everytime - ethel cain (lyrics)malcolm macmaster2022-03-08 | originally by britney spearsbroken man by st vincent (live at halifax jazz fest, july 20 2025)malcolm macmaster2025-07-23 | ...u by green eyes, witch hands (live at halifax commons skatepark, july 18 2025)malcolm macmaster2025-07-22 | ...bobby jolli birthdaymalcolm macmaster2025-07-06 | i had a sore throat so i sound weird. we love you bobby jolli!someone to watch over me by ryn weaver (live at arturos in greenwich village, new york, jan 7 2025)malcolm macmaster2025-06-05 | crashed on ryn's couch for a few nights earlier this year. we went out to dinner one night and because she happened to know the pianist, she was a friend of her uncle's, she got up to sing. this song here is originally by the gershwin brothers + howard dietz. when i asked if i could post this she said "well not my most flattering look didn't know i'd be singing" but i think she looks beyond beautiful here and 100% of the time - i love you rynnie! my angel, my sisterfor nichola.malcolm macmaster2025-05-24 | gift number six: a tribute to my best friend on her twenty-second birthday. i never want to be anywhere without you. i love you i love you i love youinterlude (i grow awake) by idialedyournumber (live at gus pub in halifax, ns, may 1 2025)malcolm macmaster2025-05-05 | ...richard parker by earth moon transit (live at gus pub in halifax, ns, may 1 2025)malcolm macmaster2025-05-05 | ...her name is beautiful by idialedyournumber (live at gus pub in halifax, ns, may 1 2025)malcolm macmaster2025-05-05 | ...dolly by green eyes, witch hands (live at gus pub in halifax, ns, may 1 2025)malcolm macmaster2025-05-05 | this is my favourite band of all time and this is my fave song by them so it was a struggle to film this while also doing my little dance so i'm sorry for the one or two moments of weird camera workis there something in the movies? by samia (live at paradise rock club in boston, jan 25 2022)malcolm macmaster2025-04-16 | ...minnesota by samia (live at paradise rock club in boston, jan 25 2022)malcolm macmaster2025-04-16 | ...to me it was by samia (live at paradise rock club in boston, jan 25 2022)malcolm macmaster2025-04-16 | ...stellate by samia (live at paradise rock club, jan 25 2022)malcolm macmaster2025-04-16 | ...as you are by samia (live at paradise rock club in boston, jan 25 2022)malcolm macmaster2025-04-16 | ...triptych by samia (live at paradise rock club in boston, jan 25 2022)malcolm macmaster2025-04-16 | ...fit n full by samia (live at paradise rock club in boston, jan 25 2022)malcolm macmaster2025-04-16 | ...boys at school by spellling (live at le poisson rouge in new york city, oct 23 2021)malcolm macmaster2025-04-16 | ...little deer by spellling (live at le poisson rouge in new york city, oct 23 2021)malcolm macmaster2025-04-16 | ...your body changes everything by perfume genius (live at halifax jazz fest, july 15 2022)malcolm macmaster2025-04-16 | ...katie by perfume genius (live at halifax jazz fest, july 15 2022)malcolm macmaster2025-04-16 | ...jason by perfume genius (live at halifax jazz fest, july 15 2022)malcolm macmaster2025-04-16 | ...headache by grouper (live at first parish church in portland, maine, may 23 2022)malcolm macmaster2025-04-16 | ...thoroughfare by ethel cain (live at brighton music hall in boston, july 22 2022)malcolm macmaster2025-04-16 | ...rnb side (feat. idialedyournumber)malcolm macmaster2025-03-13 | originally by kate nash. produced by jessie everill (idialedyournumber)
jessie: why'd you have to be such a wanker? it was better when it was just me why'd you have to be such a wanker? it was better when it was just me
malcolm: you let me down, hardly gently you left me without my dignity why do i feel so pathetic? why'd you have to be such a dick? you never opened doors i believed that i was yours i did all the work, gave you all my time but you were never mine you used your words to manipulate never giving me, always take, take, take you used your words to manipulate never giving me, always take, take
jessie: why'd you have to be such a wanker? it was better when it was just me why'd you have to be such a wanker? it was better when it was just me
malcolm: 'cause you make the stone feel cold make my hands feel older when i wake up on time wish i could get you off my mind 'cause i can be brave i can pull myself through i can, yeah, get to the top of the tree i can get myself over you
jessie and malcolm: and you can never make yourself bigger than me and i may not have found my happiness, but at least i'm free
jessie: why'd you have to be such a wanker? it was better when it was just me why'd you have to be such a wanker? it was better when it was just me it was better when it was just meunfold by porter robinson (live at history in toronto, sept 21 2024)malcolm macmaster2024-09-23 | ...something comforting by porter robinson (live at history in toronto, sept 21 2024)malcolm macmaster2024-09-23 | ...musician by porter robinson (live at history in toronto, sept 21 2024)malcolm macmaster2024-09-23 | ...cheerleader by porter robinson (encore, live at history in toronto, sept 21 2024)malcolm macmaster2024-09-23 | ...is there really no happiness? by porter robinson (live at history in toronto, sept 21 2024)malcolm macmaster2024-09-23 | ...year of the cup by porter robinson (live at history in toronto, sept 21 2024)malcolm macmaster2024-09-23 | biblically accurate yotc live recording... if you missed it, check out the music video i shot / edited / co-directed for porter this summer: youtube.com/watch?v=f5YDKhqvgjcworking hard or riley workman? by customer service (live at radstorm in halifax, ns, aug 10 2024)malcolm macmaster2024-08-11 | the music video for this song is one of my fave things ever made please go watch it: youtube.com/watch?v=Fa4dNy5jG2Azero by green eyes witch hands (live at radstorm in halifax, ns, july 19 2024)malcolm macmaster2024-08-10 | green eyes witch hands is the best band of all timebehind the scenes of idialedyournumbers Bunny Goes 2 Business Schoolmalcolm macmaster2024-04-03 | take a shot everytime i say "okay"
recently had the honour of directing the music video for Bunny Goes 2 Business School by idialedyournumber. such a fun experience, and i feel very proud of the finished product - link to watch is here: youtube.com/watch?v=r6XSODVxnPw
here's some of the unedited footage for your viewing pleasureamerican teenager by ethel cain (live at state theatre in portland, maine, oct 4 2023)malcolm macmaster2023-12-18 | said i would upload this a long time ago and then forgot, whoops enjoyson of man - trailermalcolm macmaster2023-11-12 | trailer for my short film 'son of man' coming... at some point. maybe
email me if you really really want to see it i guess: malcolmmacmaster@gmail.comstrangers & crush by ethel cain (encore, live at state theatre in portland, maine, oct 4 2023)malcolm macmaster2023-10-06 | sorry for the shaky camera work lol i was in the balcony zoomed ALL the way in so literally every tiny movement looks like an earthquake. no tripod or anything i was just holding the camera with my bare hands... it's rough yall.. i was trying my best... anyways enjoywhite winter hymnal by fleet foxes (live at halifax jazz jest, july 16 2023, with landon morris)malcolm macmaster2023-07-19 | fleet foxes live at halifax jazz fest. my friend landon morris held up a sign asking to go on stage for white winter hymnal. they said yes. here's the videothoroughfare by ethel cain (karaoke version)malcolm macmaster2022-09-04 | or as i like to call it... thoroughfaraoke
i made this between the hours of 1am and 6:30am and then immediately uploaded it. hope it's of use to someone half drunk and feeling brave someday, somewherestrangers (acapella) by ethel cain (live at brighton music hall in boston, july 22 2022)malcolm macmaster2022-08-08 | ...hard times & thoroughfare by ethel cain (live at market hotel in brooklyn, new york, may 25 2022)malcolm macmaster2022-05-29 | love's out there and it's beautiful and it's something i want you to seewinnebago by samia (live at paradise rock club in boston, jan 25 2022)malcolm macmaster2022-01-30 | i think i love you bugfound footagemalcolm macmaster2021-11-09 | compilation of clips, mostly in chronological order, taken from january 2021 to october 2021
there is no storyline. there is no plot. there is no meaning. there is no hope
featuring the song moon is sharp by groupergods country (demo) - ethel cainmalcolm macmaster2021-07-23 | filmed in nova scotia thank u 2 my friends i love u hayden
i made a spelling mistake, at 4:26 the correct lyric is "your white horse can't hold your hand" i'm so stupid sorry
here are the full lyrics, copied and pasted right from a text that hayden sent me:
Verse I (Ethel):
there’s a hole in the wall where you keep your head lost it one too many times say your mama’s funeral’s next sunday what’d your daddy go and do now? no matter just how hard they cry, a dog is a dog is a dog is a dog is a dog and they still get hungry and they look hungry so once you’re dead, who’ll be there to let them out
Interlude:
you don’t need me like you think you do and i can’t pull you through you just need to feel like someone wants you and i promise you, they do
Verse II:
you are young, you are young, you’re too young, and you cry til you’re soaking wet you are not your father but you wear his clothes to bed going over something he said all american no good, worn through, and on fire and they’ll chew holes in whatever’s left til there’s nothing left
Chorus (Ethel):
you’ve tasted love and it tasted sweet you drank the blood and bit the meat if you hold it and it cries you should let it go i’m trying hard so baby please, don’t sink in me with your dog teeth please, i’m already on my knees (in god’s country)
Verse III (Ethel)
you smell like gasoline trailing the death of me when you come home then you’re gone stained like the memories stuffed under the car seat behind me i’m not coming back i’m not coming back again you ruined all of that i always told you that your white horse can’t hold your hand so it passed you running again and again
Verse IV (Wicca):
drive the pathway through the pines and the moors of mystery welcome conflict and let crisis come and shake the ground beneath and the family secret hiding in the farmhouse down the street rushes open door on your front porch and shadows me taken and entirely I embraced the bonny beast over hills and highlands we rode hard the passing peaks danger liked the virgin wife beside me she would sleep cherry was her dad’s truck that she crashed at seventeen i kneel before what temper broke the branches on the beach and those thrilling highs and southern nights are always out of reach
Pre-Chorus (Wicca):
i learned a lesson i need to pray and hard final hours take care of me God
Chorus (Duet):
you’ve tasted love and it tasted sweet you drank the blood and bit the meat if you hold it and it cries, you should let it go im trying hard so baby please don’t sink in me with your dog teeth please, i’m already on my knees (in god’s country)
Bridge (Duet):
don’t sink in me with your dog teeth don’t sink in me with your dog teeth taken and entirely I embraced the bonny beast over hills and highlands we rode hard the passing peaks danger liked the virgin wife beside me she would sleep cherry was her dad’s truck that she crashed at seventeen i kneel before what temper broke the branches on the beach and those thrilling highs and southern nights are always out of reach
Final Chorus (Duet):
you’ve tasted love and it tasted sweet you drank the blood and bit the meat if you hold it and it cries, you should let it go im trying hard so baby please don’t sink in me with your dog teeth god, i’m already on my knees in god’s countryUNPUNISHABLEmalcolm macmaster2021-04-15 | music by ethel cainbunny boymalcolm macmaster2021-04-03 | music by nicole dollanganger
special thanks to my mom for making the hat and to my brother for shining his car headlights on mecaseymalcolm macmaster2021-03-01 | music by ethel cainyour jacketmalcolm macmaster2020-02-17 | music by ethel cain