Responding to HotBox in Real Time | How You Antis Have Been Wrong This Whole Time (Trigger Warning) Reitanna Seishin 2026-09-19 | Responding to HotBox in Real Time | How You Antis Have Been Wrong This Whole Time (Trigger Warning)
How Are You Doing? Reitanna Seishin 2023-09-11 | trying to strike up a conversation with my daughter. doesn't seem to be working.update on my health: I am only extremely allergic to dust mites, but we're not sure if that's what's causing these problems. I have a neurology appointment at some point, but not soon. I'm on medication to lower my cholesterol. overall, kind of at a stand still.to the person who tried to convince me not to lose weight in 2020, and then got mad when I tried to get you to drop it, so you joined the army against me that ruined my life and made me try to unalive myself, and also led to an increase in my binge eating, I hope you feel good about trying to promote obesity and poor health. I'm glad I know that you're the kind of person who believes high cholesterol and fatty liver disease is a good thing. then again, you proved to be a terrible person by about fifty other actions as well. I am fortunate that I never became friends with you. you've done things I wouldn't even CONSIDER doing to people, and you helped fuel rumors saying I do things that I'd also never consider doing to people. I just can't imagine treating people the way you treated me and others. but if you like being unhealthy so much, please eat. just eat everything. please. eat only carbs, only white starches, and lots of sweets. join me. join the fatty liver club. you can have a walking stick too.
Cat Loves Silicone Ring Reitanna Seishin 2023-08-04 | she is so happy when we put one of our rings in front of her. we don't think she'll try to swallow it, but we keep a close eye on her anyway. we never leave her alone with it, don't worry.
Baby Girl Being a Cat Reitanna Seishin 2023-07-26 | God, I am so sick of whatever is wrong with my sinuses. we're trying so hard to get a CT scan scheduled, but like, the TINIEST things are getting in the way, like referrals not going through. I feel like I've been punched in the face. at least there's Baby Girl, she's my sanity. I miss Jonnie though. aaaargh my head hurts.
Last Video of Jonnie Reitanna Seishin 2023-06-15 | I took this a few weeks before Jonnie's meds stopped working. in this video, he is torn between wanting to nap and wanting to sniff the fresh air from the open window.today he passed away. as I've mentioned before, the lack of medical care for small animals means we can't adopt more rats indefinitely. luckily Baby Girl is healthy and there are way more cat vets available still. it will be hard for us not to have rats because they are truly wonderful, and Jonnie, having been a stray who bit us bloody, was our little miracle who learned he could trust us and love us. unfortunately, respiratory problems are coded into rat DNA, and we did everything we could until his body rejected everything. this is never easy, especially for me since I form parent/child relationships with my pets, but he let me know he loved me, we shared a chocolate cupcake, and then it was goodbye. I don't have the strength to fully deal with this loss, even less than usual because of other circumstances, but my doc started me on lithium, which is supposed to decrease suicidal ideation, I'm taking Clonazepam AND hydroxyzine for anxiety, and I'm feeling like I'm running around in circles chasing my own tail and expecting to find answers when I catch it. this would be easier if someone hadn't fucked me up for their own entertainment. I've hidden my noose, so it's there for when I'm ready. I want to give the lithium a chance to work, I can't expect it to work right away.did you know that narcissists won't take prescribed medication? it's because they don't think anything is wrong with them. I've been on medication, struggling to find the right shit for more than ten years because I know there are way too many things wrong with me. I just learned that about narcissists recently from a true crime show. note, this was a few months after my psychiatrist officially diagnosed me as not having narcissistic personality disorder. I care about a rat more than myself. did you know I've been told, "get over it, it's just a stupid rat"? any human that views themselves above any other living thing is a narcissist. Jonnie was my son, and he was a miracle because he survived one of the coldest winters we've had here, and thinking about him shivering outside in the rain and snow has always brought tears to my eyes. but I convinced Michael that we should adopt him, and he bit us like crazy, but I didn't give up, and I have a video of his very first trust step right here on YouTube. it just escalated from there, and eventually, even his gentle nipping stopped, and he gave some kisses. he took food from our hands, he let us pick him up, he climbed on us, and for those of you who don't know rodents, those are big trust steps. he was a wonderful boy with a marking on his head that looked like a phoenix rising, and he was a little phoenix in his own way. I'll love him forever, just like my other babies.Baby Girl is going to get so sick of how much more attention she's going to get. she's a rescue too, and loves to be pet, but hates to be held. she might just have to deal with it. she loves rats, though, so she's going to be confused as to where her brother is. I wish ghosts were real so I could see all my babies playing aroundunrelated: I had a CT scan yesterday. apparently I have an abnormally shaped uterus. otherwise they didn't find anything wrong there, so I still have to see an endocrinologist. I just want to stop being hot all the time, and I want them to stop my period so that I don't have another two week one after two months of no period.... I hate my body. I hate my brain. I'm so tired. my psychiatrist told me to sleep when I feel sleepy, but it's hard when, all your life, you've been told that sleeping more than eight hours makes you lazy. when laziness isn't a choice, it's a symptom of a bigger, more serious problem. I have so many things I want to do and work on, and I can't even get myself up to take care of myself. my depression is at its worst. I feel sick and dizzy all the time. the only thing that hasn't been scanned is my head. we'll see what happens with the endocrinologist.please wish Jonnie a happy afterlife. and support your local veterinarians who are underpaid so much, that they quit there jobs helping animals that are not cats and dogs. everyone in the medical field, human or not, is suffering from poor wages and unfair hours, at least in the US. imagine if there were suddenly no pediatricians to see your sick kids. that's how it is with "exotic" pet vets right now. and no adoptions means more animals are bred just to die. I hate this planet.
Im Older... Reitanna Seishin 2023-06-08 | this video is using a picture of me when I was nineteen. the angle was kind of weird for the animation, but at least it's pretty, and not the ugly piece of barfed up trash I am now! :)
I Dont Know Who Needs to Hear This Right Now, But... Reitanna Seishin 2023-05-29 | you do. YOU need to hear it.
AI Mirror Drawing Its Own Results Repeatedly Reitanna Seishin 2023-05-28 | curiosity didn't kill the cat, it made the cat sit through a thirty second ad every single time a picture was put through the AI because the cat isn't going to pay a monthly subscription for this kind of app. it's me. i'm the cat.want to see more of what AI Mirror can do? i've been obsessed with taking pictures and putting it through the app. the ads make it take forever, but some of the results are really fun. all of my AI art is public on my patreon page: patreon.com/reitannaseishinhere's a thinker... if you take a photograph or draw a picture, and then you have an AI redraw it, usually making it look better, does the result belong to you? are YOU the artist of what the AI came up with?
Treat People the Way They Treat You Reitanna Seishin 2023-05-25 | story of my life.person: you're a stupid bitch!!!!! kill yourself!!!!!!!me: fuck you.person: (gasp!) whaaaaat?! how daaaaaaare you! do you know who I am?!?! you can't say that to meeeee!!! I was just stating my opinion! you can't handle criticism! oh my god, I can't believe how mean you are! why are you so mean?!?!?
The Prettiest Cat Reitanna Seishin 2023-05-23 | I can't even explain how much I love this creature. XD
I Dont Even Know Reitanna Seishin 2023-05-19 | I don't know what this audio clip is, but the face is hilarious.
Potatopera Reitanna Seishin 2023-05-09 | For me, this gets funnier the more I watch it on a loop. #IsPotato
Cut It All Reitanna Seishin 2023-05-03 | I personally was only told to cut the big loops. I figured on my own that things could get trapped in the smaller holes too. this is for you in case you are like me.
My Husbands Theme Song Reitanna Seishin 2023-04-30 | really, any lower-middle class American's theme song...
Eileen Doesnt Suck Reitanna Seishin 2023-04-30 | I spent way too much time on this face dance app... you'll see, as I'll be uploading one for the next few days. XD it works great on Barbies.
Jonnie Being Cute As Always Reitanna Seishin 2023-04-25 | my rat, my rat, my rat is so cute, my rat, my rat, cuter than you.
Sun and Fresh Air Reitanna Seishin 2023-04-11 | my babies enjoying sun and fresh air for the first time in a long time because the stupid weather wouldn't allow us to open our windows.
Your Mane Looks Different Reitanna Seishin 2023-03-31 | I had plans to make all seven bakers... this flaw in Minkie made me feel useless and like a loser, but I almost continued, even planned to redo Minkie even though no one else cared... well, now I'm not capable of finishing this project.
It Is Cold Outside Reitanna Seishin 2023-03-06 | Monsieur Octopus and Miss Stingray just had their first date, but Miss Stingray isn't sure if she wants to stay at Monsieur Octopus' home for the night, despite it being very cold. Miss Stingray is in for a shock.
I Wuv My Childrens Reitanna Seishin 2023-03-04 | my bebes. my kitty and my ratty. my sweets. I won't let you take them away from me.
Little Moments Reitanna Seishin 2023-01-31 | these creatures are my babies. they are my children. they cause little moments of happiness. if I could, I'd make these little moments into forever, but I can't just deprive them of sleep by demanding their attention all day. these are living beings. Jonnie was already rescued from the cold once. Baby Girl is also a rescue. I love them so much. I love my husband more than anything. I just wonder how many times my safety plan is going to work for me.just animal videos. just little moments.
I Dont Know Reitanna Seishin 2023-01-24 | I'm crying and venting a lot in this video. I don't even know why I'm posting it. I'm desperately trying to find help when no help can be found. I don't know what I can get out of life anymore. I don't know if I'm trying to reach out for help here, or if I'm just trying to grasp at someone who understands. I don't know what I'm doing. I am in so much pain. I'm trying so hard.
My Possessed Shiny Swirlix Reitanna Seishin 2023-01-17 | funny story... in Pokemon Sword, I've been trying to breed for a shiny Swirlix. it was taking a long time like shiny breeding can. I usually have Pokemon Go running on my phone and use my PokeBall plus to catch Pokemon... and it caught me a shiny Swirlix. yay? yeah, yay.and then I tried playing with it. turns out, he's a Satan Swirlix. hey, at least he's chocolate. silver linings.
Royal Family Mochi Taste Review - Sesame, Peanut, Red Bean Reitanna Seishin 2022-12-02 | thanks to my grandma for sending me this mochi. I hadn't tried this particular package, but if it's vegetarian friendly, I'm willing to try anything. I really liked this, but everyone is different, so try at your own risk. I love Japanese food in general.
Jonnie Eating Apple Reitanna Seishin 2022-11-28 | I'm recovering from Covid. T_T stupid virus mutations.
Sick, but Not of Babies Reitanna Seishin 2022-11-16 | I just want to remind everyone that I deleted my Twitter. I'm also not on Facebook or Instagram. you can keep up with things by following my WordPress. as for videos, Mike and I have been brainstorming some stuff.please donate to my Patreon to help us with medical bills we accumulated from my suicide attempt. even just a dollar makes a difference. the mental hospital is the one kicking the most ass because the hospital I'm insured with doesn't have a mental health branch. our rent also went up a lot. everyone who had a hand in what happened to me must be laughing their asses off.
I Tried to Kill Myself | Why, Experience, Thoughts Reitanna Seishin 2022-11-02 | if you believe the slander/libel about me and you consider yourself a good person, you will make the time to listen to this, even if in parts. i don't want to think you're ALL bad people, i think you're just easily manipulated. it's possible you're a victim in this, even though you fueled the fire, because you were played into doing so. the people who have already found out they were victims can tell you. one of them tried, but... well, you've been manipulated more successfully than i thought was possible.i didn't listen to this before posting it because it was hard enough making it. i doubt many will listen because of sheer length, but if you do, and i seem to say something just not right, like i've said a million times, and like i remind you in this video, I HAVE SPEECH PROBLEMS. i'm not the only one in this world who struggles with these specific problems, like, SPECIFICALLY. i am not special, this isn't new to people or the world, this is something that people like me can't reverse after a certain period of mental development. not just that, but just like any human does, i can get into a stream of consciousness, and that has indeed caused the second biggest mistake i've ever made in my life, so i try really hard not to do that. i'm explaining this, even though i shouldn't have to at this point, because how so many people seem to enjoy creating new meanings to things i say than what i actually meant. these people know who they are.also, this happened after the video was recorded, so this is important information to help you understand how severe this really is: reitannaseishin.wordpress.com/2022/11/02/good-jobi really didn't think it was possible to fool so many people with so little to go on... i don't know why i didn't remind myself of who our last president was. i need to stop being so naive. the world is shit.
Good Siblings Reitanna Seishin 2022-09-06 | so Baby Girl and Jonnie met on accident one day, and Jonnie didn't attack her like we thought he would. they've been able to be on the bed together for a week or two now.
Follow the Lights | Stray part3 Reitanna Seishin 2022-08-31 | ugh. this 31 minute video took me 3 hours to edit. i do roughly 30 minutes recordings, edit them, and cut them in half into two separate videos. this doesn't look like it'd take 3 hours, does it? imagine how long a lot of my other, older videos took to edit. that's why i get pissed off when people make a big deal about me not uploading stuff. wouldn't you?
Ugly Eats (Test Episode) Reitanna Seishin 2022-08-23 | if you want a regular segment based on this concept, let me know. however, if I do it, I won't get serious with until I have the ability to do so.edit: for those of you who didn't watch to the end, watch to the end. what part of, "look at the mess i have to clean up" don't you understand?
Chibi Headcrabs? | Stray part 2 Reitanna Seishin 2022-08-12 | please don't tell me what the little things are called, i now know what they are because i played much further that day. plus, for people new to this game, i don't want anyone ruining that for them.uploads of this series will be few and far between. it's hard enough just to get up each morning, let alone editing a video. i've actually been meaning to edit this video for the last few days, but i haven't been doing well, and i'm exhausted and unmotivated, and it's like, what's the point anymore? i can't make a living off of this anymore thanks to those people who defamed me. i'm not pretty/attractive enough to be a camgirl either, so it's like... what's the point of existing if you can't afford to do it? but i'm still trying as hard as i can, but i don't have the energy to try hard, so i just eat sweets and watch videos, and then i just feel worse, so i eat more sweets, and i hate myself. i'm so tired.
Catanna Seimeow on the Move | Stray part 1 Reitanna Seishin 2022-08-05 | i decided to upload my gameplay for stray because this is my channel, and i want to try and force happiness on myself. i'm just not in a good place right now. i hope some of you enjoy this video at least. i'm sorry, i'm just trying to make money to help keep us afloat.
Munch Munch Crunch Crunch Reitanna Seishin 2022-08-02 | my boy eating his noms.edit: i don't know why, but this video's comments keep getting disabled, and i have to re-enable them. i don't know why this is happening. probably punishment for trying to be happy.
Yummy Steamed Custard Buns (Not a Recipe Video) Reitanna Seishin 2022-07-28 | some finished steamed buns filled with custard cream. also, the reason I won't make baking videos.
Characters Made in V-Katsu Reitanna Seishin 2022-07-27 | this is a test video to check my hardware. i discovered that my computer sound wasn't getting picked up. hope you like this for some reason.
