Crywolf
Crywolf - celestina (hushed) (w/ emalyn)
updated
New album out May 2024 🤍🕊️
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Videography by Ashton Eleazar & Alexander Phillips
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I want to feel it all
I want to feel it all
Listen to the full single here: youtu.be/Tj0ixuOeytA
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~ Lyrics ~
Stop
With the world around you still
Breathe into me
Hold
Your fingers pressed against
your heartbeat
x
And everything that’s here is rising in tone and saturation
It’s an aching, it’s a violence
It’s a longing to erase the separation
x
Turn around and shout my name, I need to hear it
Come and pour out of my eyes like a flood
Pull me back to a time when I existed
Drown me in those memories
I want to feel it all
I want to feel it all
x
Stop
With the world around you still
Breathe into me
Hold
Your fingers pressed against
your heartbeat
x
And everything that’s here is rising in tone and saturation
It’s an aching, it’s a violence
It’s a longing to erase the separation
x
I don’t want to be happy, I don’t want to be good… I want to be real.
I want to be real.
x
Looking up at me with hearts around your eyes
Stretching arms to beckon me back to that bed
This is more than just a memory
It’s the quiet place where everything that’s warm and real inside of me still lives
Break your crown and throw it tumbling to the earth
Burn the gates of heaven down if it’s real
Soak me in my mothers blood
Show me that your arms can hold me
Dive into the dying light and find me here
I want to feel it all
I want to feel it all
Listen to the acoustic version here: youtu.be/4ksaQXP7sJw
Listen on all streaming services: crywolf.komi.io
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~ Lyrics ~
Stop
With the world around you still
Breathe into me
Hold
Your fingers pressed against
your heartbeat
x
And everything that’s here is rising in tone and saturation
It’s an aching, it’s a violence
It’s a longing to erase the separation
x
Turn around and shout my name, I need to hear it
Come and pour out of my eyes like a flood
Pull me back to a time when I existed
Drown me in those memories
I want to feel it all
I want to feel it all
x
Stop
With the world around you still
Breathe into me
Hold
Your fingers pressed against
your heartbeat
x
And everything that’s here is rising in tone and saturation
It’s an aching, it’s a violence
It’s a longing to erase the separation
x
I don’t want to be happy, I don’t want to be good… I want to be real.
I want to be real.
x
Looking up at me with hearts around your eyes
Stretching arms to beckon me back to that bed
This is more than just a memory
It’s the quiet place where everything that’s warm and real inside of me still lives
Break your crown and throw it tumbling to the earth
Burn the gates of heaven down if it’s real
Soak me in my mothers blood
Show me that your arms can hold me
Dive into the dying light and find me here
Listen on other platforms: crywolf.komi.io
Lyrics:
And I'm spinning 'round in circles
I know you know I'm trapped inside my mind
Tumbling through these dark folds
You touch me, but never hold me
I just wanna feel like I am something more than just
the one who makes you clean
Oh every night I dream you know me
Every night I dream you know me
Every night I dream you know me
Another spiral
Please let me go
I can't contain the violence in this home
And when you use me,
Do you feel my soul?
This heart that aches and longs for so much more
**edit: Everyone kept asking so we released it! Listen here: http://Crywolf.komi.io
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Lyrics:
And I'm spinning 'round in circles
I know you know I'm trapped inside my mind
Tumbling through these dark folds
You touch me, but never hold me
I just wanna feel like I am something more than just
the one who makes you clean
Oh every night I dream you know me
Every night I dream you know me
Every night I dream you know me
Another spiral
Please let me go
I can't contain the violence in this home
And when you use me,
Do you feel my soul?
This heart that aches and longs for so much more
While putting together this compilation, which is an exploration into my own feelings surrounding the Christmas season, the song Videotape by Radiohead kept coming to mind. It’s always been hard to put my finger on the emotions this song makes me feel. Bittersweet longing and nostalgia mixes with contentment, existential dread mixes with serenity. It mirrors the emotions the holiday season brings up for me. Christmas is something that many childhood memories are attached to. It has a way of summing up my life, like watching a montage of myself and those I’ve loved throughout the year. After sitting down on the piano to play it for the first time, I knew it was the perfect companion to this body of work.
Listen on other platforms: stem.ffm.to/crywolf
Lyrics:
When I’m at the pearly gates
This will be on my videotape
My videotape
Mephistopheles is just beneath
He’s reaching up to grab me
This is one for the good days
I have it all here in red, blue, green.
Red, blue, green.
You are my center when I spin away
Out of control on videotape
On videotape
On videotape
On videotape
On videotape
On videotape
On videotape
This is my way of saying goodbye
Cause I can’t do it face to face
I’m talking to you before
No matter what happens now
You shouldn’t be afraid
Because I know today has been
The most perfect day I’ve ever seen
This is my way of saying goodbye
This is my way of saying goodbye
This is my way of saying goodbye
This is my way of saying goodbye
Listen on other platforms: stem.ffm.to/crywolf
Listen on other platforms: stem.ffm.to/crywolf
While putting together this new collection, which is an exploration into my own feelings surrounding the Christmas season, the song Videotape by Radiohead kept coming to mind. It’s always been hard to put my finger on the emotions this song makes me feel. Bittersweet longing and nostalgia mixes with contentment, existential dread mixes with serenity. It mirrors the emotions the holiday season brings up for me. Christmas is something that many childhood memories are attached to. It has a way of summing up my life, like watching a montage of myself and those I’ve loved throughout the year. After sitting down on the piano to play it for the first time, I knew it was the perfect companion to this body of work.
Listen on other platforms: stem.ffm.to/crywolf
Lyrics:
When I’m at the pearly gates
This will be on my videotape
My videotape
Mephistopheles is just beneath
He’s reaching up to grab me
This is one for the good days
I have it all here in red, blue, green.
Red, blue, green.
You are my center when I spin away
Out of control on videotape
On videotape
On videotape
On videotape
On videotape
On videotape
On videotape
This is my way of saying goodbye
Cause I can’t do it face to face
I’m talking to you before
No matter what happens now
You shouldn’t be afraid
Because I know today has been
The most perfect day I’ve ever seen
This is my way of saying goodbye
This is my way of saying goodbye
This is my way of saying goodbye
This is my way of saying goodbye
A while back a friend of mine heard me talking about it and they challenged me to write my own Christmas song. I gave it a shot and what came out was, in my opinion, one of the most straightforward and candid songs I’ve ever written. It doesn’t involve complex themes or abstract lyricism. It is just an honest exploration of the gut-wrenching feeling you have when you realize you have lost the place that your soul felt at peace.
I recorded this new stripped down version of it with just me and a felt piano for you guys. If you are another person for whom the holiday season is one of reflection on loss, I hope it comforts you and shows you you are not alone 🤍
Listen on other platforms: stem.ffm.to/crywolf
Lyrics:
Did it get colder this year?
Inside my room I see crystals of ice
Suspended pieces covered in glass
Snowbanks are falling on the sides of my bed
The sides of my bed
But it doesn’t snow here in Los Angeles
Abandoned roads, but they’re warm… I’m just losing it.
Everyone’s gone back to sweet places they call their homes
But I wander aimlessly
Can’t shake this chill from my bones
Cause where could I go to feel home, when my home was you?
Surrounded, but always alone
In this snow I can’t move
I feel that yearning to leave and belong somewhere new
But where could I go? Darling, you took my whole world with you.
~ Lyrics ~
No dying sun
No great release
I held my tongue
And whispered to the trees
Take this weight from me, take this weight from me
Take this weight from me, take this weight from me
ø
Crywolf:
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~ Lyrics ~
おやすみ
夢みたい
夢みたい
泣かないで目を閉じて
泣かないでおやすみ
おやすみ
夢みたい
夢みたい
泣かないで目を閉じて
泣かないで目を閉じて
君のそばに
[English translation]
Goodnight
Goodnight
It looks like a dream
It looks like a dream
Don’t cry
Close your eyes
Don’t cry
Goodnight
Goodnight
It looks like a dream
It looks like a dream
Don’t cry
Close your eyes
Don’t cry
Close your eyes
I’m with you
ø
Crywolf:
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Twitter: twitter.com/runcrywolf
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Discord: discord.gg/eGff53wRQd
The Kids:
YouTube: youtube.com/@Producedbythekids
Tiktok: @producedbythekids
Instagram: instagram.com/producedbythekids
Twitter: twitter.com/prodbythekids
~ Lyrics ~
Take this weight from me
Take this weight from me
From me
So sad your old fur was so soft
All matted down and tied in knots
I’d write a metaphor to make you like raindrops in the thunder
The current pulls you under
Safe inside the water
Take this weight from me
Take this weight from me
From me
ø
Crywolf:
Instagram: instagram.com/runcrywolf
Twitter: twitter.com/runcrywolf
Facebook: facebook.com/runcrywolf
Discord: discord.gg/eGff53wRQd
The Kids:
YouTube: youtube.com/@Producedbythekids
Tiktok: @producedbythekids
Instagram: instagram.com/producedbythekids
Twitter: twitter.com/prodbythekids
Get tickets for the upcoming tour: http://www.runcrywolf.com
Come see it at any of the dates on the upcoming spring tour with AWAY 🤍
5/4 Denver
5/6 Atlanta
5/12 Chicago
5/13 Brooklyn
5/19 Seattle
5/20 Austin
5/25 Los Angeles
Get tickets here: http://www.runcrywolf.com
Well you're in luck, cause after a three year hiatus from playing live, I am going to be hitting the road again for a limited US run and bringing one of my all-time favorite producers, AWAY.
Tickets are live now at runcrywolf.com
See you all in the void 🖤
Well you're in luck, cause after a three year hiatus from playing live, I am going to be hitting the road again for a limited US run and bringing one of my all-time favorite producers, AWAY.
Tickets are live now at runcrywolf.com
See you all in the void 🖤
I was really happy to finally give this piece a place to live on the new album.
#spokenword
Clip from the DDDNNNAAA livestream performance.
#music #cover
Clip from the Smoke And Water livestream performance.
#music #songwriter
Background song is Exuvium by Crywolf.
It ended up essentially being the system I would give someone if I were training them to take over Crywolf after I die. Close to 35 hours of instruction, on the creative system itself, writing techniques, and production techniques.
They are doing a 40% off Xmas sale + you get access to the Exuvium expansion pack that we are filming next year sometime + the song-a-day challenge I’m going to be leading everyone through.
Just wanted to give you guys a heads up in case you had been eyeing it for a while!
www.dawnation.net/crywolf
We’re going to be doing a watch party + Q&A on Discord at 3PM EST where we’ll watch through the whole thing and then you can ask me whatever you want.
Hope to see you there
➰
I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
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LYRICS:
Your heart is torturing me
A thousand miles an hour again
And all that stays with me
Is the fear inside my gut
You’re the fear inside my gut
You’ve been my reason to breathe
The gravity that pulls me in
I can’t escape the weight
Of your ultraviolent heart
Of your ultraviolent heart
I’ve been splintering apart
Breaking open from the start
Gates of heaven are closing
What did you do in my head?
Weren’t you laying in my bed,
Telling me I was chosen?
Now I don’t even know you and that’s the best part of it
All I know
You’re the only thing that I see in color
This heart is torturing me
The only pain I understand
I can’t escape the weight
Of your ultraviolent heart
It’s a poison in my gut
I’ve been splintering apart
Breaking open from the start
Gates of heaven are closing
What did you do in my head?
Weren’t you laying in my bed,
Telling me I was chosen?
Now I don’t even know you and that’s the best part of it
All I know
You’re the only thing that I see in color
This heart is torturing me
The only pain I understand
I can’t escape the weight
Of your ultraviolent heart
It’s a poison in my gut
You’re the only thing that I see in color
➰
I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
➰
Written and produced by Justin Taylor Phillips
➰
I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
➰
Written and produced by Justin Taylor Phillips
➰
I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
➰
LYRICS:
Pass overhead
I’ve forgotten what’s it like
To feel weightlessness, my strings untied
My arms are long
Strong enough for flight
But can they push away this heavy silence?
ø
ø
But maybe if you're tongue-tied I could walk you through it all
Find you in the lowlight
Fight your battles through this war
Broken on my doorstep
You were falling through the seams
Breaking every finger
Thinking it would make you clean
ø
ø
And I know
In the far light
In the lightning
There are pieces of myself
You’re setting off
You’re setting off
I’m frail
And I’m poured out
But I told you
There are parts you’ll never see
And they’re aligning in the stars
[the stars, the stars, the stars, the stars]
ø
ø
Pass over my head
With your wings extended wide
I can taste the way you terrify me
Grow towards the sun
Leave me far behind
Till you extend into this pale horizon
ø
ø
But maybe if I’m tongue tied you could walk me through it all
Find me in the low light, let your body break my walls
I’ll be on your doorstep sorting through my empty dreams
Breaking every finger praying that it makes me clean
ø
ø
And I know
In the far light
In the lightning
There are pieces of myself
You’re setting off
You’re setting off
I’m frail
And I’m poured out
But I told you
There are parts you’ll never see
They’re all aligning in the stars
[the stars, the stars, the stars, the stars]
ø
ø
Maybe if you take time, we could still escape this place
Our pearly gates are burning and yet somehow fire feels so safe
If I told you jump now, would you let it all erase?
Join me in the far light, blooming in a fiery blaze
➰
Written by Justin Taylor Phillips and Alex Phillips
Produced by Justin Taylor Phillips
Mixed by Austin Seltzer and Justin Taylor Phillips
Mastered by Austin Seltzer
➰
I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
➰
LYRICS:
Last night I woke up and saw you again
Suspended, as you so often are, three feet above me, staring down and… simmering
Fingers wet and glistening, your eyes static and void
You part your lips and all at once I’m filled with a vast sense of space and incredible saturation
Bestial pangs paired with syrupy weightlessness
My body floating up slowly towards your beckoning fingers
I thought we promised to be honest with each other…
when were you going to tell me you’d become the reaper?
➰
Written and produced by Justin Taylor Phillips
Piano by Jeff Feldman
➰
I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
➰
LYRICS:
A thousand lines throughout your body
I’ll eat you
bit
by
bit
From the inside
My finest prize
My hara-kiri
Exuvium
Exuvium
Exuvium
ø
ø
No exquisite pleasure feels like
The amaranthine gaze in your eyes
Spasmodic womb and trembling child
Lay waste to everything with your light
ø
ø
What is your soul made of?
Beauty
And what is beauty?
Terror
ø
ø
Exuvium…
Exuvium…
Exuvium…
Exuvium…
➰
Written and produced by Justin Taylor Phillips
Mixed by Austin Seltzer and Justin Taylor Phillips
Mastered by Austin Seltzer
➰
I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
➰
LYRICS:
No survivor
And nothing survived
I touch the souls of dead men
Here from my forgotten life
Wrap me tight in these swaddling clothes
The newly born savior
King and lord of the void
ø
ø
And the red sea is parting now
I’m trying to save this but I don’t know how
Tongues of angels suspended in time
A forgotten voice deep inside
ø
ø
And though we’re touching skin to skin
Laying in threads of gold
You softly whisper in my ear
“Darling you’re still alone.”
Butterflies of white and grey
Rustling up silent storms
“Darling you’re still alone.”
“Darling you’re still alone.”
“Darling you’re still alone.”
➰
Written and produced by Justin Taylor Phillips
➰
I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
➰
LYRICS:
I saw you last night, you know.
In the backyard, staring up into the trees
Who were you talking to?
Was it her again?
Was she crying?
➰
Written and produced by Justin Taylor Phillips
Featuring Charity Vance
➰
I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
➰
LYRICS:
I’m falling against your grace
Folding inside your love
You never reveal your face
Cold in a silent blood
ø
In my dreams
I’m swallowing your eyes and mouth
Your sibilance like strings untied
This isn’t feeling right, it never was
I don’t even need this
I hope you can see it
I’m dying to leave this world behind
You peel with a purpose
You love who deserves it
Been holding the kill switch to my mind
All along
➰
Written and produced by Justin Taylor Phillips
Strings by Michelle Packman
Mixed by Austin Seltzer and Justin Taylor Phillips
Mastered by Austin Seltzer
➰
I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
➰
LYRICS:
I feel myself unraveling
Suspended and strange
Listen. No matter what you see here, no matter what erupts from my depths, no matter what ruin comes of us, promise me…
Promise me when you sleep, when you dream of me… it will be in colors of white.
➰
Written and produced by Justin Taylor Phillips
Featuring Charity Vance
➰
I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
➰
LYRICS:
And I fell like lightning from the sky
I was lost
Ribbons in the void
I looked up at the blackness around me and realized it was everything I had feared since I was a boy.
Day star, son of dawn
Where is redemption?
I got on my knees that night to pray and saw you in a vision
Your face shrouded,
foreboding,
brilliant and beautiful
The blackness seemed to pour in through my eyes as you walked towards me
You came close, and whispered my name
Abbadon
Abbadon
Abbadon
➰
➰
I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
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LYRICS:
Burn the saints inside you
Leave their bones behind you
Turn all your warnings inside out
Spit them like soil from your mouth
ø
ø
Burn the saints inside you
Leave their bones behind you
Burn in rage, oh lion!
Storm the gates of Zion!
ø
ø
Burn the saints inside you
Leave their bones behind you
Burn in rage, oh lion
Storm the gates of Zion
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Written and produced by Justin Taylor Phillips
Mixed by Austin Seltzer and Justin Taylor Phillips
Mastered by Austin Seltzer
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I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
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LYRICS:
Deep in the ground, I am breathing
Tendons extending to the molten core of the earth like roots
Your amaranthine gaze falls upon me
Time and space freeze and spontaneously bloom
The finest light could never reveal the softness with which you hold me
Better a symphony
Better an apocalypse
ø
ø
And he floats above the earth, a spectre
Soil to dust and roots to ash
Destroy, divine destroyer!
Destroy, oh destroy!
The seasons shift with the angle of your glance
Laws of nature rendered frozen in your path
From where have you come?
You ruin us with dearth and famine
Yet you cradle us like a child
More than anything else that lives and breathes and calls our name
Patron saint of the void
Oh terror!
Oh exuvium!
Destroy!
Destroy!
Destroy!
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Written and produced by Justin Taylor Phillips
Mixed by Austin Seltzer and Justin Taylor Phillips
Mastered by Austin Seltzer
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I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
➰
Written and produced by Justin Taylor Phillips
Mixed by Austin Seltzer and Justin Taylor Phillips
Mastered by Austin Seltzer
Strings by Michelle Packman
Additional production by AWAY
Additional writing by Alex Phillips
Additional instrumentation by Jeff Feldman
Voiceover acting by Charity Vance
Original artwork by Dustin Hollywood
Visualizer by Spenser Williams
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Listen on streaming services: crywolf.komi.io
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I have something to show you.
A world that exists behind our minds,
seeping through the cracks in our faces.
Vast, filled with beautiful malevolence, seething with gravity.
It pricked me one day, a thorn in my foot.
Something subtle, yet spreading through my frame, cell by cell, splicing into my RNA,
making my belly swell with its potent malice.
Two years later it emerged from my womb, opened its mouth, and screamed with a voice like thunder.
Poor, angry little god.
Welcome to the hell that saved me
The demon that died for my sins
The frenzy of the ancients
Divine, fractalized madness
Welcome to EXUVIUM.
➰
LYRICS:
I see the birth and death of the universe swimming around in your eyes
Datura yellow gazing through my mind
Datura yellow gazing through my mind
Datura yellow gazing through my mind
Datura yellow gazing through my mind
Datura yellow gazing through my mind
A p-p-purring with it’s poison should I let it lay or p-p-pluck and pull it down a willing throat
To lead me to the place where I have shattered
Ooooo
A question that I find is harmless
But at night it seeps in through my eyes
Arresting and caressing every fold and strand I leave to loose
I feel it pull and I unravel
Oooo
Slither through my soil
Oooo
Bring me to a boil
Oooo
Feel my atoms rising
Oooo
Terminal velocity
I see the birth and death of the universe swimming around in her eyes
Eternal monoliths of storms past
You have my attention.
Haunt me in all of your ways.
I see her fingers bending backwards twist and turn and tie themselves together
Beckoning behind her back with fingers dripping rainbow puddles singing to me “come and drink of many waters”
Oh God I am dissolving disapperating folding flying feeling every color swarming
slipping past my skin like snakes they hear me waiting
Skin abuzz with weight under their gravitation
I see her fingers bending backwards twist and turn and tie themselves together
Beckoning behind her back with fingers dripping rainbow puddles singing to me “come and drink of many waters”
Sings “I’ll look into the wind I’ll look into the flame I’ll dig into the earth and swallow it again
I’ll find you in the safe and quiet place inside your mind and expose all the beauty in your terror”
The void is awaking
Creating, degrading
Eternal, unfading
The siren is waiting
The void is awaking
Creating, degrading
Eternal, unfading
The siren is waiting
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Written and produced by Justin Phillips
Mixed by Austin Seltzer and Justin Phillips
Original Art by Dustin Hollywood
Visualizer by Spenser Williams
This new documentary, surrounding the creation of the OBLIVIØN double album, chronicles my decent into depths I was previously unaware of. It’s my guidebook to the underworld. My love letter to the vast galaxies that exist beneath the iceberg surface of our conscious minds. A dive into parts of the ocean so deep that light never penetrates them. A world inhabited by the beasts we thought we banished from our minds.
This isn’t a happy story. This is a story of grief, of loss, of fire and fury. It’s the story of a boy who knew nothing, and something outside of him that pulled him into a shadowy place beyond good and evil to show him his darkness, his malice, his vastness, and ultimately, his real self.
This is the story of OBLIVIØN.
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it was dark // but it was the dark I tried to show you // to bless you // to anoint you // when i shot it down your throat and blew it into your nostrils and drove it into your skin and screamed it in your ear with a madness //
the spectrum of your vision opened up // to see me crouched over you // for the very // first // time //
infernal beast at the upper range of ultraviolet // 666 etched on my forehead // my wings spread wide // stretching around your house // enveloping it like a dyson sphere from hell // brilliant shades of purple rarely seen // teeth upon teeth upon teeth // claws and heaps of richness and depth and death and depth and death // piled in layers and tight binding // burning // screaming like a banshee
all at once, you knew me.
yet you look at me like its the most normal thing in the world and
i find that beautiful in a certain way and
it warms me in a certain way but
your eyes are a little too blank for comfort in a certain way and
no human is supposed to look at
such a creature without
at least a little
terror
in
their
eyes
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Listen on streaming services: crywolf.komi.io
OBLIVIØN Pt. II :: THIS FALL
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LYRICS:
I breathe you in like smoke and water in a crowded room
Dark liquor and bad vibrations, baby
All I need is you
ø
Pull me
Black hole
You know you’ve always wanted to be the darkness I’m not
Hurt me
I’m close to the edge and I’ve been holding my breath for so long
ø
I breathe you in like smoke and water in a crowded room
Dark liquor and bad vibrations, baby
All I need is you
ø
Hit me
Thick rain, a rolling boiling deluge
Like everything that I want
Fear me
I’m set to destroy and you’re fit to be the prey that I hunt
Sink down into this holy soil
Keep spiraling into my void
Drip on me with your bloody smile
A communion of the sickest kind
ø
I breathe you in like smoke and water in a crowded room
Dark liquor and bad vibrations, baby
All I need is you
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Written and produced by Justin Phillips
Mixed by Austin Seltzer and Justin Phillips
Original Art by Dustin Hollywood
Visualizer by Spenser Williams
This new documentary, surrounding the creation of the OBLIVIØN double album, chronicles my decent into depths I was previously unaware of. It’s my guidebook to the underworld. My love letter to the vast galaxies that exist beneath the iceberg surface of our conscious minds. A dive into parts of the ocean so deep that light never penetrates them. A world inhabited by the beasts we thought we banished from our minds.
This isn’t a happy story. This is a story of grief, of loss, of fire and fury. It’s the story of a boy who knew nothing, and something outside of him that pulled him into a shadowy place beyond good and evil to show him his darkness, his malice, his vastness, and ultimately, his real self.
This is the story of OBLIVIØN.
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Videography: Johnny Adams, Charity Vance, Roniit Alkayam
Editing: Wayne Harvey
Art Direction: Johnny Adams
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This song is my “invocation of the muse”. My tribute to the terrible, bloody, beautiful experience of being an artist, of dissecting yourself, screaming and suffering, for the enjoyment of others. Of showing the masses your darkest pain and hoping it somehow makes the whole fucking mess inside of you finally mean something.
This is controlled psychosis.
You’re seeing my viscera.
Does it give you a thrill?
Does it make you uncomfortable?
Do you still love me, filthy and bleeding?
Listen on streaming services: crywolf.komi.io
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LYRICS:
I wanna show you something
Rainfall in my head
I’m lost again
I’m lost again
I’m lost again
Thunder and souls and sobbing
She’s getting in my DNA
I swear you lost me
I swear you lost me
I swear you’ve lost it
ø
ø
Under my skin you’re unwrapping all that I am, I swear
I wanted to keep
I wanted to stay
Deep in your head forever
I wanna show you something
Melting through my brain
Every time you’re around you’re assaulting me
I swear you lost
I swear you lost me
Floating away forever oh
I wanna show you something
Rainfall in my brain
I’m lost again
I’m lost again
I’m lost again
Again
Thunder and souls and sobbing
She’s getting faster
DNA
I swear you lost me
I swear you lost me
I swear you lost me
ø
ø
I wanna show you something
Rainfall in my brain
I’m lost again
I’m lost again
I’m lost again
Thunder and souls and sobbing
She’s getting in my DNA
I swear you lost me
I swear you lost me
I swear you’ve lost it
ø
ø
Ego nihilitas non quaesivit
Scinditur mihi apertis
Ardebatur omnia
Apocalypsis animae
(x4)
(To touch her is to become a child, to love her is to be buried)
Ab meum oris effund, O Anime Apocalypsis!
Ab meum oris effund, O Deluvium Ruina!
(X8)
I wanna show you something
(Floating away forever, oh)
Thunder and souls and sobbing
(I’m lost again, I’m lost again, I’m lost again)
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Written and produced by Justin Taylor Phillips
Mixed by Austin Seltzer and Justin Taylor Phillips
Original Art by Dustin Hollywood
Visualizer by Justin Phillips