’re calling it downtown
You and all of your new perspective now Wish I could shut it in a closet And drag you back down
And drag you back down
Liberal rednecks get drunk on a dirt road Attention deficit kids in their gym clothes Paper bags drift wherever the wind blows And mine’s full of receipts
Oh, this town’s for the record now The intersection got a Target And they’re calling it downtown
You and all of your new perspective now Wish I could shut it in a closet And drag you back down
Creative Direction: Mikey Lavi (@mikey_lavi) Photography: Patrick McCormack (@patrick.mccormack) Animation: John Andosca (@john__ny)
Lyrics: How have things been? Well love, now that you mention it My folks still talk but they speak in these two word sentences I’m saying too much but you know how it gets out here No winter coat could keep out all the cold of your atmosphere
And we once sang Retrograde We’d shake the frame of your car Now I know your name but not who you are It’s all okay, there ain’t a drop of bad blood It’s all my love You got all my love
I’m still out here With the pills and the dogs If you need me dear, I’m the same as I was It’s all okay, there ain’t a drop of bad blood It’s all my love You got all my love You got all my love
Write me a list of how it is of how it was, of how it has to be You burrowed in under my skin What I’d give to have you out from me
But I still recall How the leather in your car feels And at the end of it all I just hope that your scars heal
And we once sang Retrograde We’d shake the frame of your car Now I know your name but not who you are It’s all okay, there ain’t a drop of bad blood It’s all my love You got all my love
But I’m still out here With the pills and the dogs If you need me dear, I’m the same as I was It’s all okay, there ain’t a drop of bad blood It’s all my love You got all my love You got all my love
Well I leaned in for a kiss Thirty feet from where your parents slept And I looked so confident Babe I swear I was scared to death
My hands gripped the wheel I smiled stupid the whole way home Well those five words in my head you said “I’ll never let you go”
And I sang Retrograde We’d shake the frame of your car Now I know your name but not who you are It’s all okay, there ain’t a drop of bad blood It’s all my love You got all my love
And it’s still out here With the pills and the dogs Wind chill this year Stole the words from my tongue It’s all okay There ain’t a drop of bad blood It’s all my love You got all my love You got all my love You got all my love You got all my love You got all my love
Creative Direction: Mikey Lavi (@mikey_lavi) Photography: Patrick McCormack (@patrick.mccormack) Animation: John Andosca (@john__ny)
Lyrics: I’m sailing away to a place I’m afraid of The dawn isn’t here The sun hasn’t rose
I’m drinking my days with the coastal longshoreman They got money to make And children back home
And the last that I heard you were down in New Orleans Working your days at the print
I drink ‘till I drown and I smoke ‘till im burning Your hands are all over my scent
I worry for you You worry for me And it’s fine if we know we won’t change
Collect every dream In these old empty pockets And hope that I’ll need them some day
But the wreckage of you I no longer reside in The bridges have long since been burnt the ash of the home that I started the fire It starts to return to the earth I’m leaving this town and I’m changing my address I know that you’ll come if you want It’s not Halloween but the ghost you dressed up as Sure knows how to haunt Yeah you know how to haunt
It’s an Ode to the hole that I’ve found myself stuck in A song for the grave that I’ve dug
There’s a murder of crows in the low light off Boston And I see your face in each one
I’m losing myself in the tiniest objects I’m seeing my life on a screen
I’m hearing your voice in a strange foreign language If only I learned how to speak
But the wreckage of you I no longer reside in The bridges have long since been burnt the ash of the home that I started the fire It starts to return to the earth I’m leaving this town and I’m changing my address I know that you’ll come if you want It’s not Halloween but the ghost you dressed up as Sure knows how to haunt Yeah you know how to haunt
I know that you fear that I’m wicked and weary I know that you’re fearing the end But I only tell truth when I’m sure that I’m lying So I’m setting sail once again
Lyrics: As you promised me that I was more than all the miles combined You must have had yourself a change of heart like halfway through the drive Because your voice trailed off exactly as you passed my exit sign Kept on driving straight and left our future to the right
Now I am stuck between my anger and the blame that I can’t face And memories are something even smoking weed does not replace And I am terrified of weather ‘cause I see you when it rains Doc told me to travel but there’s COVID on the planes
And I love Vermont but it’s the season of the sticks And I saw your mom she forgot that I existed And it’s half my fault but I just like to play victim I’ll drink alcohol ‘till my friends come for Christmas
And I’ll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have but I did not lose Now you’re tire tracks and one pair of shoes Am I’m split in half but that’ll have to do
So I thought that if I piled something good on all my bad That I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from Dad No I am no longer funny ‘cause I miss the way you laugh Once called me forever now you still can’t call me back
And I love Vermont but it’s the season of the sticks And I saw your mom she forgot that I existed And it’s half my fault but I just like to play victim I’ll drink alcohol ‘till my friends come for Christmas
And I’ll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have but I did not lose Now you’re tire tracks and one pair of shoes Am I’m split in half but that’ll have to do
Oh, that’ll have to do My other half was you I hope this pain’s just passing through But I doubt it
And I love Vermont but it’s the season of the sticks And I saw your mom she forgot that I existed And it’s half my fault but I just like to play victim I’ll drink alcohol ‘till my friends come for Christmas
And I’ll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have but I did not lose Now you’re tire tracks and one pair of shoes Am I’m split in half but that’ll have to do Have to do