Josiah S. Cooper
Illogically Is (For Sensitive Viewers — reduced flash, voice forward)
updated
After so much pain, what can possibly be taken more?
You are you, and you earned every bit.
Have been practicing more and more. Made the image myself (full 2:56) - charcoal drawing. What about a piano?
This was edited in Sony Vegas to add more reverb and darker pitches to compliment the poor sound definition. I hope to get decent and simpler equipment in the future.
Thanks for watching.
Create your own feeling to things. Master it.
Meant to be repeated (Right click video and check "Loop")
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April, 2013 -- not long after things changed.
' "Help", it repeated to no answer, no body, no name.
Must go back, there is a chance for swooping horror.
Expect nothing.'
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I used samples from songs and ambiance I have collected over a long period of time (some more than others).
Wormlust - "Svarthol" (sample), and "Iður úti" (clip)
Alien: Isolation (alone in a vent ambiance)
All persons and sentimental beings involved do not exist.
(Right click the video and check off "Loop" if you please)
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Details and Sources:
Originally a cover to the song by Muse from the album "Absolution"; it was my first favorite song (ever) growing up. It was the theme of the stage of my life around 2012 most of all. I have the foundest and deepest memories around that time.
Technical:
4/12th's an octave down, bass boost and lowered treble, volume increase, and reverb
original by Aaron Bennett ("Ruled by Secrecy. Piano Instrumental.")
youtube.com/watch?v=iBYTTVaKlgE
Published on Sep 18, 2007
I claim no ownership over any of the material used, only the video representing them.
nothing
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full
something
alone
doesn't
god
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Thomas Feiner & Anywhen - For Now
Isolation trap. Self-fulfilled prophecies. Suffering.
Bandcamp: wuld.bandcamp.com/album/mausoleum-of-dying-faces-redux
--Tracklisting (w/ Timecodes):
[1]
00:00:33 [stage one] -- "Hurts, You" ('Death is a dying freedom'); 00:03:00 [stage two] ; 00:05:12 [stage two and a half] ; 00:09:02 [final - stage three]
[2]
00:10:58 -- "Bad Comedy" (Revamp V. III)
[3]
00:13:50 -- "The Walk to Crumble" (Remaster -- never shared personally or made public before -- July 15th, 2012 -- remastered with EQ, timeline and octave shift (layering and panning) adjustments.)
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All material is my own.
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Personally selected, dark and sweet.
Tracklist (w/ timecode jumps):
0:00:00 - Track: First Breath After Coma - Artist: Explosions in the Sky - Album: The Earth is not a Cold, Dead Place - Release: October 12th, 2004
0:09:36 - Track: Fordlandia - Artist: Johann Johannsson - Album: Fordlandia - Release: November 4th, 2008
0:23:16 - Track: Dust Bowl Dance - Artist: Mumford and Sons - Album: Sigh No More - Release: October 2nd, 2009
0:27:58 - Track: I Could Hear the Water at the Edge of All Things - Artist: Hammock - Album: Oblivion Hymns - Release: November 26th, 2013
0:33:42 - Track: This is War - Artist: 30 Seconds to Mars - Album: This is War - Release: December 4th, 2009
0:39:08 - Track: Cradle - Artist: The Joy Formidable - Album: The Big Roar - Release: January 24th, 2011
0:41:54 - Track: Sweet Disposition - Artist: The Temper Trap - Album: Conditions - Release: June 19th, 2009
0:45:45 - Track: She's Got You High - Artist: Mumm-Ra - Album: These Things Move in Threes - Release: May 28th, 2007
0:49:09 - Track Progenies of the Great Apocalypse - Artist: Dimmu Borgir - Album: Death Cult Armageddon - Release: September 8th, 2009
0:54:28 - Track: Black-Eyed - Artist: Placebo - Album: Black Market Music - Release: October 9th, 2000
0:58:08 - Track: The Only Moment We Were Alone - Artist: Explosions in the Sky - Album: The Earth is not a Cold, Dead Place - Release: October 12th, 2004
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Pictures: Google image search "supernova" - "person holding orb of light" - "orb of light" -- restricted size parameter to above 1024 by 764 and then above
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I claim no ownership over any of the material used, only the video representing them.
Made with Sony Vegas Pro 14.
Thanks for listening.
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|Extras|
Personal notes (not required reading):
You can always go back. You must believe that, else all is truly lost.
If you ever treasure something, you'll usually want to hold on and make it last for as long as possible.
When it is gone, and in dark times, you will have these memories, thoughts and ideas with you.
Don't let your well run dry. Move on and find new moments, if you can.
The desert is vast and the water and glory are far in-between.
The world needs an atomic bomb of _freshness_ to stain life and its character with the essence of pleasantness.
VVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV
My OCD wants to let you know that this video is not perfect and never will be.
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Deep meditation -- peer into the very essence of the world and yourself -- feel the echo of the broken and fragmented pieces coalesce into a fantastically terrifying image of purpose.
These were hand selected for the crevices in your brain you wish never to visit and also wistfully yearn for.
Yomp towards the abyss. And swim back-the-fuck-up, if you can.
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Track list (w/ timecode jumps):
0:00:00 - Track: The Opium Sleep - (Demo) - Artist: Wormlust - Release: 2011
0:16:42 - Track: Delaying The Entropy; In Emptiness, Forms Are Born - Artist: Celer - Album: Discourses Of The Withered - Release: August 15th, 2007
0:31:00 - Track: Laliah - Artist: How To Disappear Completely - Album: Mer de Revs II - Release: July 28, 2017
0:36:18 - Track: VI - Artist: Lúsifer - Album: Ritual ambient music Vol. I - Release: 2014
0:51:22 - Track: I Don't Exist - Artist: Theologian - Album: The Chasms of My Heart - Release: September 24th, 2012
I know the end track isn't purely ambient with the percussion, but I felt like this needed something different to end it off.
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Pictures (Google image search):
"Eternal Flame Falls, Chestnut Ridge Park, NY" from Rory Szwed (unsure) public domain;
searched "Dark Waters" found supposed painting attached to this site (no explicit creator named): http://www.ecmediagroup.net
Dave Gingrich from Flickr ("lifetime-depression")
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I claim no ownership over any of the material used, only the video representing them.
Thanks for listening.
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My OCD basically wants you to know in advance that this is not perfect and never will be.
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Artist: Fugazi (1986-2002)
Album: Instrument Soundtrack
Track (12): I'm So Tired
Release: March 23rd, 1999
Paintings by Lesley Oldaker
Links: lesleyoldakerfineart.com/about-the-artist
Visual effect clip (YouTube search): "Faceless" (from channel "TurhuuksienRovio")
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I claim no ownership over any of the material used, only the video representing them.
Thanks for listening / watching.
Layered orchestral vocals w/ audio effects and ambient sounds.
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Main tracks used:
Arvo Pärt - Da Pacem (samples from Estonian Philharmonic Chamber Choir, Paul Hillier and Christopher Bowers-Broadbent)
Samuel Barber - Agnus Dei (performed by The Dale Warland Singers)
Pictures: Google image search "pillars in darkness";
"Temple of Thousand Pillars - Rameshwaram" by John Paul;
something else on Pinterest (could not find an explicit name, says "Saved by Grace Duncan") -
place seems to be called the Great Northern Railway Corn Warehouse
Ambient effects (YouTube search): Windy Landscape Sound Effects (from "EffectsLibrary"),
Metal Chair Scraping Concrete Basement Floor (from "Sound Effects Public Domain")
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I claim no ownership over any of the material used, only the video representing them.
Made with GoldWave and Sony Vegas Pro 14.
Thanks for listening.
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Artist: Hell (2008-present)
Album: Hell III
Side: A
Track (1): Mourn
Release: October 11th, 2012
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Links: (Official) http://loweryourhead.bigcartel.com
(Bandcamp) loweryourhead.bandcamp.com
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All music written, performed, and recorded by M.S.W.
Illustrations by Gustave Doré - Dante's Divine Comedy (Inferno)
Link: http://www.worldofdante.org/gallery_dore.html
I claim no ownership over any of the material used, only the video representing them.
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"Nothing For Hopeful"
I will not believe in God simply because I must do so as a step to avoid perdition. Though as I must acknowledge, aeons of perdition will not stop, simply because I had pride; in hell, you will burn in woe for aeons unstopped, proceeding aeons and aeons more, un-ended; and in hell, the realization of its fate will bring out for feelings of dread . . . for there is no hope. And will any pride last out its eternity? Will any pride weigh out the endless torment that is to come? It might not seem fair, but the time will come when all self-pride will be paid for in woe and endless torment. Selfishness is not permitted in the kingdom of God -- especially selfishness that stands up for itself.
"What you speak of here, it is an attack, a suffering, without origin or source, without reason, an attack of the void? Like a scream rising up out of a well of nothingness. An attack that threatens dissolution of the self, or even lays claim to more, a void overwhelms in the very force of its shadow?" -- Anonymous (January 22, 2012)
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Re-edited from scrap.
Artist: Have A Nice Life (2000 - ?)
Album: Deathconsciousness
Disc (2): The Future
Track (12): I Don't Love
Release: 2008
Links:
(Official) http://enemieslist.net
(Record Label) theflenser.bandcamp.com/album/deathconsciousness
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All tracks written by Dan Barrett and Tim Macuga.
Visuals: "TheUnknownCameraman"
Video: "Exploring an Abandoned Psychiatric Hospital - NY"
Link: youtube.com/watch?v=nj8XNGDI-I8
I claim no ownership of any of the material used, only the video representing them.
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Old Boy (2003)
Donnie Darko (2001)
Breaking Bad (S4-E3: "Open House" | S5-E16: "Felina")
House M.D. (S8-E21: "Holding On")
Lost (S2-E3: "Orientation")
(500) Days of Summer (2009)
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I do not claim ownership of any of the material used, only the video representing them.
Of course this does not include all of my favorite movies and shows, but these were the ones that fit mostly well together.
Thank you for watching.
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Artist: Angel Olsen (2009-present)
Track (14): Only With You (Bonus Track)
Album: Burn Your Fire For No Witness (Deluxe Edition)
Release: Nov 18, 2014
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I claim no ownership of the song or material used, only the video representing them.
Made by me with Sony Vegas Pro 14
Thank you for listening and watching.
Hahah.
Transcript: There's no one here. [2x]
There's only me. [2x]
And no one else.
There's no one here. [2x]
There's only me.
And there's no one else.
I'm dying. I'm fucking dying.
There's nothing I can do to stop it.
I'm falling apart.
I'm made of nothing.
My stomach is empty.
My heart is quivering.
My head, my head is pounding.
My eyes are black.
I can see nothing. [2x]
All is black.
The world is dead.
It's quiet.
It is so fucking quiet.
And there's nothing I can do.
My face is melting
My skin is rotting.
My eyes are bleeding.
I'm so hungry, but there's no food anywhere.
There's only so much time left, before that time; I reach the end.
And it will be blacker than this.
And it will be so terrible just to experience.
My mind will be erased.
And I will be thrown upon oblivion.
Where in which there is no hope; there is no peace or security.
There's only emptiness and chaos and chaos and torment.
There's only hell.
That's where I am.
I'm dying.
I'm alone.
And I hate myself.
And I hate everyone else.
[ . . . ]
[ . . . ]
[ . . . ]
That everything else is nothing.
And you can't feel anything good enough to counter it.
You can't think any thought that will make it go away.
The truth is absolute.
The truth is destructive.
It will damn you.
It will damn you to hell.
To the darkest place you've ever walked. [2x]
That's all; that's it.
Forever.
Eternity.
Oblivion.
Damnation.
Absolution.
I am [ . . . ]
I am Death, Destined.
Goodbye.
Song: "Ruled by Secrecy". / End track (14).
Album: Absolution
Released in 2003
All persons and sentimental beings involved do not exist.
LYRICS: Sometimes you think you're untouchable
Just look behind you, you are but a man
Sometimes you think things can't get worse
Just look behind you, you are but a man
So eat, drink and be merry
For tomorrow you may be dead
Eat, drink and be merry
For tomorrow you may be dead
The struggle for life you know never ends
So look behind you, you are but a man
Rich man, poor man, beggar man, thief
Look behind you, you are but a man
So eat, drink and be merry
For tomorrow you may be dead
Eat, drink and be merry
For tomorrow you may be dead
Realise we share the same fate
Understand your own mortality
Our lives are getting shorter every day
Pretty soon there will be no you and me
So eat, drink and be merry
For tomorrow you may be dead
Eat, drink and be merry
For tomorrow you may be dead
Sieze the day, you know it's gonna end
Look behind you, you are but a man
Dance footloose across the earth
And look behind you, you are but a man
So eat, drink and be merry
For tomorrow you may be dead
Eat, drink and be merry
For tomorrow you may be dead
Album: "Meds" (US re-release). / Track: 09
Style/Genre: Alternative rock, Glam punk, Post-punk revival
Release: 2007
LYRICS: It's horrid to see you again
Now that you're back from the dead
It's horrid to see you again
So bored of being you
It's horrid to see you again
Now that you're back from the dead
It's horrid to see you again
So bored of being.... alive, alive, alive
It's horrid to see you again
Acting like you're on some kind of cross
It's horrid to see you again
An emotional retard
It's horrid to see you again
Unaware that I may not be lost
It's horrid to see you again
So bored of being... alive, alive, alive
It's horrid to see you again
Walking around with that egg on your face
It's horrid to see you again
So full of apathy
It's horrid to see you again
Caught in a trap that you cannot escape
It's horrid to see you again
So bored of being... alive, alive, alive
LYRICS:
No [x3]
Find the defect
The reason
The source
Of all this
Mysery
And extract it
Forever
What heals me kills me
I'm a natural assasin
A massacre in action
I've never known remorse
Or felt any compassion
This is my drug of choice
The reason demons rejoice
My rage remains a beast untamed
I bet you'll remember me now
Glutton
I am heartbreak and depression
Regret without redemption
A wounded animal
Afraid of my reflection
I am an epidemic
This is a crime of passion
The willing weak deserve defeat
The penance will be savage
I bet you'll remember me now [x2]
Bi-polar
Self-abortion
Mind fuck
Can't escape
These chains
Of shame
I'm stuck
Swollen in the mud
Barely
Standing still
Hungry for the hunt
And the thrill
Of the kill
Come on
I've always been a shadow
Content with my disease
You'll never see it coming
'Cause you never notice me
Unload
Words are the remedy [x2]
What heals me kills me [x9]
The plague rages on
I've built myself out of ash and agony
I am ready
I am I
I am my own creation, I am, self-made [x3]
Destroyers
I am I
A bone heals
A bruise fades
But art is forever
"Requiem" - Track: 03 from 2001: A Space Odyssey - Original Motion Picture Soundtrack (1996 CD, Album, Reissue, Remastered) Music by György Ligeti Performed by the Bavarian Radio Orchestra Conducted by Francis Travis Genre/Style: Classical, Stage & Screen - Soundtrack, Modern, Neo-Classical & Contemporary
I claim nothing, besides the video representing this.
'LYRICS':
A saviour conjured to lead the "blessed" through this hell, adverse lords dominate the crimson sky,
demonic shadows shroud the heavens,
the codes they dreamt (superstitious fears transformed into) engravings on their skin.
Faith led to their own end,
nothing remains to resurrect,
judgment day took a morbid turn,
Christ set the fire, for all to burn (a fallen angel's return). Running out of tomorrows and tomorrow is now.
The weight of ignorance cursed all their beliefs, yet curse the children who have nothing to pray to.
Vomited blood, human waste blessed the centuries (only a fool would die for mankind).
A torturous reflection remains of a spherical demise.
If you shall ever try to get a greatly encompassing taste of Otep, this is the song for it.
Album: "Sevas Tra" or "Art Saves." / Track: 04
Style: Nu Metal
Release: 2002
LYRICS:
my confession[6x]
because i'm diluted
&
perfectly flawed
i shall
live by passion
&
not by law
and i'm
insecure ...
i need aggression
to
feed the spiders
of perception
and i'm
supposed to be strong
& have
all the answers
a
cannibal
in the
new church of cancer
but i'm
nothing special
i'm not unique
i have
many secrets
& i
eat the weak
and i'm
at an end
i'm at an end .....
and there's ...
NO WAY OUT!!
[chorus]
i need to find my sanctuary
..... someplace safe
gotta get this outta me
..... this is my escape
II.
and i
think about it
all the time
i'm
volatile
&
afraid to cry
but i'm
still not comfortable
in my skin
and the
anesthetics slowly
wearing thin
& i
need to talk to
someone new
i need a different
latitude
& i'm
in this void
all alone!
feeling needy
... hungry to grow
but i'm
suffocating
-- can't come down
and .... no ....
THERE'S NO WAY OUT!!!
[chorus]
i need to find my sanctuary
.... someplace safe
gotta get this outta me!
.... THIS IS MY ESCAPE!!!
--- all i see is sadness
all i see is sadness ....
what's left?
-- this will teach them.
this will teach them,
......you've got to......
push.
Push.
PUSH....
YOUR WAY OUT!!!
FOLLOW ME!
FOLLOW ME!
THIS IS YOUR WAY OUT!!
........you are not alone
- this is where i hide my power
- this is where i become free
- this is where i take control
- and slowly choke your fantasies
- i want to know my day is coming
- see my enemies be punished
- shed my skin again
- this will be my best revenge!!
SHED MY SKIN AGAIN
THIS WILL BE MY BEST REVENGE!
Style: Nu Metal
Release: 2002
LYRICS:
And it sounds like...Armageddon
Sounds like...Armageddon
Sounds like...come and drink with me....
Come and drink with me
And I remember him fucking me,
And I remember liking it,
I didn't know any better...
And I remember the smell, and the pain, and the shame...
And I remember being afraid and thinking everyday,
Every single day.. that it was my fault...
Oh, but what happened to that little girl?
Who used to dream of one day ruling the world,
Who used to draw pretty pictures in my room---beneath the moon
Destroying to create
Softly praying to "God"
What do I do now?
What do I do now?
As I secretly masturbate...
But then I'd hear his hooves coming down the floor
With a Bible in his hand...
Softly opening my door and he'd say...
DAUGHTER! The day of your atonement is due!
Well there's 3 million sinners out there...
and that includes you!
No daddy, don't... no daddy, don't...
LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE!
NO, I DON'T WANT TO BE FREE! NO, I DON'T WANT TO BE FREE!
SO TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME!
PLEASE TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME! PLEASE TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME! PLEASE TAKE
YOUR DICK OUT OF ME!
I'm bleeding, it's not fair...
You see, there's this little place I like to go...
I like to run and hide--deep inside,
Where all the nightmares are real, and all the monsters come alive,
Oh, but the things I've seen in soft, soft visions and terrifying prophecies,
Like serpents on the take and gods coming in all sizes and shapes
Nothing seems fulfilling anymore..
Well your temples are swollen in deceit and the body of your missionary,
He's rotting... rotting in defeat mama?
MAMA!
Are the aliens coming to take us away? (mama?)
Is Armageddon gonna happen again today?
LOOK WHAT HE DID TO ME! WHY DID YOU DO IT TO ME?!
HOW COULD YOU DO IT TO ME! WHY DID YOU DO IT TO ME?!
I will not cry... I will not cry...
I--PREFER--TO--DIE! than live--this life--of LIES!
KILL WHAT YOU CAN ---- CHALLENGE EVERYTHING
Vengeance is mine...
Hey, I'm sorry baby...
please come back inside...we can laugh a little... and live and die,
no wait. see, i got this hot pot of Jonestown tea
And it's been brewing for you and me,
Oh, it only takes one sip,
Come on baby,
Surrender your lips,
I can take you someplace nice...
I can take you...someplace NICE!
Breed my disease, be my disease...
Breed my disease, be my disease...
and vengeance will be mine
It's closer than u think...
So I entered his room at 32 past noon
With my little ritual knife...
I cut out his tongue
Liberated his wife
She loved me for it other world woman,
Well, thats what she called me (Destroyer),
the one who sets you free, (come and drink with me)
We all die like cartoons, surrender your children,
kids who like to kill, lies...all lies....
Style: Cabaret, Electronica, Classical, and Industrial
Release: 2009
LYRICS: God help me
I don't see how I can live this way
And I don't know why he's touching me
Won't you shine in my direction and help me?
Won't you lend me your protection and help me?
God help me
Believe me, this wasn't what I wanted
But no, I can't leave, he's got me
Won't you shine in my direction and help me?
Won't you lend me your protection and help me?
Am I guilty or am I just waiting around
For the tide to come in so the truth can come out
And if I had a dollar for every time
I repented the sin and commit the same crime
I'd be sitting on top of the world today
I'd be sitting on top of the world today
God, God help me
Just maybe I'll learn to help myself
Speak to me, don't leave me, he's burning me
Won't you shine in my direction and help me?
Won't you lend me your protection and help me?
Places, everyone, this is a test
Throw you stones, do your damage, your worst
And your best, all the world is a judge
But that doesn't compare to what I do to myself
When you're not there
And if I had a dollar for every time
I repented the sin and commit the same crime
I'd be sitting on top of the world today
I'd be sitting on top of the world today
Don't make me choose, I've got too much to lose
Don't make me choose, I've got too much to lose
Don't make me choose, I've got too much to lose
Don't make me choose, I've got to much to fucking lose
For I am with you, and also with you
For I am with you, and also with you
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me...
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me...
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me...
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me...
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me...
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me...
God, God help me, God help me,
God help me, God help me
God help me, God help me
Style: Cabaret, Electronica, Classical, and Industrial
Release: 2009
LYRICS: It's not the time
It's not the place
I'm just another pretty face
So don't come any closer
You're not the first
You're not the last
How many more?
Don't even ask
You're one more dead composer
Do I need you?
Yes and no
Do I want you?
Maybe so
You're getting warm
Tou're getting warm
You're getting warmer oh
Did you plan this all along
Did you care if it was wrong
Who's getting warmer now
That I'm gone
Misery loves company
And company loves more
More loves everybody else
But hell is others
I'm not for you
You're not for me
I'll kill you first
You wait and see
You devil undercover
You're not a prince
You're not a friend
You're just a child
And in the end
You're one more selfish lover
Do I need you?
Yes and no
Do I want you?
Maybe so
You're getting warm
You're getting warm
You're getting warmer oh
Did you plan this all along
Did you care if it was wrong
Who's getting warmer now
That I'm gone
Misery loves company
And company loves more
More loves everybody else
But hell is others
You're so easy to read
But the book is boring me
You're so easy to read
But the book is boring me
You're so easy to read
But the book is boring
Boring boring boring boring
Boring boring me
Pray for me
If you want to
Pray for me
If you care
Pray for me
If you want to
Pray for me
If you dare
Pray for me
If you want to
Pray for me
If you care
Pray for me
If you want to
Pray for me you fucker
If you fucking dare
Misery loves company
And company loves more
More loves everybody else
But hell is others
Style: Cabaret, Electronica, Classical, and Industrial
Release: 2009
LYRICS: She's locked up with a spinning wheel
She can't recall what it was like to feel
She says, 'This room's gonna be my grave
And there is no one who can save me.'
She sits down to her coloured thread
She knows lovers waking up in their bed
She says, 'How long can I live this way
Is there no one I can pay to let me go
'Cause I'm half sick of shadows
I wanna see the sky
Everyone else can watch as the sun goes down
So why can't I
And it's raining
And the stars are falling from the sky
And the wind
And the wind I know it's cold
I've been waiting
For the day I will surely die
And it's here
And it's here for I've been told
That I'll die before I'm old
And the wind I know it's cold...
She looks up to the mirrored glass
She sees a handsome horse and rider pass
She say, 'That man's gonna be my death
'Cause he's all I ever wanted in my life
And I know he doesn't know my name
And that all the girls are all the same to him
But still I've got to get out of this place
'Cause I don't think I can face another night
Where I'm half sick of shadows
And I can't see the sky
Everyone else can watch as the tide comes in
So why can't I
And it's raining
And the stars are falling from the sky
And the wind
And the wind I know it's cold
I've been waiting
For the day I will surely die
And it's here
And it's here for I've been told
That I'll die before I'm old
And the wind I know it's cold...
But there's willow trees
And little breezes, waves and walls and flowers
And there's moonlight every single night
As I'm locked in these towers
So I'll meet my death
But with my last breath I'll sing to him I love
And he'll see my face in another place
And with that the glass above.'
Cracked into a million bits
And she cried out, 'So the story fit
But then I could have guessed it all along
'Cause now some drama queen is gonna write a song for me.'
She went down to her little boat
And she broke the chains and began to float away
And as the blood froze in her veins she said,
'Well then that explains a thing or two
'Cause I know I'm the cursed one
I know I'm meant to die
Everyone else can watch as their dreams untie
So why can't I
And it's raining
And the stars are falling from the sky
And the wind
And the wind I know it's cold
I've been waiting
For the day I will surely die
And it's here
And it's here
And it's here
And it's here
And it's here
It's finally here
And it's raining
And the stars are falling from the sky
And the wind
And the wind I know it's cold
I've been waiting
For the day I will surely die
And it's here
And it's here for I've been told
That I'll die before I'm old
And the wind I know it's cold...
Track: 12
Release: 2007
Sole composer and producer: "Malefic"
Track: 05
Release: 2002
Recommend listening to entirety.
Info: finger picked.
Turn up the volume and wear good headphones if you want to hear the sound and mixing better.
Due to the quality of equipment I was using, the song turned out rather dry, despite efforts to infuse an emotional quality for creating a 'deeper' movement.
For personal use or download: go to Attila The Hun (blackmetalownsyou.blogspot.com) and search for "Hell."
I will say: by the many times I tried to record this, this was the most successful, though not the least painful; and I do plan on recording more soon.
Listen in full spec to get a better, fuller experience.
List of songs as they appear within the video:
"Main Titles" By James Newton Howard: 00:00 - 00:25
"Damage Your Soul"_Album: All Reflections Drained: 00:26 - 01:50
"Masquerade of Incisions"_Album: All Reflections Drained: 01:51 - 03:30
"Dirge Forsaken"_Album: All Reflections Drained: 03:31 - 04:39
"Broken Glass Christening"_Album: Portal of Sorrow: 04:40 - 05:16
"Mourning Tomorrow"_Album: Portal of Sorrow: 05:17 - 05:50
"Entrance Into Nothingness"_Album: Telepathic With the Deceased: 05:51 - 06:29
"Slaughtered Useless Beings in a Nihilistic Dream"_Album: Telepathic With the Deceased: 06:30 - 07:08
"Abysmal Depths Are Flooded"_Album: Telepathic With the Deceased: 07:08 - 07:53
"Exit"_Album: Telepathic With the Deceased: 07:54 - 08:18
"Oration of Ruin"_Album: Defective Epitaph: 08:18 - 08:46
"Keeper of Sharpened Bladed (And Ominous Fates)_Split: Xasthur/Leviathan: 08:47 - 09:08
"Walker of Dissonant Worlds"_Album: To Violate the Oblivious: 09:09 - 09:38
"Lurking in Silence"_Split: Nortt/Xasthur: 09:39 - 10:24
"Prison of Mirrors"_Album: Subliminal Genocide: 10:25 - 11:34
"Instrumental"_Ep: Xasthur: 11:34 - 12:01
"Doomed By Howling Winds_Ep: A Darkened Winter: 12:02 - 12:42
"Worship (The War Against) Yourself_Album: Defective Epitaph: 12:43 - 13:19
"Beauty Is Only Razor Deep"_Album: Subliminal Genocide: 13:20 - 13:49
"Cemetery of Shattered Masks"_Album: Defective Epitaph: 13:50 - 14:19
"Blood From the Roots of the Forest_Part I"_Album: Funeral of Being: 14:20 to end (14:59).
All music and images belong to their respective owners; I claim nothing besides the video representing them.


