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Mr.Kitty - Destroy Me
updated
What if you could forget
The errors and the bad days
All the decisions that you made
Would you be able to work it out
Are you capable
Does your heart dance with the doubt
So many times
I try and try
It never works
I cry at night
I lie awake
They watch me break
To give it up
For Heaven's sake
Angels (angels)
Over me (over me)
Watching every single thing you put me through
Angels (angels)
Over me (over me)
Watching every single thing I do for you
Angels (angels)
Over me (over me)
Watching every single thing you put me through
Angels (angels)
Over me (over me)
Watching every single thing I do for you
A pair of charcoal wings
Give us both a second chance
We're off to big and better things
Now's the perfect time to make it right
I feel invincible
As I'm gazing towards the sky
My feathers stained
By Heaven's rain
Be severed from
A lasting pain
We're both the same
But different names
Born from below
I shall remain
Angels (angels)
Over me (over me)
Watching every single thing you put me through
Angels (angels)
Over me (over me)
Watching every single thing I do for you
Angels (angels)
Over me (over me)
Watching every single thing you put me through
Angels (angels)
Over me (over me)
Watching every single thing I do for you
(You, for you)
Every single thing I do for you
(You, for you)
Every single thing I do for you
(You, for you)
Every single thing I do for you
(You, for you)
Every single thing I do for you
Angels (angels)
Over me (over me)
Watching every single thing you put me through
Angels (angels)
Over me (over me)
Watching every single thing I do for you
Angels (angels)
Over me (over me)
Watching every single thing you put me through
Angels (angels)
Over me (over me)
Watching every single thing I do for you
In my head again
Lost with you
Don't let me forget
To bandage our wounds
As I'm bleeding out
Smile through the pain
What I'm feeling now
It kills me every time you fade
Spin a tale made of lies
Who gave you the right
To destroy the world around me
Through a mirror bathed in light
Who's on the other side
Someone I don't recognize
I can feel the rush
When I'm with you
See the setting sun
Leave stars around the moon
With a moment's time
Brought to a halt
As I realize
This never was my fault
Spin a tale made of lies
Who gave you the right
To destroy the world around me
Through a mirror bathed in light
Who's on the other side
Someone I don't recognize
Spin a tale made of lies
Who gave you the right
To destroy the world around me
Through a mirror bathed in light
Who's on the other side
Someone I don't recognize
As you sleep inside my glycerin
Can you hear me are you listenin'
Has the liquid seeped inside of you
They will keep you as a specimen
As the light shows bone and cartilage
I will never see your heart again
So for once may all your colors show
Let your beauty overflow
Stain their eyes, let them know
That you're alright, let it show
Stain their eyes, let them know
That you're alright
I awake inside your glycerin
I can hear you breathing oxygen
I no longer have inside of me
A display for all eternity
In the depths of where my heart resides
I will bathe beneath the coldest light
In the darkness I will be alone
Feel the liquid overflow
Made into the image of your liking
Maybe if you fix me then you'll like me
A replica to curate for acceptance
To fill a void with love you disappear in
So crystal clear that you wanted perfection
A servant disguised under hollow affection
Every moment and thought you'll inherit
You already know this (reset me and own it)
I'll miss the rage, I'll miss the hate
The misery you brought to me
I suffocate, I give you take
Keep me inside an empty cage
You'll agitate, you'll irritate
Dance on my nerves into the grave
You got your way, you hear me say
You shall remain tormenting me
You are not the villain when we're fighting
You don't really care about what I think
When I break away from disillusion
Enlightened that I'm here for retribution
I was addicted, it tasted like honey
So reminiscent to think that it's funny
Running away would be so unbecoming
You got what you wanted (don't act like you want me)
I'll miss the rage, I'll miss the hate
The misery you brought to me
I suffocate, I give you take
Keep me inside an empty cage
You'll agitate, you'll irritate
Dance on my nerves into the grave
You got your way, you hear me say
You shall remain tormenting me
Tormenting me
You shall remain tormenting me
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Tracklisting:
Devil May Cry - Sin Scissor SFX (Reversed)
Akon Makeer - Star Flag I Love You, My Country I Love You (Mr.Kitty Remix)
Mr.Kitty - Cannot (Demo)
Orryx - Eldritch (Mr.Kitty Remix)
Sailor Moon - The Power Of Love (Mr.Kitty Remix)
森永真由美 - Fly You To The Star (Mr.Kitty Remix)
Mr.Kitty - Part Of You (Demo)
Mr.Kitty - Teen Idle (MARINA Cover)
Playboi Carti x The Girl Next Door - Stop Breathing x wkcr 89.9 hijacking type beat
Mr.Kitty - Unfelt (Demo)
Gigi D’agostino - The Riddle (Mr.Kitty Remix)
Mr.Kitty - Pile Of Skulls (Demo)
Tatsh feat. 名雪佳代 - Sphere (Mr.Kitty Remix)
Angeleek feat. きょん - ~真実のギャルサー~ (Mr.Kitty Remix)
Target - Around The World (Bass Power Remix) ~Drag Edit~
Soul II Soul - Back To Life (Remix By The Rules) ~SS2010 Galliano Runway Version~
I made this on my Sega Dreamcast.
Lyrics:
After the night
I head into the place
Where I can feel
A cerebral embrace
It's visceral
My walls begin to break
The hell inside my mind erased
I cleanse my thoughts
That gather through the day
It's how are you
Is everything okay
Not what I want
But something that I crave
Heaven with you is hell to me
You and I inside the six by six room
Put your hand upon my beating heart
But I know this touch won't last forever
So I'm leaving here alone (alone)
You and I inside the six by six room
Place your hand around my bleeding heart
I don't know if love will keep us together
So I'm leaving you alone
I almost wish
You put me in the grave
Though it's your fault
Would I be right again
To let you off
Go back to being friends
You never caused me any pain
It started small
My body was the host
I'm fading out
Pearlescent as a ghost
And now you'll be
Someone I used to know
So easily you let me go
You and I inside the six by six room
Put your hand upon my beating heart
But I know this touch won't last forever
So I'm leaving here alone (alone)
You and I inside the six by six room
Place your hand around my bleeding heart
I don't know if love will keep us together
So I'm leaving you alone
You and I inside the six by six room
Put your hand upon my beating heart
I don't know if love will keep us together
So I'm leaving you alone
You and I inside the six by six room
Put your hand upon my beating heart
But I know this touch won't last forever
So I'm leaving here alone (alone)
You and I inside the six by six room
Place your hand around my bleeding heart
I don't know if love will keep us together
So I'm leaving you alone
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We live in the dark
Killing precious time
Seeking lonely hearts
Living out of line
How could I be one to let you die
With you, I feel alive
Now, my hands will hold your heart of knives
I'll bleed for you, Versailles
We live for the night
Connected and apart
Like a guiding light
Romance kills the heart
How could I be one to let you die
With you, I feel alive
Now, my hands will hold your heart of knives
I'll bleed for you, Versailles
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I want your attention
You never notice
With all good intention
Give me a motive
I stare at your picture
Dreaming of leaving
To places in scripture
It won't be deceiving
Knowing that you sense it
I don't deserve this
Through careful attendance
I found your interest
What is it I'm missing
I can be perfect
I wish I was different
I wish I was worth it
I will let you down
I'll say I'm sorry
If it's not enough
My regret will scar me
Nothing ever stops
Everything keeps going
See what you want to see
Your hate is overflowing
(x2)
I'll be your blank canvas
Give me a purpose
But what are the chances
I'll be a burden
Condemned to my nature
Arrogance rules me
I'll put us in danger
Your insolence fooled me
A slave to your poison
I made the elixir
A pact with the voices
Told me pull the trigger
Your purification
Is circumstantial
The ash of cremation
Sleeps on my mantle
I will let you down
I'll say I'm sorry
If it's not enough
My regret will scar me
Nothing ever stops
Everything keeps going
See what you want to see
Your hate is overflowing
(x5)
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Lyrics:
In a field of flowers / I will pass the time
Counting all the reasons / I must say goodbye
With my heart in ruins / All the roses die
I will make it through this / And I’ll tell you why
You showed me dying / can be beautiful
When the clock stops moving / and the earth is full
Both my eyes are drenched in darkness / i’ll no longer see
All the things that hurt me / I’ll no longer breathe
I can feel the sunlight / Leave the atmosphere
Everything around / Slowly disappeared
I will not forget you / Now I’m on my own
All my pain lie dormant / I will let you know
You showed me dying / can be beautiful
When the clock stops moving / and the earth is full
Both my eyes are drenched in darkness / i’ll no longer see
All the things that hurt me / I’ll no longer breathe
I wouldn’t be here / If it wasn’t for you
I couldn’t be there / To save yourself from you
Now my wings feel heavy / but i have to prove
This is all or nothing / This is all for you / I did it for you
You showed me dying / can be beautiful
When the clock stops moving / and the earth is full
Both my eyes are drenched in darkness / i’ll no longer see
All the things that hurt me / I’ll no longer breathe
You showed me dying / can be beautiful
When the clock stops moving / and the earth is full
Both your eyes have closed to sleep now / You are finally free
Nothing left to hurt you / may you rest in peace
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Lyrics:
In the rise and fall
Of your dying breath
I still feel you trapped beneath me
And I need you now
As you cut my flesh
I am coming undone
And I know that there is
No easy way out
With my open wounds
You will bleed me dry
As I break myself I know
At least I tried
Time will smooth me out
Down to ash and dust
All the weight is lifted
As my memory rusts
Let me be the shards
Scattered through your past
I will pull you through the fragments
That kept me attached
Just let me go...
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Lyrics:
Every night
I look out the window
With no reason
The sorrow held you
Did you think
The light within you
Could reflect
What mirrors give you
正しくやりたい
I want to make it right
I want to make it right
(x4)
I start to hope
You’ll make it through this
Please wake up
You have to do it
With all these terms
And new conditions
Are you afraid
To make commitment
正しくやりたい
I want to make it right
I want to make it right
(x4)
I want to make it right
(x4)
(Repeat Chorus)
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Lyrics:
I can hear
The voices of
My ruined past
I want it back
I can feel
The hands of time
Turning back
To save my life
I can see
The fading light
I’m out of here
I need to fight
I can taste
My bloodied mouth
Upon the blade
That cut me out
I can smell
The scent of fear
Did you think
You’d see me here
I can heal...
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Lyrics:
I’m secure
When you tie me up
You’re obsessed
With these chains of lust
To satisfy
I don’t need a ring
I’m hypnotized
As I cry and scream
I’m on my knees / Will you make me yours
I bite my lip / Behind the closed doors
I will be good / For bruises and sores
You’ll break me down / I’ll always endure
The coldest touch
Burns my flesh
I feel your voice
Upon my neck
To crave your lips
I’m on the cusp
I won’t get my way
As the leather cuts
I’m on my knees / Will you make me yours
I bite my lip / Behind the closed doors
I will be good / For bruises and sores
You’ll break me down / I’ll always endure
(Repeat Chorus)
I’m on my knees
Will you make me yours
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Lyrics:
When the time comes
My light leaves
I’ll descend
Till you can’t see
When the time comes
They’ll take me
Where the fire
Took my family
More than anyone / I want to hurt you
More than anything / I want to hurt you
(x2)
When the times comes
Pull me deeper
In the water
They will cleanse me
When the time comes
I’ll see through
You can’t hurt me
I can hurt you
More than anyone / I want to hurt you
More than anything / I want to hurt you
(x2)
(Repeat Chorus)
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Lyrics:
Where am I
How did I get here
Who are you
You’re from the future
Did I live
Where are the people
What’s the time
Are you the reaper
Promise me / you will see
The pain you brought everyone around me
To your goodbye / to your regrets
You still have time / you’re not dead yet
(x2)
Don’t forget
This is genocide
Give back their prayers
You can make this right
From the light
There are no survivors
They will visit
But they can’t hear you
Promise me / you will see
The pain you brought everyone around me
To your goodbye / to your regrets
You still have time / you’re not dead yet
(x2)
You’re not dead yet (x4)
(Repeat Chorus)
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Lyrics:
CRY...
Hypocrite
You complicate / To recommit
I lacerate / For innocence
The first and last / No one escapes
Carry the mask / For your mistakes
We’ll burn the sky / Distort the view
I’ll wear the blood / You’ll wear the wounds
Let’s clear the dust / Of me and you
Mouth full of glass / Can’t see the truth
Armed to the teeth
I’ll avenge / Your pain to me
Without a voice / Don’t try to scream
Destroying me / Is not a choice
A thousand times / Is not enough
You burned my eyes . Now I can see
I’ve seen a god / But Hell is you
What do you mean / You’re in distress
I thought you meant / To rest in peace
Give your hate to me
So I can finally breathe
(x4)
WHY...
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Lyrics:
Into a form
My skin will fade
After the storm
The white air stays
It covers the house
To keep them inside
The water sounds
As my feet glide
It ends right here if you go away
All your memories become an object
It ends right here if you go away
Like my father did / don’t leave me crying
(x2)
To be confined
I’m kept secure
What’s happening
Is not to me
I’m out numbered
By those who feel
I wonder how
It’s like to be real
It ends right here if you go away
All your memories become an object
It ends right here if you go away
Like my father did / don’t leave me crying
(x2)
(Repeat Chorus)
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Lyrics:
Can you feel it
Without meaning
Or emotions
Your kisses lie
I can see it
Always lifeless
You drift away from mine
Three words
You would tell me
It’s clear to see
Giving hatred
You don’t have to be
Someone else for me
I’m tired / of feeling / I’m nothing / compared to you
I need to get out of here / I don’t know what to do
I’ll run to / the edge of / my sanity
They look in / the mirror / the way I look at you
Your attention
And affection
As a memory
I beg to keep
Pulling my strings
Giving orders
Now you can clearly see
I was porcelain
In my nature
Dying vacantly
When you broke me
Into pieces
You got the best of me
I’m tired / of feeling / I’m nothing / compared to you
I need to get out of here / I don’t know what to do
I’ll run to / the edge of / my sanity
They look in / the mirror / the way I look at you
(Repeat Chorus)
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Lyrics:
In the trees the bird sings
Melancholy, reminiscing
Where the landscape used to be
In the dying embers
Lay the ashen part of me
On the surface I am weak
Do you ever notice
If you close your eyes and listen
You can hear our mother cry
All the pain she’s feeling
With the wounds that never heal
What will you do to make this right
For you it comes so easily
This flesh before you gave to me
My planet watched my mother breathe
They soon took my identity
All that I’ve earned so patiently
The earth turns cold so they can see
This work undone to vacancy
You took so much, give it back to me
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Lyrics:
When we first met / i fell apart
You carved the words / inside my heart
It hurts to breathe / when I’m alone
It hurts to be / unknown
We’ve got our own grave / with both names / It’s do or die
I can’t hear you / but I can feel you / you’re by my side
To feel the time move / the hues that paint you / you can’t hide
We’ve got our own grave / with both names / it’s you and I
Somehow, somewhere / it’s in the air
I’m in your arms / I’m in your care
Across the floor / our hearts are strewn
Exchanging touch / my wounds are sewn
We’ve got our own grave / with both names / It’s do or die
I can’t hear you / but I can feel you / you’re by my side
To feel the time move / the hues that paint you / you can’t hide
We’ve got our own grave / with both names / it’s you and I
Every night / I try to reach you / There's never a reply
If there's a way / I can see you / I am ready to die
We’ve got our own grave / with both names / It’s do or die
(It’s do or die)
I can’t hear you / but I can feel you / you’re by my side
(you’re by my side)
To feel the time move / the hues that paint you / you can’t hide
(you can’t hide)
We’ve got our own grave / with both names / it’s you and I
(it’s you and I)
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Lyrics:
Take a look at me
Inside the glass
Tell me what you see
Behind the mask
Take a look at me
With blurry eyes
Erase the purity
Encased in lies
Immure me
Kill me from inside
Immure me
I’ve got nothing left to hide
Take a look at me
My guard is down
Did you ever think
I’d wear the crown
Don’t get close to me
You mustn’t touch
My fragility
An ailing crutch
Immure me
Kill me from inside
Immure me
I’ve got nothing left to hide
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Lyrics:
It’s not goodnight
This is goodbye
I cannot promise
I’ll see the light
I will miss you
With all my heart
I’ll give you now
To tear apart
I know a place / Inside of me
That I never want to be
I needed time / How can’t you see
Something is taking over me
This is the end / I don’t believe
There is anything for me
Into the dark / final retreat
I’ll take the bullet through my teeth
When you grieve
Do you believe
All your tears
Will summon me
By space around
That should be
With lungs of stone
I forgot to breathe
I know a place / Inside of me
That I never want to be
I needed time / How can’t you see
Something is taking over me
This is the end / I don’t believe
There is anything for me
Into the dark / final retreat
I’ll take the bullet through my teeth
(Repeat Chorus)
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Lyrics:
On a highway
Through a memory
Take my heart to
A kingdom falling down
Dragging my feet
Through the ruins
Give me something
To feel the pain again
Why do I / feel like this
You told me how / My pain was missed
You cut me off / Like a cyst
As I detach / I won’t resist
Heavy eyelids
Hide my weakness
I’ve forgotten
Now I sleep alone
Held in amber
With my bloodline
Spoiled parts of me
Sever off the growths
Why do I / feel like this
You told me how / My pain was missed
You cut me off / Like a cyst
As I detach / I won’t resist
(Repeat Chorus)
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Lyrics:
I don’t mind / being underneath you
If you need something to do / I am ready to be used
I don’t mind / being overwhelmed
You can hurt me to the core / I’ll always ask you for more
I don’t mind / taking all your rage
You’ve been down this road before / It’s my job to misbehave
I don’t mind / taking all the blame
You assert the dominance / I will always know my place
When you do these things to me / Who am I supposed to be
If I don’t reciprocate / Will you let my body break
You don’t mind / being underneath me
If I need something to do / you’ll be waiting at the boot
You don’t mind / being overwhelmed
I won’t hurt you like before / You’ll be pleading on the floor
You don’t mind / taking all my rage
I’ll go down this road again / just to let you feel the pain
You don’t mind / taking all the blame
As you serve your master well / You will always know your place
When you do these things to me / Who am I supposed to be
If I don’t reciprocate / Will you let my body break
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Lyrics:
It’s taking over me
It’s taking everything I have
To keep myself from wanting to be apart of you
Inside my ailing mind
I bribe myself to think that
I am made for you what can I do for us to make it through
I know it’s hard to see / The wounds inside of me
I’m hiding underneath all my suffering
And even if I cry / I’ll never close my eyes
To see through all the lies you bestowed to me
When all is clarity / the hate you gave to me
With all sincerity hurts like a disease
The wings that brought you here / will take you far and near
But you will always be no angel to me
You fill me with distrust
I’m writhing in disgust as I
Am told another person has loved you till it hurt
I want to seep inside
I want to sleep beside you when
Your heart depends on stranger’s touch just to feel alive
I know it’s hard to see / The wounds inside of me
I’m hiding underneath all my suffering
And even if I cry / I’ll never close my eyes
To see through all the lies you bestowed to me
When all is clarity / the hate you gave to me
With all sincerity hurts like a disease
The wings that brought you here / will take you far and near
But you will always be no angel to me
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Lyrics:
Be not broken
I have a puzzle heart
Left unsolved I
Pray you tear it apart
It’s fulfillment
My dark abysmal start
All my nightmares
Show my eternal pain
Devastation
Eating away my brain
With no victims / Who can I really blame
Twisting, turning / I am searching high and low
Locks and keys prevent me from letting go
Through this maze discover my failing heart
Did you make it out / Please tell me how
Try to fight it
It’s a confusing maze
Wall to wall a
Paranoia keeps you sane
Look at all the
Demons I have hid away
I can’t help you
I’m off and gone again
At my core I
Know it is not the end
All my ailing / Turn to oblivion
Twisting, turning / I am searching high and low
Locks and keys prevent me from letting go
Through this maze discover my failing heart
Did you make it out / Please tell me how
(Repeat Chorus)
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Lyrics:
You hide behind a gate
A ring of keys to break
With claim to dissociate
Only to instigate
I don’t care how bad I’ve hurt
Be Alive
I don’t care how bad I’ve hurt
Be Alive (x3)
No one knows the truth
No one’s abusing you
Manipulate the youth
Keep them all confused
I don’t care how bad I’ve hurt
Be Alive
I don’t care how bad I’ve hurt
Be Alive (x3)
Be alive (x2)
Be alive (x4)
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Lyrics:
As I feel you drift away
You interest turns to other things on your mind
I think I should disappear
We can never be if you don’t confide
Even though I let you choose
I’ll never know the future of you and I
The world I keep inside my head
Blurs the line of space and time
We’ll be fine
Moments in time will disappear
When blood runs dry I’ll never heal
Emotions die when you are near
I’ll close my eyes and face my fears
Even though you’re here with me
The distance in between us will still exist
Cleanse my heart with clarity
This will be the end if we don’t persist
I’ll open up the void for you
As you descend into my core you will see
The world I made begins to burn
From hatred and disdain I’ll die
Silently
Moments in time will disappear
When blood runs dry I’ll never heal
Emotions die when you are near
I’ll close my eyes and face my fears
Cross my heart and hope to die / I can see it in your eyes / You’re just gonna leave me here
As I lay myself to wake / I don’t know if I can take / losing self control for you
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Lyrics:
To all my friends / I got a blade
A sedative / The rope tied
Thanks for everything / from the love below
Put my finger on the trigger and I’ll let it go
Electricity /at my fingertips
A gas leak / in case that I forget
I’ve got all I need / to get me out of here
Leave me be with my remorse and I will disappear
I want to hurt myself / i want to hurt myself
I want I want I want to hurt myself / I want to hurt myself
Hurry up / take me today
It always ends / the same way
My head won’t clear / when I lose control
Please don’t wake me up if I become comatose
Does it hurt / if you know
That I’m not here / you’ll be alone
I surrender now / I won’t leave a note
Let me jump, let me shoot, let me overdose
I want to hurt myself / i want to hurt myself
I want I want I want to hurt myself / I want to hurt myself
Let me jump, let me shoot, let me overdose (x4)
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Lyrics:
(Of all the times, the chances I have given you, you let me down)
On the first / I won’t forget
The way you said / he took his life
And left the line dead
How do you think / selfishly
You made me hurt so vacantly
You let me down / and I know it’s all because of me
You let me down / and I know it’s all because of me (cause of me)
Of all the times, the chances I have given you, you let me down
When I emerge / I will forgive
The choice that led / to giving up
But never know why
A hollow void / You keep me there
I’ll drown in tears until you care
You let me down / and I know it’s all because of me
You let me down / and I know it’s all because of me (cause of me)
Of all the times, the chances I have given you, you let me down
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/ephemeral
Lyrics:
O morning sky
Our luminescent light
My indigo agony heals
Soft velvet cries
Caressing like a choir
The ashen heart kindled in tears
To crave purity
With a heart to deceive
The echoes of loathing endear
Into the fire
With pain I’ve acquired
The vacancy you left for me here
Look what they’ve done to you
How can this be
I fell through
I can barely breathe
What can I do
What should I say
So you never lose
Our light’s domain
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/ephemeral
Lyrics:
Smile and wave / Like everything’s okay
It’s hard to say / When this is all a game
With guilt and shame / I’ll never be the same
Give me something else to do / Cause I’m about to go insane
The king of hearts / Your favorite card to play
You win them all / And break them in a day
It’s all my fault / With nothing left to gain
Take this stupid halo off so / You can see through my charade
Trauma, trauma / I think I’m dying inside
I don’t want to be alive
Trauma, trauma / I think I hurt myself again
I don’t know where to begin
You grip me tight / I told you let me go
And as I cried / The scars begin to show
With all my rage / I’m gonna take you down
To watch you beg and plead / Before I put you in the ground
Shut your mouth / Don’t play it like we’re cool
For my revenge / I’ll break all of the rules
I hope you rot / Inside a shallow grave
This is all that you deserve / There is no need to give me praise
Trauma, trauma / I think I’m dying inside
I don’t want to be alive
Trauma, trauma / I think I hurt myself again
I don’t know where to begin
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/ephemeral
Lyrics:
I had it all / It caved on me
We gave the world / To be
By now you know / This heart will bleed
To the unknown / For me
In the comfort
You create
Do you wish
To be contained
Something new
Conceived through mesh
We desire
Another flesh
I had it all / It caved on me
We gave the world / To be
By now you know / This heart will bleed
To the unknown / For me
At intervals
We will shed
Our hollow shells
It’s life and death
Flowers bloom
I haven’t seen
New mutations
Inside of me
I had it all / It caved on me
We gave the world / To be
By now you know / This heart will bleed
To the unknown / For me
I had it all...
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/ephemeral
Lyrics:
It was on a summer night
At last I knew the time was right
In the dark I finally met you
Through the lights and heavy smoke
The lust between us tends to show
I’ll leave the crowd to get you closer
The view is not the same without you
It’s not the same without you
It’s not the same without you
(x2)
In a bath of lavender
You told me words I hadn’t heard
The music played and nothing hurt me
On my chest I let you cry
I couldn’t find the reason why
This moment seemed to last forever
The view is not the same without you
It’s not the same without you
It’s not the same without you
(x2)
(Chorus x2)
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/ephemeral
Here we are
Once again
I let you down
It’s not the end
Apologize, Now we’re friends
Salted wounds
Begin to swell
The tension’s there
We know it well
You want it more, I can tell
It not up to you, It’s up to me
I’ll tell you how to set me free
You take me home, I’ll be fine
(x2)
I was numb
Through the night
Your better half
Held me tight
It felt so wrong, This wasn’t right
Through a lens
My vision bleak
There’s nothing more
For you and me
I’ll disconnect, As I leave
It not up to you, It’s up to me
I’ll tell you how to set me free
You take me home, I’ll be fine
(x2)
Here we are
Here we are
Here we are now
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/ephemeral
Lyrics:
This part of me you cannot see
It’s tightly tied to my demise
I’ve built inside, A paradise
For those who see with clarity
I’ll show you my reality
With confidence, I will confide
No matter how hard I have tried
I gave you up, I died inside
It’s you, and I and my weak side
(x2)
I shed a tear but does it help
A human form will be my shell
I give myself, It’s all for you
You give me purpose in a way
I’ll grant your wish, do as you say
My modesty begins to fade
No matter how hard I have tried
I gave you up, I died inside
It’s you, and I and my weak side
(x2)
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/ephemeral
Lyrics:
In my time alone
I died a million deaths
A gaze into the glass
To memories I have kept
They show me who I’ve been
The people I have hurt
I lay myself to sleep
My power will emerge
Don’t you ever cry for me
You could never tell me you’re sorry
Get me far away from here (From liquid I’m drowning)
As my body leaves a void
Fill it up with memories that I’ve destroyed
Burden me with hate and love (From liquid I’m choking)
I used to have a heart
With pain I never felt
I tried to fall apart
For damage I have dealt
Through the broken glass
My kingdom underneath
The mirror looking back
A monster made of me
Don’t you ever cry for me
You could never tell me you’re sorry
Get me far away from here (From liquid I’m drowning)
As my body leaves a void
Fill it up with memories that I’ve destroyed
Burden me with hate and love (From liquid I’m choking)
Get me out of here (x4)
(Chorus x2)
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/ephemeral
Lyrics:
tolle animam meam (x4)
I was lost / You were there to find me
When I joked / You were there to laugh
I was sad / You could make me happy
As I broke / You could put me back
You were lost / I couldn’t find you
Couldn’t laugh / When I needed light
Didn’t know / You were this unhappy
When you broke / What could I do
There was no / Warning or a sign
As you went / To the other side
Every night / I am holding tears back
I refuse / To ever say goodbye
As a promise / I’ll remember
You will never / Be in pain
When the time comes / I’ll see you
I am living / Another day
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/not-dead-yet
Lyrics:
Where am I
How did I get here
Who are you
You’re from the future
Did I live
Where are the people
What’s the time
Are you the reaper
Promise me / you will see
The pain you brought everyone around me
To your goodbye / to your regrets
You still have time / you’re not dead yet
(x2)
Don’t forget
This is genocide
Give back their prayers
You can make this right
From the light
There are no survivors
They will visit
But they can’t hear you
Promise me / you will see
The pain you brought everyone around me
To your goodbye / to your regrets
You still have time / you’re not dead yet
(x2)
You’re not dead yet (x4)
(Repeat Chorus)
All proceeds from this single will be donated to the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.
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New album "EPHEMERAL" out March 08, 2019.
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Lyrics:
(Of all the times, the chances I have given you, you let me down)
On the first / I won’t forget
The way you said / he took his life
And left the line dead
How do you think / selfishly
You made me hurt so vacantly
You let me down / and I know it’s all because of me
You let me down / and I know it’s all because of me (cause of me)
Of all the times, the chances I have given you, you let me down
When I emerge / I will forgive
The choice that led / to giving up
But never know why
A hollow void / You keep me there
I’ll drown in tears until you care
You let me down / and I know it’s all because of me
You let me down / and I know it’s all because of me (cause of me)
Of all the times, the chances I have given you, you let me down
In case you or someone you know needs support, here are some resources:
Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK
Crisis Text Line, the free, nationwide, 24/7 text message service for people in crisis, is here to support. For support in the United States, text HELLO to 741741 or message at facebook.com/CrisisTextLine.
For support outside the US, find resources at http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html
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© 2017 Negative Gain Productions (US)
Lyrics:
At night I travel
My nerves unravel
It hurts to hide myself from you
With care I held it
Inside I felt it
My favorite pain comes back to me
Don't break me
Don't let go
Don't try to leave
Let your habits control you
These blades I'm hiding
Keep safe the tidings
Of bridges crossed that soon collapsed
No fear of falling
Endlessly calling
You make me feel like I'm alone
Don't break me
Don't let go
Don't try to leave
Let your habits control you
(x3)
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/a-i
I ran away from you
For what you put me through
With nothing left to prove
What am I to you
A slave to your domain
I've nothing but my name
With loathing and disdain
I'm given the blame
Now that I've set myself free
You can no longer control me
These threads won't stitch through my heart
I hope that you fall apart
At lonely times like this
I want to be selfish
Keep you under my skin
Bleed you out again
I know there comes a time
When language turns to lies
I want to see the light
I'll leave you to die
Now that I've set myself free
You can no longer control me
These threads won't stitch through my heart
I hope that you fall apart
Now that I've set myself free
You can no longer control me
These threads won't stitch through my heart
I hope that you fall apart
I see you cannot let go
I won't stare into your windows
I cut deep into your heart
I know that you'll fall apart
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/a-i
I built a house of stones
With room for only two
The soil from the earth
Will hold me close to you
I know we're built to break
For now it's all we've got
I'll learn from my mistakes
You'll learn to not get caught
Mend my heart with morphine
Let the pain adorn me
Like a doll, disarming
I'm okay
As I go through cycles
This romance turns idle
Give me time to fight it
It's all about me, not you
It's hard to give you up
But heartbreak's all I've known
I'm watching you escape
To nowhere, not alone
You start to fall apart
We know it can't be helped
The stones will soon collapse
It hurts to wish you well
Mend my heart with morphine
Let the pain adorn me
Like a doll, disarming
I'm okay
As I go through cycles
This romance turns idle
Give me time to fight it
It's all about me, not you
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/a-i
In my world born from the dark
All the lights don't know my name
But the land sees through my heart
And the oceans understand me
How I wish I could be found
See what lies beyond this world
In the end I'm left alone (x3) again
Don't give up, we will make it through
Hold your ground, I'll be next to you
Close your eyes, Let your heart lead you
It's our time, show them what you're made of
From your world made from the light
I can see you looking in
All around I feel your warmth
I have never been so happy
When you stand close next to me
Everything seems to be clear
Both our worlds begin to be (x3) complete
Don't give up, we will make it through
Hold your ground, I'll be next to you
Close your eyes, Let your heart lead you
It's our time, show them what you're made of
(x3)
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/a-i
As I thought in moment's bliss
We never dreamed you'd leave like this
I close my eyes for one last kiss
To drown you deep in my abyss
Now it's time to let you go
Why you left I will not know
May your light burn through the dark
Let the waters drift you far
Fading in my vision's mist
Take the bracelet from my wrist
Hold your hand into a fist
The touch I felt does not exist
Now it's time to let you go
Why you left I will not know
May your light burn through the dark
Let the waters drift you far
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/a-i
Of all the things i've seen
Nothing will ever seem
As clean as my disease
I rinse my hands of thee
Hey, hey
I pray that you're my prey
(x4)
To touch my from inside
A perfect way to die
You don't know what you'll find
Unless you close your eyes
Hey, hey
I pray that you're my prey
(x4)
As a bird i'll be
The one who hunts for thee
I pray that you will be
My prey that runs from me
Hey, hey
I pray that you're my prey
(x4)
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/a-i
Through my mirror of the past
In my dreams it takes me back
To times of ease, these memories
I used to live so carelessly
I'm always falling apart, always losing my mind
Losing everything when I think of you
Tell me the reason why, tell me that I should trust you
I'm always running away, always leaving behind
All the memories I held in my heart
I gave you everything, now I can never trust you
Linger in the dark of night
Passing glances through the light
Here's my veil of secrecy
To nowhere I am whispering
I'm always falling apart, always losing my mind
Losing everything when I think of you
Tell me the reason why, tell me that I should trust you
I'm always running away, always leaving behind
All the memories I held in my heart
I gave you everything, now I can never trust you
(x2)
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/a-i
I am made to abstain
I will not be restrained
Full of hate, full of rage
I'll destroy, recreate
Do or die, in your eyes
I'll indulge all the lies
My mistakes dissapate
As we fall into place
I know that you forgot my touch
It seems you don't remember much
My love for you begins to rot
You will lament all that you've lost
This is my requiem
For the time, I have spent
Giving up, giving in
Take me down, from within
In between fading dreams
I'll remove precious things
Which belong to my past
Cut them up, put them back
I know that you forgot my touch
It seems you don't remember much
My love for you begins to rot
You will lament all that you've lost
(x3)
mrkittyngp.bandcamp.com/album/a-i
In a dark room
I was left alone
By a heart so cold
They gave me my meds
Til my body was dead
Demons are born
Habits are formed
Memories erased (x2)
Everytime I lose my mind
I lose control (x2)
In a bright room
Filled with endless halls
And the softest walls
They threw me away
Til i learned to behave
Demons are born
Habits are formed
Memories erased (x2)
Everytime I lose my mind
I lose control (x4)