The Highest Cost - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2009-12-14 | One look, your way it's starting again and you can't deny it or try to hide it she says "it's only a game" but you can't survive it words can't describe it choke up and hurry away as to stay here would be misery so keep repeating history and face it it's always the same and never good enough to be the way it was in your memory I paid the highest cost I don't think it meant anything to you all that I am was lost I can't see it meant anything to you She turns with that look in her eye bite your tongue to stop it and change the topic moves in, she touches your arm and it's too late for logic too late to stop it stand up and hurry away 'cause you know the place where this will lead and it can't touch the endless need inside you that's burning away and it's never ever gonna be the way it was in your memory Our footsteps in the frost go back as far as I can see I would have paid any cost because it meant everything to me
Louis Armstrong - Sittin in the Dark xXxNihilismxXx 2011-03-04 | I do not own the song. It's here for entertainment only.
Goodbye - Son Of Rust - [Music Video] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-07-14 | The first video by Son of Rust, 'Goodbye' was filmed in an abandoned apartment building in NW Portland. We had big plans for this video - a plot driven storyline, a crazy cool explosion and lots of flames and stuff. We swore beforehand that this would not be just another one of those "Band plays the song and lip-syncs along" kind of videos. After shooting and editing for several days and realizing all the story stuff was stupid and we didn't film enough other crap, we went ahead and made a "band plays the song and lip-syncs along" kind of video. Oh well. I don't hate the finished product - but next time it will rock. - Justin Coope
Enjoy The Silence - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-04-23 | Words like violence Break the silence Come crashing in Into my little world Painful to me Pierce right through me Can't you understand Oh my little girl All I ever wanted All I ever needed Is here in my arms Words are very unnecessary They can only do harm Vows are spoken To be broken Feelings are intense Words are trivial Pleasures remain So does the pain Words are meaningless And forgettable All I ever wanted All I ever needed Is here in my arms Words are very unnecessary They can only do harm All I ever wanted All I ever needed Is here in my arms Words are very unnecessary They can only do harm All I ever wanted All I ever needed Is here in my arms Words are very unnecessary They can only do harm Enjoy the silence...
Goodbye - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-04-23 | It's a hard day today thinking through a haze of regret and resentment a sentimental daze a dark february morning the rays of the sun grow cold a greeting without feeling the words senseless and old How do I go on like this when everything fades away and every thought I penned for each forgotten friend lacking luster growing gray today This was meant to be the last time this was meant to be goodbye It's a hard day today just beneath the skin can't find the words to say the meaning sinking in a cold february morning no light to warm my face sickening loss of feeling no love in this embrace How do I go on like this it matters less each day and every thought I send never making it in not a single word I say today This was meant to be the last time this was meant to be goodbye.
I Hate The Way I Feel - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-04-23 | I lose my mind every time I'm even around you I'm defenseless helpless selfless I hate the need I feel without you it's a sickness worthless emptyness I hate the way I feel around you I hate the way you make me feel I know you know and you use it against me manipulate subjicate humiliate I hate the fear the need for acceptance as you fuck with my mind So come inside and sit right down keep me alive make me drown I hate the way I feel around you I hate the way you make me feel (I'm worthless inside, I need you tonight) I hate the way I feel around you I hate the way you m ake feel (I'm open up wide, will I be denied?) You treat you treat me like a thing hate you make you everything this is all that I can bring take me take your offering this oh this is what I need watch you plant the seed of greed if this is it I fucking swear with my last breath I'll see you bleed.
I Cant Be Sane - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-04-23 | was I so wrong to give myself to someone who I always knew was wrong for me trying for so long to escape the winds of change but they've finally found me I spent my life believing in nothing now emptiness surrounds me I'm burning in this loneliness but my lies have bound me You can't have me now there's nothing left you can't make me whole again filling up with envy being nothing I could be I can't be sane Was I so wrong to give you everything I had was I so blind to think that you felt the same I've tried so long to be right for you and I'm telling you now that I can't be leave me here for countless years that's the way it was meant to be Was I so wrong to put the blame on someone who never knew the situation I've tried so long to get away from this that I've lost all sensation it's so wrong all of it that I've lost my sense of self I'm losing it
Bigger Than God - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-04-23 | The kids are all saying that it's on it's way the scientists working in moral decay they're bringing you something that'll change the way you feel about yourself Not just another flavor of addicting vice this miracle machinery will make things right unplug your skull before you say goodnight in this sickening analog world In just another minute we'll be bigger than god now in just another minute we'll be bigger than god... The kids are all telling me it's here to stay the scientists slaving for a better way they're bringing you something that'll change the way you feel about the world Not just another technical wonder not just another candy-coated pill a paradigm shift, a subtle distortion in a purified digital world In just another minute we'll be bigger than god now in just another minute we'll be bigger than god... The world is now telling me it's here to stay not the bleak and sterile future that we have today and if I had the power I would change the way we are heading, save myself But it's an unstoppable blunder it's claws are in your face believe what you want - believe it never existed you will never leave this place In just another minute we'll be bigger than god now in just another minute we'll be bigger than god...
Anything But Typical - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-04-23 | We are going to play a typical number with a typical amount of loud and low passage He went from flipping burgers to building a 45 million dollar business Okay, we have some fabulous loud music played real from right now here's the kind I prefer
Silicon Gene - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-04-23 | You can call us freaks but we're your new age heroes it all comes down to the ones and zeros open your eyes, I think that you'll see you are exactly what we want you to be so go silicon tonight the electrons taking flight I'll only dream of Silicon Gene the way that she seemed and what it would mean to be made of light I won't think about you tonight I live for electric piracy it's my new religion high technology one twenty eight bit encryption in just another minute I'll be bigger than god intelligence is supreme I bow my head and pay my tithe to the church of the machine You can lock us away but that won't stop us it all comes down to technological progress virtual light over a digital night the future is bright and we're taking flight
Take Me Back - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-04-23 | It took six long years to get me here now I'm afraid I chose the wrong thing I'd never say aloud how I feel just now but I think you could tell it by the way that sometimes I end up staring at an empty screen I think I'm sick of everything and I'd pay you anything to Take me back to the day when I threw it all away for a little higher pay take me back, oh take me back In twenty years I'll be right here sadly reminiscing on how good it was the choice made because I knew it was the right thing well sometimes it doesn't matter what the people think you've got to sing the song you'll sing and I'll pay you anything to Take me back to the day when I threw it all away for a little higher pay just take me back oh bring me back Believe me when I say it isn't worth the day to day and I'd throw it all away to go right back oh bring me back
Devil Inside Me - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-04-23 | I feel there's a devil inside me whispering softly nothings wrong feeding my rage with a trickle of envy leading me somewhere that I belong I feel there's a devil inside me steering me swiftly nothing's wrong feeding my pain it's so delicate baby building this fantasy getting strong I feed it I need it I breathe it (I'm broken and blind) I feed it I need it I breathe it (I'm leaving you all behind) Now that I know why it seemed so easy for you now that I know why you didn't really care did you really think that I'd just fade away did you really think that I'd just disappear (I'll show you how it feels) (I'll show you how it feels) (I'll show you how it feels) So it seems I've found the perfect place a lonely hurting hell that I can never leave so it makes you feel just a little better if you think I felt the same way you believed but you deceived and now I'll show you how it feels
What You Are - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-04-23 | Can't you see inside of yourself what everyone sees and what everyone knows can't you see the way that you tempt us the fire burns and the tensions grow don't you feel the wrong inside of you do you think that I'm bizarre? we both know that you are the odd one we both know exactly what you are. Twist and toy with your belongings we both know you're just insecure laugh and pretend that it's just a game but in your heart you're not so sure Feel me out like I'm your puppet but I've cut my strings and now I'm free don't you know how to treat your equal we are the same open your eyes and see that all of us love in a different way but yours is the oddest way by far we both know that you are twisted we both know exactly what you are.
Never - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-04-23 | In my room in the lamp light in the shades of violence or ecstacy how could I know? how could I not know... the way that you felt or the way it could be I'm still screaming but nobody hears me turn up the volume till it drowns out my brain the winds are searing my head is clearing and I will never feel the same again Are you still out there exactly the same as you were with me as we never could be again sometimes it was good so very worthwhile your precious smile that said believe I would stare at the floor you'd say to my face all that was love hate has now replaced I couldn't think now that I know what this was leading to of all the things that broke or left me I cannot replace you.
Just Like Me - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-04-23 | Sometimes in apathy it comes to me just a taste of everything I've left behind sweet need for empathy or jealousy now occupies my mind so there it's all said it's in the air I wasn't being kind it's just that everything you've said to me's on permanent rewind Emptiness is endless bliss forget the pain and listen to this... To be free you have to be empty just like me I'm sane in no pain nothing remains if you cut the hurt away it's so clear don't fear just listen here and be like this every day there's no need to live with the memories just slice them all away and find that in time you'll be just fine if you heed the words I say Emptiness is endless bliss forget the pain and listen to this... To be free you have to be empty just like me Na-na-na-na.
Strange - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-04-23 | I woke up in the middle of a dream surrounded by a million biological machines but I think that they're all breaking down so I'm looking for a path that leads beyond this single node the simple motivation makes my destiny unfold the reign of these meat machines growing old (it's so strange to me - but it has to be) I woke up in the middle of a scream tearing down the walls of this implemented scene the answer to a simple question just out of reach the smell of plastic wires still burning in my head seductive siren calls of the ones who want me dead information is the endless hunger that must be fed I must be fed. (it takes me now for everything that I've got left to give - I'm so happy to give it away it's the reason I have to live) There's something strange happening to me something is upgrading my biology there's gonna be a change in the way that you see and it's coming to a close because it's happening to me.
Another Beautiful Tragedy - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-01-15 | The morning light clings close to us we still find comfort in our dreams sand castle world is washed away and nothing is as it seems a stretch and then you're close to me your breath upon my cheek outside of time I listen to the angels as they scream They say This could be the beginning of another beautiful tragedy this could be the beginning of another beautiful tragedy The fog and light hold you near a mask upon your face desperately search around the room for someone to take her place another drink and you hear the words as you look into their eyes say anything to forget the voice as it laughs inside your mind It says This could be the beginning of another beautiful tragedy this could be the beginning of another beautiful tragedy Dysphoria washes over me violated by my dreams every cycle begins and ends the same only angels hear my screams Just once I'd like the high without falling down to be free of all this fear I paid the highest cost to buy my fate and I'll pay it again each year
To Be Free - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-01-15 | Today I came by I saw your soul in your picture you brought life to a cold and uncaring thing a smile that reached out through the thousand pages all that was you staring back at me on my screen Here's to all of those who've lost themselves through the ages to every silent ghost screaming for release when all of those lost loves have finally betrayed us I guess you'll know precisely what it means what it means to be free Today went by as I was staring at your picture we never take the time to say just what we mean and if we do somehow it never sounds the way it does in our heads or is reflected in this flickering light on my screen Here's to all of those who've sold themselves for their wages to the clown of the crowd screaming for release when all of those we have loved have finally betrayed us I guess you know exactly what it means to be free Today I heard a rumour about you they said you'd found some happiness at last in our selfish ways it hurts to say we've lost you but I'll raise this toast to the silent ghost to the remnants of the past
Alien Taste - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-01-15 | Left thinking left drinking your lips carnivorous thought violence chose silence a thousand words all meaningless left sinking eyes blinking your lips so dangerous in smoke we can't see our heart in your hand our blood on your fist It's your alien taste that makes it hard for you to love what you want do what you have to do it's these alien thoughts tearing my mind in two why can't you see what it's putting me through why can't I make you feel it too Left hoping wires smoking old ghosts haunting this machine still broken still choking on all the things that could have been time wasting thoughts racing burning wires on your fingertips in dark we can't see our heart in your hand our blood on your fist It's your alien taste that makes it hard for you to love what you want do what you have to do it's these alien thoughts tearing my mind in two why can't you see what it's putting me through why can't I make you feel it too (All these thoughts are alien every circuit's going numb find some equilibrium still afraid of what I've become) It's your alien smile that's why we fell for you we have what you want do what you have to do all the alien thoughts tearing my mind in two why can't you see what it's putting me through why can't I make you feel it too?
Falling Down - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2010-01-15 | I've become the mask the one I hide behind so many years have passed but now I'm falling down Now I'm falling down
Scream - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2009-12-14 | When I'm sick of the world tied to the floor by the lies I've told at least I have you to hold together you and I will never grow old It's a cold, cold world you hold my hand as the truth is said I just wish you weren't all in my head I just wish this didn't make me want to Scream at the world around you fight for the ones you love hate what they're doing to you pray you'll have power to scream Take one look at the world and you know just where this leading to you know just what this is coming to maybe we're afraid of what we have to do We all look at the world and think we know what's best for everyone well maybe we're to blame for the lives undone what is it we're coming to what if it's our duty to Scream (And the fourth angel sounded and a third part of the sun was smitten and a third part of the moon and a third part of the stars for the great day of his wrath has come and who shall be able to stand?) Look at world and see what it's all coming to pray for the world and know that's our duty to scream at the world around you fight for the ones you love hate what they're doing to you pray you'll have power to scream
Just Once - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2009-12-14 | I feel your forbidden touch your breath across my skin how could such a simple thing mean so much I need to feel you from within Just once I'd like you to be here with me just once I'd like to tell you how I feel just once I'd show you how things could be just once I'd show you what is real To you did I mean anything or are memories just that to you you can't go on alone forever see inside me feel the same way too So many years spent wasted with no regrets to give but now that I have tasted well it's the only reason I have to live
Vicious Cycles - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2009-12-14 | Why are you trying so hard to get back the one thing you didn't want from the start and why are you trying so hard to get back to the one place you've been running from Ideas and theories the things we ascribe to you the beauty the passion the hope that was never true you pray in the end that you learn what you're needing to this life is a circle run where it is leading to She cries again he blames the flame within it's all the same watch them repeat the game I will keep trying this hard I will bring back the dead thing I left cold in the dark and I will keep going until I face the one thing I'm still running from You can't see the meaning the reason you burn this way you question your reasons emotions quick to betray a throw back a whisper a season of darker days the mask that keeps grinning the further you go astray She cries again he blames the flame within it's all the same watch them repeat the game my lovely friend the last heart to defend iterates again this vicious cycle never ends Why am I trying so hard to get back the one thing I didn't want from the start? why am I trying so hard to get back to the one place I've been running from?
Discordia - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2009-12-14 | Your happiness comes from the ruins of you the smoke rising up from the ashes of all you do you know that it's true Never content until you're lost and afraid feel okay and it's time to hurt with no reason or rhyme it's all in your mind Home is so far away we'll be back there someday now we'll wait for the day come and follow me to... Discordia take me by the hand and never let me go let me go dysphoria pulls me down into the sand until I lose control lose control Gather everything up and leave them behind find a home on the road a roof and a place to hide it's still you inside You say you'll fix it this time if you could just start again prove everyone wrong with a wink and a grin and then you turn within (I need to feel the pain again as I lose everything within)
Violator - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2009-12-14 | What's behind the mask? Is there anything left inside? What dreams of these are real? What secrets do you hide? The poison has it's way drowns my memory of all the brighter days the way things used to be Violator violate me show me love while underneath you hate me why do I keep dreaming you're here to save me? violator violate me Forgotten in the past the way we used to be these things aren't built to last that's the way it's meant to be For now time has it's way I'll breathe you deep within when you've done all you can and I've done it all again . . . . You've used me in a way no one else can, only you can. please use me in a way that always leaves me desperate for more
The World You Live In - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2009-12-14 | Once again in a world of my own with nothing left to do everything looks different now reality is seeping through there are those who want to tear me down to turn me into them I've tried so hard but it's been so long it's happening again This is the world you live in consumed by lust and love and hate restrain and try not to give in and pray that it's not too late this is the world you live in you're eaten to the core by fear restrain and try not to give in hide behind the masks you wear Struggle in this world of your own knowing there's no way to escape the truth everything tastes bitter now nothing is fresh and nothing is new there are those who want to make you theirs to make you one of the herd my only defense is that I've never cared my screams go unheard (My greed my fear my tears won't come they've dried in the sockets I've come undone)
Welcome To Chaos - Son Of Rust - [Lyrics] xXxNihilismxXx 2009-12-14 | When you're walking through the streets of contentment holding hands with the devil cause he knows just what you're looking for don't give a thought to all those feelings of resentment they'll only lead to more When you're feeling how I feel who do you speak to? who's name is it you call in the deadness of night? when you fly as high as I do who's beneath you? Do you tell them all to go to hell in madness in spite of what you told yourself but now you've changed your mind drowning your pain in sadness and time filled yourself up with material things switched the heart out of faith with longing and need Welcome to chaos, do you recognize me? Where has all of your innocence gone little one it's okay, let it go don't you want to be free? Where are all of your excuses now little one It's so easy let them go turn yourself into me I'm always here when you need me I'm always right beside you if you like it or not all your clever lies don't deceive me just sit back and relax I know you'll like it a lot Your sickness and paranoia are what feed me I'm within, deep inside you if you like or not your broken promises are what freed me just sit back and relax I know you'll like it a lot Welcome To Chaos
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