shot by Xenofawn & EXPEN$IVEHOE set construction by me & EXPEN$IVEHOE edited by meeeADA ROOK - night in a secret world (prod. ESPer99) - Official videoADA ROOK2024-07-23 | shot by ESPer99 esper99.org
0:00 - FANTA 2:53 - FEEL SOMETHING 5:46 - CAT CUP 9:06 - BAD VEGGIES 12:02 - WOUNDED ANIMAL 15:59 - GOOD THINGS HAPPEN 21:04 - DON'T FORGIVE THE WORLD 23:40 - THE WORLD 26:42 - PURE REALITY 31:34 - IF YOU FIND ME GONE 37:10 - LAST LOVE SONG ON THIS LITTLE PLANET 40:03 - I STILL SEE EVERYTHING 42:48 - STOOPID DREAM 45:36 - 1-800-THE-MOON 48:37 - MAGIC EYE 51:05 - ROTATION 53:46 - NO DAYS OFF 57:47 - CHAMPION IN DECAY 1:00:57 - CAN'T KEEP THE KNOTS OUT 1:04:28 - IT'S PROBABLY FINE 1:09:01 - ZERO FANTASY 1:13:21 - SILENCEBlack Dresses - BAD VEGGIES (Official video 18+)ADA ROOK2024-05-17 | video by 54% https://54p.moe/ Black Dresses "LAUGHINGFISH" out now
LYRICS: Rook: Feeling lost again Just like back then when I couldn't be anything Medication and the pressure Stole my voice stole my dick Stole my precious dreams Is it really all this heartless? Are we just doomed to be stuck where we started If this is it then I don't wanna become anything
Feeling lost again the way that I was It stole my voice & body Trying to make me give up
But,
When everything is quiet It's louder than a scream Devi: Uh oh, uh oh Rook: What is this thing inside of me? I can't drown it out alone I need you to help me
Devi: I hided how it made it feel But still it didn't Work I tried to hide how I was feeling Still- But still my feelings hurt
Who's that in my head? Replaying over again without knowing Bring you down and I know it
Let her Try to be polite When I'm down Push her down into the marble floor In the piggy pen In a body, born to be let down
Rook: When everything is quiet It's louder than a scream Devi: Uh oh, uh oh Rook: What is this thing inside of me? What does it need? What does it mean? I can't do this on my own I need u PleaseADA ROOK - UNDERNEATH IT ALL feat. ASH NERVE (Official lyric video)ADA ROOK2024-03-11 | STREAM: open.spotify.com/artist/1x1MfkVjf8yEzwKhAYZtPY BANDCAMP: adarook.bandcamp.com PATREON: patreon.com/adarook CG BY SEROTINES: instagram.com/serotinesart20230912_135811ADA ROOK2023-09-12 | devi gave me a microfreak for my birthday!!! heres a beat i made with it...,, this device has stupid amts of sauce. the thing is just wet with sauceBlack Dresses - NO DAYS OFF / MONEY MAKES YOU STUPID - Live at Hard Luck July 25th 2023ADA ROOK2023-08-21 | Watch the full set on our patreon: patreon.com/blackdresses
Shot by XenofawnBlack Dresses - MINDCRUSHED + BEAUTIFUL FRIENDSHIP Live at Bar Orwell July 9th 2023ADA ROOK2023-08-03 | Watch the full set on our patreron: patreon.com/blackdresses
shot by Mara Reine GrayADA ROOK - RAT KID LIFESTYLE (new song) - Live at Bar OrwellADA ROOK2023-07-29 | from the july 9th fundraiser show for a our friend Astrid. donate to her gofundme here: gofundme.com/f/lets-keep-astrid-in-canada
9 moon damage edmonton alberta no heat and the pipes froze in the winter so we had to walk to the abandoned place behind us to piss silverfish got on everything at night but the rent was 260 and there was an emotional attachment too we all had the hottest twitter presences no one online could understand what our deal was but it was like a drug to them everyone wanted our vibe but no one could come close we shared dreams every night so everyone knew the intricacies of each others past/present/future way deeper than a conversation way more vivid than roleplay something to do with the species of mold under the laminate floors in the basement and the flickers of that other world we found together we kept nothing from each other and it was doomed to fail from the start when they tore the house down i couldn't even cry it all died with us and now no one will ever know our secret
Ada Rook: vocals/guitar/bass/production
Melody Marrow: drumkit on all tracks except 14, backing vocals on 3, 6, 9, 11, 12, 13, 14
DataErase: cover art
0:00 Wet Dream 2:40 Skybox 3:52 Plasmageist 5:09 9 Moon Damage 7:06 Blood Semen Box-Elder 10:57 Portal Zero 14:15 Real Home 15:29 Right of First Refusal on all New Units 17:02 Record of Demolition X Month X Day 17:40 Halo Generator Breaking Down 19:37 Meridian Verge 21:31 Re: Weapon 22:28 Aging Net Artist 23:57 God Cum PoltergeistbugADA ROOK2023-07-06 | ...Crisis Sigil - God Cum Poltergeist - July 7thADA ROOK2023-06-19 | cover art by dataerase twitter.com/DataErase live drums and backing vocals by melody marrow instagram.com/melody.wanna.skateADA ROOK - VANISH/DOOM (Official video)ADA ROOK2023-06-14 | UGLY DEATH NO REDEMPTION ANGEL CURSE I LOVE YOU open.spotify.com/album/57Gap1bLf80bG8yfhyBjzDADA ROOK - im cis (prod. ESPer99) official videoADA ROOK2023-05-29 | STREAM UGLY DEATH open.spotify.com/album/57Gap1bLf80bG8yfhyBjzD
FUCK IT I'M NOT SICK I'M NOT GAY I'M NOT TRANS I'M NOT TRAUMATIZED
So many things that I wish I'd never externalized You're treasured for baring your soul until it's weaponized
I wanna have a good time Keep a few secrets from the 20,000 eyes I'm fucking done with the 2,020 Knives I'm over bleeding out. I just wanna feel nice
I say none of my songs are about being trans I wish that none of my songs were about a """fucked up past""" Everyone has fucked up pasts, it's not a free pass
(rook) got the guts to follow thru turn my brain off and just move everything beyond this point brand new don't take it too serious look in the mirror, eww, who is that sickly bitch? i got the guts to just get this over with
(devi) Spirals spin in circles and blur I'm not like the other girls Puking off the edge of the world
(devi) I don't got the guts, yeah I don't got the guts to look you in the eye I just got the guts to cry, huh? Do what I- Do what I- Do what I try Yeah I got the guts now Got the guts now
(rook) i found the guts to keep trying the guts to keep lying that i am not crying in the bathroom shut up, come on, get up the hardest part was just getting here but everyone is like "speak up" and all the words are just reflux and i cannot even dream up a reason to not go home
(devi+rook) I don't got the guts, nah I don't got the guts to look you in the eye (got the guts!! got the guts!!!!) I don't got the guts I don't got the guts to do what I- (got the guts to do) Do what I try (what i) I don't got the guts, nah (got the guts!!!) I don't got the I don't I don't got the guts, nah (guts! guts!!!) To look you in the eye (got the guts) I don't got the guts Now I puke and cry (i dont fucking got the fucking guts!!) I don't got the guts (huh huagh hugauhgfds) Now I puke and cry I don't got the guts (got the guts) Now I just puke and cry (cryyyyy)
(devi) Y'know, I love you laugh when I cry Can't think about it, we're here a short time I don't wanna carry you inside of me
I guess I'm just a wimp and a weakling Everyone wants to feel needed Even if they aren't really needed
(devi+rook) I don't got the guts, nah I don't I don't I don't I don't I don't got the guts now (i dont got the guts) I just puke and cry I don't got the guts now (aaaaaaaa) I don't I don't I don't I don't I don't got the guts, nah (aaaaaaaaaaaa) I don't I don't I don't I don't
I don't got the guts (yeah) I don't got the guts (hey) (I - DONT) I don't got the guts (yeah) (GOT - THE) I don't got the guts (hey) (GUTS) I don't got the guts (yeah) I don't have the guts (yeah) I don't have the guts (yeah) (AAAAAaaaaa) I don't got the gutsADA ROOK - 920LONDON (prod. ESPer99) - Official videoADA ROOK2023-03-28 | new mini-album Rookie's Bustle out now! spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/1x1MfkVjf8yEzwKhAYZtPY bandcamp: adarook.bandcamp.com/album/rookies-bustle
this song is inspired by the comic 920LONDON by Remy Boydell, which u can find here: http://www.slimgiltsoul.com
could it end any other way? the clouds in my head starting to break staring at the sky on the morning after the windows of the last train the station cold, grey
now how long has it been? can you feel anything? now how long as it been? can you feel anything at all?
abandon all hope of a brighter dream nobody here knows, nobody believes it's in the air, it's in the clouds above and maybe someday we'll make it far away inside a dream or another country abandon all hope, forget everything
could it end any other way? car crash in an overcast empty town the clouds in my head starting to break bloodshot eyes time is slowing down staring at the sky on the morning after the windows of the last train the station cold grey
another morning, another bad dream another night out, familiarity but will we ever become more than this? and with the lights out i can be someone else and i can be someone and no one and everything between us another morning, another broken dream
now how long has it been? can you feel anything? shut down how long has it been? can you feel anything at all?
could it end any other way? car crash in an overcast empty town the clouds in my head starting to break bloodshot eyes time is slowing down staring at the sky on the morning after thru the windows of the last train the evening light fades
travel through my veins and shape that we’ve been stuck in i’m outta sight, outta mind the reason there’s destruction flatline, blood stream you’ll be the reason i won’t leave flatline, blood stream you’ll be the reason i won’t leave
they wanted change but i just threw em pennies they said they with me but they been against me take advantage sayin that they manage so much shit couldn’t plan it that’s why i’m on another planet out of body might manic i been in they head like dandruff but this is my new canvas
flatline, blood stream you’ll be the reason i won’t leave
(rook)
broken spirit fading in a desperate scream that no one hears apparition of a better world reminds you youre still here hold on caught in recurring dream of repetition blurring help me break out of this flatline - nothings working hold on caught in recurring dream of repetition blurring help me break out of this flatline flatline chloe,
(chloe and rook)
flatline, blood stream you’ll be the reason i won’t leaveADA ROOK - 999999999 IN A DREAM (Official video)ADA ROOK2023-02-06 | Directed, edited and shot by Alec Robbins https://alec.land/ twitter.com/alecrobbins
(A fitting end shall soon come to this world which has been devoured by human beings. We shall have no regrets when we depart this world!)
Love and fear are the same fucking thing Don't overthink it - Fuck everything Everyone has got an image of you And they'll do anything to believe that it's true
Love and fear are the same fucking thing Don't overthink it - Fuck everything Everyone has got an image of you And they'll do anything to make it true
Desperate desperate paradigm Souls failing to survive We never were alive We never were alive Old nightmares are revived Failing machines of light Smoke curls, sparks alight Pinions spin out of time
I think it's a mistake that this world can contain us I used to believe in dreams I gave up all my life to try to make a portal But it's been driven out of me This whole world is a weapon Invincible redundancy Everyone can see the future Love trash fear wave crashing over every precious thing
(You scummy little bitch!!!)
NEVER TRUST WHAT WE'VE BECOME INNER CHILD CHOKING ON BLOOD DEAD EMOTION OVERDRIVE NEVER TRUST OR COMPROMISE.
NEVER TRUST WHAT WE'VE BECOME INNER CHILD CHOKING ON BLOOD DEAD EMOTION OVERDRIVE NEVER TRUST STAY ALIVE.
Feeble hopefulness Feeble hopefulness Feeble hopefulness Please do not let it go out Hopelessness Feeble hopefulness Feeble hopefulness Every future bleeding out
*** I don't know how to let go and just be taken care of The script is missing from inside I'm told that it's a sin that you cannot atone for Healing: An unforgivable crime *** I've come so far since I could not express this A plant growing toward the light But it's only empty radiation I can't look away - I'm losing my sight
(You don't get it, do you, you bitch?? It's fine as long as I don't touch your face!!) (This is how a very small world of women was left behind. The world was dying slowly, and since no more children could be born, we have no choice but to accept death.)Angel Electronics - ULTRA PARADISE (Full album)ADA ROOK2023-01-23 | Stream us: open.spotify.com/artist/5pWpg0saMHolhv0hsOooaq Buy on bandcamp: angelelectronics.bandcamp.com/album/ultra-paradise
00:00 WALL OF SUMMER 02:27 ONE THOUSAND AND ONE NIGHTS 06:34 SECRET TEACHINGS OF ALL AGES 09:58 ANGEL 13:17 PARTY GIRL 18:12 HiDE iN SEW 21:30 EVIL BEHIND YOU 25:08 RETURN TO THE SKY 28:37 RAINBOWAngel Electronics - RAINBOW (Official video)ADA ROOK2023-01-23 | Debut album ULTRA PARADISE out now! Stream us: open.spotify.com/artist/5pWpg0saMHolhv0hsOooaq Buy on bandcamp: angelelectronics.bandcamp.com/album/ultra-paradise
i wish i had hope for the future i wish i could see further i barely even know what i work for every day i have to do it every day i tried to save the world with my music i don’t know who can use it but i hope that if you’re out there this song will find you well
even though i’ve never met you i think you have such potential and i hope that you know what your love means to me i am praying while i’m falling that you can find a higher calling and maybe we can set each other free
yeah i wanna know where the rainbow ends i wanna know if it can keep me from falling apart i wanna know when the love kicks in to save me from the darkness of my heart i wanna know where the rainbow ends i wanna know does life really imitate art? i wanna know when the love kicks in to save me from the darkness of my heart
i can hear the angels screaming i can feel the night sky bleeding i can see the sun receding every day it’s getting darker every day i don’t know why i keep trying if i smiled at you i’d be lying but as long as we’re both crying you can sit with me
even though i’ve never met you i think you have such potential and i hope that you know what your love means to me i am praying while i’m falling that you can find a higher calling and maybe we can set each other free
slipping through our hands is this all there is? are we forever damned to think we ever lived?
i wanna know if it all breaks down can we ever let it go? fading broken future, another empty hole every night i pray for stability and hope if it all breaks down can we ever let it go? a dream is dying slow but i wanna know
yeah i wanna know where the rainbow ends i wanna know if it can keep me from falling apart i wanna know when the love kicks in to save me from the darkness of my heart i wanna know where the rainbow ends i wanna know does life really imitate art? i wanna know when the love kicks in to save me from the darkness of my heart
(Yes… This is goodbye. But you will be back again. Because this is the city that exists at the end of time.)Bocchi the Knot!ADA ROOK2023-01-11 | i got melodyneADA ROOK - TRU U (Official video)ADA ROOK2022-11-07 | camera + shadow self by Laevos laevos.com planning + fluids + additional camera by Porpentine Charity Heartscape https://xrafstar.monster/ CG milk cartons by tttlllrrr twitter.com/_tlr_ planning + edit by meeE (roOkie)
(You women have sex with each other. I won't do it anymore!! You do drugs, too. I've never touched those!!! And you think about nothing but death. Well... Not really!)
Weaponize and drown in rage, you're not even alive Animated by the shame, fixated, mesmerized Who am I to you? Do you know the tru u? Panic at the end of days, I see it in your eyes But you cannot look away, hollow and petrified Look for a way through That justifies it to you
A wave of nausea, one time a step too far There is no body. A psychological alarm sounds This is when you remember, blindingly: The warning.
A LITTLE DIRT ON YOUR CLOTHES TRANSPARENT BLOOD OF A GHOST NOBODY ELSE WILL NOTICE WITHOUT THE MONITOR LIGHT HOLD TIGHT TO THE DAY THAT YOU DECIDED ONE DAY IT'LL ALL BE WORTH IT ALL THE TIME THAT YOU HAD TO HIDE IT THAT'S RIGHT, MOTHERFUCKER: INSIDE YOU'RE LIKE ME!! YOU SHINE SO BRIGHTLY IN THE FREQUENCY THAT ONLY FREAKS LIKE ME CAN SEE I CAN SEE YOU LIKE A DEER IN HI-BEAMS
I bet you would give anything I bet that you'd do anything Just to be at peace Just to be at peace Just to be at peace like me
Okay okay but really: I'm waiting here I'm waiting here for you, Yea give it up and hit me up
Okay okay but really: I'm waiting here I'm waiting here for you
So give it up and hit me
Weaponize and drown in rage, you're not even alive Animated by the shame, fixated, mesmerized Who am I to you? Do you know the tru u? Panic at the end of days, I see it in your eyes But you cannot look away, hollow and petrified Look for a way through That justifies DEATH to you.Angel Electronics - RETURN TO THE SKY (Official video)ADA ROOK2022-11-01 | Debut album ULTRA PARADISE out Jan. 23, 2023. Stream us: open.spotify.com/artist/5pWpg0saMHolhv0hsOooaq
but nothing you can do will help to forget about it so you drive all night to empty your head about it and you say you don’t care but you can’t think enough about it enough about it
where we go no one knows so come along we’re hitting the road
hold tight the ones that you love the ones that you love the ones that you love they’ll try to take them from us take them from us take them from us we’ll tell the angels above God and the devil are on the same side our friends no longer with us will with our love return to the sky
hold on hold on and let’s ride hold on hold on and let’s ride hold on hold on and let’s ride hold on hold on and let’s ride
there’s nothing we can do to prepare for the road ahead so you try to shut your mind off and just go to bed but if you’re still up we can talk for a little bit a little bit
where we go (where we go) no one knows (no one knows) so come along we’re running the show
hold tight the ones that you love the ones that you love the ones that you love they’ll try to take them from us take them from us take them from us we’ll tell the angels above God and the devil are on the same side our friends no longer with us will with our love return to the sky
hold on hold on and let’s ride hold on hold on and let’s ride hold on hold on and let’s ride hold on hold on and let’s ride
you can hold on to me like a wild stallion or a fistful of water like a memory that’s fading away away you can hold on to me like a nightmare or a wayward daughter but in the morning i’m flying away away
hold tight the ones that you love the ones that you love the ones that you love they’ll try to take them from us take them from us take them from us we’ll tell the angels above God and the devil are on the same side our friends no longer with us will with our love return to the sky
Uh Uh I don't wanna feel it I don't wanna feel it, fuck it up Uh Uh I don't wanna feel it I don't wanna feel it, fuck it up Uh Uh I don't wanna feel it I don't wanna feel it, fuck it up Uh Uh I don't wanna feel it I don't wanna feel it, fuck it up
Hey, Jesus, what the fuck All this bullshit makes me cum Heard this saying, "Suck my nuts" All this money makes me dumb
Rook:
(shoutout Paledusk)
Devi:
We're just like you!
Uh Uh I don't wanna feel it I don't wanna feel it, fuck it up Uh Uh I don't wanna feel it I don't wanna feel it, fuck it up Uh Uh I don't wanna feel it I don't wanna feel it, fuck it up Uh Uh I don't wanna feel it I don't wanna feel it, fuck it up
Rook:
Keeping track of everything Keeping track of What I used to tell myself I wanna be Scattered like a memory Scattered like a stupid Little dream Like a stupid little dream come TRUE
What does it mean? Not anything Put your guilty conscience at ease Yea what do you want to believe? Yea what do you want to believe What does it mean? Not anything Put your guilty conscience at ease Yea what do you want to believe? What do you-
What the fuck you wanna see? What the fuck you wanna Try to tell yourself will never be Oh please, what What the fuck you wanna see? What the fuck you wanna Try to tell yourself we'll never be Oh please
Devi:
I might just stress in my spot I might just give up on god I might just die while you watch I might just do what I want I might just do what I want I might just do what I want Grey cement looking like a window Looking at the past, Jesus keep my eyes low
Rook:
Let's peace out and screw them Fuck it let's fucking cash out Get stupid Everything I want to be is a weapon Everything I want to be is a WEAPON
the boiling point of the human soul is lower than the boiling point of water twitter.com/adarook666
LYRICS:
You're on your OWN.
If this all goes south Just remember: I was never here.
This is a shape, a prayer, to break what's set in time It's late, but never too late to bend the lines The things I've written, pressing me down in dirt The weight of pity isn't enough to crush the hurt There is something beyond the grey of injury: The pride of owning it all, having control of me I could be a constellation of repression breaking Full potential finally awaking but...
PLEASE LEAVE ME BE
PLEASE LEAVE ME BE
With my failing vision I can see the distance Between the fantasy and my decisions
FALLING RIGHT BACK INTO IT REPETETIVE AND USELESS WILL THIS DEFINE MY PERSON? AVOIDABLE SELF-HATRED WORSENS
WEAK CHILD. DELUSIONAL WEAK CHILD BORING SHIT: "YOU DON'T KNOW ME" WE KNOW.
The sunlight through the trees The gentle summer breeze I hate this world And everything it means to me.
THE SUNLIGHT THROUGH THE TREES THE GENTLE SUMMER BREEZE I HATE THIS WORLD AND EVERYTHING IT MEANS TO ME
(May I please kill this little bitch??)
STUPID CHILD SO STUCK INSIDE YOUR HEAD YOU WON'T ADMIT IT KEEP TRYING TO PRETEND PATHETIC FADING BROKEN REMNANTS CAN YOU CONVINCE YOURSELF THEY'LL EVER FIT TOGETHER AGAIN?
(It's time that I... return you to your Other World. Die!!)
I'VE TRIED I'VE TRIED
I've tried...
Late at night in the CRT glow Escape everything I know Someday I'll be someone else And I'll know myself Somewhere out there There's someone just like me... The sound of birds So familiar and bleak The sun rises
NO (What? WHAT??) THIS DEATH IS SLOW (I KNOW.) Slow. (BITCH I KNOW)
You can be anything Just remember:
IF THIS ALL GOES SOUTH IT'S YOUR FUCKING FAULT IF THIS ALL GOES SOUTH IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT.Angel Electronics - ANGEL (Official Visualizer)ADA ROOK2022-08-24 | Stream Angel Electronics! open.spotify.com/artist/5pWpg0saMHolhv0hsOooaq
i was praying for an angel to save me from the darkness of my soul i didn’t know i was in danger i never should have given you control
your crooked arrow taking aim at everybody on the straight and narrow i got pulled into your game and now I know I’ll never be the same
but i will never let you down i will never let you go if you wanna come back now there’s still time for me to drive you home maybe we were better friends maybe it’s a big mistake but if it were up to them they would find some girl to take my place but I don’t believe in fate i believe in an angel
I believe in an angel I believe in an angel
the first time i saw you angel you picked up on the eagerness in me you could tell i would be faithful that i would never fight or disagree
your crooked arrow taking aim at everybody on the straight and narrow they say that love conquers all but like an angel you were born to fall
but oh, if you fall then i'll fall with you even after everything we've been through since the day that i first kissed you i knew i'd be always with you
was it worth it? all the forgotten and broken and beautiful moments lost in chaos drowning in uncertainty and doubt but there's still time for us to work things out
i will never let you down i will never let you go if you wanna come back now there’s still time for me to drive you home maybe we were better friends maybe it’s a big mistake but if it were up to them they would find some girl to take my place but I don’t believe in fate…
i will never let you down i will never let you go if you wanna come back now there’s still time for me to drive you home maybe we were better friends maybe it’s a big mistake but if it were up to them they would find some girl to take my place but I don’t believe in fate i believe in an angelADA ROOK - DONT WAKE (Official visualizer)ADA ROOK2022-08-08 | stream DONT WAKE open.spotify.com/artist/1x1MfkVjf8yEzwKhAYZtPYAngel Electronics - ONE THOUSAND AND ONE NIGHTS (Official video)ADA ROOK2022-07-18 | Angel Electronics is Ada Rook + Ash Nerve. Stream us on all platforms! Follow us on instagram: instagram.com/1001angelnights Follow us on twitter: twitter.com/1001angelnights
Edited by Ada Rook LA footage by Ash Nerve Ash shot by ESPer99 Ash styled by Will Groening
Lyrics:
so angry at myself that i let a good thing pass me by oh when we said farewell i could feel the sun fall from the sky
one one thousand two one thousand i still count the nights without you i just want to hold you in my arms
i never should have let you slip through i just want to get this message to you i need your love wherever you are please sleep tight everyday the sun chases the moon everyday i wish i chased you wherever you are i think of you on these lonely nights
i’ll sing a thousand and one perpetual love songs while a thousand and one stars fall from the sky i’ll watch a thousand and one nights turn into birdsong i’ll wish a thousand and one times that you were mine
so selfish and so cruel i wish i never treated you this way oh i was such a fool now it seems my night will never turn to day
one one thousand two one thousand i still count the nights without you i just want to hold you in my arms
i never should have let you slip through i just want to get this message to you i need your love wherever you are please sleep tight everyday the sun chases the moon everyday i wish i chased you wherever you are i think of you on these lonely nights
i’ll sing a thousand and one perpetual love songs while a thousand and one stars fall from the sky i’ll watch a thousand and one nights turn into birdsong i’ll wish a thousand and one times that you were mine
you’ve got stories in my stories before i have morning glories i have to survive the sleepless nights
i remember when i saw you that night i remember when i saw you that night i can tell you when i saw you that night i can tell you when i saw you that night i remember when i saw you that night i remember when i saw you that night i remember what i did that night i remember what i did that night
get brain disease twitter.com/adarook666ADA ROOK - UGLY DEATH NO REDEMPTION ANGEL CURSE I LOVE YOU (Full album)ADA ROOK2022-05-23 | cover art by Porpentine Charity Heartscape Porpentine's patreon: patreon.com/Porpentine Porpentine's twitter: twitter.com/xrafstarguts Porpentine's website: https://xrafstar.monster/
00:00 im cis (prod. ESPer99) 00:53 999999999 IN A DREAM 05:05 PURGATOR3Y MODULATION ENGINE (feat. Sunrise Transparence) 08:17 TRU U 10:38 GRAVITY WEAPON 14:15 COWARD 2 COWARD 17:59 UNDERNEATH IT ALL (feat. ASH NERVE) 21:29 VANISH/DOOM 25:45 XANAFALGUE 29:48 night in a secret world (prod. ESPer99) 31:25 5H4D0W H34R7ZBlack Dresses - Forget Your Own Face (Full album + subtitles)ADA ROOK2022-02-15 | rare stuff on p*treon: patreon.com/blackdresses buy on bandcamp: blackdresses.bandcamp.com/album/forget-your-own-face
00:00 u_u2 02:38 Let's Be 04:44 earth worm 06:50 NO NORMAL 09:15 doomspiral 12:52 MONEY MAKES YOU STUPID 15:39 GAY UGLY AND HARD TO UNDERSTAND 18:23 nightwishUGLY DEATH NO REDEMPTION ANGEL CURSE I LOVE YOU (Official album teaser)ADA ROOK2022-02-02 | camera by ESPer99: esper99.org
photos+liquids+add'l camera by Charity Heartscape: slimedaughter.com
support me on patreon: patreon.com/AdaRookAda Rook - Conduit (Official video)ADA ROOK2022-01-25 | video by princess and jessica (girlsoft) thank u eileen for holding tubes
I don't know if it's worth it but I've been thinking is there a way to pretend? If only I'd been able to keep it together maybe we could start again
This recursive stupid shallow pain but I'm still so afraid all those years just spent running away look, I'm fucking tired, okay?
Do you remember? Do you remember that day? Do you remember? Do you remember that day?
Was there a time I was free? Is this all I can be? this worthless terror in me all that's left of my identity is there something that I am that won't slip through my hands? I'm clear and fragile as glass conduit all I am
I don't know if I miss you but I've been thinking what if those years made sense? I don't think it's your fault not really, well, maybe It's so hard to tell what I should resent
if I could fill in all the holes would I know what is right? I wish that I could let you go I wish I didn't dream of you at night
Do you remember? Do you remember that day? Do you remember? Do you remember that day?
I wish that you could be a light in my life I wish that I could let you set things right
Was there a time I was free? Is this all I can be? this worthless terror in me all that's left of my identity is there something that I am that won't slip through my hands? I'm clear and fragile as glass conduit all I amAda Rook - Strangers (Official video)ADA ROOK2021-11-05 | Directed by Precious Child: preciouschild.com
If I could become a stranger to this place once again I would hide between the years and live there but in the present day the entropy remains every time I find a home I just want to run away
[...] The way the sun hits the corners of my room it reminds me of a dream I had of a world where i was still afraid but where I also belonged deep in the sunlit cracks in the pavement sometimes, late at night I look up the names of the things that were done to me and I try to imagine them slithering through my blood coiled around my DNA
And on the bus to somewhere else I felt like a wasted stray run away forget it all again and disappear aching longing for a lifetime from someone else's mind can I be someone else and I leave this all behind?
The cold Vancouver rain I don't know who to blame for the hole that i feel inside my brain is there a way to feel like I can be something more than this a rusted-out carcass of the dreams that I still remember take me back I want to know what safety feels like
I was supposed to be a person I was supposed to be a fucking person they asked me what I wanted to be but I didn't know I couldn't know they made me forget I still don't know sometimes I feel like a wasp egg parasitizing a beautiful insect hatching into a fungus, a rare bird, a silk thread that reaches all the way up into the sky
There's nothing here for me and I just keep staring at the sky I hate everything I am oh god please let me die I remember feeling something like hope before the end I want to start again...
Why does everyone feel so far away? I don't understand what I am anymore. And in the light I can see myself in a different life ******* ** *** ****
https://AdaRook.comAda Rook - Someday (Dear *******) - World Doesnt Come Apart (Official video)ADA ROOK2021-02-12 | Video by Remy Boydell Additional animation by Zoe Scholl
cover drawing by Remy Boydell. backing vocals by Marina Ayano Kittaka, ESPer99, Porpentine Charity Heartscape, Ash Nerve, emamouse, and Devi McCallion.Ada Rook - (From a Different World) The Juvenile Hormone. II. (Official video)ADA ROOK2020-09-10 | listen to my new album 2,020 Knives here: adarook.bandcamp.com/album/2020-knives
How did we get here? Lost kids just trying to survive would we still be here if we couldn't see the hurt in each other's eyes? Could we be anything else if we never went through hell? Does it define us? Would it bring us together in another life?
As it slowly fades away the dream consumes my mind was there any other way? Could I ever step aside? I stand beside all of this looking in from outside I just want us to survive I just want us to survive.Ada Rook - 2,020 Hands (Official video)ADA ROOK2020-05-31 | Buy the album: adarook.bandcamp.com/album/2020-knives
Director of photography - Dizzy De Joya Director/editor - Julian Shine Crew - Sean Muscles, Alec Robbins Cast - ASH NERVE, Alec Robbins, de.esse, Mary, neotenomie, Sean Muscles, So Drove
Lyrics:
I don't know who you are but you've left your names and you've left scars I know exactly what you came here hoping for you think it's yours but I don't have it in me anymore
Yes we know your name yes we know your name you're not afraid of us just where'd you get that kind of trust? We know I know you're one of us
I'm not so sure
All that matters is how it made me feel All that matters is how it made me feel
Stop.
You think you know what I won't do? Listen: It's not up to you. Do you even know why I'm still here? Say it I'm all ears
It's got nothing It's got nothing It's got nothing to do with you
Yes we know your name yes motherfucker we know your name you're not afraid of us just where'd you get that kind of trust? We know I know it hurtsAda Rook - September - Distance Holding World Together (Official video)ADA ROOK2020-05-16 | pre-order my new album 2,020 Knives and buy a tape here: adarook.bandcamp.com/album/2020-knives
September just wanting it to end remember the way you watched me when I said I could never be what you expected I'd rather be dead September losing friends
You used to say I had to figure out my own truth I could never see it through but when I got home from the hospital I knew exactly what to do
Forever best friends just like we always said frightened girls just trying to live life outside their heads but then your patience wore too thin and I could not pretend by November we never spoke again.
When we met I'd already given up shitty punk and black label as if it was enough caught in the uncertainty of blood confusing gentleness at last with love
Together we'd make it out alive, we said beacons shining bright across the internet plans were tentatively made but there were rifts we couldn't mend ever wondering if we could last as friends
Moving twice a year and never looking back wondering if this is all I'll ever have counting change for food and thinking day by day tried to cross the border to see you but got turned away
I think about the way we caused each other so much pain and my obsession with always needing an escape but even when things got so bad I thought I'd run away there was a comfort knowing things would never be the same.Ada Rook - Reverie [JH Ligation Experiment 1] (Official video)ADA ROOK2020-05-01 | Pre-order tape/digital of my new album 2,020 Knives: (comes with 2 other new songs!!) adarook.bandcamp.com/album/2020-knives
In every word In every breath In everything she denies a living need
She's so afraid fears every day but deep inside anachronistic safety carries her away
Please don't hurt me anymore Please don't hurt me anymore Please don't hurt me anymore Please don't hurt me anymore
She's broken by her world but she's still breathing a desperate hope for something better shines in her hollow eyes and deep inside she keeps a guarded comfort a life where she grew up the normal girl she longs to be
She hides inside her timid mind damaged and isolated from commiseration with her fantasies
And in the night she curls tight withdraws into reverie: a dream of escape from this hell
Please protect me from this world Please protect me from this world Please protect me from this world I am just a frightened girl
She's broken by her world but she's still breathing a desperate hope for something better shines in her hollow eyes and deep inside she keeps a guarded comfort a life where she grew up the normal girl she longs to be
Hold me, comfort me tell me that you'll be there love me, keep me safe protect me from this nightmare
Hold me, comfort me tell me that you'll be there love me, keep me safe protect me from this nightmareAda Rook - Tortured Bitch (Official video)ADA ROOK2020-03-31 | From my upcoming album 2,020 Knives. Preorder it & buy tapes here: adarook.bandcamp.com/album/2020-knives
Directed and cut by Vera Drew Shot by Nate Cornett Camera assistance by CJ Gaite De Joya VFX by Ben Granger & Eric Notarnicola
Lyrics:
I'm sorry I tried so hard to be good I don't know what I keep doing wrong I just want to be loved and feel safe enough to love I don't know what else I could want
But things are never that simple they just keep getting out of hand I still think that deep inside I'm hollow but at least i finally understand
Motherfucker
Yeah I'm so damaged I'm so weak and fucked up I'm everything you want project your terror onto me I can take it but you're wrong about me you're wrong
I promise I'll keep it together I want to show you that I can I still think that deep inside I'm broken but I want to be proud of who I amtokyo fist gym tape sceneADA ROOK2019-07-10 | ...